I have been here before, and I love you very much.

That was a long time ago when I was a freshman. She is in my class, and we are each other's only friends. I still remember clearly what she looked like when she first came to class. It was a sunset dusk, the sky was printed red, and the houses and trees on the ground were covered with scarlet tulle. The scenery was really beautiful. My eyes kept looking out of the window, trying to make this beautiful scenery stay a little longer, but a heavenly voice pressed my eyes back to the room from the window. She was wearing a white dress that day, and her shawl's long hair fluttered gently with the breeze, like an angel falling to the ground against the setting sun.

The class teacher helped her heavy glasses and said, "Ye is a transfer student in high school. She is a student with excellent academic performance. You can ask her questions if you don't understand. " Ye Xinran smiled and showed his lovely dimples, saying, "Actually, I'm not as good as the teacher said. Please ask my classmates for more help in the future." Her smile is so touching that all the boys in the class look at her like idiots, while the girls stare at Ye with resentful eyes. I think she has been beaten n times in the hearts of these girls. It seems to be a sin to be too outstanding. I really sympathize with her present situation, and she is on pins and needles, being watched by everyone. The head teacher searched again and again in the class, and there was only room next to me in the huge classroom. I saw that she reluctantly arranged Ye to sit next to me and warned me when she left: "Xie Ziheng, if you dare to bully Ye, I will never spare you." I'm a little confused. Isn't he a transfer student? Do you need to scare me like this? I just fight, scare girls, snore in class, and nothing else. Why do you make me look like a bad person? After the teacher left, Ye smiled at me in a friendly way and said, "Hello, my name is Ye. I'm glad to be your deskmate. I just transferred to another school and don't know much about it. Please take care of it in the future! " I glanced at her sideways and said, "Here, remember a rule, that is, don't disturb me when I sleep, or you will be beaten into a pig's head!" " "She still smiled and said," Yes, as long as you don't snore, I usually take extreme measures against people who disturb my class. Be careful when sleeping! "I was shocked at the time. As we all know, I fought hard at school, and no one ever dared to oppose me. It seems that for my prestige, I have to scare her.

The next morning, I came to school early and poured all the bottles of cockroaches I caught yesterday into her desk, ready to scare her! However, what I never expected was that when she opened the desk, the cockroach came out of the desk like a spring, and the whole class screamed with fear. I was shocked to see this spectacular scene, but she said to me casually, "You are so naive!" " Now you scare people with this kind of thing, you are really OUT! "I smiled coldly and said," Oh! Is it? Then if you have the ability, you can't bring it out! " Ye Xinran mercilessly stared my one eye and said, good! I'll show it to you tomorrow, and don't cry then! "I don't believe what she took can scare me, I thought. But what she brought that day really surprised me. She poured a big bag of cute animals on me. I didn't know at the time. I looked down and saw a bunch of snakes, lizards, giant hairy spiders ... walking around me at will. I jumped up from my chair at once and ran out of the classroom quickly. Only then did I find that everyone in the class had disappeared, and I couldn't help sighing that the world was cold. Seeing that I was in trouble, I actually came out of destruction. I really despise them. Outside the classroom, I panted, "Ye, you are crazy! Bring these filthy things here, you want to kill me! " Ye Xinran satisfiedly smiled and said, "didn't you ask me to bring it? Why are you afraid of this? You are so useless. These are all my pets. They are all lovely. If you want to scare people in the future, come here with those high-end things first. Your pediatric cockroaches have long been out of date, hehe! " I have to admit, I was really defeated by her. In my eyes, she is no longer an ordinary person. She is definitely a superman! From then on, I never dared to use her crooked brain again, otherwise she might take something to get back at me next time. Then the teacher found out, and I took full responsibility. Anyway, in the eyes of the teacher, I am a bad student, and she is often scolded. It's no big deal this time, but the leaves are different. Anyway, she is a girl. She is new here. If she was remembered just now, it would be too poor for her, because of me, and I will take full responsibility. Ye Xinran smiled and said, "I am always careless when I see you. I didn't expect you to think of others! " I proudly said, "Of course! I have always been a model of a new good man and an idol of a pure girl! " Ye smiled and said, "I didn't know today that you are not only fierce, but also thicker than the wall!" Hehe! " In this way, we became good friends who talked about everything. Every day after class, we talk endlessly. From Mars to Earth, there are always endless topics to talk about. Later, I learned that all the animals she brought were rented from pet shops that day. She was scared to death, but in order to get back at me, I had to bite the bullet and pretend not to be afraid. I told you, how can such a quiet girl have the courage to keep them as pets, let alone keep them, even if she looks at them, she will be scared to death.

