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Before graduation, she still didn't promise He Han Yun's pursuit. Four years of classmates, there is only a faint friendship between them and his deep unrequited love for her.

In the past four years, no matter how much he did for her, ordinary girls would be moved to tears, and how much he really paid, she was indifferent. For her, those appointments, words and promises are so thin and meaningless.

He didn't even hold her hand, but he already felt that a real heart had lived and died hundreds of times in front of her.

Unrequited love is unsuccessful, is it considered lovelorn? Not counting! How can you be lovelorn without a formal relationship? He comforted himself.

When studying abroad, he still insisted on putting a thick graduation album in his suitcase so that he could see her photos every day. There is her name "Zheng Xinyun", her favorite cartoon Snoopy pattern and her handwritten life motto: "Reaching for the stars may not be what you want, but it won't get your hands dirty. 」

After studying industrial design in London, he became a lonely international student, and his only leisure activity after class was watching the clouds in the sky. When he first arrived in London, he was not used to gloomy weather, but the changeable clouds solved his homesickness. The clouds in the sky in London are like the clouds in his hometown.

It turns out that there is a person hidden in my heart that can be taken away by the ends of the earth.

Later, I learned from my classmates that his "cloud" did not stay in my hometown. Zheng Xinyun applied for an Australian school and transferred to information management. When he received the news, he didn't complain that she had left without saying goodbye, as if he had long been used to it. In her opinion, he has never been the kind of person who needs to explain anything.

He never hated her, so he can fall in love with her again anytime and anywhere.

A few days after the email was sent, he didn't expect a reply, but unexpectedly received her reply. A few short lines tell the bitterness of international students.

I find my adaptability is poor. I still want to go home every day for several months, but I am really sorry for my single mother when I think of spending so much money and giving up halfway ...]

For the first time in many years, he felt that she regarded him as a friend. A most ordinary friend, don't be wary of him everywhere. Is it because people become less resistant in a foreign land, or is she deliberately lowering the threshold for him to pursue her? He knows it very well. However, the strong desire to love her has made him temporarily forget the difference between a gentleman and a villain.

"Why not go in?" He told himself in his heart that he was full of ambition.

Put on your shirt again and embark on the road of love. Everything went smoothly from emailing her every day to calling her every night to comfort her. In order to pay the huge overseas telephone bill, he even secretly took two odd jobs illegally without telling the instructor.

That year, one night before Christmas, she cried on the overseas phone every night and finally burst into tears.

"Thank you!" She thanked him for the first time. "If it weren't for you these days, I really don't know how to live. 」

He is good at waiting and won't miss this opportunity easily. "In fact, I have always been so attentive to you. I'm sure you know! 」

"I ..." She paused for a few seconds. "I'm just afraid, afraid ..."

He understood her thoughts. In the email exchange, she repeatedly mentioned her unhappy childhood growth experience, which made her worry about happiness exceed her expectations.

"Give me a chance, let me prove to you that happiness is not so difficult, ok? 」

She knew she couldn't escape, "all right! Let's have a try. 」

Hanging up the phone, he ran excitedly in the snowy street and kept shouting. In the ice and snow, only he and his newborn lover are still awake, alive and dancing.

On Christmas Eve, the school has a week's Christmas holiday, and he has to finish two research reports during the holiday. However, this did not stop him from going to see her. Although I don't know how to overcome the difficulties of studying and money at the same time, he has the ticket from London to Melbourne.

In order to give her a full surprise, he chose a homestay from the Internet, just opposite her student apartment. If the map on the webpage is accurate enough, he can even see the lights in her room from a distance, and even in different rooms, he can accompany her to sleep and wake up.

From the picture, the distance between dream and reality is not as far as that of airplane flight. Full of his faith and expectation for love, 747 flew to the place where she studied alone. But in real life, the distance between two hearts does not necessarily change because the body is close or apart.

At dusk, he finally checked into the homestay opposite her. He looked at her dormitory. Oblique sight, across the street, fell in front of her windowsill, and Snoopy's pendant made him more sure that his beloved lived in it. However, a tired body and a happy heart can't wake up the warmth in the house.

There is no light in her room. The phone, no one answered.

At midnight, when he was catching up on his homework in front of his laptop, he kept staring at her windowsill. Jet lag is just one reason why he can't sleep. Another reason why he can't sleep is excitement and worry-where did she go?

Until the early morning, he turned off the computer, and her doors and windows were still closed.

The landlady prepared a simple breakfast with toast, coffee, milk and boiled eggs. He has no appetite. To kill time, he eats breakfast slowly. She didn't go to her student apartment until ten o'clock

When he rang the doorbell, he naively imagined that she would open the door. Just as he gave her a surprise, he also gave him a surprise in return.

Unfortunately, there was no response.

Everything was so quiet that he was afraid.

