Douban score 9.2 "I want to see you": seventeen-year-old Chen Yunru, in fact, my youth is the same.

20 19 "I want to see you" is completely popular. Traveling through different time and space to meet the person I want to see got such a high score of 9.2 on Douban.

Before I really started reading, I opened my circle of friends. Many people are pushing this drama, saying that it is an increasingly addictive TV series. It's really "not going to the theatre but go to the opera."

In 20 19, Huang Yuxi came to 1998 parallel time and space through a walkman. Huang Yuxi, who is cheerful and confident, has become a sensitive and withdrawn Chen Yunru.

Li Ziwei gradually fell in love with the cheerful and confident Huang Yuxuan. Later, Chen Yunru found her body, carefully played Huang Yuxuan, and boldly expressed and accepted Li Ziwei's love.

When Li Ziwei learned that Chen Yunru was pretending to be Huang Yuxuan, he said to Chen Yunru, "I beg you, can you stop looking at me with Huang Yuxuan's expression?" It overwhelmed Chen Yunru's last straw of hope.

Before trying to commit suicide, Chen Yunru asked Mo loudly: Why do you work hard for so long and still don't like me?

The audience outside the play was in an uproar, and the comments were all dark and gloomy. With the development of the plot, everyone felt that Chen Yunru was selfish at first, and later felt that Chen Yunru was pitiful.

Seventeen-year-old Chen Yunru is not valued and cared for by her family. She never took part in group activities at school, wrapped herself up, was inarticulate and felt inferior to her bones.

Some people's youth is like this, but it is not bright. There are always many unspeakable loneliness hidden.

In our youth, there is always an expectation, perhaps not necessarily related to love, but definitely related to love.

When Chen Yunru's parents divorced, she longed for them to choose her. But they are all arguing about who chose their younger brother and never mentioned Chen Yunru.

Sensitive and self-abased, Chen Yunru feels that she is an unloved child, and her inner defense has been defeated.

In seventeen years of pain, Yang Naichen's father gave up the opportunity to let his daughter enter Tsinghua.

Yang Tianzhen became rebellious and grumpy, so her father sent her to a special training school.

It is normal for this classmate to bully and the instructor to beat him. Yang Tianzhen's father still thinks she can't bear hardships.

Yang Tianzhen's family lacks correct teaching and communication between children, which is the real reason why Yang Tianzhen changed from a top student to a rebellious child.

Contradictions in the family are never single. Both Yang Tianzhen and her parents are at fault.

If Yang Tianzhen's parents had tried to understand Yang Tianzhen and Yang Tianzhen had communicated with her parents seriously and peacefully, there would not have been such a big rift between them.

And isn't Chen Yunru the same? When Huang Yuxuan entered Chen Yunru's body, she found that her mother didn't want her brother to give up her, but wanted her to live a better life. Her brother bullied her just to get more attention from her parents.

Chen Yunru has never said a word loudly to her mother, and she is also obedient to her brother. Even if Chen Yunru doesn't like her mother lying on the sofa drunk every day and hates her brother waking her up every day to buy an extra breakfast, Chen Yunru never says anything, but always keeps it in mind.

However, at an immature age, there are always some people who don't know how to ask for love and protection from their families.

Maybe some people's youth is as sunny and brilliant as Huang Yuxuan's. Family members love the company of friends, and people will take care of their emotions when they are happy or sad.

But there are also some people, whose youth is as dim as Chen Yun, but they should also strive for the light.

For Chen Yunru, Li Ziwei is light, and he illuminates Chen Yunru's whole world.

Insufficient attention to the family from the environment, the process of growing up alone all the way, and long-term hidden worries are all reasons why Chen Yunru is sensitive to inferiority.

Chen Yunru, who is so unknown, is very much like them who are isolated.

In our study career, there must be a girl like Chen Yunru who is isolated by her classmates, scolded by her teachers and ignored by others.

Because such girls don't like to laugh, can't say good things and can't make friends. Personality is too strange, people are too withdrawn.

Such a girl does not meet the requirements and imagination of our public, and such a girl can't get candy.

There is such a person in our life, they are called "aliens".