After a period of contact with Ye, I found that she is a very kind girl. She loves to write articles, has a good voice and can sing the songs of nature. Every time I listen to her singing, I am intoxicated by her singing. She took care of me, too Whenever I have no money to eat, I can always get full and eat my favorite ice cream as long as I go to see her. She always said to me, "I'm so old, and I still eat ice cream like a child." You missed act young! " I was speechless and replied, "Who said I couldn't eat ice cream when I grew up?" This is my hobby. Do you care? " Besides, don't you like ice cream? Is it difficult for you to play young? "Ye Xinran proudly said," that's because I am a girl! Don't you think it's a pleasure to watch beautiful women eat ice cream? Do I look cute like this? "I almost didn't spit it out the day before yesterday. She's really great. She can say such disgusting things, but seriously, the way she eats ice cream is really cute and gives people a pleasing feeling.

Gradually, I found myself in love with her. When I went to buy ice cream that day, she was sitting in a chair on the grass, thinking about something, with deep eyes. I still remember a breeze blowing, making the skirt of her white dress flutter. When she combed her hair gently, she looked back and saw me. Her charming smile is like suffocating wine, which fascinates me. I didn't even notice the ice cream slipping in my hand. It was not until she turned away with a red face that she said to me, "Jpua, have you thought about the future?" I said, "For me, I have no future. Like me, I will never get into college. After graduation, I plan to work in coastal areas. " Ye Xinran glared at me angrily and said, "Xie Ziheng, are you crazy? Your parents finally sent you to high school, so that you can get into a good university. Now you say such a depressing thing. Are you worthy of them? " I said helplessly, "Do you think I don't want to go to college? With my present grades, let alone taking the undergraduate course, I can't even pass the junior college entrance examination. What do you want me to do? " She said, "I can help you! As long as you are willing to learn, you can! " Looking at her lovely expression, I silently nodded and agreed.

After more than a month, I worked day and night on the questions and tried my best to remember the words. By the end of the monthly exam, my grades had jumped to the top ten in my class. Everyone does not believe that I can make such rapid progress. Only I understand that I can do everything she expects with all my enthusiasm for her, all because I have decided that she is the bride I want to marry in this life. She is very happy to see that I can achieve such good results. On weekends, she invited me to a western restaurant for dinner. We ate so much there that I couldn't walk. There is a piano in the middle of the hall of that restaurant, and no one plays it. I don't think the pianist has come yet. Ye Xinran said to me, "Do you want to listen to a piece of music?" As soon as she finished, she went to the piano and sat down. The beautiful voice of the piano jumped out from her fingertips, euphemistically and melodiously, and my heart floated in the air with her voice, which made people feel very comfortable. The way she plays the piano is so elegant and moving, as beautiful as a princess. Later, she told me: "The song is called" Wedding in My Dream ". I like piano very much, but because I chose singing as my career, piano can only be regarded as a hobby. " I said with great interest, "why don't you leave this craft to me?" I like playing the piano very much, but I just can't find a good teacher. " She smiled and said, "Good! I accept your apprentice, but I have one condition. How about buying all my ice cream in the future? " I said, "No problem, as long as you like, I will pack all your ice cream for life." From then on, I began to practice the piano boring, because the piano at home was too expensive to buy, so I went to Ye's house every time I practiced. Her parents often travel, and she has never lived at home alone. She can cook a good dish, and every time I go to her house, I can have a good meal. Learn a few tricks when you are free, and the dishes you cook are barely edible. I don't know if I was born to play the piano, but my score in the special student exam was admitted to Shenyang Conservatory of Music. I was so happy that I hugged Ye to congratulate her. She shyly pushed me away and said with a smile, "Jpua, congratulations! You're really great. I didn't expect you to achieve such good results in just a few months' practice. I have to say that you are really between A Niu and Niu C, which is amazing! " I was a little embarrassed and said, "This is still a good teacher. If you didn't take the trouble to teach me, how could I have such good grades! " "She smiled and said," hey! When did you become so modest? Not bad! My parents can't come back after my birthday in a few days. Please stay with me! " I said, "Good! I will give you a surprise then! "

