Meet love, meet you (Chapter 6)

(Eleven)

Although Rong Jianghe and Gao Lu were not sure whether Gao Mai was with Bai Wen, they could be sure that the general Lin Xi longed for and worked hard for It's an abyss.

Others say that the people dancing on the edge of the cliff are beautiful and desperate. What about those who run into the abyss with joy? Is he a fool?

Really? During the summer vacation after her sophomore year, Lin Xi assisted her teacher on a project and met her senior brother Gao Mai, who was also assisting the teacher. Although she had heard this name before and had seen him from afar on several occasions, she had never been in such close contact with him.

During that summer vacation, they held meetings, discussed, drew pictures, and calculated together on the same topic. Although they did not continue the topic after school started, they were already familiar with each other.

It was also because of this that Gao Mai suggested that she run for vice president of the student union so that she could take over his class in a year.

This was something Lin Xi had never thought of. Although she has excellent grades, she is simple-minded. From elementary school to university, she never thought about fighting for anything if it wasn't something her teacher assigned her to do. And she also feels that she is not good at dealing with others.

However, Gao Mai said that she has a natural affinity, and not everyone has this advantage.

For example, if someone is too beautiful, others will not dare to get in touch with her; if someone is too smart, others will not dare to get in touch with her; but like Lin Xi, who is both good-looking and smart, and others are willing to The advantage of being close to her is indeed enviable by others. However, Lin Xi was not clear about such advantages.

So, when Lin Xi mentioned this matter to her sisters during the night chat in the dormitory, everyone raised their limbs in agreement, but she looked confused.

"Not to mention anything else, just because you can continue to have a close relationship with your senior brother, you should run for the election."

"Yes! You have been thinking about it for a year "Is it possible that you just want to have a crush? This is a good opportunity for you to turn your crush into a real person."

The words of the sisters in the dormitory touched her heart.

"I don't have a crush! I just admire my senior brother." Lin Xi was still quibbling.

"Which girl's worship of the opposite sex does not include secret love? Just deceive yourself!" said her roommate, tugging at her ears.

Lin Xi still wanted to defend herself, but the sisters were already imagining the scene of her entering the student union and working with her senior brothers, "You plow the fields and I weave the cloth."

"Then you will become the first new-era woman in the history of New China to pursue her male god by virtue of her own ability." The sisters laughed.

"Who said I was the first? My mother is!" Lin Xi said in her heart.

Later, Lin Xi did pass the test and became the vice chairman of the student union as he wished, and continued to associate with his senior brother as he wished; and later, he succeeded his senior brother and became the president of the student union as he wished. However, they did not live a happy life of "you till the fields and I weave the cloth". Among them, there is the reason for Lin Xi's shyness and introversion, and also the reason for the scandal between Gao Mai and Bai Wen. In short, this year only enriched Lin Xi's various experiences and abilities, but did not bring any changes to her relationship with Gao Mai.

So, is she a fool who rushes into the abyss with joy?

Now, Gao Mai appears in her life again. For the twelve years of love and the nine years of waiting, she will step out of it even if she knows it is an abyss.

Lin Xi is very concerned about the progress of the Nancheng project. Publicly, this is the company's key project this year; privately, she has a reason to meet Gao Mai.

In the early stage of the project, there are many things that require the construction unit to contact other departments, such as the design unit, survey unit, supervision unit, supervision department, etc., as well as the housing development company as Party A. Usually, after the foundation sub-project is completed and accepted, the upward construction can be regular and normalized.

Therefore, Shanghui Company also put in a lot of effort, arranging all links very compactly, and cooperated with the project department of Nancheng District A to complete the construction of the basic project in less than two months.

In August, Ningcheng, a second-tier city in the south, finally ushered in its hottest weather of the year.

Because he passed the branch project acceptance, Shang Hui held a banquet on this day. In addition to the company's personnel, there are also personnel from other relevant departments involved in the acceptance inspection. Of course, there is also Gao Mai.

Before the banquet started, Mr. Li raised his glass and said, "Today is not a year-end summary, nor is it a completion acceptance, but the most difficult moment of this year has passed, and everything is developing in a good direction; Nancheng District A The project progress is at least one month ahead of the other three companies. Therefore, we take this opportunity to gather here, firstly to celebrate, and secondly to cheer everyone up. In the second half of the year, we will still need to work together! ”

Mr. Li’s words really aroused everyone’s fighting spirit.

