Diary collection

1.

Sunset

As the sun sets in the west, the beautiful sunset gradually spreads over from the horizon. The setting sun also changes from half of the moon cake to a quilt. The crescent moon covered by the sunset gradually fell into sleep.

The sunset dyed the western sky red, shining slightly on every corner. At this time, the sunset looked like a shy little girl, It was just painted with a layer of orange. The clouds in the sky were blurred and took on various forms. Some were like lambs, running on the grass; some were like doves of peace, flying freely. The sunset was very mysterious, not After a while, it turned into light red. At this time, it seemed that everything in the world was shadowed by the sunset, as if it was floating in the flower forest. The sea was quiet. The sunset was a little reluctant and used all the strength of its body. Jiner, that kind of color makes people feel unpredictable and unforgettable.

The feeling of black is gradually approaching us, but the sunset has not surrendered, it still insists on its beauty. The breeze blows , seemed to feel the end of the sunset. On the horizon, the slightly reddish clouds also dispersed. He reluctantly put on the black gauze and walked away.

It became dark, The sky was flashing with blurry light spots, like elves jumping on it. The night was also lit by lights. Against the backdrop of the city lights, the night became even more beautiful.

I recalled the beauty. The sunset glow, I can't help but admire its beauty. The morning glow is magical, and I think the sunset glow is even more beautiful. Because of its natural and simple beauty, and let me know that he has an unyielding spirit. Are we learning to live? Don’t you need to do this?

As I thought about it, I looked at the sky and was intoxicated...

2.

In April, there should be wind blowing< /p>

Zhengzhou in April is less charming than March and more cool than June. It is just cool.

It seems that I don’t hate the wind, I don’t hate it blowing away someone’s lovely hairstyle, I don’t hate it taking away someone’s quiet heart.

Looking at the cherry blossoms falling on campus, the most common thing many people say is that the flowers fall and the water flows. I know that the next sentence is a kind of lovesickness, two places of leisurely sorrow. Looking at the broken flowers on the ground, I suddenly felt the humor of the wind. Is the soil not enough for her original fragrance?

Slowly, those gentle touches on my face and those faint fragrances disappeared. Looking at the quiet night on campus, I hid quietly, afraid of being exposed by the stars and afraid of being slapped by those naughty branches. At this time, I thought it must be the breeze blowing on my face, right? So, I blew my hair and pretended to be cool. Only at night could I fully expose myself.

There are trees in the mountains, and the trees have branches. I am happy for you, but you don’t know it. This is the sentence I heard today, and suddenly I feel so heartbroken. Did such a sentence once touch me, so that I can relate to it so well? Persuading myself, I looked out the window, swallowed some of my choked thoughts, turned my head, looked at myself and smiled. At this time, I thought there should be wind blowing, otherwise why would it suddenly disappear while it was spinning?

April is no longer like January mornings, and I am still looking forward to whether there is a little snow left downstairs. In April, the wind should blow by, blowing away the little expectations, leaving the concrete floor of reality, waiting coldly for the dark night, waiting for the loneliness and loneliness like the stars.

Quietly waiting for the wind to blow by. Unfortunately, I gradually disappeared in the wind. I also thought about shouting loudly to find myself back. The reality that penetrated my heart slowly hit me. With a dusty heart, I chose to give up on myself and let him drift away at will, no longer missing him.

The flowers bloom on the street and slowly return. Slowly return to real life and no longer describe any ideals to yourself. Is it illusion or virtuality?

The pounding heartbeat will slowly be lost, and what will be replaced may be the exchange of materials or business.

I am used to waiting for the wind outside the window to blow, shouldn’t I also erase the love that is waiting for me?

In April, there should be wind blowing. I don’t know if I will still wait for Feng’s promise.

3.

The choice of the soul

The soul is the root of a person, and people’s ideas linger in the depths of the soul and are sublimated; the soul is the soul of a person , people's behavior changes because of the changes in the soul.

