The world laments, please be free.

1

Cramming at the last minute is an allusion.

Four years in college wasted my youth. It was not until my internship that I began to get familiar with my professional knowledge. However, I am old and tired, and my memory is limited. I can only use cigarettes to maintain my only motivation every day.

Adding insult to injury is also an allusion.

Because I smoked all the year round, I began to cough up blood before I graduated. I looked at the bloody sputum on the toilet paper and cried and said, "God will kill me for half a month!" " "

That day I was holding the hospital's laboratory paper in the north wind, and two big characters of lung cancer in red strokes seemed to laugh at my fragility.

I squatted on the side of the road and lit a cigarette, squinting at how to explain it to my family.

I think I can do this: go home and kneel in front of my parents and cry. My child is unfilial, and I can't repay your kindness. If there is an afterlife, I will be your son.

I shook my head after dusting. I can't say that. According to my mother's character, I would say, forget the kindness of parenting and never meet you again in my next life.

Maybe I can leave a letter saying: Dear Mom and Dad, I am a good son of your. First of all, please forgive me for leaving without saying goodbye. By the time you read this letter, I have left this city. Don't look for me, and don't try to inquire about me. My son thinks he is a proud teenager, so let me find a quiet place to spend the rest of my life in this vast world.

The cigarette butt burned me and I shook my head again. I can't say that. My father has been interested in my bedroom for a long time It is estimated that after reading the letter, I will throw a banquet and turn the room into a study.

Just when I was in a dilemma, a sudden gust of wind blew, and then Tan's voice rang in my ear.

"You ... hand ...? "

I put the test sheet in my pocket and said, "Confidential documents are handed over by the organization and cannot be kept secret."

Tan Liujin is always cheerful. I never saw her frown once when she was with me.

Tan Liujin once said that even the dark clouds disappeared as soon as they saw me.

Tan Liujin sent me home, and I was thinking about how to explain my affairs to her all the way.

There was no one at home when I went back, and a note was posted on the refrigerator. I asked Tan what it said.

Tan Liujin said: "My uncles and aunts said they were exploring the mysteries of the universe. They wanted to fly themselves on the Qinghai-Tibet Plateau and listen to the call of love in the Himalayas."

I'm relieved that I don't have to think about how to face their parents.

Tan Liujin asked me what I wanted to eat, and I said fried rice with eggs, three eggs and two sausages.

Tan tied on her apron and went to the kitchen to get busy.

I lit a cigarette and took out my test paper. The smoke made my eyes astringent.

I mentioned that their parents have gone on a trip, and I don't know how long it will take. I guess I'll stink when they come back.

I blew out the spark on the cigarette butt to destroy the text of the test sheet, and I was caught by Tan.

"What are you doing?"

Tan Liujin asked me.

I scratched my neck and said, "the organization says secrets can't be leaked." I did this to avoid future troubles. "

Tan refused to grab it.

"That ... organizational said ... can't gaiden ..."

I said haltingly.

Tan liujin didn't speak for a long time, but suddenly he cried with a loud "wow", and the tears couldn't stop flowing downwards.

I wiped my tears and looked at Tan: "I told you not to tell anyone."

2

Tan Liujin cried and dragged me to do chemotherapy.

Tan took out her passbook and said that she had a lot of money.

I asked her where she got so much money.

She said that she had prepared a dowry for herself.

I said I can't have it. If I take your dowry money, I will still be alone.

Tan said it would be yours sooner or later, and I don't want to be a widow at a young age in the future.

I sighed and said it was hopeless, late.

"Make me a bowl of fried rice with eggs, three eggs and two sausages."

I just want to eat fried rice with eggs now.

Fried rice with eggs was salty when it was served. I took a long sip of water and said, "Even if the cancer didn't kill me, you were salty."

Tan cried with a "wow" after listening. I can't stop crying. I seem to understand why the spoon for fried rice with eggs is so salty.

After fried rice with eggs, I'm going to tell Tan about the funeral.

I wanted to make a will, but on second thought, the only valuable thing I had was an Adidas coat I bought at a Nike discount store, so I gave up.

I said to Tan, "You always don't like me smoking. Great, I can't smoke whenever I want. I wonder if the underworld has any interests. I have no hobbies in my life, so I like this. "

"I have chosen a cemetery and buried it in the back of the school. Young couples often meet in the middle of the night, and the school has failed many times. This death can also solve a difficult problem for the alma mater. Maybe the headmaster will give me a statue at school. What? "

Tan cried even more after listening: "It's all my fault. If I can accompany you every day, you won't smoke so much and you won't get cancer ... "

I told her, "Everyone has his own life."

"But my life is to take care of your life?"

I suddenly don't know how to answer.

The sentence that death is beautiful is still an allusion.