On her birthday, she will have a vocal lesson, and I will wait outside with my own cake. Although there is white snow in the sky at the moment, my heart is still warm as spring, because today I want to say a word to my beloved girl to let her know my inner thoughts. Whether she accepts it or not, this is the most sincere expression in my heart. Three hours later, I hurried out and saw me standing there in the cold war. My smiling face had already changed. She shouted at me angrily, "How can you be so stupid?" It's too cold to hide in someone else's shop. What if you catch a cold? Really, I can't take care of myself at all! "She nagged, took off her down jacket and put it on me. I kept shirking, and she insisted on doing so, so I had to stop insisting. On the way, I vaguely said to her, "I … I think … the first person you came out to see … was me." She stopped suddenly and said nothing, but held me tighter. I went back to her house, turned on the heating, and drank the ginger soup she cooked. I didn't feel so cold. Cooking with her, she made my favorite sweet and sour pork ribs, and I made her favorite scrambled eggs with tomatoes, which was the best meal I had ever eaten. I ate five bowls. She teased me and said, "Why do you eat like such a git? Be careful to get fat in the future! "Ha ha!" I said, "It's good to gain weight! Your girlfriend will be more comfortable leaning on her shoulder in the future. Then do you want to try! " I saw her face suddenly turn red, so I didn't say anything. I brought a cake to make her wish, took the first bite and tasted it. After eating, she took out a ring from her mouth with a puzzled expression, which was the result of washing dishes in a restaurant for four months. I said to her seriously, "I'm very happy, you know?" From the first time I saw you, your smile was deeply imprinted in my mind. Every time you look back, I am so intoxicated. Your melodious singing always lingers in my ears, which makes me aftertaste for a long time. I miss you all the time. I just want to tell you that I like you. Can you stay with me? I promise that I will love you wholeheartedly, be caring and attentive to you, relieve all the troubles around you and make you the happiest person in the world! "He looked at me blankly and said," Jpua, I'm sorry. I shouldn't have kept it from you. Actually, I already have a boyfriend. He is in England now, and I'm going to go to college in London on the other side of the ocean. I have always regarded you as my best friend, and I am very happy with you. I also cherish this feeling between us, but I can't accept your love because there is no place for others in my heart. You are a good person, I believe you will find a better girl than me! Thank you for your love, I will always remember you! " I smiled indifferently and said, "Nothing, thank you for your honesty. It is my greatest honor to meet you in this life. I wish you happiness and long life, and thank you for everything you have done for me. Without you, I wouldn't be where I am today. Thank you very much Finally, can I ask you to play a "Dream Wedding" with me? " She nodded her head in agreement. I don't know why today's piano is so sad and long, and there are always crystal tears flashing in our eyes. I know why I am crying, but I don't know who her tears are for.

From that night on, she didn't come to class for several days. I was a little worried. I went to her house after class and rang the doorbell for a long time, but no one answered. I only heard a weak answer when I called her. I borrowed the stairs from my neighbor and climbed in through the second floor window. She was unconscious in bed.

Sweating all over, my forehead is very hot. I think she must have a fever. I immediately carried her downstairs to a hospital nearby, but it was the rush hour. I stopped for a long time and didn't call a car. Looking at the unconscious girl behind me, I resolutely decided to carry her to the hospital. After more than 30 stops, I gritted my teeth and persisted. When I got to the hospital, I collapsed in my chair and had no strength at all. The doctor said, "Fortunately, it was delivered in time. If delayed, it may be life-threatening. " I was in a happy coma for several days. I took a leave of absence and stayed with her. I just hope she's not so lonely here. When she woke up, I said to her, "Call your parents! Let them come back and take care of you. What might have happened if I hadn't come to your house that day. " She said cheerfully in a weak voice, "Don't tell them, they are busy at work, so don't worry about me. You are the same now! " On the second day of my birthday, I felt a little dizzy. I thought it would be good to take a few pills, but it got worse and worse, and finally I couldn't even get out of bed. Maybe I caught a cold that night. But nothing. I'm much better now. "I said with some guilt," I'm very happy, I'm sorry, but if you didn't take off your clothes that day, you wouldn't be so disgusting. I'm really sorry. "What do you want to eat now? I'll buy it for you right away." Ye Xinran looked out of the window. It's eleven o'clock at night. She smiled and said, "It's closed for you to go to them now. Maybe tomorrow. Please give me a bowl of preserved egg porridge and some stinky tofu! " I said confidently, "No problem, it's my treat." I began to cook porridge when I came back. Xin Ran once taught me how to cook porridge. She also said that the porridge I cooked was delicious, but it would take a little time. Go to the most authentic stinky tofu shop at four o'clock in the morning, so that when he opens at six o'clock, I can get it first, and preserved egg porridge can just be done.

