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The Republic of China was a good era, which produced many strange girl, such as Lin, Zhang Ailing. The Republic of China was also a bad time, which made the wonder woman, like these flowers, unable to grow naturally in the sun and rain, but made them suffer from "severe wind, frost and knife light". Some flowers survive when they are young and then grow old gracefully, such as Jiang Yang and Zhang Ailing. Some flowers died prematurely in the wind and rain when they were young, such as Xiao Hong, a lonely flame rose, growing on the banks of the Hulan River in the ice and snow.

Xiaohong, just looking at this name is very common, and there are many women named Hong. It happened that such a common name, its owner is an unusual and talented northeast woman. She has many reputations, such as one of the four talented women in the Republic of China, the most artistic writer among the writers in Northeast China, and Luo, the literary goddess in the 1930s. Of course, the most noteworthy sentence is that Mr. Lu Xun praised her as "the most promising female writer in China".

She has been wandering all her life, and she has never been cherished and cared for all her life. She was born in the same year as Jiang Yang, but her life experience can't be compared with that of Jiang Yang. Like Lin, she was loved by many men, but no one wanted to protect her until she died. Like Zhang Ailing, she had an unhappy childhood, but unlike Zhang Ailing, she had at least a stable old age. Like others, she has amazing writing talent, but she had to stop writing early because of fate.

Xiao Hong was only thirty-one when she died in Hong Kong. Thirty-one is a mature and beautiful season for women. When an ordinary 3 1 year-old woman enjoys the moment when her husband loves her and her children are satisfied, Xiao Hong can only recall her life in her hospital bed. In her words, half-life.

She recalled her childhood and youth, her wandering experience in this half-life, and the people who were important to her in this half-life, such as Grandpa, Xiao Jun and Lu Xun. Xiao Hong's life was dark and bleak, but these three people gave her light and warmth. ?

Let's talk about Xiao Hong's childhood lamp-Grandpa.

1 911June1Lunar Dragon Boat Festival, which happened to be the day when people paid homage to Qu Yuan. She was born in a small county called Hulan, three miles away from Harbin. Now it is a district of Harbin, and its name is Hulan. Perhaps this is because later generations did not change their names to commemorate Xiao Hong. How did the name Hulan come from? Because Hulan River, a tributary of Songhua River, flows through here, people named it Hulan. Hulan town is named after Hulan River, but it is still remembered by people because of Xiao Hong.

Xiao Hong was originally named Zhang Naiying. His ancestors were not from the Northeast, but fled from Shandong to do business here, and the efforts of several generations took root in the Northeast. By Xiao Hong's grandfather's generation, the Zhang family had reached its heyday, and family conflicts became more and more fierce and acute. So my grandfather moved to Hulan with his family.

Xiaohong's grandfather is not her own grandfather. Because Xiao Hong's father Zhang Tingju is not his grandfather's own son, but his grandfather adopted him from his cousin after his own son died. Although there is a little blood relationship, it is not biological after all. Grandpa thinks it's nothing, but Grandma Fan, who is deeply poisoned by the feudal thought of son preference, has always been worried about it, especially paying attention to carrying on the family line.

Xiao Hong is the first daughter of Zhang Tingju and his first wife, Jiang Yulan. First of all, my daughter's identity is very disappointing, and it coincides with Memorial Day, the so-called untimely month. This unlucky day makes people feel even more unlucky, and it is inevitable to think of the long-standing proverb: a man born in a bad month kills his father and a woman kills his mother.

It happened that Jiang Yulan was ill for a long time after giving birth to Xiaohong, which made her even more disliked by her grandmother, father and mother. After having a younger brother, Zhang Xiuke, grandma and others have no time to take care of Xiaohong. Who told her it was her daughter, born on Memorial Day? Later, my mother died and my father married a new mother. Xiaohong doesn't love her more in this family. Fortunately, grandpa is the only one who is different at home. When everyone hates Xiaohong, only my grandfather doesn't hate her, because she is a daughter and was born on Memorial Day. On the contrary, my grandfather has always been concerned about Xiaohong. He is the only person in that family who loves Xiaohong. Grandpa is also the only person Xiao Hong cares about in that family. For her, home with grandpa is home.

