The Poetic Story in Wei's Jane Lu Yi —— Love Dust

I guess Viagra must have been born in winter. It was a snowy late winter evening. At the end of the year, the weather is cold and the snow is cruel, so all the forced people have to choose to compromise and adapt. Perhaps this is what Ge Wei's father Luan Wei felt after a deep winter snow in the yard. Born in a big family of bells and whistles, it goes without saying that as long as Ge Wei can conform to everything for the rest of his life, his future wealth and fame will be smooth and safe, right?

You should know that the Weizmann family in Jingzhao was a famous family in the Tang Dynasty. In the Tang dynasty alone, nearly 30 people married into the dynasty, the most famous of which was the second queen, the autocratic queen Wei; The Webster family has also produced 20 prime ministers. Soon, Wei Daijia, Wei's great grandfather, became the prime minister of Wuhou period.

"Zhuangzi's Journey to the North" said: "Those invited here are strong in four branches, thoughtful, smart in eyes and ears, diligent in heart, and have no way to do things." Wei is really a good name. However, it may never have occurred to me that Wei still needs to adapt to everything in the shadow of the Jing Zhao Wei family.

Wayward and arrogant, this is the correct way for Ge Wei to open the door to the new world. Learning is redundant, effort is redundant, and only eating, drinking and wasting time are serious things. In this way, Ge Wei grew up and became an ignorant hooligan who brought disaster to the village.

Youth, which has nowhere to be released, lives in an empty shell, just like moths in a lampshade, which can only collide aimlessly everywhere. This impact must be strong enough to cause a little pain to yourself and others, so that people can feel that life is not boring and numb.

Luan Wei felt that he had to find something to do for Ge Wei. In 75 1 year, when the gifted scholars Dai Shulun and Gu Kuang in the Tang Dynasty were still studying hard and reading extensively, Ge Wei, who was only 15 years old, had become a "Sanweilang" (eight products), which was equivalent to the personal bodyguard of Emperor Xuanzong of the Tang Dynasty.

Adults always say that children are too naive, but it is enough not to know the self-righteous mentality of adults. The thinking of official and rich generations has been the same for thousands of years, even across several oceans. Any problem that can be solved with money and power has five words in the sky, which is nothing. However, even if you are rich in the world, you still can't be a creator, and you still have unresolved troubles. For example, insomnia, such as lovelorn, such as unworthy children.

Ge Wei's single thinking is completely inherited from Luan Wei. Dad thinks that his son won't make trouble if he has a job, and his son thinks that work is to make it more convenient. There are talented people from all walks of life. As soon as Ge Wei made a move, he completely shattered Luan Wei's beautiful dream. In a poem similar to Ge Wei's memoir "Every Yang Kaifu", Ge Wei's first half explained this absurd and unrestrained lush years in detail, and his confession attitude was sincere, which made people want to cry.

Yang Kaifu should be Ge Wei's partner when he was young, or at least he met his little partner in open-backed pants. Years later, the two met again. Speaking of his youth, Ge Wei is full of regrets:

/kloc-I wanted to be a personal bodyguard for Xuanzong when I was 0/5 years old. Being so close to the emperor is a symbol of status and can get many benefits for no reason. Although I am only a small bodyguard, many adults and villains dare not take anything from me. As a result, I became more and more daring and rogue. Being a person in trouble is the lowest level. I also make friends with fugitives who kill and steal goods everywhere, and even hide at home for them. On weekdays, I also do nothing. Go to casinos during the day and nightclubs at night, not to mention molesting and bullying girls. Even so, the police uncle didn't dare to do anything with me, because I stood taller than them and closer to the emperor than them. Finally, talk about my work. It is so boring. When the emperor took his imperial concubine on vacation at Huaqing Palace in Lishan Mountain, I could only stand outside the palace gate, shivering in the face of heavy snow. When the emperor was hunting in Changyang Palace, I just followed him on a horse. I didn't know a word at that time, and the only advantage was drinking for fun. It's so stubborn and stupid.

In this way, five years passed. Time makes people old, which is wrong, at least in Ge Wei. 20-year-old Gervais and 10 years old, except for age, the only remaining growth can only be alcohol consumption. How can a life without stress age? Just like Xuanzong at that time, Tang Li was in its heyday, with flowers, fire and cooking oil. Who would have thought there would be a moment of aging?

