Essay on wandering career prose

In recent years, it is popular to call foreigners traveling in Beijing "drifting north". Is it called "drifting on the sea" in Shanghai? I'm not sure. There are also those in Shenzhen and Guangzhou. What are they called drifting? I don't know, either. In fact, it is better to call these people who have no fixed place, can't survive and can't start a business "drifters". In this way, no matter where you drift, you don't need to add additional attributes. When it comes to living without a fixed place and wandering around, I am also a real "drifter". From birth to old age, I have been wandering all my life, and my life is a typical life of a drifter.

1949, 19 In September, I was born in a small town on the south bank of the Yangtze River. With the sound of the people's liberation army advancing into the south of the Yangtze River, many metropolises celebrated the victory with firecrackers and gongs and drums. There was a loud cry in the delivery room of the military hospital, which made my father who had been outside the door overjoyed. He looked at a swift passing by in the morning light and gave the newborn a hopeful name "Xiaoyan". The swift at dawn symbolizes the expectation and hope for the future. This is the general's hope for his son, and also for the upcoming new China.

It's just that he never dreamed. Just because he named his son bird, I'm afraid it has fundamentally decided the fate of this child's wandering all his life. Birds have a pair of wings and are destined to fly. Swallows are migratory birds, destined to spend their lives in migration. My father, a general of the Republic of China, gave his first son the fate of "wandering all his life" from the moment he was born.

1950 1 month, I was only four months old. With the army taking over the city, I entered the newly liberated Shanghai and completed my first migration.

In fact, many people and families just walked into Shanghai and never left. What's more, like my family, my parents are from Jiangnan, and my hometown is Nanxun, which is close at hand. Moreover, my grandfather has lived in Shanghai for a long time, and our family is from Shanghai.

Unfortunately, my parents are not ordinary people. Probably from the day they took part in the revolution together, the concept of "home" did not exist in the dictionary. Without knowing where people come from, there is naturally no such thing as falling leaves. Their parents didn't go back to their hometown until they died, nor did they go back to Shanghai for burial. As two thorough revolutionaries, in their minds, I am afraid that not only every inch of land in New China, but also any place on the earth, is a place of rest. Because a true Marxism–Leninism has no national boundaries.

My father's last wish was for me to scatter his ashes everywhere. I didn't completely follow his wishes, but scattered most of his ashes into Taihu Lake, leaving a small part buried in a mountain near Taihu Lake. He is the son of Taihu Lake, and he fought along the coast of this great lake for most of the revolutionary war. Most of the time after liberation, I also worked in the city near this great lake. This arrangement of mine also made the old man fall back to his roots, didn't it? Mother's funeral was arranged by her brothers, and she stayed in Beijing, which was the place where she lived the longest after liberation. With everyone's consent, I took a small part of the ashes back to Suzhou and buried them on that mountain with my father.

1956, moved with my parents for the second time.

This time, the family moved to Beijing. My parents have been transferred to work in Beijing, my father has been transferred to a military school as an instructor from the first-line army, and my mother has been transferred to a large state-owned enterprise to do political work. Since then, because of my mother's relationship, my family has never moved, even if it moved only within the scope of Beijing. Because my mother has never been out of the city since she was transferred to Beijing, although her job has changed. His father is different. He left Beijing and was sent to work in Suzhou on 1966.

However, I have not settled in Beijing with the stability of this family. I have only lived in Beijing for nine years, and I barely finished my junior high school studies. 1965, leaving Beijing for the first time, not with my parents.

As a pioneer of a generation of educated youth, I resolutely gave up continuing to rise, but went to Ningxia, where a construction corps was being formed. The trip lasted eight years. Although my brothers also had the experience of going up and down afterwards, they finally returned to Beijing like my comrades in the Corps. It's just that I have never returned to Beijing to settle down since then. This is home, but it's just another hometown for me!

After I went to the countryside in Ningxia for eight years, I didn't go back to Beijing or other big cities, but went to Luzhou, Sichuan. Luzhou is a famous city in central Sichuan with a long history, but I only went to Qiancaoba, a small town on the other side.

From 65438 to 0973, my fiancee and I joined Luzhou Qiancaoba Changjiang Crane Factory from Ningxia Construction Corps and became industrial workers of a large state-owned enterprise. I am a forehand worker, and my fiancee is a sand Turner. We stayed there for another eight years. Although Sichuan has beautiful scenery and far superior environment than the Construction Corps in all aspects, I firmly believe that this place is just a guest hometown, and I really don't want to settle down here.

However, the eight years in Luzhou have left an indelible and eternal memory in my life, even eternal pain in my heart! There are many important turning points in Luzhou's life in eight years. My fiancee and I got married in Luzhou. I also participated in the college entrance examination in Luzhou, admitted to the university, where I completed my college studies; I completed the first important turning point in my life in Luzhou, and finally became a formal teacher with the status of a national cadre from a former educated youth and a later worker in front of a stove. However, Luzhou also buried my two daughters, and the premature twins were also buried on the beautiful madder dam.

