The weather in Chongqing used to be ancient.

I fell in love with tonya in the early summer of more than 20 years ago.

That year, the "Cultural Revolution" has achieved a decisive victory, but the revolution has not ended and is still developing in depth.

I had known tonya for nearly ten years before I fell in love with her. How steel was tempered was the first book I read when I was in high school.

A novel. /kloc-in the winter of 0/965, the weather in Chongqing is particularly desolate and dreary, and the winter rain is inevitable every year. First,

It's raining quietly, and unconsciously it becomes chilling cold rain.

Forced nap. I hid under the covers and read Paul's comic books. Mom quietly came to patrol to collect picture books, didn't she

I said: I have novels at home and read comic books! From then on, I bid farewell to comic books and began to read novels, and it was traditional.

Word version.

Ostrovsky's wonderful description of the revolution fascinated me. In retrospect, it is attractive because

Describe for him the revolutionary tempering road that accompanied his love experience: Paul had three girlfriends, and the last one became him.

His wife; By that time, he was almost paralyzed. The beautiful and revolutionary fangs are willing to dedicate themselves to him-exactly.

For example, dedicated to the revolutionary cause represented by Paul. Revolution and love are both exciting themes, such as police and robbers, and beautiful women.

The story of the encounter made the teenagers look trance and excited. But the relationship between revolution and cancer was not clear to me at that time.

Revolution for love, or love for revolution? Revolution is a social behavior, and love is a personal behavior; Revolution is not

But entertainment, painting and embroidery can't be so elegant, so gentle, humble and frugal. Revolution is ... and love is fragile occasionally.

The natural force is "a feeling of warmth, flicker and pure luminescence" ...

Like most revolutionary novels, the foreshadowing of love influenced the revolutionaries in How Steel was Tempered.

Experience, but the relationship between revolution and love is quite ambiguous. There is no joy of accidental meeting between them, but it is embarrassing.

Sadness and joy are mixed. In "counter-"revolutionary novels, the relationship between revolution and lust is often much clearer in gloomy social unrest.

Pasternak wrote that Lana's husband discovered on their wedding night that Lana was not a virgin and was "occupied by the bourgeoisie".

So he went to participate in the "bourgeois" revolution; The love between zhivago and Lana is described as a lamp violently shaken by the revolution.

The faint candlelight in the chandelier is like the bleak twilight in the summer wilderness, which is far from the sunrise-like revolution.

A horizon.

What is the position of love in How Steel was Tempered? What does it have to do with that revolution? Easy obedience

From the beginning, I was subconsciously concerned about tonya's position in the revolution. I've always wondered why the author arranged Paul and Togna.

Unexpected reunion in the ice and snow? In the reunion, Paul used the "rudeness" of revolutionary consciousness to humiliate his first lover's shock and said

She became sour and pretended not to know that the man standing beside tonya was her husband.

Describe your first love in this way, complaining about the castration of the first love by the revolution, or getting it in revenge for the first love.

Dissident class sentiment on bourgeois blue sailor suit and fat leg pants. On the eve of his escape, Paul hugged Togna for the first time.

Embrace together for several hours, he felt how docile tonya's soft body was, and a kiss made him tremble like a sweet current.

Joy; His hand also "inadvertently touched his lover's chest" ... if the revolution did not happen, or the revolution was on his lover.

It came to an abrupt end when he was near the land of tenderness, and Paul married the daughter of the bourgeoisie, which is another matter.

Story.

They vowed not to forget each other. At that time, Paul had no revolutionary consciousness and called the revolution "riot".

Love words in love have become leaves in a hurricane. Is this caused by revolutionary consciousness?

I haven't finished reading this novel for the first time, and the "Cultural Revolution" happened in the streets and schools. I don't understand this game.

The significance of the revolution is only heard to be the life of the "bourgeoisie"; All the bourgeoisie are sour and smelly, and tonya is a capitalist.

Working class, so tonia is "sour" However, why did bourgeois tonya caress and arouse Bao?

The worker's child's heart beats faster. How dare Paul say "how much I love you"?

I have no time to think. With his antipathy to tonya's "sour smell" and his autobiography, he joined the "Cultural Revolution".

Life "red army, send leaflets.

In fact, I secretly liked tonia from the beginning. She is cheerful, gentle, loves reading novels and has a sweet taste.