I changed jobs several times, but I still look like this guy. Luan Wei, who will clean up the aftermath in a short time, decided to expand the move. The so-called big move is still nothing new. For thousands of years, several oceans have been like this. That is to marry my son.

Urge them to work after graduation and get married after work. So are the children of the rich. However, they are luckier than us. The pressure to find a job and a wife is not your own at all. Parents will take full responsibility for this. All they have to do is finish it.

Apart from the failure of parenting, Luan Wei has made good achievements in other aspects. She is good at painting and knowledgeable. Even the daughter-in-law who took pains to find Ge Wei is one in a million.

The first is the correct match. The prospective wife's name is Yuan Ping. This "Yuan" surname, traced back to the source, is the Tuoba family of the Northern Wei Dynasty in the Southern and Northern Dynasties. At that time, Tuoba Hong, Emperor Xiaowen of the Northern Wei Dynasty, vigorously promoted sinicization, and changed the Tuoba nationality of Xianbei people to yuanshi county County, meaning the first surname in the world. It was also in the process of sinicization that Yuan gradually became a prominent family in the Central Plains.

Second, virtuous and virtuous. Yuan Ping, born in a famous family, is gentle and reasonable, with high cultural accomplishment and careful handling of people. Although he is only 16 years old, his mind is definitely much more mature than that of 20-year-old Ge Weicheng.

There are many kinds of lovers in this world. A prodigal son and a good girl are one kind. Theory tells us that this marriage combination is doomed to end in pieces, not to mention the words of parents' life matchmaker, which has no emotional foundation. If we take a closer look, we can look at Xu Zhimo and Zhang Youyi. Keren always varies from person to person, and it is not easy to draw conclusions by classification, especially in the relationship between husband and wife. It's important to meet the right person at the right time.

Just like the name of Vigo, it should be the content. The development of things has a certain "rhythm point". As long as you follow it and sink in, everything will be smooth. Just like a traffic light, you can pass the first intersection smoothly, and then you don't have to wait. And if you miss that point, you have to wait one by one.

Yuan Ping is the right green light for Ge Wei's life. Love, so suddenly.

This carriage, the warm wind of My Sweetie's love, made Wei Gang lose his armor unconsciously. In that compartment, Xuanzong, a big boss as incompetent as Wei Gang, abandoned the city and fled in the face of the Anshi rebellion.

Chang' an was captured, and at that time, there was sorrow everywhere, and the people were miserable. Ge Wei was filled with infinite guilt for his daughter-in-law who had just died. From the day she got married, neither the Webster family nor the Wei brothers could give her the protection she deserved. A 16-year-old girl not only doesn't even have a decent wedding, but also hides from the big family, is hungry and cold, and even does housework to help take care of the elderly and children at home.

What about you? When the war broke out, my family was ruined and my job was lost. Looking for another job, I suddenly found that I had lived for more than 20 years and had nothing but drinking and having fun. Reality makes people old, but there is nothing wrong with it. Viagra has no time to feel sorry for itself, repent and pray. There is such an excellent daughter-in-law, gentle and sincere, accompanying and taking care of herself and serving her parents. If you don't reflect on your self-reliance at this time, you will be born in vain.

I hope it's not too late. I want to start over and become a really useful person. At least, I can take care of you and protect you. I hope that one day, we can endure the hardships of life and watch the red sunrise together.

The following year, General Guo Ziyi recovered Chang 'an and welcomed Su Zong back. The government agencies in Chang 'an are slowly running again. Taking this opportunity, Brother Wei returned to his post, and after some contacts, he was able to enter imperial academy. From then on, he repented and reformed, and kept his studies. As I said before, there is actually the second half of "opening a house to discuss Yang".