Xiao Hong's life was unfortunate. She started as soon as she landed, but fortunately, her grandfather was there. Grandfather was the first lamp in her dark and desolate life, which gave her the first ray of light and warmth.

Xiaohong used to play with her grandfather in his garden when she was a child. Whenever grandpa wears a straw hat to serve flowers, fruits and vegetables in the garden, Xiaohong learns to turn over the soil, sow seeds and water with grandpa. This vegetable garden belongs only to her and her grandfather. These flowers and plants are also her favorite treasures besides grandpa. Grandpa not only took Xiaohong to play, but also taught her to read and write. Xiaohong moved in with grandpa after grandma died. In order not to leave grandpa alone. Grandpa and grandson cherish each other. It was her grandfather who let Xiao Hong know that besides indifference and hatred, there is warmth and love in life. So naturally sensitive and lonely, she turned to this warmth and love, with eternal longing and pursuit.

1929, my grandfather is critically ill. When Xiaohong hurried home from school, her grandfather, who often took her to play in the garden, taught her to read and write, and gave her warmth and care, had already become cold, as cold as the weather in the northeast, which made people unwilling but had to accept. Xiaohong rushed over and began to cry. She felt sad because her grandfather left, and the only person who loved her in the world never felt desperate again. As she herself said, "I feel that after my grandfather died, no one sympathized with me anymore ... the rest were cruel people."

"Grow up quickly, it will be fine when you grow up." This is a sentence that grandpa often said to Xiaohong when he was a child. With grandpa gone, Xiaohong can only grow up alone. In fact, Xiao Hong did not lead a good life when she grew up. She spent her whole life in exile and loneliness. And she is such a warm and virtuous person who does not give up love and freedom.

She should not have thought that grandpa's departure was just the first joke that God played on her. In the days to come, there will be a second and a third such joke.

After my grandfather, let's talk about Xiao Jun, the second important man in Xiao Hong's life.

On the evening of July 1932, Jun Xiao met Hong Xiao in Harbin Dongxingshun Hotel. "Her almost round face is embedded in her tousled hair, and she has extremely big eyes." This is Xiao Jun's first impression of Xiao Hong.

When Xiao Jun first met Xiao Hong, it was her most embarrassing time. At that time, Xiao Hong was pregnant, with messy hair and no color in her pale face. She was shut up in a dark room full of sundries by the hotel owner, and she hasn't eaten for several days. Regarding Xiao Hong's situation, Xiao Jun has learned something about it in his letter of help to Pei Xinyuan, editor-in-chief of International Association. She ran away from home in order to study in Peiping. When I was in Beiping, I was abandoned by my cousin because I had no money. Back in Harbin, she was abandoned by her fiance Wang Enjia because she had no money. In the months that she and Wang Enjia lived together in Dongxing Shun Hotel, they had already owed more than 600 yuan. Wang said he went home to get the money and never disappeared after he left. Xiaohong was left alone to pay her debts. The boss said Xiaohong would be sold to a brothel after giving birth. Xiao Jun's trip to Dongxing Shun Hotel was entrusted by Pei Xinyuan to deliver books to Xiao Hong.

Xiao Jun looked around. There were some scribbled papers on the table on the bed. This little poem is written on a piece of paper:

? "Last May.

It is the season when I eat green apricots in Beiping.

This may.

The pain in my life

It really tastes like an apricot. "

He asked, "Who wrote this?"

Xiao Hong replied, "I did it when I was bored."

He asked again, "What about these paintings?"

Xiaohong replied, "It's me, too."

Xiao Jun was a little surprised. Perhaps this surprise contains more admiration, so when Xiao Hong asked if he could sit down and talk, he really sat down.

They hit it off at first sight, from poetry and songs to calligraphy and painting, from literature to philosophy. Perhaps what impressed Xiao Hong most was Xiao Jun's explanation of the philosophy of love: love is love; If you don't love it, you leave it behind.

The next day, Jun Xiao came to Dongxing Shun Hotel to visit Xiaohong. She doesn't want him to go, but he wants to stay. Love at first sight, love at first sight.

