Is it okay to write love letters to girls like this?

It's eight o'clock in the morning, sitting in my office, and the sunshine outside the window is already very bright. It's spring in Beijing. When it is cold, people have to wear more clothes. When it's hot, I see girls wearing short skirts and holding a paper towel to keep fanning. Yes, I live in such a changeable northern season now. You must have never experienced life in the north, because you have been staying in the south.

It used to be so beautiful here, but I always want to cry, and my eyes are full of bitter tears that I can't release. Like the continuous rain in the south, it has been wet for a long time. In this weather and this morning, countless people are busy looking for what they cherish, but I don't know how much I missed sitting here. ...

The same weather moved me so much that I wanted to write a letter. You may not know who I am yet. I'm just a passer-by in your life, and I may not even occupy any position. People will say "love that never reaches out", which is true. Therefore, I won't leave my name after the letter. If you don't remember who I am after reading the letter, I will only feel a wordless sadness. If the letter is not enough to convey what I want to tell you, what about the language! What's more, you and I are separated by several cities and years. Even if we really want to tell you, we still don't know where to start, taking care of all our environment and your pride.

I have been eager to write this letter to you at night for a long time, but I have never really started. Always at night, when I am alone, I will have such a desire, and I will always suppress it because I know I will wake up tomorrow morning. It was another sunny day, and the affection of that night was gone. I will feel that what I wanted to do last night was completely unnecessary and I can't help laughing at myself.

Of course, I'm also afraid of what I can't get rid of. In the past, my love for you made me a public joke. Will writing such a letter to you cause unnecessary trouble, especially since you haven't answered hundreds of letters I wrote to you, and now your status is different? All this bothers me.

However, I still have constant confidence in you, which makes me finally write this letter to you in the morning when spring and summer alternate. Before I tell you why I wrote this letter, I want to tell you how much influence you have made in my past that time can't overcome.

When I met you, I was in Goujiang Town. For many boys, what a beautiful youth it should be! They love handsome clothes, wait for a date, secretly read love letters or wait for a phone call at home, then look at their glowing faces and burning eyes in the mirror, or stare at themselves combing their hair thousands of times in the mirror, but their minds fly back to countless sweet moments.

Unfortunately (indeed, unfortunately, I really know the meaning of using these two words), I had the wisdom that people have always admired prematurely, which made me not value the direct and simple happiness throughout my youth, but obsessed with something deeper, a so-called human spiritual field. But I want to make it clear that I didn't mean to, but I was pushed by an inexplicable force. I'm not happy. I'm even disappointed that I can't enjoy such a young happiness.

So, when most teenagers are busy dating, I am a bystander and hide myself in endless novels. Yes, I read novels, all kinds of novels, from the works of writers who are respected as world literary masterpieces here to all kinds of best-selling novels on the market. One kind of works still touches me ridiculously, bringing out cheap tears and laughter. It is a bestseller of some Chinese and foreign popular writers.

In this kind of novels, I see stars and sparks, and all the beautiful things beyond real life. In these novels, the purpose and main life of the hero and heroine are for love. What a wonderful thing! Love, especially the more determined love after setbacks and difficulties-the kind of love with countless hugs, tears, love and hate, how excited my teenager's heart. It's just that I never imagined that this love story has been unconsciously deposited in my heart and is causing great influence.

CHJ, can you understand the hearts of young people polluted by love? You see, I used the big word "pollution" again. But yes, I and many boys who grew up at the same time are really polluted, not only by this novel, but also by other media to promote love. There is no reason. In the process of our growth, we usually know love from reading before we have the opportunity to fall in love. We have never been with a woman, so we naturally cultivate love. Our love is always determined prematurely by some love patterns described in words, and then unconsciously implemented. It goes without saying that the direct, natural and necessary relationship between people is the relationship between men and women. The direct, natural and necessary relationship of human beings is the relationship between men and women. It couldn't be better said. )

It was in this situation that I got to know you. What a glorious year this is! Looking back now, it was a beautiful autumn in my memory. You are standing on the platform of the classroom, and the golden sunshine of fluffy is like a curtain as your background, shining on your face. You came with earplugs that year. ........