Lin Xi looked at the open and excited face, and was enveloped in the atmosphere of that sentence: everything is developing in a good direction. As long as you work hard, nothing is impossible. Maybe tonight is the best chance. Lin Xi secretly cheered herself up.

Gao Mai is particularly handsome tonight.

Whether it’s the bright smile when toasting with others, or the firm and resolute face when sitting quietly, they all exude magnet attraction.

This made Lin Xi, who was two tables away, look in a daze from time to time.

People kept coming to Gao Mai’s table.

Finally, Lin Xi also picked up the glass of wine in front of him. Get up and walk over.

As she walked towards Gao Mai, some people started cheering and others whistled.

"Assistant Gao, let me toast you. Thank you for your concern for our company." Lin Xi looked at Gao Mai and said.

"Wow! Sister Xixi never takes the initiative to drink!" the young man at the next table booed.

Some people even don’t think it’s a big deal, “Sister Xixi, on behalf of the company, let’s have a heart-to-heart with Assistant Gao!”

The so-called “full of satisfaction” means drinking a lot. One cup. But the goblet in Lin Xi's hand weighed less than half a catty.

"Of course I am willing, where is Assistant Gao?" Lin Xi asked with a smile. This was the first time she looked into Gao Mai's eyes without fear. If it weren't for the lively atmosphere surrounding her, she might have fallen into the lofty eyes.

"No need to be polite, we can do whatever we want." Gao Mai said softly. He knew that Lin Xi was too drunk, so he didn't want to embarrass her. But the voices around him disagreed.

"This can't be done, Assistant Gao, our sister Xixi has already picked up the wine glass!" The person who spoke came over and filled the glass in Lin Xi's hand with wine. Gao Mai could no longer refuse.

"Although my ability to drink is not good, I still have the courage. Senior brother, I respect you!" After Lin Xi said this, he raised his head and drank.

The wine in Lin Xi’s glass was red wine. This amount could not be called intoxicating, but it was enough to make you tipsy.

The content in Gao Mai's glass was high-strength liquor. At this point in the dinner, if he continued to drink this large glass, no matter how good he was, he would have to be supported to walk out of the private room.

Just when Gao Mai picked up the wine glass and was about to drink, a special music bell rang. It's special because people of Gao Mai's age, status, and personality and appearance mostly use the music ringtones that come with their mobile phones and are unlikely to set other ringtones by themselves. Especially the English version of the happy birthday song that is ringing now. When you hear it, you can tell that it is an exclusive ringtone that was recorded by yourself. Lin Xi seemed to have heard that voice somewhere.

"Sorry, I'll answer a call first." Gao Mai apologized to Lin Xi, put down his glass, picked up his cell phone and walked aside to answer it.

Lin Xi did not speak. He held the edge of the table with one hand and his forehead with the other, always with a smile on his face.

She saw the way Gao Mai spoke carefully, saw the change in his expression, and then heard him say loudly: "I'll be over right away!"

In fact, Lin Xi was not drunk. This night, she only drank this glass of wine. However, what happened this night always felt like she was in a dream.

She remembered that Gao Mai came over to her and said sorry to them and said goodbye to them. No one knew what emergency he had, and he didn't ask anyone to send him back. He only said that a friend had something to do and he had to get there immediately. Before the words were finished, the person went out.

Lin Xi was still holding on to the edge of the table, standing unsteadily. She picked up the tall glass of wine, still smiling. She knew that under the cover of the alcohol, no one would see the embarrassment and sadness in her heart even if her face was as red as an apple.

"Then, does anyone want to drink this glass of wine with me?" Lin Xi asked. "If no one drinks with me, I'll drink it by myself!" Lin Xi laughed.

She held her glass high. Through the white liquid, you can see countless gorgeous chandeliers, which are so brilliant that people can't look straight at them. Just like Gao Mai, she could never get close to him and could only stay next to him; just like at this moment, she could only look at those colorful haloes through the wine glass.

She remembered that Rong Jianghe walked over and took the wine glass from her hand; Mu Ye also walked over and explained to everyone on Gao Mai's behalf. In fact, there is nothing to explain. The atmosphere of the scene has already reached this point, and this little episode will soon pass.

However, Lin Xi drank vigorously. After the dinner, she dragged Rong Jianghe to follow her to a nearby bar to continue drinking.

In that place with floating shadows, there are DJs playing songs, couples dancing, some whispering, some shouting loudly; some are excited, some are ambiguous, and some cannot tell the emotion.

