I can see you, but I don't know where you are

I can see you, but I don't know where you are

Xia Yindan 2015-12-16 1 1 41people have read11comments.

Have you ever seen a smiling butterfly fly from the equator to the North Pole? It passes through the sea of flowers all over the mountains and through the hot and humid rain forest, but it never stops. You stand in its shadow, waving constantly, but never chasing it. Because you know, no matter where it stays, it is not your safe place.

1.

In 20 13, I was admitted to a local junior high school in a daze. Looking around, I felt that my life was coming to an end.

When I applied for my major, my dad said that I applied for business or economics so that I could find a job in the future. I looked at the filled-in web page and was inexplicably angry. At that time, I didn't know what business and economy were, but I simply didn't like it, so I didn't like it, and I couldn't find a reason.

Later, I filled in the category of news communication in the column of major, and stumbled into the humanities department by mistake, and then I met Tu Shisan.

Tu Shisan is careless in his work. I asked him why he applied for this major. He said, I don't know. I applied casually. At that time, I looked at my major and wrote it when I saw it. What about you?

I said, I don't know, I reported it by feeling.

Later, we summed up this attitude as indifference, and thought that this attitude was particularly important in this highly purposeful era.

One day, Tu Shisan came to borrow money from me. Pa, he took it out with one hand. Laozi is poorer. Isn't it insulting to borrow money from me?

Later, I asked him what he was doing, and he said he wanted to give a gift to the girl he liked.

I said, are you going after someone? Tu thirteen nodded.

In this case, I took out more than 400 yuan from my pocket and stuffed it into his hand, saying that if you invite others to dinner again, remember to return my dog's things.

Tu thirteen took 400 yuan and confiscated it. He looked at me in tears. I said, don't be moved, don't be emotional, take it away.

Tu thirteen said, big brother, this is not enough.

Shit! Shit! You can't dig it out if you kick it into the wall! Four hundred is enough for me to eat and drink for half a month, don't you think it's enough?

Tu Shisan said, I want to give her a necklace, more than 4 thousand.

More than four thousand! My brain hurts when I listen. Later, based on the principle of tearing down ten temples without ruining a marriage, I pawned all the household items in my dormitory and told him with 1200 yuan. That's it. Find your own way. Remember to return the dog's things.

Half a month later, Tu Thirteen got her wish and gave the necklace to the girl. But the girl said it was too expensive to accept.

Tu thirteen said it was not expensive, not expensive, and there was a discount for one or two hundred yuan.

4,000 to 200, discount or fracture.

You are not beautiful enough, but you rush in and every eye is whispering. This is a gentle morning, with a vanilla smile, meet at the corner, look at each other gently, and spring grows from your eyes.

2.

Later, after chatting, I learned that the girl was our senior in senior three, so I always called her Sister Tong, who was gentle and considerate and took care of him in life. In our opinion, Thirteen is very happy, experiencing love and enjoying the delicate care of her mother or sister.

I said, thirteen, you can do it, and it will be a good story in the future if you are a younger brother and a younger sister.

He told me jokingly, do you know why I like girls older than me? Because women who earn money are the most beautiful, hahahahaha. ...

In the past two years, they got along very sweetly. 15 In the early spring, Sister Tong went to Shanghai for an internship, and Thirteen stayed at school to prepare for the postgraduate entrance examination. Both of them are working for the same goal, although they are taking different paths, which is encouraging.

When Tong Jie went back to school for the last time, she said that she didn't know a few very good friends in college and wanted to invite some good friends to dinner. Thirteen and I were invited, and there were two girls at the dinner table besides Sister Tong, a total of five people.

At the dinner table, I said that women with careers are just different. Tut tut, whatever you look at, it looks good.

The two girls next to you make fun of thirteen. You can have fun when you are thirteen. Find a girlfriend who is older than you and knows how to take care of you. It is difficult for us to find an uncle.

/kloc-at the beginning of 0/3, I listened to us with a smile. Later, I hesitated for a long time and said that we had separated.