Xiao Jun appeared in Xiao Hong's most desperate time. This made Xiao Hong see the dawn of freedom again, and unexpectedly brought her fantastic love. The man she expected came so timely and suddenly that she fell in love with him before she had time to think. Although Jun Xiao is eager to save Xiaohong, 600 yuan is also a huge sum of money for him. He is not much richer than Xiaohong. But Xiao Jun is poor, but he is not pessimistic at all.

Maybe God was merciful and gave Xiao Hong some luck. Let the Songhua River burst its banks and flood the whole city of Harbin. Xiaohong escaped from the hotel. After leaving, Xiao Hong gave birth to her and Wang Enjia's daughter in the hospital. As soon as the baby was born, she gave it away, and then she began to fall in love with Xiaojun formally and exclusively. Xiao Hong certainly didn't expect that being with Xiao Jun was another unfortunate beginning of her life.

Everyone knows that Jun Xiao is a passionate person. He likes women, very much. He loves Xiao Hong, but not just Xiao Hong.

After leaving the hospital, Xiaojun stayed in the hotel with five dollars given by Xiaohong and Pei Xinyuan. However, now it is not Dongxing Shun, but a Russian hotel called Europa. It was really a penniless day, but it was also the happiest day of the second primary school, especially Xiao Hong. Everyone says they were poor together, but Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun seem to be an unusual couple. Xiao Jun let Xiao Hong rest at home, write articles and go out to earn money to support her. Although they are poor, they are not pessimistic, unhappy or complaining. On the contrary, it is very poetic and chic. Xiao Hong devoted herself to writing in this poor period, and co-authored a collection of poems "Trekking" with Xiao Jun during this period, and began to make a name for herself in the Northeast literary world. Xiao Jun fell in love with Xiao Hong at first sight because of his talent, and now he has led Xiao Hong to the road of literary creation.

1934 June 12, the situation in Harbin became more and more severe, and Xiaojun left Harbin for Qingdao. From then on, Xiao Hong began a wandering life and never set foot on this land in Northeast China until her death. Mr. Lu Xun said that Nora's fate after she left either came back or degenerated. But Xiao Hong chose the third way: drifting.

From 1934 to 1938, Xiao Hong traveled with Xiao Jun. From Qingdao to Shanghai, from Shanghai to Linfen, from Linfen to Xi 'an. In these four years, the two stopped worrying about their lives, but their feelings gradually became bad. Xiao Jun betrayed Xiao Hong more than once and didn't feel anything wrong. When they were in Shanghai, their relationship deteriorated obviously. Xiao Hong left Shanghai on 1937 to live in Japan for some time to avoid emotional troubles. When Xiao Hong was in Japan, she was always accompanied by Xu Yuehua, the wife of her good friend Huang Yuan. Later, Xu Yuehua returned to China early, and Xiao Hong stayed in Japan. During that time, Xiao Hong always called her the golden age. In the golden age of calm, Xiao Hong accidentally learned the news of Lu Xun's death from the newspaper. This is undoubtedly a bolt from the blue for her. She decided to return to China. But what she didn't expect was that there was one more thing she couldn't accept. After returning home, Xiao Caihong learned that Xiaojun cheated again. The other party is Xu Yuehua. At that time, Xu Yuehua was pregnant. Faced with this situation, Xiao Hong must be heartbroken and powerless.

After returning from Japan, Xiao Hong met Duanmu Hongliang. Maybe it's because I'm too tired and painful to be with Xiaojun. She can't stand Xiao Jun tearing her and hugging others. In Xi 'an, Xiao Hong finally broke up with Xiao Jun. Then Duanmu Hongliang and I went to Wuhan to confirm our relationship. I haven't seen Jun Xiao since. Xiao Hong began to wander again, only this time there was no Xiao Jun.