Lin Xi suddenly ran to the stage and shouted into the microphone: DJ, can I order a song?

Everyone in the audience looked at her.

""I will run to you with all my strength"! This song is dedicated to my senior brother who I have been secretly in love with for ten years!" Lin Xi closed his eyes and said into the microphone.

There were boos in the audience.

Only if you have been alone can you learn to grow up

Only if you have been separated can you learn to care

If friends are not afraid of being scattered all over the world

But at this moment I want to be by your side

If the world is complicated, false and noisy

I will run towards you with all my strength

Even if it is very difficult Far away, I will definitely arrive

If you talk silly and drunken lies

I will run towards you with all my strength

Even if it is far away Ah, I will definitely arrive

...

Lin Xi kept his eyes closed, his hands on the microphone, and his body swayed from side to side.

Everyone in the audience listened quietly to her beautiful singing voice.

……

If all you have left is scars and armor

I will run towards you with everything I have

No matter how small you are Ah, no one should be lonely

You have me... Wu

When she sang this line, Lin Xi burst into tears.

Fortunately, Gao Lu, who came after receiving a call from Rong Jianghe, appeared in time. She ran to the stage, hugged Lin Xi, and tried to pry off her hand holding the microphone. Lin Xi pulled the microphone out of the stand.

"Isn't it just lovelorn? What's the big deal, right?" Lin Xi asked loudly.

"Yes!" Someone in the audience echoed.

"Who has never been in love? I toast her!" Lin Xi waved her other hand and wanted to approach the microphone stand again, but was stopped by Rong Jianghe.

Gao Lu and Rong Jianghe hugged and supported Lin Xi off the stage.

The light became dim and blurry again, and figures continued to float in the pool. While staggering around, Lin Xi's cell phone fell to the ground.

Just when Gao Lu was about to bend down to pick it up, a tall boy picked it up first and handed it to Lin Xi.

"If you're lovelorn, just take a shower and you'll be fine!" He said to Lin Xi with a smile.

"Thank you!" Gao Lu thanked Lin Xi. In the dim light, she couldn't see clearly the boy standing in the backlight.

"Cheng Yang, here!"

"Here we come!" The boy looked at the three of them, nodded with a smile, and walked sideways inside.

"What took you so long?"

"Arrived long ago!"

December 15, 19, 24, 25

< p> (12)

Some beautiful things always seem to be wrapped in a thick protective film. Lin Xi struggled to push it away, layer after layer. Every time, it seemed that he could reach out and touch it, but every time it was not the end. Lin Xi couldn't scream, trapped in those layers of protective film, she was hopeless, anxious, and suffocated. Lin Xi burst into tears and woke up from a nightmare.

"What's wrong with me?" She wiped the tears from her face.

When I sat up, I felt dizzy, my throat was dry and itchy, and my whole body ached.

The midsummer sunshine is already dazzling, and it reflects on the glass of the window, creating a beautiful aperture.

She suddenly remembered that she also saw such a beautiful aperture last night, which she saw through Gao Mai's wine glass; Gao Mai, he walked away in a hurry, leaving only a thin sentence. She apologized, leaving her alone as a girl standing stupidly in front of everyone; she also heard a familiar female voice, which was Gao Mai's exclusive mobile phone ringtone, which she had never heard before...

Lin Xi thought of what happened at yesterday’s dinner. A salty taste suddenly surged deep in his throat, and his stomach was churning.

She ran into the bathroom, lay on the toilet and retched.

Can't spit anything out. Only tears kept falling.

That heart felt like it was being squeezed hard by a pair of hands, so painful, so painful.

Gao Lu ran in. Saw her sitting on the edge of the toilet.

Gao Lu hugged her and kept stroking her head. "It's okay, it's okay, it will be fine."

"Lulu, why do I feel so uncomfortable?" It took a long time for Lin Xi to say these words while sobbing.

"It will pass!" Gao Lu hugged her tightly.

Seems to be tired. Lin Xi fell asleep again.

During this sleep, she slept until the sun was about to set before she woke up.

She walked out of the room with red and swollen eyes and messy hair.

Gao Lu was still at her home, sitting on the sofa with her parents, silent and silent.

Seeing her coming out, the three of them stood up and quickly came to her side.

"Are you awake? Are you hungry?" Gao Lu hugged her and walked to the sofa to sit down.

"Shall I serve you a bowl of porridge? You haven't eaten all day, so you must be hungry." Mother Lin said.