Faced with the choices in life, we should always maintain a pure and noble soul, a fiery and warm soul, and a persevering and unyielding soul. We must stretch our legs like the climber. Give a helping hand, warm others with your body and mind, and make the right choice.

Faced with the critical situation that opium was rampant and, if things continued like this, China would have no soldiers to defend the enemy and no money to pay, Lin Zexu stepped forward resolutely and his feat of destroying opium in Humen deterred both China and foreign countries; facing the Yuan Dynasty Despite all kinds of coercion and inducement from people, Wen Tianxiang resolutely went to justice. "My heart is like a magnetic needle, and I will not stop until I point to the direction." Reading this shocking poem still makes people excited. From ancient times to the present, how many heroes and warriors faced the fierce collision between life and death for the noble sentiments in their hearts and for the dignity of the motherland. They threw their heads and blood, risking death without regrets until death. This lack of regret is the correct choice they made in their hearts. Their heroic words and heroic deeds have inspired generations of growing young people. Their choices have taken root deeply in our hearts, and their actions can definitely be remembered. Shocking the world, weeping ghosts and gods.

It is as long as the heaven and the earth, and as bright as the sun and the moon.

"Life is what I want; righteousness is also what I want. You cannot have both, and you must sacrifice your life for righteousness." Thousands of years ago, Mencius faced the choice of his soul. He resolutely issued a cry to sacrifice his life for righteousness. It was the choice of the soul that inspired the spark of thought of the sage. This will be an ancient saying that will never change.

The major events in the world will be divided for a long time, and they will be divided for a long time. In the era of the Three Kingdoms, Zhuge Liang assisted Liu Bei and died. In order to revive the Han Dynasty, Zhuge Liang worked hard and worked hard in Nanyang and revived the Han Dynasty. In the Han Dynasty, Zhuge Liang chose the latter, which is still praised by people today. Didn't our Prime Minister Zhu Ji also quote the words "dedicate yourself to death," when answering reporters' questions? This is the righteousness deep in the human heart, and the righteousness of fighting for the country without hesitation.

Learn from the rise and fall of past lives and examine the gains and losses of today. From the choices deep in the hearts of the ancients, we can feel their great righteousness. It is the choice of the soul that contributes to their ultimate beauty, and it is the choice of the soul that makes them still shine with dazzling light.

Abandon selfishness and choose nobility; abandon treachery and choose integrity; abandon the small self and realize the greater self...

This is the fearless choice that people make from the heart and soul.

4. Ordinary memories

A lot of time has passed, and I wanted to write something to commemorate the lost time. Sitting in front of the computer, the thousands of words and emotions I once had disappeared in an instant.

That time

The internship has ended for a month. Now I am sitting at home calmly recalling this time, and my heart is filled with gratitude. Thanks to my teammates for giving me great tolerance, support and encouragement, thanks to my roommates for giving me comfort and help when I was lonely, thanks to my instructor for giving me opportunities and training, thanks to my students for giving me of trust and happiness. Maybe without them, my internship life would not be so exciting and not so memorable for me. This period of internship made my life feel real, with real people, real scenes, real life conditions, and real busyness. Every day of life has a goal, and every day of life can be grasped. There are so many people and things I want to commemorate during this period. Some of them remind me of myself when I was a child, some of them let me see myself now, and some of them let me see myself in the future. No matter who they are, what time period or what, I believe they all have deep feelings in their hearts. It has changed me, my stubbornness, my conceitedness, my vulnerability, my vulnerability, and even my self-proclaimed strength. Three months later, I knew that I had changed.

After the internship returned to school, the later work came one after another, including the compilation of the summary, the collection of materials returned to the internship school, and the arrangement and implementation of the team members' work. I saw that we are a team, and there are unique characteristics in this team. thing. It comes from our love and support. From my perspective, I know that without them, I might not be able to go on. So in this team life of mutual help and love, we witnessed each other's growth together. At the summary meeting, when we saw the video materials we collected ourselves, our tears witnessed our growth. Maybe the data is not perfect and the details are not perfect, but we know that it is the most authentic and original data, and only those of us who have experienced it can see the emotion and shock behind it.