The Anshi Rebellion broke out and my family declined. From then on, I lost my backer, lost my job and began to live in poverty and embarrassment. Who would have thought that I used to throw my weight around on Chang 'an Avenue, and I would be bullied one day? It is too late for people in their twenties to pick up books and learn the four books and five classics, so they have to pick up pens and learn poetry. I didn't expect to make a small achievement in writing poetry. The Ministry of War recommended me to take the exam hosted by the Chinese Book Sheren. Fortunately, my grades are not bad, and the official department agreed to transfer me to the civil service. But after all, there are not enough talents, and the court will send people abroad to be small officials. Accidentally reunited with Yang Kaifu, a good friend when I was young, and talked about the absurd past when I was young, which was both regrettable and emotional. The guests sitting here probably didn't expect that I was such a scoundrel. Probably only old friends like Yang Kaifu know my dark history.

From rogue to poet, from military attache to civil servant, Ge Wei's temperament has changed greatly, and at the same time, his career has changed. The starting point is also quite high. Ge Wei's first civil service post was Luoyang Cheng, which was higher than today's Luoyang Mayor's Secretary. After all, Luoyang was the eastern capital of the Tang Dynasty. In spite of this, Ge Wei is still unhappy. More than a year later, he wrote to ask for his resignation.

Square Fang (tenon) can't fit into the round chisel (tenon), and straight wood can't become a round wheel. Each material has a different purpose. When you use it, you can't keep up with the attributes, and you will only ask for it. I can't bend over for five buckets of rice, nor can I just drink boiled water because I am poor. I want to quit my job, go home and lie down for illness, and be isolated from the noise of the world. Fish swim around with their friends, and birds fly around in droves. Our Wei family, born in Chang 'an, is a scholarly family with a history of thousands of years. Of course, Luoyang is also good here. On a sunny day, Songshan Mountain is magnificent. After the snow, spring began to appear in Heluo area. Although the trees haven't blossomed yet, the weeds are getting greener every day, which makes people very happy. However, since the weather is so good, I'm still writing here, so I'd better go home and farm early.

In the past, Ge Wei might have fallen into the "dust" with these "dust" figures in officialdom and lived happily. But this time it's different. Ge Wei is not the local ruffians and hooligans he used to be. Now, Ge Weier is an honest scholar and a poet who cares about the country and the people. This rolling dust made him confused, disappointed and depressed.

The Anshi Rebellion was not without hardships. If you don't have an official position, just like Mr. Wu Liu, go home to farm and support your family. Yuan Ping, let's go back to Chang 'an and our home. I farm, you weave, I write poems, and you sing.

When I first entered the workplace, I saw something terrible, and my ideal fell violently in the pit of reality. This is perfectly normal. If you fall, you quit. Even if you are a rich second generation, you can't be so capricious. What's more, Viagra is just a rich second generation from a poor family.

As a result of singing in the wind, a young man with a wife drank a lot of northwest wind. I still have to come back and do it. The new job arranged by the imperial court is Cao, a soldier from Henan Province (which governs Luoyang), who is responsible for managing the personnel relations of the army.

As a witness of An Shi Rebellion, Ge Weier has a special complex for the army. Without the loyalist to recover Chang 'an, everything could not come back, and he was grateful for it. However, after so many years of war, he also saw those arrogant soldiers and experts abusing them everywhere, treating people's lives like dirt. Du Fu's "Shi Hao Guan" "At dusk, there are officials who arrest people at night." This is a vivid record of the capture of able-bodied men by government troops in the war.

As a military personnel officer, Ge Wei felt that now that Luoyang City had been pacified, it was time to strictly rectify the army. As a result, in the face of a soldier who provoked trouble and harassed the common people, Ge Wei made a very severe punishment decision, perhaps withholding the soldier's salary or parading the streets, of course, the latter was obviously more reasonable. Otherwise, how to explain why the angry soldiers took Ge Wei to court because of his punishment and started a protracted confrontation? Looking back at history, there will always be some coincidences, which make people feel emotional and interesting. Wei Gang, a rogue in those days, probably didn't expect that after more than ten years, he would be entangled by a small soldier bandit, right?

On the one hand, I was comparable to my bachelor, on the other hand, I didn't want to make trouble and wanted to suppress the government of Ge Wei. This world is no longer a prosperous time for advocating civil servants, but a troubled time where whoever has the army can do whatever he wants. "Spending money is becoming more and more attractive." Ge Wei was disappointed again and gave up his official position.

This time, nearly ten years. Since we left each other, we drifted like clouds, and ten years passed like running water, until we finally got together again.

