The 70th issue of Shandong Platform is like this shared by Zhongyong volunteer Wang Jipeng

First time sharing, happy and comfortable sharing - my inner world)

Hello fellow brothers, I am Wang Jipeng, a native of Zoucheng, Jining, Shandong, and was invited to study by Brother Kong Lingwei. Moderation is actually influenced by the magnetic field of Brother Ling Wei's behavior and work. I don't know if this description is accurate, but here I am anyway.

I was born in 1993 and graduated in 2013. When I walked out of school, I was happy at first. I returned home happily, thinking that I must have a good time. Of course, everything didn't happen according to my thinking. I was successfully kicked out by my father on the second day at home. What was even more annoying was that he didn't even give me any money. At that time, my mother didn't even know that she was at my grandma's house. It was really hot at 42 degrees in Hangzhou in July. A person was walking on the street with a suitcase, missing where he was...

Because I have always performed well in school, the Youth League branch secretary/school Youth League committee member/ The floor manager/dormitory manager, who leads my team of classmates, also has a lot of honors on campus. Of course, it also laid a solid foundation for my cat customization! Due to various factors (habits), I didn't "ask for help" like anyone. My frivolity and arrogance told me that I can do it! Don't let others see the "disgraceful" side of me!

Walking on the street, my mind told me, don’t think too much, I must find a job today, and it must provide food and accommodation, otherwise I will sleep on the street and be hungry, and then I will succeed. I worked as a security guard for a company, and my salary was 1,800 yuan. I actually received 4,500 yuan a month. I had to ask my dad for all this. Because I "hate" and dissatisfied with him, I couldn't ask for leave. I had to hope that my colleagues would take more leave. , I came to their class, and the longest time I went there was 5 days and 6 nights in a row, which also made me gradually fall into it. . .

With the guarantee of life, I entered a newly established company in Hangzhou in September. My workplace learning career began. Because I was the first batch of employees, because the company recruited too many people Being an elite has enabled me to grow rapidly; because my personal performance has been pretty good, I have been recognized by my leaders; because it is a new company and the management of all aspects is not perfect, I have accidentally discovered too much profit; because my leaders trust me and recognize me, I successfully took away all the company's customer information at that time, which is unkind and unjust! At the end of October, when my boss informed me that I would be promoted to team manager, I did not dare to face it. I left without showing up. In fact, I wanted to resign in person, and my obsession made me timid!

I started my entrepreneurial career. Maybe God still favored me and allowed me to go smoothly. In less than two months, I accumulated the first pot of gold, started to purchase various procedures, and had a formal office space. , certificate, all the time was compressed very well. At the end of that year, I contacted some broadcast media across the country. In the first month of formalization, I completed a turnover of more than 500,000. I was 20 years old at that time. To be honest, I was drifting. I also officially entered the beginning of the door of death...

In 2014, the company had 30 employees, and I was not that busy, which made me lazy and lazy. I didn’t get up in the morning and went home late at night. I have countless habits like renting a house at my doorstep to piss off my parents, traveling around, but I still enjoy it! The highest I spent was 50,000 yuan a day, for no other reason than just to show off! Now I know that it is inner emptiness and fear! What is quality of life? Haha, alive? I am disabled...

In 2015, Hangzhou returned to Zoucheng, and finally lived up to his expectations and reached a low point in life. There really was nothing left, the company was sold, and the backlog of goods was also given away. I'm dead, my computer and my mobile phone have all been sold, and I feel like I can't afford a bowl of noodles, but I still live in my own world, which should be called intoxication. I don't dare to come out even if I don't want to!

Later I read a Tao Te Ching, and began to have a general contact with Chinese culture. I only understood the surface level, and added my personal experience. As I gradually studied and pondered over and over again, I came up with the idea. A concept: If I had been exposed earlier, I wouldn’t be where I am today, right? As a Chinese, it’s sad that we don’t know about such a precious wealth! At that time, I was just beginning to gain insights into the fringes of Chinese studies.

In August 2018, I had an argument with my father in the middle of the night. My father was picked up by my uncle at two o’clock in the morning. Awareness is a good thing!