Quality; Black thick braid, slim and petite figure, wearing sailor suit is very beautiful, which is the first in my mind.

A specific beautiful image of light and transparency. But Paul said that she is not "one of her own" and should be alert to her feelings.

Love ... I care about tonya's position in the revolution, because, in fact, if she is not a member of Gehit, neither will I.

I dare like her.

The "Cultural Revolution" has reached the stage of war. The "villains" occupied the western and southern regions and are advancing to the central region;

"Bao pai" occupied most of the central area, leaving only a six-story building near my home controlled by "villains".

Pai has been under siege for a week. The "villains" in the southern district lined up dozens of air defense agencies on the beach on the south bank of the Yangtze River.

Artillery bombarded the central area day and night.

I can't go out of the street. In the sound of gunfire, I finished reading How Steel was Tempered.

That night, bursts of automatic rifle fire echoed in my ears all night, and the explosion of grenades spread into our array from time to time.

In fear of austerity; Within 500 meters of my home, the battle for the general attack of the power transmission building is fierce. In the early morning, the building rose from the ground.

Thick smoke. "Baopai" attacked Waco all night, simply set fire to it and surrounded it on three sides. These stubborn villains finally gave up the building

Run away

The alley in front of my house has been blocked, and three or four female high school students as big as Togna are here. Seven o'clock.

In June, the weather is sultry, and the tight Sam Browne belt makes their youthful breasts fuller, which reminds people of Paul's Unintentional.

Touch. Under the grass-green helmet, there is a white and delicate face with big and bright eyes. Chongqing girls are beautiful ... they have hands.

I envy the 56 submachine gun because Paul likes playing Browning.

Their task is to intercept the fleeing "villain" players. The other side has no uniform. How do you know about the barge shell?

Guns, are young people worried about being "villains" or one of their own? The only identification is the memory of classmates. Carry a mauser pistol

The man was pulled back, the mauser pistol was removed, and the submachine guns in the hands of the girls were smashed in turn in the waving of white and tender arms.

On his head, face, chest ... he is not one of his own, but a classmate.

The first time I saw pure blood.

When I was frightened, I suddenly thought of tonya; Why did she save Paul? Does she know anything about revolution? She left it to the revolution.

Paul. Paul made it clear that tonya was not one of his own.

There is an indistinguishable similarity between revolution and love: dedication. Dedication is the transfer of my position in the individual body. "this

A "physical self" was put into the desired space-time position by himself and settled down in a bumpy time that was purely his own.

Myself. Of course, the time and space of revolution and dedication are different; But both revolution and love require laughing at cowardice.

Body, which often makes people can't tell the difference between the two.

There is no giving for no reason, there is always a reason to give, which can be called the temperament of "this one" body self.

Temperament. The difference between revolution and love lies in temperament. Paul devoted himself to revolution, while tonya devoted himself to love. posture

The investment direction is different, and a tragic tension is brewing, but it is easily settled because of Paul's escape. Paul went.

Joined the revolutionary ranks and left a series of brilliant achievements; Tonia was frivolous abandoned in the corner of history by revolutionary consciousness.

There is no place.

Paul didn't intend to devote himself to this revolution from the beginning. It takes a lot of training to join the revolution. Austin likes to reconcile with lust.

In order to prove Paul's loyalty to the revolution, but once, he used his erotic temper to prove Paul's loyalty to love.

Zhen. In his cell, Paul faced the dedication of a girl who was about to be ravaged. Compassion and lust made Paul accept "this.

A "girl's dedication provides a reason, and the power of lust is obviously greater, because Paul feels the need for self-control.

Strength and sympathy obviously don't need such self-control. In fact, through Heliskinner's "warm and plump" lips,

The aroused passion erased Paul's "all the pain in front of him", the girl's body and "body double soaked with tears"

"Cheeky" makes Paul feel unbearable, "it's really hard to escape".

It was tonya, whose "beautiful and lovely eyes" enabled Paul to find the power of self-control, not just restraint.

Lust can also suppress sympathy. There is no bondage of some kind of sexual moral principle here, just because he has "this" in his heart.

"tonya. The love of Paul's "this" body self only tends to another "this" body self, and she

Is irreplaceable.

Revolutionary consciousness changed the direction of Paul's erotic power. Love words before leaving Togna were turned into rustling by revolutionary consciousness.

Something trembling that should be laughed at. The awakening of revolutionary consciousness means that the lust of my physical self must be subordinate.