Dad, I'm so shocked. I dropped one of my chopsticks. I turned to look at Sister Tong, and she nodded.

I asked, when did this happen?

Sister Tong said that it has been some time.

Nobody asked why. I remember when doing a math problem in junior high school, if the final answer is wrong, the teacher will give points according to the process, but in this era of paying more attention to results, there is no process score. Breaking up is breaking up, and any reason is just a reason.

Perhaps because everyone knows the reason why the two broke up, the atmosphere of eating became extremely tense. I'm fine. The two girls next to me can't eat.

Sister Tong has been talking and laughing with us, saying that we didn't feel anything interesting when we were working outside, but by the age of thirteen, we began to laugh until tears came out.

Laughing to tears, if he is not really happy, how sad he must be.

I won't say anything, just drink with thirteen. He is very happy. I have a cup, he has three cups, I have a bottle and he has three bottles. Three girls occasionally say a few words, and most of the time they watch us drink.

According to this rhythm, Thirteen soon got drunk, and then joked with Sister Tong about how stupid she was, how bloody they met, and how abrupt they were together. At some point, she fell asleep on my desk.

Sister Tong listened to him with a smile until he fell asleep at his desk. She laughed and cried. Behind the thirteen chairs that Sister Tong passed, she hugged him and said, You must let love grow again, and then love a girl with your heart, just as you fell in love with me at the beginning.

Lucky encounter, accidental love, what we walked together, what was engraved on the annual ring, we have to work hard to forget.

Flowers bloom in the flower season and stay at night. Years later, whether you cry or laugh, it's because I still remember you.

3.

On my thirteenth birthday this year, some friends and I bought a big cake and rented a house outside to get high.

The party lasted until late at night, and everyone was drunk. I don't know who opened the window The cold wind gives me a headache. Damn, I got up and closed the window. Thirteen is sitting on the floor smoking.

I said, why are you sitting on the ground? You have diarrhea, idiot.

Thirteen said, look at yourself. You sleep like you are doing gymnastics! If I don't sit on the ground, will I fly to the sky?

I was laughing when it suddenly occurred to me that I hadn't made a wish. I patted my leg and said, shit, you haven't made a wish yet.

Thirteen said, Xu Mao's wish, all the cakes have been eaten, forget it.

I said, come on. Then take a cream from Mr. Chen's face and make a wish.

Thirteen gave me a white look and threw the cream on the ground, wishing the child an early date.

I paused and asked why I made a wish for her.

Thirteen sighed and said, alas, I wish she could find a boyfriend soon. She needs to be taken care of. She is so stupid. She never watches the weather forecast and doesn't know how to add clothes. She always doesn't eat on time, doesn't like to express her feelings, secretly cries when she is wronged, likes to eat chestnuts but can't peel them off, and is reluctant to spend money on herself. ...

Thirteen said and cried.

Everyone thinks that most people who are loved are asking for it, but where no one sees it, your every concern is the softest bloom.

Others don't know, she must know.

4.

Never told you my heart, looking at the night sky at two in the morning,

If you entrust too much, you can't avoid a kind of pain.

You can't have anything if you act in a hurry.

Missing spreads along fingerprints,

Cut the curve of the palm,

I used a ten-year dream to remember everything about you.

But after only a second, I suddenly woke up.

We were separated from countless flowers in the first frost,

It was later discovered that,

I used to wake up by the river.

I once knew a girl who played parkour. After breaking up with her boyfriend, she hasn't been in love for three years. Someone asked why, and she said, I just want us to stay in memories and love emotionally for a while.

I also have a friend who ran from Beijing to Qinghai to teach after falling in love. He ran so far that he cried when he screamed.

I can see you because you are in my mind, but I don't know where you are.

Most of them are put down and pretend to forget.

Dear, go to bed early. I know you still remember the darkest night. Dear, remember to laugh, I know you can't forget it. So what? Hey, close your eyes, think of yourself, think of yourself at that time, I know how safe you are to miss, and open a flower from your heart, just like you just met when you turned around.