After only four months in Wuhan, Xiao Hong took Xiao Jun's children and fled to Chongqing by boat to escape the critical situation. After he and Xiaojun gave birth to a child in Jiangjin, the child convulsed and died three days later. After being quiet in Chongqing for two years, Xiao Hong chose to leave because she couldn't stand the interference of gunfire, and decided to go to Hong Kong at the suggestion of a friend. At 65438+65438 in0940+654381October +07, Xiao Hong and Duanmu Hongliang flew to Hongkong. Here she continued the career she loved all her life-literary creation, until her death on 19421October 22nd.

Before she died, Xiao Hong was still emotional when she recalled herself and Xiao Jun's past. In the hospital bed, Xiao Hong told Luo around her that if Xiao Jun knew, she would definitely come to save her. She still hasn't forgotten Xiaojun, or never thought about it. After all, they lived a poor life together. She hates and loves Xiao Jun. This man saved her from despair, but one person pushed her to another despair. Love satisfied her and destroyed her.

Perhaps the most ridiculous thing in this world is to meet an affectionate person. But no one can deny that even Xiao Hong, Xiao Jun gave her love, light and warmth.

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The third important figure in Xiao Hong's life is undoubtedly Mr. Lu Xun. This teacher is also a friend and treats her as a grandfather.

The fate of Xiao Hong and Mr. Lu Xun began in primary school. At that time, Xiao Hong's two favorite subjects were Chinese and painting. Coincidentally, both of them highly admire Mr. Lu Xun's works. Xiao Hong is naturally influenced by it. Perhaps at that time, the admiration for Mr. Lu Xun was deeply rooted in Xiao Hong's heart.

1934 10, Xiao Hong and Xiao Jun wrote a letter to Mr. Lu Xun in the name of Xiao Jun. At that time, Xiao Hong had finished the creation of Life and Death Field. They were very excited after Mr. Lu Xun wrote back. 165438+ 10, the second primary school arrived in Shanghai to meet Mr. Lu Xun.

Xiao Hong and Mr. Lu Xun became very good friends. Xiao Hong said that Mr. Lu Xun loved her as much as his grandfather. He praised her as the most promising female writer in China, personally prefaced and planned to publish her Life and Death Field, hosted a banquet to introduce her to many celebrities in Shanghai literary world, and brought her into Shanghai literary world hand in hand. The publication of Life and Death Field made Xiao Hong famous in Shanghai literary world. Her literary career began to peak. All this benefited from the generous help of Mr. Lu Xun. Everyone knows that Mr. Lu Xun loves talents very much and is very willing to promote talented young people. Xiao Hong is certainly not the only young writer that Mr. Lu Xun appreciates, but he is the most special one that Mr. Lu Xun treats everyone. He appreciated her talent, first guiding her to write, and later even guiding her to love life. Xiao Hong went to Japan to listen to what Mr. Lu Xun said. He said that Xiao Hongtai was involved in emotional life and had a stubborn personality. She and Xiaojun are like two hedgehogs. They both hurt when they get close. Xiaohong was silent because Mr. Wang was right. During the conflict with Jun Xiao, Hong Xiao was unhappy. She has nowhere to go and no one to talk to, so she has to go to Mr. Lu Xun's house every day. Xiao Hong knows that only Mr. Lu Xun won't give her a dirty look and a cold eye, and also understands her depressed mind. Because in her eyes, Mr. Lu Xun is like his grandfather. After Lu Xun's death, Xiao Hong was very sad, just like when his grandfather died.

Xiao Hong said, "Do you know? I am a woman. A woman's sky is low, her wings are thin, and the burden around her is heavy. Yes, I want to fly, but at the same time I think I will fall. The greatest pain and misfortune in my life is because I am a woman. " But as a woman, no one does not want to be collected, properly placed and carefully preserved, and Xiao Hong is no exception. She pursues freedom all her life, but she is not interested in politics, addicted to writing and sad about love, but she has to struggle and wander. How she wishes someone could spare her from surprise, pain, wandering around and being helpless. But such people have never been here. And she knows it.

Zhang Xiaoxian said that no matter what a woman seems to want, she only wants two things, a lot of love and a lot of security. These two things, Xiao Hong has never been practical and completely owned. As a woman, Xiao Hong is unfortunate. But it's not entirely unfortunate. At least in her dark and desolate life, these three men gave her light and warmth.