I find that you seem to have a clear goal. I can't understand what it is, but I can feel that you are very different from us. You are calm, calm and have an extraordinary temperament. You don't like to talk much, and you don't laugh easily, but your smile is really beautiful. Unlike a group of friends, they just finish class every day and walk from table tennis table to table tennis table after class, always just talking and laughing.

How much I love you wholeheartedly, and you have become the center and spiritual pillar of my life. In this way, I will follow you, from autumn to the middle of winter to the approach of spring, from news to high school colleges and even middle school classrooms, and I will always sit at the back and watch you from a distance, and you will always be out of reach. ...

I am not afraid that there will be love in my teenager's heart. I indulge myself and am deeply moved by your image, making myself miss you and eager to see you.

After three years of junior high school life, when I think about where you are going, I have a terrible idea, fearing that I will never see you again. I was really scared. I knew I was really in love with you.

Later, I received the admission notice of senior three, but I didn't care until the end of the summer vacation, in a rainy autumn season. I met you at the bus stop in Nanbai. You ran from a bus and asked me which school I was going to attend in high school. I casually told you that I was in No.3 Middle School, and you said that you were in No.3 Middle School. In fact, No.4 Middle School was so rubbish at that time that I was embarrassed to tell you that I went to that "rubbish" school because of you. Because you never take the initiative to associate with people, I see that you always have a fear, a normal fear of love for your children, especially when you see someone you like.

After that, my fear disappeared. It was a joy and an irresistible impulse. Only then did I feel the importance of my letter of acceptance, because although I am not in your school, at least I know where you are going, and No.3 Middle School is not far from No.4 Middle School. I can see you often, and I'm not as sad as I was during the summer vacation, and I don't know where you're going. At that time, I had a plan to confess to you, but I didn't know how to carry it out.

The days of entering high school are very fast, and everything is as I wish. I can see you from time to time, and your smile increases. My mood is not as dull as it was in junior high school. My shy face is not so easy to blush, and my fear of you is not so fierce. Moreover, I have learned many so-called classic methods from other people's successful love and the way of pursuing love, including best-selling examples and my unique talent.

So I wrote my first letter to you, not a love letter, but some funny gossip. This is my strategy. I am not so eager to express my impatience to you, but I don't want to fall in love with you so early. I just want you to know me. You wrote me a letter, which was so simple and implicit that it filled your life. I am really happy to receive your reply. I am naive and have decided to love you all my life. So I wrote back to praise your literary talent, hoping to arouse your desire to write letters and let us have love inadvertently.

You didn't reply. It seems that you have found what I mean. After all, the distance between us has not reached the point where we have to communicate. Maybe you don't think your writing is very good, but I feel that my general praise contains a little ridicule for you. How silly it is to think of me now! I'm not disappointed by this. It seems that this situation can better show my intelligence and let you know what is in my heart and my literary world. My writing ability has always been very good, and I didn't feel the need to read your reply to me at that time. After all, you don't like writing, so I don't think it's necessary to force you. I guess you don't hate me. It turns out that I was right. )

I will continue to write to you in the future. Although you haven't replied, when we meet again, you always face me happily, with some apologies and no intention of avoiding.

Therefore, I have always only expressed my feelings and admiration for you, without making any demands. I know we are too young, have no right, and are in no hurry to establish a relationship. I deeply understand that you won't hurt me at all and have an expectation for me. I think you also know what an active and enthusiastic teenager I was in junior high school for three years! Every time we meet, you are calm and elegant, and you are happy to face me. Sometimes you are even eager to see me and come to me happily, making me feel that you have feelings for me.