The so-called "aliens" can also be said to be lonely people, because they are incompatible with the people around them and many things others can't understand.

The screenwriter Jian Qi said, "In the process of our personality development, there will be an invisible sample image recognized by the society. For example, you must be optimistic and good at communicating with others, as if you must be what everyone wants you to be.

Chen Yunru is such a "heterogeneous". Everyone likes Huang Yuxuan very much, and they are advised to stop being Chen Yunru.

But Chen Yunru is still Chen Yunru, but others are just reluctant to play others.

As Li Ziwei always likes, it's all Huang Yuxuan.

Some people, she may look like an "alien". She is not optimistic, sociable, timid and sensitive.

But among these people, there must be circles and people who accept them. Chen Yunru thinks she is not taken seriously, but Mo has been silently watching her behind her back.

He said that maybe in the eyes of others, Chen Yunru in the past may be a little different from normal girls, but it doesn't mean that she is not good or wrong.

Such a "special person" is very eager for someone to understand her.

When everyone feels that Chen Yunru, who is withdrawn and always walks alone, hates it, Mo Jie Jun likes this Chen Yunru.

So these people don't seem to be integrated into everyone's world. In fact, they just haven't found their own circle yet.

Loneliness and sadness are easily magnified, and people's concern and care are ignored.

But compared with loneliness and sadness being magnified, there is no way to change the choice, which is even more worrying.

A friend in high school, in the process of preparing for the senior three exam, her father told her not to continue studying after finishing high school. The news came as a bolt from the blue.

I suggested that she discuss it with her father. Maybe after some communication, she will change her decision.

She shook her head, and her father said that girls should get married in the future and don't have to read so many books.

I shook my head with a wry smile and said, your father thinks so, you shouldn't think so. Learning is our own business. Whether we choose to be a wife or a mother in the future, it should be our own choice to acquire more knowledge. You should be stubborn and bold.

"He won't give me money to study." She lowered her head to correct the wrong question, her eyes were moist, and my heart was bitter and helpless.

There are many things that we have no way and ability to solve, and gentle and obedient people also have great resistance and dissatisfaction.

Because some things are beyond my ability, I can't choose or change, so I just choose to obey.

The influence of family on a person may be positive, but it may also be devastating.

What Chen Yunru wants to do most is to move out and do what she wants after being admitted to the university.

However, when her parents divorced, Chen Yunru could not choose who to live with.

Because she was not chosen.

After a few years, I lived a colorful college life as I wished, and my friends also accumulated some work experience and economic strength.

Once again, I opened her circle of friends and saw the photos of her travels and the words that constantly inspired her to work hard.

I don't know why, but I suddenly let out a sigh. Time is really amazing, let a person grow up slowly and become independent and brave.

There is a sentence in her circle of friends that impressed me deeply: I don't regret my original decision, but I chose my own life.

Huang Yuxuan, who is mature, cheerful and capable of working, will be like us when she grows up, doing what she likes independently and bravely, and choosing to love the person she likes.

However, in the process of becoming an independent, confident and capable person like Huang Yuxuan, we still need many years to grow up slowly.

In our youth, like Chen Yunru, we met people who shone like light.

Because I like this person, I think this person will shine.

But in this way, I have the motivation to follow the light.

Some people will secretly put it in their hearts, and some people will bravely say it.

I don't know much about love when I am young, but my face will rise inexplicably and my mouth will rise unconsciously.

Someone once told me that the simplest and most beautiful love is in the era of youth reading.

We will like him because he wears a nice shirt, because he smiles brightly in the sun, and because his spiking posture is so handsome when playing basketball.

In youth, our love is simple and beautiful. When we pass this age, it is difficult to simply like someone.

If Chen Yunru hadn't met Li Ziwei as bright as the sun, I think she might have endured loneliness. Since you like a beam of light, drive it away.

When we like someone, that person becomes our weakness. Even the faintest star should give out a faint light for him to see.

I know. Now I'm just chasing the light. But I believe I will also be a shining light.

After watching the play, I gently closed the computer and thought of many things in my mind. Chen Yunru, 17, looks like us.