"Have you eaten?" Lin Xi asked Gao Lu. As soon as he opened his mouth, he realized that his throat was almost speechless.

Mother Lin walked into the kitchen with red eyes.

"We have already eaten. Xixi, it will pass. Ah!" Gao Lu buried his head in her neck.

When Father Lin saw this, he didn't know what to say. He turned around and went into the kitchen to comfort Mother Lin.

"I know. Don't worry about me." Lin Xi patted her shoulder.

"I'm not hungry now. Please accompany me for a walk."

"Okay." Gao Lu said. "Auntie, don't prepare food. I'll go for a walk with Xixi first." Gao Lu said to Mother Lin in the kitchen.

"Huh? Are you going out? It's okay to go for a walk and relax." Mother Lin came out quickly, "Don't come back too late!"

"Okay. Don't worry, Auntie, I'm here!" Gao Lu said with a smile.

"Hey, yes, yes. Thank you so much." Mother Lin patted Gao Lu's shoulder and back.

The community where Lin Xi's family is located is a community for employees of his parents' unit. Although the environment is not as good as the surrounding communities that were later built, it is still green and clean. At this time, when every household is preparing for dinner, you can hear the clinking of pots and pans in lower-class homes, and you can even hear the sizzling sound of oil pans. It was a warm sound of human fireworks. And in this midsummer season, it is a voice full of vitality and hope.

Lin Xi and Gao Lu came to the edge of East Lake, which was separated by a road. There were not many people at this time, and occasionally I met a few passers-by whose shadows were lengthened by the setting sun, probably rushing home.

"Look at how beautiful the sunset is!" Gao Lu looked up at the horizon. That orange-red sun is slowly sinking. Sink into the concrete jungle and into the East Lake.

"Yes, the sun can only be looked at directly at this time." Lin Xi said.

"You don't have to look directly at it, just feel its presence." Gao Lu hugged Lin Xi's shoulders.

"Lulu, tell me, if I didn't take the initiative to go to senior brother last night, would I still have a chance?" Lin Xi leaned his head on Gao Lu's shoulder and asked softly.

"Some things don't exist just because we can't see them. Don't think about them. It will pass. The sun will rise as usual tomorrow." Gao Lu comforted her.

"Can I get by? How will they look at me when I go to the company tomorrow?" Lin Xi said, suddenly choked up again, "In the eyes of others, I am already an older leftover woman who cannot get married. This is the first time I want to confess to someone I like, but I am so ignored by the other person... What a failure do you think I am?"

"Who knew you wanted to confess, except yourself?" Gao Luyong? He tightened his grip on her and comforted her, "Last night was just an unexpected incident during the exchange of courtesy. Others will not guess anything."

"No, some people know that I like senior brother." Lin Xi said.

"Only the senior figures in the company know that. They are not people who gossip everywhere, right?" Gao Lu said.

"Am I really useless? When I was in school, I didn't dare to confess my love to my senior brother; for him, I joined the same company and worked with him on the construction site every day, but I didn't dare to confess my love to him; After waiting for nine years, he finally came back. For the first time, I mustered up the courage to let him know my feelings, but it ended so carelessly. I really failed!" Lin Xi said while sniffing.

"Maybe, this is the time for you to come out."

"But, I don't know if I can come out. I'm used to that kind of thinking, used to that way Missing him, I got used to pretending to have his opinion every time I made a decision..." Lin Xi said. Gao Lu turned her head and looked at Lin Xi. She didn't know that this girl she had known for more than 20 years, who seemed carefree and even a bit tomboy, turned out to have always been so deeply in love with someone in her heart.

"Xixi, I don't know how to comfort you and make you believe me. But look at me, didn't I also spend twelve years on a man? I just started to know Mei When Ling cheated, I was as sad as you are now. At the beginning of the epidemic, I was isolated in the house, desperate for life and myself. I thought I would never get out of this winter..."

< p> Lin Xi also turned his head and held Gao Lu's hand. She had never heard Gao Lu talk about this.

"The residential building I live in is in a very old community. There are no properties and no one took care of it before. But after the epidemic broke out, people from the street and community government came and told us not to go out. Disinfect our community and arrange for people to help us purchase daily necessities. At that time, I thought, at such a dangerous moment, there are still strangers caring about my life, why should I not cherish it? Thanks to me later. The experience of being a volunteer helped me get over my grief quickly. I also often reflected on why I was with Mei Ling.”

“Isn’t it because you love him?”