Back at B&B, he almost never left home, and even forgot the time to eat. When he was catching up on his homework in front of his laptop, he paid attention to her windowsill. At noon on the third day, I slept on the keyboard because of fatigue and was awakened by the sound of computer crash.

A neurotic landlady, who was seventy years old, said to him seriously, "I'll call an ambulance." Exhausted, he heard the unknown desolation in this sentence and burst into tears.

"Young man, your eyes are full of sadness. The landlady's words added to his pain.

He explained the purpose of his visit to her, and her eyes filled with tears.

"It is the privilege of young people to waste their lives for love." She said: "Unfortunately, youth and love are the most perishable things in the world. 」

She is familiar with the landlord of the student dormitory and helps him find out the whereabouts of Zheng Xinyun. The other person's answer is simple-I went on holiday with my classmates and didn't come back until Christmas.

"At least, you can spend Christmas Eve with her. The landlady's suggestion became his only hope.

Christmas is particularly long, and He Han Yun hopes that Zheng Xinyun will come back early, even if it is only one hour earlier.

Christmas music flutters on every street; Every tree shines with a pleasant light; Everyone's heart is full of hope for their lover.

Only he, still lonely.

As time approached, his hopes were dashed bit by bit. Not only did she not come back early, but she didn't come back on time. The image in front of the windowsill is still dark, announcing that she may not even come back.

Should we thank her? Two reports have been completed.

Life without love is full of school work. Christmas Eve without love and lessons is so long.

At dawn, He, standing on the windowsill, finally saw a car coming from far and near and stopped at the entrance of the student dormitory. Several students got off the bus with a bang, and the joy of Christmas celebration was heard in the voice.

He clearly saw Zheng Xinyun, the last one to get off the bus, waiting for the bitter and romantic warmth, and at the same time turned into two lines of tears, pouring out from his eyes.

In the blur, a picture appeared-Zheng Xinyun and his male driver partner kissed goodbye in the street.

Although she only kissed him gently on the forehead, it was enough to break his heart in an instant.

He watched her go upstairs with tears in his eyes. After waiting for a few days, I finally saw the light on the windowsill. A few days ago, he thought that when the light came on, it was the moment when they met again in a foreign country. He would whisper her name and wait for her eyes to look back with surprise and joy.

But at this moment, the light is on, but he can only choose silence.

Life cannot be rehearsed, and love cannot be repeated. The plot of two people performing together didn't follow his script. Is there not enough tacit understanding? Or will he and she never be on the same stage? He finally realized that he was redundant, and this was not the place where he should come.

After these days of hard waiting, he couldn't sleep every night, but fell asleep in the heartbreaking night. Sadness is more terrible than heart death. When the heart dies, the body loses its vitality.

I don't know how long I slept, but someone kept hitting him in my dream. Half asleep, he realized that it was his fist. When I woke up at seven, I heard the sound of knocking at the door. When I opened my eyes again, Zheng Xinyun was already standing in front of her.

An unexpected surprise turned into two unexpected embarrassments.

"The landlord said that a friend came to see me and waited for a few days. I think it might be you. " She guessed.

The answer means nothing to him.

"Temporary decision. The school suddenly announced a holiday, and I had nowhere to go. I happened to see an advertisement for discounted air tickets. I want to see you. He lied, not for his own face, but because he didn't want her to have too much mental burden.

She offered to accompany him for half a day and go sightseeing in the city. He secretly changed the return time and decided to fly back to London early, the flight that night.

"Since there is no time for sightseeing in the city, at least let me take you to the airport." Sightseeing in the city for half a day, condensed into seeing you off at the airport. She was also relieved.

Draw lots to sit down, he is going to enter the customs, and he can't help but ask, "Is he good to you? 」

"You, look!" She should have thought of the parting kiss on Christmas Eve, his panoramic view. "Maybe you don't believe it, these two days are just ripe. Beijinger, senior. 」

"What attracts you to him? 」

"He said," Give me the stars. " Her eyes were red. "He was very kind to me. I know, you are very kind to me. However, I can't just fall in love with you. The nicer men are to me, the more I want to run away. I don't even know. Why do I always feel that a man who can give me happiness is unreliable? 」

After so many years, she fell on his shoulder and cried for the first time. He also cried, and she cried for her empty happiness. He cried because he couldn't help her.

"Rest assured to love! Love him well, I bless you! Don't think so much, life! That's it. Happiness is the most important thing now. 」

He turned away and never looked back. I would rather cry at the end of her invisible love than leave his weakness in her memory.

With the answer, although the answer was heartbreaking, he flew to the starry sky at night and returned to his lonely journey. Loss is also a necessity. Even if the time you have is so short; Being able to pay for a person without regrets is happiness.

He thought: This is the consciousness of love, and Qianshan will never regret it.

This year, spring in London came late.

Han Yun, who is immersed in the library every day, would hardly notice that the Lunar New Year has passed and the Lantern Festival is flying around with the calendar, if it weren't for the reminders of several China students.