Revolution, therefore, can understand why revolution is more powerful than the original nature with such a rich material self.

"Nine?" Five orders were issued, and all revolutionary groups participating in the war handed over all kinds of weapons under the instructions of their leaders. This street is very lively.

Unusually, the "Baopai" Wushu team is holding a grand gun handing-in ceremony. The ceremony is actually showing off all kinds of weapons; Jiefang truck trailer

Holding four anti-aircraft guns, carrying a fully armed combat team, slowly hovering in the city.

I was attracted by a truck full of soldiers: twenty girls as old as Togna were sitting on the truck, hugging each other.

A light machine gun, wearing a grass green helmet, and a female high school student lying on the car, holding a heavy machine gun at the front of the car and raising an eyebrow.

Head locked-especially beautiful knife-shaped eyebrows, staring ahead. The girl is full of the breath of spring, and the power of the steel gun in her hand really shines.

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In the evening, the middle school held a funeral for the martyrs. The first ceremony is to show the remains of martyrs, not their strength.

The greatness of The Scholars shows the cruelty of the "villain" counter-revolutionary consciousness. The weather is still sultry, and there are many exposed parts of the body.

Most of the bodies have turned dark gray, and some bodies have shed gray-black liquid, which has a suffocating sense of corruption; Guarding the dead

Some comrades-in-arms wear masks full of perfume and disperse flies with dry branches in their hands from time to time.

The body of a young man. He only has a pair of underwear, and a thumb-thick steel bar is inserted in his temple.

Eyes wide open, as if asking something, eyes turned upside down, leaving a lot of white eyes.

Lying on the lawn is the body of a female high school student, whose upper body is covered with straw mats, and her bare waist shows that her upper body is

Naked; There is a pair of grass-green military shorts under the body. It seems that she has just been "sacrificed" and her body is still human. Her head is crooked.

On one side, his left cheek was immersed in the grass, and his pale lips clung to the hot and humid land of China. Her sweet lips should have been expected.

Waiting for the first kiss mixed with shyness; Without a helmet, a head of hair floats at dusk and is woven with grass leaves covered with dew.

Together, with a little "poetic" described in revolutionary novels. She frowned. It was like drinking a bullet before she stopped breathing.

An expression as painful as falling ... one (several? The bullet went through her neck? Shoot through the chest? Shoot through the heart

I feel that I have lost some kind of life support that connects "this" physical self with "another" physical self.

The feeling of being together. I thought of female high school students holding heavy machine guns against the eyebrows of the front of the car, and suddenly thought of tonya. if

She also devoted herself to the revolution and got on the train with Paul. ...

Zhao, head of the Wushu Troupe, made an emotional speech to the onlookers. "for ... (of course not for these.

Fight to the death! "Then from the waist with three pistols pulled out a revolver, to the sky.

Empty, his comrades raised their guns. The funeral ended with thrilling gunfire.

The dedication of revolution is different from that of love. The former requires individuals to obey the overall purpose of the revolution, so that the revolution can be realized.

Now, the dedication of love is just to linger and consolidate the individual status. This one fell in love with the dedication of the other one, yes.

Even in the purpose of personal desire for love itself, it is accompanied by personal limited chance; Revolution is not the purpose of dedicating to revolution.

The body, it should be subordinate to a secondary purpose, in Auschwitz's words, "my whole life and all essence."

Power has been dedicated to the most magnificent cause in the world-the struggle for the liberation of all mankind. "Struggle is revolution" and liberate all the people.

Class "is the second (ultimate) answer of this revolution. For this purpose, an individual must bid farewell to his limited couple.

Dedicated to the revolution, dedicated to the infinite constancy of all mankind. The ultimate survival theory of individuals who occasionally exist in infinite eternity.

Therefore, if we give up infinite human beings and limited accidental individual status, we will lose the reason to live. Infinite persistence and finiteness

Your relationship with me has been tense. Kierkegaard sang: "Abandoning infinity is an ancient legend."

The shirt mentioned. Silk thread is woven and bleached with tears, and shirts are sewn with tears.

Yes The counter-revolutionary novel doctor zhivago expresses this kind of "rejecting infinity", so it is full of.

Tears trembling with fear in the infinite revolution.

Before the death of Christ, all kinds of religions in the world were scattered all over the world, and they were constantly derived. Anyway,

Religion, rational or irrational, silent or crazy, aims to transfer a limited pair of individuals to the body.