A few days before his death, Tan took me to buy a suit, and then went to the hair salon to have my hair done. He asked me if I had anything to worry about.

I said I want to eat your fried rice with eggs, three eggs and two sausages.

Tan specially went to the country farm to buy earth eggs this time. Ham sausage is a special supply imported by the royal family from Italy, and rice is also Thai millet returned by air from Thailand. Raw materials and ingredients are strictly selected by her.

After eating fried rice with eggs, I feel that I am in glad you came.

I lay in bed waiting for death.

Tan Liu Jin is at my bedside.

I took her hand and said, "Burn me more money on holidays, preferably foreign currency. When you come down, it will appreciate several times, and then we will have money. "

Tan Liujin held my hand tightly.

Slowly, I feel that my eyelids are getting heavier and heavier, and inexplicable fatigue is invading my body. I gradually closed my eyes.

At the moment I closed my eyes, I seemed to hear Tan's heartbreaking cry, and her voice was broken.

Then I thought I heard the door open, and then I heard my dad say, "What's wrong with this?" Six pounds, did that boy bully you again? See if I don't kill him! "

In the twilight, Tan ran over and hugged my mother, sobbing: "Uncle and aunt, Xixi died of cancer ..."

"What? My son ... "

My mother came crying and shook my shoulder desperately.

three

I don't know if I should be grateful.

For a long time after that, I fantasized more than once about what would happen if I hadn't died of misdiagnosis.

At least I won't pursue freedom in order to live well, I won't go to other places to find another place in order to have no regrets in my life, and I won't break up with Tan.

Tan asked me why I broke up that day. I said Jay Chou married Hannah Quinlivan, but I really like Jolin Tsai.

Tan didn't say much, but walked south with his suitcase. I don't know where he went, either Shanghai or Jiangsu.

I sent Bodhisattva Tan away, and my life is full of flavor.

But slowly I realized that I was wrong. After that, I went to many places, met many people and ate fried rice with eggs many times, but the fried rice with eggs in other places was really beyond my power.

I tried to find the true meaning of fried rice with eggs by myself.

But no matter whether I use imported materials or domestic time-honored ingredients, I still can't make fried rice with three eggs and two intestines.

Philosophers say recklessness comes at a price.

Tan Liujin is a ridiculous pride.

She can come up with future dowry money to save me, but she doesn't allow feelings to give birth to a trace of his intentions.

I know this very well, and the next time is nothing more than looking for Tan. Before writing this article, I was wondering whether this topic should be written as looking for Tan.

Although I am a proud teenager, Tan is more proud than me. After getting along for a long time, she didn't buy my account at all, so she gave up the idea.

Le Monde lamented because one day my mother called me to her room and asked me if I knew why I wanted to put my name in a month and a half later.

Of course I don't know.

My mother said in memory of Leslie Cheung.

I frowned and wondered if there was no connection. My brother was still alive when I was born.

My mom said it doesn't matter if there's a connection. What is important is that my brother breathed a sigh of relief in early summer.

I sighed after listening. I am jealous. This is indeed a sad song of the News of the World.

I asked my mother again, but it still has nothing to do with my name.

My mother nodded, yes, there is no contact.

Then I named this topic the elegy of Le Monde. Again, it has nothing to do with it.

Just like I've been looking for Tan, I've been everywhere, even though I have nothing to do with her.

Just like Tan's fried rice with eggs, she often says that material is not important, but heart is important, but I always feel that heart and fried rice with eggs are not connected.

I asked her how hard she worked, and she replied that I wanted to see who it was for.

After I left Tan, I cooked countless fried rice with eggs, but it still surprised me. Suddenly thinking of what she said, I found that she loved myself more than myself.

Early April and summer.

I was walking in the downtown area of Yangzhou, and it was rumored that Yangzhou fried rice was delicious and tasted like first love.

Thinking about the taste of first love all the way.

For the neighbor's cat, it may be a hamster with French aristocratic descent that I bought overseas. For my dog, it may be Kobe beef that has been refrigerated for many years, but for me, it is just a bowl of fried rice with three eggs and two sausages.

There are many people in the city, especially snack bars, especially fried rice with eggs.

Along the way, there were Lao Wang's egg fried rice, some egg fried rice and Aunt Shen's egg fried rice, but I didn't see Lao Tan or six pounds of egg fried rice.

In fact, Tan may not sell fried rice with eggs or instant noodles, but I am looking for a wider range.

At this time, the man coming on looks like Tan. I stopped on the ground and watched for a while. It was quiet around, and all the people who had nothing to do with me were gone.

I walked up to her and held out a hand and said, "Hello, Tan Liujin, I'm Zhang Xixi. ? "

four

I don't think Tan Liujin's story is over yet.