Carefree life is a new experience of his life. For so many years, there has been a cloud in his heart. Since she drifted away, his heart and life have been empty.

Without love, he can only concentrate on his studies. The overseas telephone fee has been saved, and the money earned by working is being transferred to another object worthy of investment, not girls, but a set of sophisticated computer drawing instruments. With the intention of continuing his doctoral studies, he decided to buy another set of equipment at the suggestion of the guidance professor, so that he would not have to queue up with his classmates in the research room every day to grab the opportunity.

On April Fool's Day, an email signed "Zheng Xinyun" appeared in his computer with the theme "Your heart is the truest! At first, he thought it was just an April Fool's joke. Only when he opened the e-mail, did he make sure that it was not a prank. After all, love played too many jokes on him.

Not afraid to laugh, but lovelorn!

The other party offered, but this time, he felt that I was too good to him.

Maybe I'm not mature enough to know how to be measured. Paying too much for him has become his pressure.

His ruthlessness reminds me of the injustice I did to you. God was fair and rewarded me quickly.

I don't know the meaning of commitment more and more. A man who promised to be a star for me finally left me easily.

No wonder, my mother said that men are really unreliable!

You, an exception?

God, he doesn't know whether to thank or complain. Love God, don't give him up. Is it another time to take advantage of people's danger and take advantage of it? He has no time to think about it. What else in the world is worth cherishing and grasping more than the recovered feelings?

He began to write emails to her again; When the time is right, start calling. Long-distance love has never been a problem for him. For him, as long as you know: I love you! That's enough, that's enough.

On the eve of the end of the semester, when he was calculating the budget for returning to Taipei and purchasing drawing equipment, he came across a classified advertisement entitled "Pick a star and give it to your beloved".

A non-governmental organization cooperates with astronomical science popularization units to sell meteorites for charity, and the proceeds will be donated to the AIDS prevention and control center. The price of each gift box is very high, equivalent to about 1 ten thousand dollars. They will engrave their lover's name and wish to the buyer, and do a good job in radiation protection to make love last forever.

After thinking about it for a few days, he decided to postpone buying drawing equipment, cancel his trip back to Taipei during the summer vacation and choose a star for her with the money saved. In addition to carving her own name, she also put her favorite motto "Reaching for the stars may not be what you want, but it won't get your hands dirty." Carved on it together. In order to create a surprise effect, of course, we should keep it from her.

Without her knowledge, she lost her temper because he couldn't get back to Taipei as scheduled, and she couldn't let it go for a long time.

He endured the injustice and insinuated to her on the phone: "You haven't been to London. Would you like to drop in on me during the summer vacation and I'll show you around? " 」

"By the way? Are you kidding? Is it smooth to go back to Taipei from Melbourne and then to London? " She satirized him angrily.

He was speechless. I whispered helplessly in my heart, "When you receive this star, you will know what's going on! 」

Unfortunately, she also canceled her trip back to Taipei, left without saying goodbye again and traveled to South Africa with a group of friends.

She didn't receive this gift all summer. Surprise is touching and has a shelf life! After the expiration, everything changed tone and taste.

The old story repeats itself, and the drama is as usual. During her trip to South Africa, she became very close to her male friend in the same trade and forgot all about him in London.

Before school started, she confessed to him on the phone: "I am sorry for you. 」

He thought of Christmas Eve in Melbourne. I have been fighting for my own happiness, but I still can't escape losing her fate. If the desolation of love is a kind of fate, maybe he will be more comfortable.

How I wish the package for the stars had been lost in the cargo hold of the plane. He didn't want to and couldn't face the surprise again, which turned into an embarrassing life.

It has been a year since Zheng Xinyun received that box of gifts. She came back from school and worked in an American business company, so busy that she didn't even have time to date. After a blind date arranged by my mother, I will soon marry an electronic upstart who works in a science park.

A few days before getting married, I was packing my things at home. It suddenly occurred to my mother that this international express parcel was signed for her when she was abroad. When she opened the parcel, at first glance she thought it was an ordinary stone. She couldn't understand that it once belonged to a star in the sky.

After reading the certificates and documents in the gift box, she looked at the stars and was speechless for a long time.

What kind of happiness is it that a woman can be deeply loved by a man all her life?

In other words, what kind of regret is it for a woman to miss a man who loves her deeply in her life?

She is about to put on her wedding dress. She has experienced this happiness and understands this regret.

"Reaching for the stars may not get what you want, but it won't get your hands dirty. At this moment, she finally understood that he was the brightest star in the world.

A lot of love needs a pair of discerning eyes to see its shining light like a star. Otherwise, in the eyes of people who don't appreciate it, it's just an ordinary stone.

Han Yun, as far away as London, didn't dare to look at clouds or stars for a long time.

In this world, the best love is the courage you give for someone. Even if you are hurt to pieces, you have no regrets.