Do you hate cloudy days?

Yes, I hate cloudy days, more than rainy days. When I am nearsighted, my eyes feel blurred, my vision is gray and smoky, I can't seem to see the hope of the future, and I feel deeply insecure. My chest is full of nameless sadness and regret, and the negative and dark mind permeates the whole inner world.

When I was in junior high school, there was a big tree in front of the teaching building. Two people can't hold hands. The shadows of the big branches and leaves block the sunshine in the classroom. When summer comes, everyone thinks the big tree is good, but every rainy day, the whole classroom is dark and I can't wait to change it.

My evaluation of myself is that I am a little neurotic and emotional at ordinary times, crying and laughing for a while, happy and sad for a while, especially in rainy weather, the feeling of sadness, fear and worry will become stronger.

At this time, I am more eager for the warm sunshine than usual, so that my immediate vision is clearer and my heart is more secure. This reminds me of a sentence I read before. The sense of security is the available balance in the card and the full charge of the mobile phone, but it seems that this is not enough. Disposable money and communication tools are only necessary when you go out alone and there is no one to accompany you.

Stay at home and don't worry about food, clothing, housing and transportation. When you lie lazily on the sofa at home, you are warm, comfortable and relaxed. The storm outside the window can't infect your mood. Family words and familiar rooms give you enough sense of security.

Bad weather and some birds seem to have poor prediction ability, such as cloudy days, thunderstorms and crows. Many people hate crows, and their ugly cries seem to bring bad luck. Everyone thinks it is a symbol of bad luck, because it feeds on carrion.

In the past, there was a lush bamboo forest in front of my house. Every time a bird cries sadly, its name is a little disgusting, so I won't write it. It looks a bit like a magpie. When it flies to the bamboo and keeps singing, it will have a bad feeling. People say that something bad will happen when this bird comes.

Night is also a dangerous and mysterious world. At this time, everything around you is so quiet, so suitable for introverted personality to be alone, so quiet that you can hear your own breathing, the cicada singing outside becomes so clear, and the cool evening breeze blows your bare skin.

Sometimes I like to stand alone on the rooftop, looking at the distant mountains in the dark and the little starlight overhead, and slowly breathing the air in the dark. A little cold but comfortable, suddenly the whole person is full of poet's amorous feelings, and a short poem emerges in my mind.

Occasionally, when the brain is thinking, the horror TV scenes in memory will be replayed in the mind. Even if a rational voice in my heart says weakly that all this is not true, fear grows in my heart like weeds.

You can dream freely in the dark, fantasize that you are the protagonist in a TV series, travel through time and space to do what you can't do, and you can do anything you want as long as you dare to think.

People have emotions of emotions every day. For me, troubles always appear, negative emotions should be treated correctly, learn to be impartial, try to find the root of the problem and try to solve it.

For example, pessimism and negative emotions also have another powerful energy. If we want to solve the problem better, we should look at the specific troubles rationally from all angles. What we should do is to manage our emotions, not just control them, and learn to make peace with ourselves.

Now I have found a way to save myself from the dark world, that is, to enjoy the material life that reality has, to enjoy the current food, to express myself wantonly, and to find things that can make me happy, instead of worrying about interpersonal relationships and bad habits all day.