"I feel now that I may just love the feeling of 'I love him'!" Gao Lu breathed a sigh of relief: "Just like, you like Gao Mai, maybe it's just a kind of inertia. You are used to this kind of inertia."

Lin Xi seemed to understand.

"Why didn't you tell me what happened when you were in Beijing before? At that time, the epidemic here was not as severe as in Beijing. I should have called you more to comfort you and encourage you." Lin Xi looked guilty. First, I felt that I was not by my best friend's side when she was in the most difficult time.

"It's okay. At that time, I felt relieved knowing that you were all fine." Gao Lu smiled and shook Lin Xi's hand.

Yes, as long as time is moving forward, everything will pass.

However, Lin Xi still couldn't imagine how to face her colleagues in the company. How to face Gao Mai in the future.

Lin Xi stayed sleepless all night.

The next day, Lin Xi came to the company anxiously.

"Sister Xixi, morning! Have you rested?" Ahua was still smiling as usual.

"It's okay. I slept all day yesterday, but I'm still dizzy today!" Lin Xi said.

"No wonder you look so bad. I said this drinking capacity is just a matter of practice. As for you, you don't usually eat and drink with everyone, so your drinking capacity has not improved," Ahua said with a smile. "From now on, if you treat more guests, we will be your sparring partners!"

Lin Xi forced out a smile.

Throughout the morning, Lin Xi's thoughts had been restless. She was always thinking about the ringtone on her phone. If the ringtone of her senior brother's cell phone was only this, it would still be explained, but she had heard his cell phone ring several times, but it was never like this sound. That means that this is a ringtone that he specially set for a certain person. And this voice is a female voice, so the phone number probably belongs to this girl.

Based on this guess, although the senior brother has never admitted that he has a girlfriend, it is very likely that he already has a girlfriend. In other words, he has someone he likes in his heart.

The fact that he has been in this state for so many years shows that he has been waiting for this person. So, how deep is his liking and love for her! How can someone else turn around such a deep emotional foundation?

Thinking of this, Lin Xi felt sad and sad. Senior brother, I have also liked you for a long, long time! Lin Xi almost shed tears again.

Fortunately the phone rang. It's from the contract department downstairs.

"Sister Xixi, there is a supplementary agreement. Could you please help send it to Huaxia Company to Assistant Gao. They will ask for it at four o'clock in the afternoon."

"Huh? Oh..." Before Lin Xi could think clearly, the phone hung up. She hurriedly wiped her eyes to prevent the person who brought the materials from seeing the clues.

During lunch, Lin Xi sat and ate alone gloomily.

"Sister Xixi, I missed a piece of information. I will bring it to you after lunch!" It was Xiao Wang from the contract department.

"Oh!" Lin Xi didn't say another word.

"Sister Xixi, are you not willing to help us escape to China?" Xiao Wang asked.

"Huh? No. No. I'm happy." Lin Xi said hastily.

"That's right, Assistant Gao is Sister Xixi's senior brother. We have a great relationship, right?" Xiao Zhang from the Contract Department agreed.

Lin Xi pursed her lips and did not smile. She just ate the food on the plate slowly, although she couldn't taste it.

"You are so mean! Assistant Gao did that to Sister Xixi the night before yesterday. If you ask her to see him today, aren't you embarrassing Sister Xixi!" Lin Xi was preparing to go to the office. , passing by the tea room, I heard Ahua angrily blaming the two little brothers in the contract department.

"Is it that serious? Who hasn't made some jokes about the wine table?" Xiao Wang said.

"That's right, you girls are the only ones making a fuss!" Xiao Zhang said.

"What do you know, you don't need dignity at the wine table? This hurts your self-esteem, okay?" Ahua retorted.

"But it's true. We have been in the company for so many years, and we have never heard that Sister Xixi has a boyfriend, and we have never seen her take the initiative towards the opposite sex. Some time ago, she was so active in going to China, It seems that I really have a special feeling for Assistant Gao. I heard that Assistant Gao also worked in our company before and was in the same project department as Sister Xixi!”

“Really? Are we really old acquaintances?"

"Okay, don't ask about the girl's past. Sister Xixi always takes good care of you, and you are still talking about it. It's really unreasonable," Ahua said! .

"Hey, didn't you mention that first?" Xiao Wang asked with a smile.

"Hey! Okay, okay! Why are you grown men so gossipy?" Ahua waved her hand and walked away holding a cup of coffee. The two young men were left standing there laughing.

December 26, 27, 29, 30