Maybe I love freedom so much that I don’t want to be restricted. Maybe I’m not mature enough. Many times I hate the rule makers. Because under immature conditions, a change in their mood or even a flash of thought can change other people's lives or even their entire lives. Maybe when faced with such a thing, I will use my own weak strength to resist, or even something else. In such an environment for more than ten days, my heart was troubled. It was also during that time that I saw a sentence repeatedly, that is: "You have to be quiet; you have to rest."

Summer Taste

Just like sitting at home reminiscing about my internship life, at this time, I am sitting on campus reminiscing about this pure summer vacation. It gives me a mixed feeling. Just like a classmate said to me in high school: "You have too little social experience." I was conceited and did not admit it. Looking back today, he was really right. I really hope that the part-time job during the summer vacation can make up for this shortcoming, because it taught me far more than just the things I can see, and also the growth of my soul. Although it is full of hardships, there is joy in the hardships, my happiness, my persistence, my growth, and my heart is full of gratitude. The time spent with the students has become a wonderful memory for me. Of course, my friends’ concern and patience in listening to my joys and sorrows gave me a lot of encouragement and comfort, and made my hard part-time life a lot warmer.

I still remember the physics paper I translated for a friend. It was unsightly. Although I worked hard, some things were really beyond my ability. Looking at what I translated, I wanted to die. The heart is there. Sorry, we have only just started to come into contact with "Chinese-English Translation". It seems there is still a long way to go~

I have had some bad dreams and woke up crying in the darkness in the early morning. I did not use the knowledge I had learned to analyze it. I just asked myself deeply in the light of day, what are my fears and worries? How could they always exist in my subconscious, and occasionally break through the siege and break into my mind? Life!

I was extremely excited to see my distant cousin, aunt, uncle and aunt whom I had not seen for ten years. My longing and excitement could no longer be transformed into the picture I had imagined.

This is the biggest surprise of the summer.

In the past two months, I listened to some songs that suited my mood, whether it was bitter or joyful, struggling or making choices. They - elves with moods, gave me a calm heart to face it. Yes, accept it and wait.

Looking at the two paragraphs above, which were written more than a month apart, I know that I have sorted out all my feelings. It has nothing to do with gains and losses, no matter the ups and downs. I can already start a new journey.

Some familiar songs sounded in my ears again:

——"I never said goodbye, there will always be tomorrow... You still turn my regrets into perfection. It is fate that we can meet each other. , even if it’s just a quick glance..."

——"The memories are repeated one after another. I tell myself to face it bravely, even if my heart is broken, it will be perfect..."

——"... …On that day, you should cheer up your mood; on that day, you should cherish yourself; on that day, don’t forget that someone loves you; on that day, don’t give up easily…”

——“Let’s go Let's go, people must learn to grow up on their own."

——"Fly forward hard, it doesn't matter how tired you are, the light after the darkness is so beautiful."

5. Clear your mentality

When I wrote these four words, my mentality had calmed down and I started from scratch.

The so-called clear mentality means that everything starts from now, from the results we are facing now. No matter how glorious the past is, it is in the past. No matter how hard the past is, it still represents the past. This is a spirit of constant struggle and a quality that speaks for itself with results. On the other hand, if you don’t have a clear mind, carry your past honors and achievements as baggage, talk about your past love glory all the time, and let your past sufferings and sorrows always come to your mind, what will happen to you? What kind of result? I think each of us will know the answer.

