What should a 20-year-old girl look like?

Written by Yan Xiaoyu

I believe that there is a reflex arc hidden in everyone, which is invisible in the body and form. Your kindness, your truth, and your efforts will ultimately affect the so-called destiny. Likewise, your meanness, exaggeration, and laziness will make everything fall into the abyss. There is never any luck or misfortune in this world. All results are nothing more than the initial expression of your heart.

Julia is a college alumnus of my junior high school classmate. We were originally not close friends, but we became friends through an interview last year. At that time, I was working as a special correspondent for a major magazine in my spare time. It was April in Beijing, and the land was not yet warm, so Yang Xu couldn't wait to float in the air and collect in clumps, which was annoying. There is simply no beauty like that in the ancient poem "The east wind blows and the grass blossoms, and the poplars and apricot flowers bloom." With a bit of annoyance and dissatisfaction with the unknown future, I struggled to choose that topic.

Magazines are always one step ahead of reality. The logic of the media industry is to foresee the practicality of information before the established results are released. After receiving the topic list of "Graduation Season", I was responsible for the post-90s generation. I probably needed to find 3 to 5 prospective graduates with characteristics born in the 1990s in Beijing universities. My friend Zhang Xiaoying from junior high school recommended to me a senior student from Beihua University (Beijing University of Chemical Technology) who she thought was excellent and very individual, who is the protagonist of the story, Julia.

That day we made an appointment in a coffee shop in Heping West Bridge. It was very quiet and the decoration style was a bit commercial. She was accompanied by several friends, all probably around 20 years old, chatting and sitting down as if it was a small party.

"A cup of lemon black tea, thank you"

"A cup of lemon black tea, thank you"

The two people who said the same thing looked at each other blankly and laughed. .

The interview went very smoothly. Julia looked confident, as if she had the ability to withstand something that was inconsistent with her age. At that time, she was interning in a state-owned enterprise. She gave up the two glittering gold-plated paths of postgraduate entrance examination and studying abroad, and chose to adapt to society early. In the face of my emotional questions from time to time, her methodical answers were very rational: "The biggest difference between the workplace and school is the binding force. Compared with the arbitrary rules in school, the rules and regulations in the workplace are clearer. For example, if you miss a day of work, you will be deducted. "Although it is direct, this reasonable and ruthless attitude can help us learn to survive quickly." After finishing speaking, she sipped the black tea and stuck out her tongue, only to realize that it was a bit hot... This time we met, she was independent, independent, and independent. The girlishness that popped up from time to time made my memory of her particularly profound.

Later I heard that she graduated and went to China Central Network Television. The six-month long probation period, low salary, high pressure, and the need to find a way to release herself amidst the intensive work were not easy.

When we are young, we will draw a big pie for ourselves very carefully, then fill it in and write the seasoning list, use dreams and enthusiasm as seasonings, and add all our desire for freedom in the future into a colorful pie. Dishes, everyone hopes that this dish will sell for a high price. But life is not a business after all. There is no exchange of equal value, and there are no rules to be found. Glib words may be the secret to our promotion, but being down-to-earth is the courage to be a human being. During that time, Julia used her meager salary to pay the rent, and she always recalled the days when she was the most successful student in school. A good person will naturally have a good trump card. For four years in college, Julia was the kind of academic who got through with a scholarship. Her grades, popularity, and work ability were all outstanding. But once you leave school, it's a different world, and you have to learn everything from scratch. She was so embarrassed that she couldn't hold on any longer, so she decided to work part-time at McDonald's. Although the money she earned was not much, saving it could help her meet her immediate needs. After getting off work at 6 o'clock every day, she was able to rush to Wangfujing as quickly as possible to get on with her next meal. Round work.

Walking back under the tiny stars at night, it seems like you are holding a piece of dream that cannot be dissolved.

Although poor, she is still happy. Slowly, Julia finds a better way to face reality. The "Wallenda mentality" in psychology warns everyone that it is enough to concentrate on doing things and not to delve too deeply into the meaning. Since you can't get a high salary temporarily, it's better to invest in patience and long-term efforts. Since it is boring to be exhausted mentally and physically, it is better to change the angle and pursue freedom again. She had a great time working at McDonald's. She enjoyed talking to every customer. Sometimes when she met foreign friends, she would tease each other with her poor English.

In addition, she began to run seriously and find time to cook. She followed her interests to learn to dance and take the driving license test. She freed up time to walk in the suburbs after being bored in the house. All her emotional rhythms were controlled by herself. All become relaxed and relaxed.

Last month, Julia and I shared the secret of the No. 300 bus while eating in Lukang.

After the summer weather forecast was broadcast, this categorical city lost its rush and straightforwardness during the day and became gentle. The street lights on the road were lit up one after another, and the treetops were blown by the breeze. , middle school students wearing school uniforms and wandering around the streets are happy with each other. Everything looks very bright and full.

Many times when she was exhausted and at a loss what to do, Julia would choose to rush out of the house at that moment and get on the No. 300 bus. This is a train that runs around the Third Ring Road in Beijing. It will pass by the busy Sanyuan Bridge, the bus White collars and gold collars occupy half of Shuangjing, then turn to Liuli Bridge in the south, Princess Tomb in the west, and finally return to the place where they got on the bus in the first place. It was about a two-hour drive. She was wearing headphones and playing the most soothing music. Her inner restlessness was gradually soothed by the scenery outside the window. When she got home, she was already looking optimistic.

"Hey, let me tell you, you are not allowed to tell others. The summer night in Beijing, the 300 bus at 8 o'clock, is really beautiful!"

She almost didn't Mentioning the reasons why emotions have no place to rest, but repeatedly emphasizing this secret that is not a secret in the first place. There are too many young girls rolling in the imperial capital. Most of the time, we struggle, we compare, we are entangled in designer bags and rent. External achievements have almost become a direct way to judge whether a person is valuable. reflect. Some have lost their lives in order to survive, some have lost their vitality in order to make a living, and most of them have never looked up at the lovely world outside. The wind has risen, the clouds have dispersed, and the sky has turned blue. Shouldn't we also stop and take a walk?

At the age of 20, we are poor, but we have the most abundant time capital.

At the age of 20, we are naive, but we are sympathetic to the most mature courage and expectations.

At the age of 20, we are clumsy, but we accept the kindest kindness from strangers.

The best state for a person is to forget the state. How can a twenty-year-old young girl not be troubled by love, work, and the unpredictable future and choices? But we must understand that we cannot escape this solid growth process. Instead of rushing blindly, it is better to enjoy dormancy and plant the seeds that enrich our hearts in the barren reality.

The last time I saw Julia was at the graduation exhibition of Central Academy of Fine Arts (Central Academy of Fine Arts). We walked side by side on the clean and clear campus, talked about our ideal selves, talked about the current situation, and still felt the same. There is a lot of confusion and turbidity, but so what.

Anyway, girl.

If you cannot live to be a beautiful rose, you might as well hold a bouquet of orchids and give them to the world as a "summer escape" gift.