You and I used to live in Jianghan. I still remember that every time we are together, we always drink endless wine. If we can't finish talking, we won't enjoy ourselves until both of us are drunk. Later, we separated, and we each drifted around like rootless white clouds. Ten years later, we get together to drink again, like running water. Although we meet again, our feelings are still the same, our laughter is still the same, as if we have never been apart, but we have to say that we are all old, with less hair and white hair. You asked me why I didn't go back. Perhaps, between the mountains and rivers in Huaishang, it is my final destination.

Su Shi wrote in "Man Jiang Hong": "When I meet a gentleman and come to a group, I should always look for the spring stone." Zheng Chouyu, a Taiwanese poet, also said in his Remnant Newspaper: "A hundred years ago, heroes were horses, and a hundred years ago, strong men sharpened their swords. Here I sadly unload my saddle. " For thousands of years, literati have an ambition for their official career, but they are incompatible and equally confused.

In order not to be contaminated with dust, Viagra chose a road floating between mountains and rivers. Ten years have passed, and I seem to have returned to the state of being a leisurely constantly chauffeured at that time. However, the embarrassment and wandering of life have always plagued him and his family. Children are hungry, wives are tired, and relatives and neighbors look askance ... There is no real golden house in the book, so even if you hide in the book, you can't escape the burden of life.

I watched Yuan Ping languish for housework until he was seriously ill. Ge Wei finally can't continue to escape. Nearly forty years old, once again set foot on the officialdom. Although he is still in the seventh grade of Jingzhao Mansion, and although he still has a meager salary, Ge Wei also pays extra to support his family and treat Yuan Ping. Soon after, Geweier was promoted to an official position, and was appointed as the seventh product of Chao Please Lang. Wages and silver are about to rise again.

After the date, Ge Wei hurried home without pomp. After re-entering the officialdom, although there was income, the family's livelihood, Yuan Ping's medical expenses and daily entertainment also spent more. Being away from home for a long time, Yuan Ping is a diligent person. He always secretly does housework and helps his family with his hands when Ge Wei is not looking. It turned out to be a chronic disease, but now it has really become an incurable disease. In recent days, it has gradually shown its dying appearance. Wei didn't dare to slack off any of them and took full care of them. I must get this letter of appointment in person and kowtow to Shangguan, otherwise Ge Wei won't leave.

After talking about the appointment, Yuan Ping's mood and improvement are much better. In the next few days, she can drink a few mouthfuls of water. All this will get better in the end, right? The new job was urging, and Yuan Ping was urging, so Ge Wei threw himself into the work with great expectation.

In September of the lunar calendar, the autumn wind rises. Ge Wei, who came home late, suddenly saw the fallen leaves at the door, and the children didn't know whether to come out and sweep them. People who have been ill for a long time have the deepest injury in autumn, and it is difficult to hide their wounds. They must have the fallen leaves swept clean. Wei Gang thought so all the way, passing by the empty yard, and his heart was beating wildly for no reason. Until I came to the bedroom, my heart almost stopped beating because of the low sobbing in the room and the confused shouts of the children. Through the door and push, Yuan Ping had already left.

Touching his wife's bony face, Ge Wei suddenly lost his mind. This is not my wife, this is not my home. At that time, Yuan Ping's cheeks were full of spring, beautiful and graceful. It turns out that people are dead, and their energy is gone. Weygand pulls Yuan Ping's hand, and the cold and rough touch pierces the body. Wei Gang finally came to his senses. Yes, isn't this my wife? I haven't had a good day since I got married. The camping war, the embarrassment of being sued for resignation, even this so-called home is just my temporary residence.

At first, I wanted to take you to see the red sunrise and sing in the wind together. ......

The selected burial day arrived in a blink of an eye. Middle-aged man, I still can't give you a home, even the funeral has to rent another house, and the ceremony of ancestor worship can only be in the carriage. Out of the south gate of Chang 'an, looking south, the Woods in the cemetery are gloomy and gray. In the evening, arrive at the cemetery. I suddenly burst into tears when I thought that this would be your long-term home. I want to sleep here and wake up for you. But no matter how sad you are, the moment of parting will always come. The next morning, I buried you myself and said goodbye to you in fear. Knowing that they would lose their mother forever, the children cried loudly and grabbed my clothes. In this life, I am destined to owe you. Even your funeral is so hasty and simple, and I can't bury you beautifully. Time and beauty finally disappeared in this lush forest and turned into a sigh in the dust, which made me unforgettable for a long time.