From a professional perspective, it is important to clear your mind. ENN Group, a well-known domestic private enterprise, has proposed a "zero mentality." The meaning it explains is that for individuals, whether they are newcomers or old people, newcomers must be "cleared" when facing a new environment. That is to say, no matter how great a company you were in, how great your achievements were, or what famous school you graduated from, when you come to ENN, you have to start from scratch, start from the grassroots level, and don’t dwell on the past. In achievement and pride. On the one hand, the old people of ENN have made indelible contributions to the development of the company; on the other hand, in the face of the new situation of the group's development, they must also "clear" the past achievements and never take credit for their merits. Self-esteem requires the courage to surpass oneself and achieve new careers. Many professional managers in this company have won a broader development world precisely because they were able to put aside their previous achievements and start from scratch.

From an emotional perspective, the clear state is more important. After all, our lives are accompanied by emotions throughout our lives. Since the season of youth and ignorance, boys and girls have begun to yearn for perfect love and pursue romantic love. It is undeniable that most young people long for eternal love, and they also long for their own love to be vigorous. There are many such successful examples. However, after all the excitement, we finally return to a peaceful life. At this time, the gap begins to emerge, so it also appears why the divorce rate is so high now, because many people cannot accept this gap. When friends who are in love are looking for the next love again, they always like to compare their current lover with their past lovers, and they always like to immerse themselves in the good times of their past lovers. In fact, we often ignore the serious consequences of comparison. Past lovers cannot become lifelong partners, which itself has many disadvantages. But now we still add these disadvantages to current lovers, so the consequences can be imagined. And know. So after all, the past relationships have passed. What we want to pursue is future happiness, someone who can be with us for a lifetime. Then we should have a "clear mentality" and completely forget the past, so that we can live in a very relaxed way. Pursue your next relationship with a peaceful mind and meet the one who truly loves you and the partner you love.

I remember reading this sentence in a book, which was said by an American entrepreneur regarding the experience of Bill Gates: "A degree is an epitaph for a period of study, and dropping out of school is an epitaph for a period of study." The beginning of learning. "Yes, if each of us can maintain a clear and peaceful mind and break everything in the past into pieces, I think our lives and our work will be more brilliant and meaningful. ! ! !

Six. The Colors of Spring

In recent days, because I am very busy with studies, I rarely go for a walk by the lake. This afternoon I specially found time to take a look at the beautiful scenery of spring by the lake, with green grass and willow trees. The long braids bring beauty within reach, the pink peach blossoms emit bursts of fragrance, and the flowers and trees show patterns of different colors, which really makes people feel happy.

Spring is a brilliant season. The spring lakeside brings many beautiful yearnings to people. People who come for a walk also wear light and beautiful spring clothes, facing the warm spring breeze and enjoying the vibrant spring spirit. , the beauty that nature brings to people, thus stimulating inner emotions. I really want to walk hand in hand with you by the lake, feel the charm of spring, the inner joy, feel your deep emotions, and activate our love. Cells, feel each other's heartbeats, and share the colors of spring together.

Tomorrow is your birthday. On this special day, I sincerely wish you all the best and happy birthday! I know that I have been very busy with work recently, coupled with the torment of leg pain, I am almost exhausted physically and mentally, but I can feel your warm care and inner love every day. Although I drank because I was in a bad mood that day, but The fanaticism in my heart has not changed. I miss you so much, just like the colors in spring. All the beauty is just for you. As long as you are happy every day, I will be happy!

Every spring has magical colors, but with you, I feel the charm of spring even more. It is strong and soft and exudes dazzling magic. Because of you, spring becomes full of youthful vitality and vitality. Color, I miss you so much at this time, I really want to dance with you tonight, drink red wine together, feel the most beautiful romance at that moment, your smile is everywhere in my eyes, the passion of love radiates in your gentle eyes, and You watch the night view together, watch the sunrise together, and feel the charm, warmth and splendor of spring together.