The days after that will be full of happiness. I know you have fallen in love with me. Sometimes I feel that we are the same person, and the desire to meet each other is so real. You are as happy as I hope, even full of happiness. How unforgettable I was during that time! This is the happiest day in my life, and I think I will remember it forever.

This kind of day lasted until the third year of high school is about to graduate. One day, I suddenly realized that if this continues, I will face parting after graduation. I feel a little anxious. I thought the footsteps of love would naturally follow you and me, forever. How beautiful natural love should be. However, there is no eternity in the world, and then I feel something is wrong. I think if I don't get your certification, I may not convince you. Let you and I go to the same university, and the way we get along will definitely change. Missing is always a little painful. I'm afraid that my repeated letters will become the habit of not answering after you receive them. I think it is necessary for us to have a definite relationship. I find that you are as intoxicated as I am in the story I weave, waiting for love and the day when we are together.

So I wrote a demanding love letter for the first time and asked you to be my girlfriend. I think you are eager to receive such a letter, and you will readily agree. But happily, you seem to forget that we will be separated soon. We haven't established a relationship yet. We are not the same person or conjoined. How can you be so stupid? I'm waiting for your answer, but you just become happier, so happy that it makes me uncomfortable. I'm afraid I spoiled you, really spoiled you, and made you enjoy love too stably and forget time, the existence of the world and facts, you and me, and real life.

Maybe it's because you dare not write after I praised you. You just want to communicate with me in language! But I didn't have a chance to be alone with you at that time, and I didn't learn how to date you. I think how naive I am! More for the approach of the college entrance examination, there are a lot of troubles falling from the sky tossing my imagination, so I am a little flustered if I don't receive your reply. The flustered days are mixed with the upcoming college entrance examination, eroded and poisoned by all the busyness, and suddenly become at a loss.

I was angry when I continued to wait, but I was still afraid that my unhappiness would affect your college entrance examination, so I deliberately avoided you and didn't see you, but I still made you happy. I don't know how you spent that time, maybe you were busy with the college entrance examination, but I heard from my classmates that you were very happy. I don't know if you have been living in depression because of my request.

I passed the college entrance examination because you didn't reply to my letter and the pressure of the college entrance examination made me enter another realm of my life. Yes, at that time, I began to change my mind and didn't want to weave stories for you anymore. No, not just for you, but for us, because all our stories seem to be woven by me, and I feel a little tired. Sometimes I am even afraid of narcissism. I don't think you know. You can imagine a sentence for me at that time.

Nevertheless, I care about you very much, because I can't help but want to cram. Although I cram, I still haven't forgiven you, or I deliberately avoided you and didn't go to the same school as you We can be together. I can't control my anger.

It's like a volcano pressing me, and it's like a bomb in self-placement, so I decided to let you feel the days without me, stop writing to you, and deliberately ignore you when I see you, but how can I really ignore you? I know you're scared. You're so scared that you don't know what's wrong. I saw your panic then. My heart seems to have been cut by a knife. I really want to tell you that I'm still with you, but because I didn't tell you in too many people, I'm also afraid that you will leave everything to me after telling you. After all, it is an idea, not an idea. I can't go around you every day! I have a college entrance examination and other life, so I got hurt, but I still can't take care of myself and wrote you another letter. I still look forward to your reply, but you are still silent.

I had no choice but to come to you. A classmate and I went to your class that day without studying at night. I think you are naive! I am embarrassed because there are too many classmates. I called you for a long time, and you were a little anxious, then you came and sat with me. You also said that you would just sit with me for a class and then go down. It's nothing. What's even more ridiculous is that you said I was wishful thinking, and I was even angrier and even felt a little ridiculous. I know you are angry because I ignored you the other day, but you can't say this sentence under any circumstances! Understand?

I held back. I thought you'd want me to explain. I wonder if you still remember our topic. When we were together, we seemed to forget everything, but we forgot a lot of things, as for our later ending.