Yuan Ping's departure made Ge Wei more and more lonely, helpless, fearful and sad. Everything in the old society was enough to make him collapse. Mossy steps, lonely pillows, broken windows, empty seats and cold pianos ..... Extreme mental sadness will inevitably lead to physical degradation. In the following days, Ge Wei was endlessly transferred among sesame officials, and then resigned due to illness. Seven years have passed since Huxian County in Chang 'an, Liyang County in yanliang district, and Bibi Yuanwailang, one of the four divisions of the punishments department.

After guarding Yuan Ping for seven years, Ge Weier never left Chang 'an, and his gloomy mood never left his heart for a day. This Chang 'an bears the memory of two people for decades. Now that the people of Sri Lanka have passed away, the beauty and suffering of the past have turned into a sea of sadness. How can people resist? Even though many years have passed, the sadness remains undiminished.

Maybe it's pathetic. Let Ge Wei leave this sad place for a while. In the summer of seven years after Yuan Ping's death, 47-year-old Ge Weier was finally promoted and appointed as the secretariat of Chuzhou.

It takes 2000 miles to go from Xi, Shaanxi to Chuzhou, Anhui. Ge Wei's health was not good, and YuMu left home and fell ill immediately. Fortunately, in Chuzhou at that time, there were Xixi (only the grass was luxuriant, and there were warblers in the trees-Wei's Xixi Chuzhou), and there were night springs with dark drops in deep valleys (white clouds buried deep valleys and shady cliffs dripping night springs-Wei's Huai Lang).

Mountain light and water sound have Buddha nature, and plants, birds and insects have spirituality. Immersed in the scenery, Gerwell didn't realize that his soul was developing into a more incredible and wonderful state. After all, no one can resist the attraction of nature.

I worked overtime in the office today and suddenly felt a little cold. It's so cold in the city that people can't help thinking of that old Taoist friend on the mountain. It's too cold up there. Should it be colder there?

In cold days, I still work overtime as before. What about you? What are you doing now? It's cold, will it be harder to study and live?

Why don't I bring a bottle of wine to see you? On this stormy night, we can drink some hot wine to warm up, chat and comfort each other.

But in late autumn, the leaves are all over the mountain, covered with roads and covered with your footprints. How can I find you?

That's all. Between us, who is poor, who is cold, who is comfortable, who is the one who needs friends and wine to comfort?

Living in seclusion, being clean and getting rid of the world of mortals is so close and so far away from Ge Weier. A dusty heart, once it has a little germinated seed, will be out of control. That's what I should look like in the old society, and my sadness should be born.

Confused and lonely, Ge Wei, who is about to know his fate, is no different from when he was young. Confucian scholars who are concerned about their country and people should completely retire from the world, which is not only the limitation of material life, but also the mission and responsibility to the people, the family and the world. Perhaps it is this confusion and loneliness that makes Ge Wei's poems more sentimental and true. It is also the same reason that people can't help but want to get close and like it.

Of course, this kind of sadness, in addition to its own bumpy experience, is mainly the immersion of the great era. In Chuzhou, in this war-torn era, all Ge Wei can do is to maintain stability and enjoy the people. Even so, it is difficult to maintain. Guilt, remorse, not only for family members, but also for people all over the world.

How time flies! At this time last year, we were still parting in Chang 'an, which is full of flowers. In a blink of an eye, it is another season in bloom.

In this eventful autumn, one day is enough to change everything, let alone one year. The war is raging, the future is uncertain, the information is blocked, and the eyes seem to be shrouded in the vast fog, and the future cannot be seen. In the face of such a beautiful spring, I really can't afford any interest and impulse, but I am sad and depressed, secretly disappointed.

I have been suffering from many disasters and diseases for a long time, so I can't devote myself to government affairs. It's really better to be a hermit, but people's livelihood is depressed and they are starving everywhere. If I hide here, how can I be worthy of the country and the people? Where the hell should I go?