Go to infinity, although the meaning of infinity is very different. There are gods, complete works, Brahma, heaven and pure land.

There are others. However, the infinite constancy of revolution makes the disaster-ridden individual's desire for love lose comfortable reasons; Giving up the revolution means

Occasionally, "I" disappeared.

In many revolutions, the rotten bodies of many "this one" young people are not enough to shock people's hearts, and there are many examples.

"This one" is a young corpse, but the purpose of revolutionary education: this is what individuals must pay to identify with the "people".

Price. When Paul broke up with tonya, he said that "there are many excellent girls" and they "fought cruelly together".

Endure all the suffering. He wants tonya to join the cruel struggle, just like his political counselor Rita, who knows.

When to pull out the pistol.

After the end of the warfare, under the control of the military, middle school students continued to carry out individual occasional spiritual and physical revolution to the vast sky.

Land can do many things. At that time, I was past the fighting age of middle school, and the vast world fascinated me. A small fireboat that cuts in line in the countryside.

Down the Yangtze River, heading for Badong. On the boat, I didn't enjoy the scenery, just watched how steel was tempered again.

"I found that my reading speed was greatly improved and my ability to recognize traditional Chinese characters was also improved.

I still wonder why tonya didn't follow Paul into the revolution. When I first read it, I worked for tonya and Paul.

Regret: If only Togna and Paul had joined the revolution and become revolutionary lovers. Now, this sense of regret is already very weak.

A lot. But tonya only loves Paul out of pure love, and I still can't understand him.

The educated youth spots gathered by high school graduates are "inserted" on the hills covered with sparse and lonely shrubs and mixed with white rocks.

Broken cliffs and cracks are intertwined with strange branches, leading high school students into the foothills of love attached to the revolution described by Paul.

As mentioned earlier.

Our Communist Youth League Secretary is a girl of 19 years old, not beautiful, but with beautiful eyes and cheerful temperament.

Humor, a clever girl. She fell in love with the propaganda committee member of the Youth League branch, the son of the local poor peasants. In the moonlight.

Now, this pair of revolutionary couples that I admire (lovers who dare to break through the isolation between urban and rural areas) often leave everyone, with dew on their faces.

Talk about the work of jungle revolution and exchange the experience of rose revolution. When they come back from the Woods, they always bring us daydreams.

Revolutionary instructions. In their revolutionary enthusiasm (love? ), the political activities of the educated youth point are rich and colorful. announce

Although the members of the Communication Committee are illiterate, they are eloquent and charming in political work. Like Paul, he also likes reading revolutionary novels:

King Kong of Fire, Lin Yuan, Armed Behind the Enemy. ...

One early summer evening, when I came back from the construction site, I saw the secretary of the Communist Youth League lying wet on the board of the threshing floor, although

That pale face, smiling slightly, seems to be still smelling a slight breath in the quiet night sky in the field. She committed suicide by jumping into the pond.

Yes! How is that possible? How could she die! The life of youth has just begun, and there are so many joys and sorrows of life waiting for her.

Yes. Isn't this girl going to raise the tenderness of her wedding night one day in the future and use it in a trembling way one day in the future?

The one with the baby? I don't believe that she is dead, which is impossible and should not be. I have no sense of self.

Pull up her wrist in the restricted area, hoping to get her pulse back. Because of my behavior, the wailing of the peasant women who cried in the performance.

Suddenly stopped, looked at me curiously ... she didn't wake up, but I have been waiting for her breath that once lit the rosy clouds.

An indescribable sense of destruction has become the only endless way out ...

The publicity Committee never attended. Later, I heard that our communist youth league secretary died of love contusion. He was the first to have the same

She has the most personal skin relatives with inexplicable joy, and people don't cherish her dedication with revolutionary feelings.

Body; For the sake of his great revolutionary future, he had to be dealt with lightly.

I reread How Steel was Tempered in my suddenly broken heart. I'm starting to think Paul has three.

Girlfriend is nothing more than the proof that Paul paid: the proof that he ignored personal legitimacy and Paul's intention in the process of tempering.

Zhili.

Paul claimed that there was no need to test his will with asceticism in order to join the revolution, and he didn't want to be a revolution.

An ascetic. But love must belong to the revolution. Revolutionary-minded Paul said to Togna, "You must follow us.