7. Lost in memories

Another bleak wind stirred up the neglected yellow sand, shook this lonely outpost, and stirred up my long longing. It is said that when people are quiet, they think about something. These unknown secrets hidden in the heart, like a souvenir book, can always bring back a series of memories! Sometimes I wonder, is my memory too good? Or am I trying too hard? Why have you forgotten what happened between us, but I still remember it fresh? This may be the difference between people. We have all done things we regret. However, I have discovered that we are always prepared for regrets when it is too late, and I am almost used to this rule. When I started doing it, it felt very reasonable. When I finished it, I felt very satisfied and happy. But when something dissatisfactory happens, we start to regret, start to complain, start to blame ourselves, or become decadent and decadent. Over time, these become things of the past. When I think about it, I sigh at most. Today's memory is destined to be replaced by tomorrow's reality. I'm still young! I look too shallow. I need your guidance, but you don’t mean to point fingers at me! In this young age, I lost to loneliness and drowned in memories...

8. Turn the page

Everyone’s life can be a book , and you only appear on this page of the book of my life, and I will fill this page with your name. But after turning this page, you will never appear in my life again. After all, you cannot be a necessary content on every page of the book of my life. You only belong to that unique page. Since the separation, there has been no pain or regret. I hope you are the same. Please erase, throw away or bury all memories of me. I just hope you can be healthy and live a happy life.

Writing so much, I just told myself that this page of mine has passed. No matter how beautiful it once was, it is all in the past. I don’t want to remember you in my life either. In fact, this is a story that should not have started, which is why they returned to their respective lives so hastily, without warning but obviously. I won't regret leaving you. The only thing I regret is that I lost a friend because of my wrong start.

Life is gorgeous, and we are destined to be just passers-by and pedestrians in each other's lives. I haven't seen you in the past few days. I wonder if you are okay? I just hope you can be happy. Although I no longer have any further relationship with you, I know you somewhat. In the new year, I hope your ideals can be realized and you can live a better life.

9. April Fool·Desolation

It seems that I have just opened my sleepy eyes recently, and I was surprised to find that summer in Beijing has come. It is like seeing the world for the first time. The leaves are deep and shallow. , green as if crystal water drops are dripping, the flowers are fresh and tender, so delicate that they seem to blend into the soft wind. The sky is very blue, there are no clouds, the sun is bright and bright, and it makes my heart dry. The mood is bright but emotional. One second it hurts my apples from laughing, and the next second my eyes are swollen from crying. I love nature and want to live, but I dare not.

April is already in the middle of the month in the blink of an eye. The notepad that I carry with me every day may not have been recorded for a long time. After returning from Hangzhou, I had a fever for several days and fell asleep for days. I was taken care of and fell into a kind of confusion. I knew the danger but could not control myself. Nothing accomplished. But it seems that my life is really like 2012. Even if I skip school and have no company, I still have to travel thousands of miles to see her. Even if I turn off my phone and miss class, I have to wake up from this sleep. Even if my legs are weak and have a fever, I still have to go see the rain. The cherry blossoms flying in front of me were willing to follow him crazy even if they did nothing.

Slowly, I started not to mind some things, but I began to have doubts in my heart, is this it?

All I had in the past was fleeting happiness.

So, every time you turn around, I will be ready for you to never look back, so don’t stay too far away from me! I used to be alone and was autistic, so if I spent time with another person for a long time, I would get tired of it, including my family, friends, and you. So, hold me tight and don’t talk! No matter when the unknown you appears, whether it is now or in the past, even though it warms me, shines on me and burns me!

April Fool, I have accumulated a lot of work to do, but I am not in the mood. What should I do? Abandon it, spread like weeds throughout the Zhongke Desert, bloom like scrap metal with scattered flowers! Like a barren mountain, naked and open facing the yellow sky, like an abandoned factory, its empty belly is filled with the song of the wind and the echo of heavy metal!

April Fool, promises, oaths, lies, physical pain, inner pressure, rejection, eyes swollen from crying...

Chaos. Desolate.