Thank you for writing to me and let me settle down a little in this troubled times. I wonder how many full moons it will take to see you next time.

In the late Tang Dynasty, a person's luck was exhausted, which was obviously reflected in everyone, especially those who had experienced the crowing. A few years ago, bloom was warm in the prosperous Tang Dynasty, as if it were just yesterday. Historical events occur alternately in necessity and accident, and finally push the shocking and bloody reality directly to everyone and point to the black hole in the future. Recalling youth and indulging in the past has become a unique mental anesthesia.

Even though he was often stopped or resigned due to illness, even though he was out of tune with the official culture, Ge Wei always fulfilled his mission and stuck to his character. In the winter when he was 48 years old, Ge Wei, who was dismissed from the secretariat of Chuzhou, had no money to return to Chang 'an, so he had to rent a house in Chuzhou by Xixi. It was not until the following autumn that Ge Wei left for Jiangzhou's official residence after receiving the appointment of Jiangzhou's secretariat.

As the party secretary of a prefecture-level city, it's incredible that I have no money to go home after leaving office. But think about it carefully, with Wei's character, it is really possible to fall to this point.

Ge Wei has no social activities. In the Chronicle of Tang Poetry, he commented: "The material should be noble, but Gu Kuang, Liu Changqing, Qiu Dan, Qin Bu and Jiao Ran got the guest list and sang together." Wei Gang, who likes quiet, just has a few friends, and he is still far apart. I'm afraid I'll close the door and pour myself a glass of wine.

Gerwell is honest and self-disciplined. In his letter to his friends, he repeatedly revealed that "I was ill, and I remembered my home in the country. When so many people were idle, I was ashamed to get paid." I always feel that I can't do my job wholeheartedly and dutifully because of my illness. Such a person who is ashamed to get paid may really refuse to get all other allowances.

Ge Wei cares about the country and people. After arriving in Jiangzhou, what he saw was the once eternal Xiongxian County, but now it has become "food is the sky for the people, why not?" It's a pity that the drought has accumulated like a donkey. "The fields are barren, the crops fail every year, and the people are either in exile to escape the war or in debt. Faced with such a situation, Ge Wei's son "went to the county seat for more than a month, and was finally confused. " ...................................................................................................................................................... ............................ I have just arrived in Jiangzhou for more than a month, and I have been offering condolences day and night to appease the production and life of ordinary people and deal with civil strife in Jiangzhou. Is it strange that such a good official with a conscience takes out all his salary and even borrows money to help the poor?

The rivers and mountains may change, but not one's essential nature So, four years later, Ge Weier, who came down from Suzhou Secretariat, once again had no money to go home. I can only live in Yongding Temple outside Suzhou and rent a little land to make a living. Half a hundred old people once again picked up sickles and hoes and plowed the land. This is not a farmhouse to experience life, but a poverty forced by life. Maybe he is really too old and overworked. After such a life lasted for one year, Brother Wei died at the age of 55.

Looking back on Ge Wei's life, his living conditions were ups and downs, from luxurious food to special hukou, from wealthy family to being alone. The attitude towards life has also changed greatly, from illiteracy to frugal reading, from bohemian to noble. How many people have slipped, indulged, lost and fallen in the changeable and turbulent times. Brother Wei, on the other hand, has changed from a street thug and junior high school youth to a landscape poet and an honest official. All this, except nature, is really hard to explain.

Perhaps, after the prosperity, the road can be simple; Wash away the lead, and it will come out naturally. In more than 50 years of life, Viagra finally found itself in the dust. The true self, although proud and lonely, should be what she looks like and what she likes. From this perspective, this dusty sky is also worthy of deep love and nostalgia.

My life, like an elegant spring Bai Xuege, is hard to meet people who know how to appreciate it.

Constantly running around in poverty, wandering around, killing the long years along the Huaihai coast.

In the morning, the trees in the valley are full of rain and dew; In late spring, the birds in the forest are chirping.

Fortunately, I still have a bottle of wine, which can make me feel comforted in this dust.

Yes, it's full of dust. Go to the person you love! As long as I have a ladle of wine, I can spend my life in the dust.