There may be some genetic factors in my wandering life. Not far from Wan Li, my father and mother walked from Nanxun, a small town in the south of the Yangtze River, to Yan 'an in northern Shaanxi, and then moved to the north and south of the New Fourth Army. After liberation, first in Shanghai, then in Beijing. Although my family has been settled in Beijing since then, my father returned to Jiangnan alone because of his work needs. After this trip, I never went back to Beijing to live. 1965, my father who worked in Beijing for 10 finally quit. According to the cadre policy of army cadres at that time to enrich local needs, my father was assigned to work in Suzhou. From that year until his death 1 1 years ago, my father worked in Suzhou and retired. This battle-hardened general of the Republic of China is a drifter who separated from his wife at the end of his life!

After I graduated from college, my wife and I finally transferred from Luzhou to Suzhou through organizational means. 198 1 year, I finally came back to live with my father. He and I temporarily ended our wandering lifestyle and formed a basically complete family in Suzhou. My father, my wife and I, as well as our little daughter, three generations have settled down in the ancient Suzhou City, forming a home in it runs in the family and a home in the south. Since then, our family has formed a pattern of confrontation between the north and the south. The paternal line is in Suzhou in the south and the maternal line is in Beijing in the north. This model lasted for a long time until his father died in 2005. Suzhou has been my domicile since then, and to this day, the domicile of my wife, daughter, son-in-law and granddaughter is still Suzhou.

This beautiful ancient city in the south of the Yangtze River is the city where I have lived for the longest time in my life. Until 2005, it was the place where my family and my wife and daughter lived, and this residence was 24 years. Only I repeated the life of a drifter at 1997. I have been living and working in this city since I was just 32 years old. Until I was 48 years old, I almost entered the age of knowing my destiny. The most brilliant moment in my life is also in this ancient city. Suzhou was once the peak of my career, but it was also the place where I fell into the trough again. I once established a kingdom of my own in this ancient city, a wholly-owned diversified enterprise. Just like Luzhou, just like Beijing, I have my nostalgia and my pain and regret. Suzhou is also a city that will always be included in the wandering life. Because of my mistakes in decision-making, my brilliant career was a complete failure. A comprehensive sole proprietorship company with a large scale and entity went bankrupt. The failure of my career, coupled with the huge rift in my married life, is the main reason why I left Suzhou and embarked on a wandering career again.

1997 I was alone, with very limited funds. I went south to Bamin and broke into Fuzhou alone. This is another eight years!

The external cause that led me to choose Fuzhou was being invited. A more accurate expression should be cheated by others. My adopted daughter's brother was cheated by a pyramid scheme company named "Shuang Ankang" in Fuzhou, participated in pyramid schemes in Fuzhou and then cheated me. In fact, I found myself cheated as soon as I arrived, and I quickly got rid of the entanglement of MLM company; Unwilling to fail, I didn't go back to Suzhou immediately, but chose to stay, intending to reopen the situation and open up my own new world in Fuzhou.

Of course, there is another reason why I don't want to leave, and that is women. Because of the breakdown of feelings, my married life has reached the level of frequent and complete breakup. This is an important reason why I chose to leave my hometown and Suzhou. In Fuzhou, I met another gentle and considerate woman who gave me great support in the process of starting a business. We soon moved in together, and Qi Xin started a business together. Unfortunately, after two years of hard work, we still can't complete our dream of making a comeback. Finally, because of a very accidental opportunity, I entered the welfare lottery distribution center.

In fact, it is not easy to enter such a state-owned enterprise. If I hadn't lost the motivation to start a business, had nothing to do every day to study lottery tickets, and had my own set of views on many laws of lottery tickets with my natural research personality, I wouldn't have had the opportunity to enter Fujian Welfare Lottery Center.

By chance, I was invited by the marketing minister of this provincial center to visit the lottery because I questioned the lottery process. Next, I talked with one of the ministers, Kan Kan, and the young minister left a deep impression on me. I was invited to join the propaganda group being set up in the provincial center. As a lottery expert, I began to travel around Bamin. After this speech, my extraordinary intelligence, quick thinking and amazing speech level are no less than the Mandarin of CCTV announcers, and I am appreciated by the provincial central leaders and even the director of the provincial civil affairs department. At the end of the lecture tour, the lecture group was dissolved and all the temporary invitees went back. Only I am a formal external employee in the provincial center, and my position is a provincial welfare lottery expert. In the future, when the Civil Affairs Department carried out the system reform of subordinate enterprises, the leaders of the department attached great importance to my "Proposal on Deepening the Reform of Fucai Center in Fujian Province" and were directly killed by the Civil Affairs Department. If it weren't for the fact that my age has exceeded the policy standard of introducing talents in Fujian Province, the Civil Affairs Department has sent a letter to Suzhou to transfer files and prepare to introduce me to become a middle-level cadre officially established by the provincial center.

