I know very well how to walk this lonely road log

My parents went on a trip. Near Wuyi Mountain in Fujian. Shitou is on a business trip. Near Dali, Yunnan. I'm in Jinan. one person.

Go home in the evening, sit in front of the computer and start eating chestnuts. In the meantime, there was a call from Shitou. A burst of wild talk. Most of what was said is forgotten. Hang up the phone and continue watching "Dazi's Spring". The love between Da Zi and Tai Feng is too cliché. But Taifeng in it is also an Aquarius, and his personality is exactly the same as Shitou. If something is not explained in time, he will never express what he thinks is right or right. But Dazi's level of neurosis is far less than mine. So I always live pessimistically. Nothing here or there feels unsatisfactory. I'm like a woman who guesses what's going on. I think about it every day...

Perhaps, the two people's personalities are not suitable for being together. But what is a suitable personality? Since I don’t know what is suitable, and Shitou is so tolerant of my shortcomings, what is there about this person that is not worth dating?

I thought I would fall asleep very late when no one was home, but at ten o'clock I was still sleepy. The biological clock is something difficult to change, so you have to compromise with yourself. After quickly washing up and going to bed, I remembered that I didn't do leg slimming exercises while watching TV. Shitou called again at this time, and after greetings, he was eager to go to sleep. When I hung up the phone, I didn't take off my pajamas and fell asleep quickly.

I had a deep dream, and a man vaguely said something that made me laugh. Then the laughter woke me up. This was the first time in my life that I laughed out loud while dreaming. I just couldn't see clearly the man's eyebrows and the corners of his mouth. A blurry mess. After turning over, he fell asleep again. At four o'clock in the morning, I was woken up by the sound of rain outside the window. The patter of rain fell on the eaves of my window. Listening to the autumn rain, I realized that time without anyone around me is so unreliable. The body is always on alert and will wake up at the slightest sound.

When I fell asleep again, it was a dream again. This time I dreamed about snakes. Very long thin snakes, twisted together or stretched out. I have dreamed about this animal not once or twice. It is also the only animal that appears in all my dreams. The funny thing is, it is also the animal that I fear the most in reality. This animal is the most hateful animal in the Bible. Because she believed the snake's slander, Eve persuaded Adam to eat the forbidden fruit together and learned the shame. God became angry and expelled him from the Garden of Eden. In fact, God’s original intention is not for people to have a sense of shame. But now it seems that having this kind of awareness is not a bad thing for a person. Snakes have always given people a mysterious feeling. Freud said that snakes represent sexual implications. This argument makes me wonder if Virginians are dissatisfied with their desires or have always been curious about sex. In some religions, the snake's movement is considered to be the awakening of inner power. All in all, my dream about a snake was the least scary one I have ever had. At least, I had the courage to look at it for a while and then run away. Not like before.

Get up at seven o'clock. I thought about taking a shower but gave up. The rain is still falling outside, and I don’t know when it will stop. The sky was so foggy that I couldn't tell whether it was rain or fog. A gray mess. Sitting on the bed, chewing apples and admiring Jinan in the rain. This city is warm at all times, except on rainy days when it makes me feel dirty.

Simple washing. While I was applying oil, I was thinking that Herborist was almost running out and I had to find time to buy Avène. But Avene is too expensive, and I really can’t find a satisfactory reason to treat myself. Women also need to make up their minds when it comes to cosmetics. Apply water, lotion, face cream, base cream, eye cream, and foundation to the appropriate places on your face. Then I put some lip balm on myself. The foundation is ivory. I went crazy and bought this color when I was a senior in college, but it matches my skin tone very well. I wonder if I will have the courage to use this color in a few years. Yesterday, Meng Meng said to me while watching Da Zi during work hours, why are the faces of these Koreans so white? I said, yes, it’s so white that there’s not even a mole on it. It’s true or false. She jokingly said that before they debuted, they were not female workers in a Korean grain store, right? Then they sent each other a smirking emoji.

Change your clothes, put on your raincoat and go out. The rain was light, and when I arrived at the company, my raincoat was not completely wet. When climbing the stairs, I remembered what Dazi said, the spring rain is drenching.

But now in Jinan, there is autumn rain and cold.