Go the same way. ..... I will be your * bad husband *, if you think I belong to you first, then to the party.

Yes But on my side, the first is the party, and the second is you and other close people. "

"tonya gazed sadly at the shining blue river with tears in his eyes."

Tonia's heart is about to break, and the sense of destruction in the cold bone marrow is suddenly touched at a kind and unpredictable moment of happiness.

Give her a look.

But what a lovely tonya! She doesn't accept the conditions attached to love, even if it is put forward by the person she loves.

This condition. She likes Paul's This One. Once Paul abandoned herself, what she loved was destroyed.

At that time, I began to think that those revolutionaries who took advantage of Cha should not disturb their fragile love. revolutionary

It should be an ascetic monk, otherwise it will inevitably make "this one" who is persistent in love a stepping stone for revolutionaries. Love is pure.

However, the individual's time is the residual temperature when this own body meets another "this self" in the individual.

Existence, and revolution is a collective event. Social revolution and personal love have their own legitimate reasons, and they are combined.

Doesn't matter.

I understand why tonya didn't follow Paul into the revolution. Her life is certainly not as focused as Paul's.

Big, she only knows simple romance. And the simplicity of this care, there is no social laurel.

Family life. What right does Paul have to say that this purpose of life is despicable and vulgar. If it is not attached to the revolution, it should be

Begging tonya to be ashamed of it? In Paul's revolutionary narrative, it is not revealed that heaven and earth are spring, am I?

Du Qiu's resentment?

In that revolutionary era, not many girls could refuse Paul's love strings attached. Who's tonia with?

Temperament resists the dedication transaction with love as a bargaining chip? I want to know this. Tonia has a kind of songs and prayers.

The aristocratic spirit created by prayers, poems and novels, she knows her rights. Once, in the face of Paul's rudeness, Tonya

Julia said, "What right do you have to talk to me like that?" I have never asked who you make friends with or who comes to your house.

Let's go "Revolution does not allow personal rights in this sense, and Rita, Paul's political adviser and lover, also compensated Paul for his emotional injury.

The lost Daya has no such correct consciousness.

Tonia "grew up from a large number of novels she read", and the world of classical novels provided her with gorgeous.

Ideal life. Personally, she yearns for an ordinary and pure life of her own. reform

There are thousands of legitimate reasons for Qian Qian's life (including the reasons for eulogizing gay revolutionary couples), but there is no reason to deprive them of their privacy.

The right to love and the value and purpose of self-rooting.

"How Steel was Tempered" contains the "sour taste" of dedication and occasional personal love desire, as well as the rudeness of dedication to the revolution.

The incident happened a historic encounter and ended in the "sour smell" of the rudeness of the proletariat and the humiliation of the aristocratic spirit. Is it dark?

That revolution, which is regarded as "liberating all mankind", aims to destroy what I want in an individual's soul and body with the most subtle tenderness.

What is the purpose of expressing morning and evening?

I was very upset, because I realized that I fell in love with tonya's aristocratic temperament filled with blue mist and fell in love with it.

She established an ideal of personal life based on appreciating each other's tenderness, which was concerned by classical novels, and fell in love with her.

Although fragile, there is no measurable dedication in his love. She once loved Paul "this one", but Paul himself was not.

The "this one" who intends to refuse love is pulled out. This is Paul's personal freedom, but he has no reason or right.

Tonia, who is light and thin, only wants an ordinary outlook on life.

I use the experience of the "Cultural Revolution" and my personal understanding of this great event to read How Steel was Tempered. this

This kind of experience and understanding is one-sided. There must be another revolution in the world, but I don't know. "unprecedented.

After the incident, I didn't read How Steel was Tempered. Paul's image has faded, tonya's.

This image has become as fragrant and moist as spring rain, bright and gentle in the heart, like plowed soil ready to be bred.

Earth. I began to look for "many novels" that she might have read: Les Miserables and Insulted and Damaged.

White Night, A House with an Attic and Jamaan Jamaan. ...

This personal incident happened in the autumn of 1975. Not long ago, I read the works of the French composer Ropatz.

Bottom line: Quinousdiralaraisondevivre? Who will tell us to live?

Why? ) This reminds me of my love for the destruction of Togna and is full of pity. I can still.

Feel my heart tremble with the ribbon of tonya's erratic blue sailor shirt. I dare not think about her, but when I think about her, my heart hides.

Hidden pain.