The first three years in Fuzhou were very bitter, but in the last five years, I recovered the feeling of spring breeze and light hoof. After I became a formal external employee of the provincial center, I first worked as a marketing specialist and welfare lottery development in the marketing department. During that time, I almost traveled all over Bamin, participated in the research and development of two-color ball, and promoted it in the future. Later, when he was the director of the economic restructuring office, he was also the minister of development, including the editor-in-chief of a tabloid in the provincial center. Because he often published signed articles in tabloids, he was once a well-known expert on lottery in Fujian. Coupled with a gentle and considerate confidante around me, I intend to stay in Rongcheng from now on. In the past eight years, I have only been home twice, and both of them have come and gone in a hurry. My heart is no longer in Suzhou, but in Rongcheng. When I returned to Suzhou for the second time, I asked for a formal divorce. If it weren't for my father's sudden illness shortly after I returned to Rongcheng, and I couldn't get up after I was admitted to Gao Qian ward, my daughter urged me to go back several times, I'm afraid I would only go back to Suzhou when I went through the divorce formalities.

At the beginning of 2005, I had to quit my job in the provincial center and prepare to leave Rongcheng, where I lived for eight years. I know in my heart that if I resign and come back, it will be difficult to return to Rongcheng in a short time. My father is seriously ill, and I have an obligation to serve him. I'm afraid I have no reason to leave the old man before he dies.

I shed tears with my confidante ...

Before returning to my father's deathbed, I learned more about his illness, only to know that the old man had been ill for half a year and his wife had been taking care of him. This makes me feel guilty and dare not continue to talk about divorce; Coupled with the serious crisis in my daughter's career and love, I have to shoulder the burden of being the head of the family again, whether it is the son's obligation, the father's responsibility or the husband's conscience. Until the end of July of the same year, when my father died, I stayed on my sickbed.

Shortly after my father died, when I had to help my daughter cut the gordian knot and make a final decision, my daughter's problem came. With my advice and help, she chose to leave Suzhou for Shanghai. So, with my seventh migration, this is my first time to follow my daughter's wandering life.

Speaking of my daughter, it seems that my wandering life has also infected her. She was born in Beijing. She lived with us in Luzhou for one year at the age of two, and followed us to Suzhou at the age of three. Before 13 years old, she traveled between Beijing and Suzhou with her grandfather almost every year. This time, it was her main reason to take our family to Shencheng. I have lived in Shencheng for ten years. Last year, my family moved from Shencheng West to Yangzhou because of her and her son-in-law. I didn't expect to leave Yangzhou for several years, but I just moved to Nanjing for seven months. The daughter's "tossing" has also become a small drifter with her granddaughter. Born in Shanghai, he just drifted to Yangzhou at the age of two and a half, and his third birthday has already passed in Nanjing.

The 10 year in Shanghai is the most comfortable and warmest 10 year for me. I am from Shanghai at heart. I have lived in so many cities, including Beijing, and have never really participated. Only Shencheng made me feel at home. Less than three months after returning to Shencheng, I have deeply felt a sense of belonging. I once talked to a friend about this topic: I said that I left Shanghai at the age of seven and returned to Shanghai half a century later. This may be fate, that is, reincarnation, and I finally returned to my roots.

This strong sense of belonging has made me familiar and cordial with everything in Shencheng and this metropolis as soon as possible. In all the cities where I have lived in my life, there is hardly a place where I have more than five friends. Even if all the friends in these seven or eight places are added together, there will never be more than 30 people. But I have at least 50 friends in Shanghai! There are many friends in Shanghai, including netizens, photographers, pet friends, donkey friends, literary friends and even a group of "confidantes"! These men and women and I have endless topics. They have a brotherly respect and trust for me, and I have a brotherly care and love for them. We get together almost once or twice a month. Sometimes we drink tea, chat and shop together, and sometimes we take short trips together. I have taken them to Xiangxi, Qinghai, Ningxia, Beijing and the beautiful scenery of Jiangsu and Zhejiang. My camera is almost full of their charm and beautiful images. We can almost find our footprints in teahouses, song cities, cafes and all places where we can "race with cows". I talk to them about everything, and I can speak freely. We are not relatives, but we are better than relatives! I'm afraid I'll never forget the friendship that has condensed for ten years.

Leaving Shanghai is my most helpless time, and the pain in my heart is hard for anyone to understand. Shanghai is not my hometown, but in my heart, Shencheng is my holy city and my dream destination. Helpless, my wish to go back to my hometown has once again become a colorful dream. I'm afraid I won't be able to come back and settle down after leaving Shencheng this time. Since then, every time I go back to Shanghai, I can only stay for a short time. I am afraid that there will be more painful pain again and again! Although I know that my trip to Nanjing, the ninth migration in my life, may not be the end of the wanderer, I certainly know that I will not return to Shencheng for the third time.

Nanjing may be the end of my life as a drifter, but I know I can't fall in love with Jinling, an ancient city with a history of 2,000 years. My soul stayed in this city by the Huangpu River, this Shen city, with my childhood footprints and my middle-aged and old-aged footprints. The city engraved with childhood and happiness of middle-aged and old people will live in my heart forever.