Bathed in the first ray of sunshine in the morning, I sent the prepared breakfast to her. At that time, she just opened her relaxed eyes and smiled at me. That smile was as bright as the sunshine that day, reflected in my heart and could not be calm for a long time. I fed her the preserved egg porridge I made, and she said it was delicious, just like my cooking. I smiled and said nothing. After breakfast, we started chatting. She asked me, "What would you do if there was an afterlife?" I was a little confused and said, "I never thought about it." If it were you, what would you like to be? " She looked out of the window and said calmly, "If there is an afterlife, I would like to be an acacia tree, which will never leave this land!" "Tears in her eyes slowly across the cheek, wet the quilt. I know she is crying because of her attachment to the city and her reluctance to her parents, but I just don't know if she is attached to me. She said, "I'm leaving next week. Will you come to see me off? " I nodded silently with tears in my eyes I was about to speak when her parents hurried to the hospital. I asked her neighbors to call her parents to tell her the situation, and they came back. What she needs most now is the care of her parents, not me. I walked out of the hospital gently, and the tears in my eyes had already begun to flood. I know I care about her, but I can't keep her. There are her dreams and her lover, and I have no reason to stop them, so I have to wish her a pleasant journey and all the best there.

As agreed, I came to the airport, and the people who saw her off that day were teachers, classmates and so on. I wanted to say a few words to her when I finally said goodbye, and suddenly I choked up. She came up to me and put her necklace in my hand. She said, "Don't forget to write to me. You will find a good girl. Goodbye, I will miss you! " She put her right hand on her shoulder, smiled at me with tears, and slowly embarked on a flight to a foreign country. I smiled and watched the plane disappear in the clouds, and said to myself, "I'm glad, I'll wait for you!" " "

Later, I got my wish to enter Shenyang Conservatory of Music and started my college time. I practice hard and spend most of my time in the piano room, because only in this way can I temporarily alleviate my thoughts about her. Every month I insist on writing to her and telling her interesting things that happened around me. She often asks me why I don't send her an email, which will be much more convenient. I said, "writing letters can make you feel that I am around you, and what you express is easier to understand." She thinks it's too much trouble to write letters, so she can't reply to me, but sometimes she sends me an email to tell me her recent situation. Maybe writing letters is really out of date. She doesn't want to know what will be in my letter, because she has someone she loves and broad arms to lean on. It doesn't matter to her whether I exist or not But I still insist, because I promised to write to her, but I have been insisting for two years unconsciously. However, this letter she received is my last one, because I am no longer alive, and I have left this homeland that raised me and my beloved people.

Dear Xin Ran:

? Hello!

When you read this letter, it will be two years later. All the letters you received before were sent to you by my friends. In fact, now I have left this world and gone to another place. Because a fire broke out in the school dormitory two years ago, I was burned extensively to save my roommate's body. The doctor said that I only have one month at most, so I decided to spend the rest of my life writing all my future letters so that you can feel that I am still by your side. Because my hand was burned, my handwriting may be a little ugly. Please forgive me. I know you have never loved me, but you just regard me as your best friend, but you know what? The days with you are the happiest time in my life, because with you, my life is no longer gloomy, my sky is full of colors, and you are like a bright light in my heart, guiding me forward. You have your boyfriend, and you love him deeply. I know I can't take his place in your heart, but I still foolishly believe in miracles and wait for them to come. I know all this waiting is just an unchangeable ending. I saw the ring on your hand the other day. I don't know if this is a signal, but I want you to know that I have always loved you deeply and never changed.

It is you who make me sentimental and full of melancholy. I looked at the vastness of the world indifferently and looked at the happiness I had never had before. I have never begged for anything, but I hope you can be happy. Now I finally understand that love is so elusive and hard to explain, but I still miss you. When I know that there is no possibility between us, I am willing to give everything for you. ...

Do you know that?/You know what? Do you know that?/You know what? I like summer very much, because the beauty of summer is a fairy tale, and I like the feeling of weeping willows flying and the breeze blowing gently. That was when we met, and now I want to give my life back in this season. If there is an afterlife, I would like to turn into an acacia tree like you, accompany you all day, listen to the wind, watch the rain, get drunk with the moon, taste the vicissitudes of the world, and feel warm and cold.

How time flies! The change is amazing. My health is getting worse every day. I can't imagine that reality is so cruel and life is so fragile! Looking at the necklace you gave me and remembering the past made me feel very tired and painful. I seem to be suffering from a kind of torture, both physically and mentally. I had to control myself not to think about being with you and not to forget you, but I failed again and again. I finally realized that I can't let you go. I want to protect you silently and spend my life with you, but I don't have time. Nice to meet you in this life. You made me understand that loving someone is to pay silently, without any reason, as long as she can live happily. Now I want to play another song "Dream Wedding" for you. I wish you happiness for a long time! It's just that I don't have the ability now. I hope to meet you again in my next life. Being really with you only belongs to our happiness. I am writing this letter to you just to let you know that a boy is already here and he loves you very much! Goodbye, the girl I once loved, I wish you happiness forever!

In a foreign land, a girl was wearing a ring and holding a letter in her hand, leaning against the boy's arms and crying loudly. Who is she crying for? Where did her heart fly at the moment? No one knows, just under an acacia tree, there are crystal dew flashing. ...