December 7, 2018 came, and my grandfather and I came to the class held by Zhongyong in Weifang. On the first day, there was nothing wrong, except that the clothes we were given looked pretty good. When I walked into the venue the next day, I saw an image with my eyes, my thoughts and judgments were filled with meditation mats in the room, my mood was joyful, and my body was relaxed. The next day's study is over, and I'm thinking again. It's not in vain! Until the third and last day, after a miserable hour, I believed what Brother Twenty-Two said: Classmates, this may be the most painful and difficult time for you, you must persevere, for your own sake, really A truly positive victory is achieved once! Think about the people you are sorry for and the people you feel guilty for. When you hurt them, their pain points are the same as yours now. Only the people closest to you will be hurt by you! At this time, my awareness still hadn't appeared. I was too numb and the poison was too deep. I thought to myself that I was finished. What a sin.

Until the moment Brother Twenty-Two rang the bell, my tears welled up happily, and they didn’t stop, dripping on my clothes and my hands...

When I knelt down The moment I was in front of my grandpa, I was so relaxed that I couldn’t get up or want to get up. I was so happy. (Chao Wendao, it was enough back then!) I don’t know what my grandpa was like at that time. He might have shed tears too. I was so happy. Yes, I bought the book written by Teacher Ru Ping and the video courseware for my grandpa. I read it 4 times in a month and said I would read it again. I said I gained something every time! Senior Brother Lingwei told me to be filial to oneself, filial to one's health, filial to one's ambitions, and filial to one's wisdom. I remember it!

After being helped up by my grandpa, I couldn’t kneel down again under Senior Brother Lingwei, who brought me up as an adult, haha

On January 20, 2019, I arrived in Yanzhou as scheduled , I signed up as a volunteer, and Ling Wei’s sister-in-law is the team leader, and I’m very happy too! My Commander Sun, I want to repair myself. It was planned in the beginning, but this time, my heart never calmed down, and I may have become the most idle volunteer. In fact, I feel quite guilty. Being called Jigong by Senior Brother Yuqi, I couldn't help but feel happy. It turns out that the senior brothers have not given up on me. I am just living in my own obsession. Everything is just my personal opinion. I am grateful to Senior Brother for his recognition.

Reflection: The first time I attended a class in Weifang, I listened so carefully that I felt like I understood everything. So this time in Yanzhou, I didn’t listen to much, and I was still in my own world. Step out, hold on, let go, it can't be just words. Even so, I think this time I gained the most. Why? The second night after I returned home from studying in Yanzhou, I picked up the book that was given to us. I read it from beginning to end, and it was amazing to find that among the five mental methods, none of them could be understood. Yes, it turns out that I don’t understand anything. It was all just an illusion. I just felt that I understood it, so of course I have to experience it well next time the class starts! So many things in life are not?

What Zhongyong learned after studying for the first time (Weifang):

Gain 1. Before studying Zhongyong, I went home early in the morning and got up at noon every day. Now I know what to do when I go home. The family had dinner together, rested together, and gained a family.

Gain 2. I never apologized, but I said sorry to a friend once, and gained friendship.

Harvest 3. In the past, the old man never knew what my company did, and he was always worried and couldn’t express his feelings. One time my grandpa came to my house to play, but I was not at home. He told my mother: Pengpeng (me) is studying well in this class at such a young age. No matter what I do or where I encounter in the future, I won’t worry at all and I won’t worry at all. He also told my mother not to worry. I gained recognition from my relatives.

Harvest 4. Once my wife said to me: Didn’t you sign up for the Zhongyong course? Why didn't you go? I mentioned Yanzhou on the 21st, but it’s not time yet. She said: Oh, why is the time interval so long? Go hurry up! I gained my wife’s approval of me and Zhongyong, even though she doesn’t know what Zhongyong means.

Harvest 5. Once my wife went to Senior Brother Lingwei’s house and told Wei Wei and my sister-in-law that I had changed too much after studying and should have studied a long time ago. Don’t forget to ask Senior Brother to take me with him when classes start in the future. This should be regarded as a gain for myself.

Gain 6. My daughter is two years old. I have never taken her out to play alone before. Now I have no problem taking her out to play alone for a whole day. Of course she is also very good!

This is what I gained after returning from Zhongyong’s second study in Yanzhou:

Harvest 1: Such is the tolerance of Zhongyong’s classroom and fellow seniors.

Harvest 2: It turns out that I don’t understand anything. I accept my fear and will study hard with my senior brothers.

Harvest 3 opened the door in my heart that had been closed for a long time!

Harvest 4, it’s been ten years now. I haven’t celebrated the New Year with my parents. It’s not that I don’t want to but I’m embarrassed... I have to celebrate this year. Teacher Ruping taught me to dismantle the device. .

Thank you, Teacher Ruping!

The Chinese New Year is coming soon. I would like to wish all my brothers and sisters a happy New Year! I wish you all your wishes will come true and your family will be happy!