10. April Story

I can’t help feeling that time flies by so fast. In the blink of an eye, the grass is green again, and the warm wind of April blows, like a beautiful prose, essay. , slowly oozing sweetness, the bare branches have not sprouted buds overnight, but they will soon turn green. This is really the most interesting thing. At that time, watching the leaves turn green day by day, The flowers are blooming gradually day by day. In this situation, I always feel that my thoughts are misty, the artistic conception is far away, and my mood is suddenly very calm. When I have nothing to do, I move a stool and sit in front of the door to bask in the sun. There are always pedestrians passing by. Because I always felt that my eyes were disturbing, I held a Bible in my hand, a very small Bible. I didn’t want people to think that I was a hypocritical Pharisee who only showed off his good deeds in front of others. The sun falls on the entire page of the book, and the sun has already turned to the west. When I read the chapters of the poem, my heart becomes moist and as calm as water. This rare leisure time. From time to time, the wind blows up the long hair, which is slender, floating quietly, and showing the slightest luster. The cheeks become clearer against the backdrop of the white shirt, and the sand particles hit the face, making it itchy. The spring wind in the north is very windy, and the sand particles always blind the eyes. I get up and go back indoors, make a cup of honey water, moisturize the skin and body, it will Make people more beautiful and healthy.

I went home in the evening and packed up my winter cotton clothes. I hung out the single clothes and skirts I was about to wear. They came in different colors and styles. I tried on a few. The reasonable combination of clothes can indeed bring a sense of warmth to people. Pleasant beauty. Although this ethereal and elegant feeling can bring short-term meaning to people, in fact, it is really a skin, and there is no need to show it off. After showing off, it will become more boring. To be despised.

Hidden away in the city, watching the busy traffic, my heart feels so cool. I can find tranquility and comfort in it, creating a simple mood in this April season. , just plant a vine in the soul that is simple and elegant, fresh, and does not require complex and changeable colorful styles. Speaking of the soul, if you don’t pay attention to regulating your own soul, over time, the soul may become a ruin. No matter how many books you read, how much latte coffee, cappuccino you drink, or how much you wear expensive clothes, your soul will become a ruin. You cannot change your own corruption from the bottom of your heart. However, because of human limitations, it is impossible to complete self-salvation. Therefore, when you are static, reading a few verses of the Bible is like a breeze or a spring of water, opening a new life and enjoying the lasting things in life. Joy, you might as well give it a try. It will bless you a hundredfold.

Eleven. Black April

As we talked and laughed, April became black.

About these days last year, I broke my leg playing football. Yesterday, I fell while playing basketball, breaking my wrist and lower waist...

It's okay, after so many years, even minor injuries and pains can make me talk and laugh, but the ones that really hurt Time comes and goes quickly. Is it because I am a happy person and forget things easily, including the pain of the last moment?

I went to the hospital today and found out that the only orthopedic surgeon in our school is so good.

By the way, there is one more thing I must say. Yesterday, I saw green sprouts sprouting from the grass on the lawn, and the commander told me not to step on it.

Today, the peach blossoms are in bloom, and the ordinary peach trees arranged irregularly are blooming. They are also so freehand that some people stopped to take pictures.

Ate the Wumingyuan Rice Noodles outside Ximen. I don't think it's okay as I don't often eat rice noodles, but I don't know when I will eat it next time.

I watched a movie, Psycho, and Eason Chan is probably my favorite whether it’s singing or filming. I like the ordinary dialogue in the movie, and I like the empty, sincere, reality and dream intertwined eyes. Love the change in a character.

Of course I envy him. In the play, the girl gave him a small gift, "The future belongs to the brave." So I long to meet such a person, encounter a love that is divorced from reality, or meet someone. Even though it is not satisfactory in the end, I will smile at the sky without any regrets.

When I listen to EASON's songs now, I don't feel any pain or itching. Of course, my left wrist still hurts when I occasionally hit the table when I'm typing too high.

I didn’t sleep well last night. It hurt, so I actually took a nap today. I haven’t fallen asleep at noon for a long, long time. It seems that I haven’t slept so deeply in a long time.

Sometimes there is no need to speak.

Be yourself and be a brave person.

Twelve. Late April, Dark Night

So long, so slow, no end, no beginning. Entangled, waiting, stuck here, unable to leave, unable to escape.

Like a nightmare in the night, struggling, struggling, struggling.

The flowers in full bloom use up their whole life to break themselves apart bit by bit.

I saw Magnolia in her sleep. The darkness was filled with the sadness that had been hidden under the sun. Do you still remember how happy she looked during the day?

There is a poppy thorn in my heart, a poppy that blooms in an inappropriate season but refuses to fall. Have you seen its sad lavender petals, and have you seen the growth of black in the veins of the flower? Do you think Poppy is happy?

Breaks of sunshine are shining down, and I can’t remember which glorious day I have returned to. The fingertips touch the leaves of the bush and tap them. For a moment, it feels like a world away. After all, the happiness is in the past and broken in the present.

Sometimes, a sudden scene makes me realize that I was wrong. It turned out to be wrong. Just like the petals of a flower that are shattered on the ground, you will know after it withers that even if you spend your whole life, you will never be able to bloom your favorite sea blue.

Don’t wait, you won’t be able to wait until the day when the poppy toxins disappear.

——When can you stop loving him? Forgot him?

——Wait until the day you stop loving me and forget me.

Thirteen. Missing

I am a good girl who doesn’t like to make demands. I like to be quiet. I have been working outside for more than a year. Since February last year, I have only been back home. 2 times, one was in October last year during the National Day, and the other was at the beginning of this year during the Chinese New Year. Usually when I feel homesick, I just bury my longing in my heart, quietly, so that no one can notice it.

I am a rather nostalgic person. The year before last, I took a camera to take pictures of the place where I lived when I was a child. Although I am away from home, I always remember my original dream. What I think about is that often, when my mother mentions me to others, she will say that I work in a big city and everything will be fine, but the key is to rely on myself.

Sometimes it is very lonely, sometimes it is very helpless, but since you are here, you must learn to calm down in a big city. An overly impetuous heart will not leave you without roots and thoughts. There is an atmosphere of materialism everywhere, and the streets are full of salespeople soliciting customers. The city of Shanghai is really a shopping paradise. If you don’t have money, just swipe your card. They all say that poverty is not terrible, and hardship is not terrible. The most terrible thing is actually having no roots. Roots are a person’s soul. Without roots, a person loses his soul and the original meaning of his life.

I feel homesick recently. Is it because I have seen the people and things in society and become a little disappointed with everything? Or do you need a free space, a space to live alone? A little confused. I feel quite surprised that I am already 14 years old. It is time for me to mature and become independent. I always wish I had someone I can rely on. Now I realize that you have to pay to get everything. Looking at it now, don't rely on anyone and make yourself strong, both in terms of heart and strength, it is very important.

15. There seem to be thousands of knots in my heart

There are always some inexplicable thoughts or inexplicable worries. Even if I know that it is useless to think about it, I still always cling to my thoughts. Life. The strange thing is that random thoughts seem to be human instinct. Even if you try to numb yourself with work, it seems to be suppressed and will reappear in the future.

What is wrong with me? Has the inexplicable panic reappeared? But I still have to tell myself that I must defeat myself who hesitates, my self who thinks wildly, and my self who worries about all kinds of things all the time. Whether I can truly become an activist may still have to wait and see, but let’s start step by step now.

The rules of doing things I summarized for myself: When it comes, deal with it. Problems, find ways to solve them. Dilemma, spend more time. Difficult questions, put them down. Third-party factors, which have nothing to do with you, are concentrated on what you are doing now.

I sorted out my thoughts again tonight and hope that I will think less and do more in the future, and stop looking back and having unrealistic delusions.