There was only endless conversation between you and me that day. I know that you and I have nothing to hide. We are both discussing life with our hearts, trying to express our thoughts and even our pain. But when you and I haven't finished revealing the sediment in our liver and lungs, the bell rings, especially when I still have a lot to say to you.

Time is so heartless, its ringing only means our parting, and it is precisely because of it that we are in this state. I didn't finish what I wanted to say at that time, so did you, and I didn't have a chance to ask you anything. I know that if there is time, if time permits, you will fully promise me, but everything is so unsatisfactory.

I came back with anger and oppression, and you didn't move at first. If I don't chase you back, I know you won't leave. If I chased you again and again, we wouldn't be like this. But I chased you again and you left. We were all too stubborn. Although I regretted it later, it was not easy for me to see you with my head down. After you went down, I screamed and called away my classmates who came with me, because I knew I had them. Our rift will be unimaginable. Although we didn't quarrel, although I still love you so much, I won't go to you easily because of your wishful request for explanation. It really hurts self-esteem. Although it is nothing to think about now, it was just a little tolerant at that time.

Of course, this is also why I am angry and stubborn. I haven't looked for you for a long time, and I don't want to see you. But your position in my heart will always be irreplaceable. When I was a teenager, when I was with the people I loved, anger and misunderstanding were inevitable. Even if I have any problems with you, if someone dares to bully you, I will go all out to protect you. Even then, no one dared to speak ill of you in front of me. I still remember clearly that a classmate in our class said that he knew you and spoke ill of you, so I raised my fist. At that time, the child cried, and I didn't tell anyone, so you didn't know at all. At that time, I was a little wild, but I never showed this in front of you, although I knew that girls at that time liked to be brave.

Although I didn't go to see you, I hoped for a miracle. For example, you will write to me. For example, in an accident, I can see you running to my side happily. But at that time, it seemed that God was bullying me and didn't give me a chance to stop being angry. I've been angry, and I gave others a chance.

I left when you needed comfort most. I'm really sorry. I was not surprised when Liao appeared. I know you will be pursued, but I know you won't fall in love with someone easily.

I think I was too lofty, but also for the coming of the college entrance examination again. I am deeply aware of my tutoring goal, and I am more influenced by our classmates. I watched other students bury themselves in books every day, thinking that I had been fighting for this involved love for a long time, so I wanted to let go of all the burdens and let you be free. I didn't expect you to make a long speech at that time. Of course, I was uncomfortable, but for me.

Time and distance produce beauty, but they are also the source of pain. I think in the face of time and distance, I have no choice but to start. I think it's the same for me now. We have been separated for several years by several cities. These are all my helplessness, what's more, I was so naive!

In this way, I held back my sadness, held a glimmer of hope, and threw myself into complicated writing problems, waiting for the day when the sky opened and clouds dispersed, but I didn't expect your love to be so solid. I think I'm really too lofty to hurt you but I'm so unrepentant, but who can really understand my heart?

Later, I was admitted to the university, and so were you. So we are separated forever. I don't deny that I have always loved you deeply. This is indeed a fact. I don't want to deny it, nor can I deny it. But what if I love you? I have been living in this depressing and painful environment until I graduated from college.

Have a plenty of how to keep clean. When I learned that you were married, my first reaction was that you would never love me again (I don't deny that I insisted on being with you again and again, vaguely hoping that one day you would know the truth and return equal love). And the fact that you are married has lost all possibilities for me at that time, which means wishful love. Montaigne believes that marriage is a sacred union, and any happiness gained from it should be restrained and taken seriously. Qi Guoke pointed out that love is a natural feeling from the heart, and marriage is a determination; Love doesn't mean marriage, and it's hard to be a responsibility.

How do I regard marriage as the eternal and only destination of love? I don't consider the change of marriage at all, and I don't consider the love relationship outside marriage. So my only feeling at that time was that no matter whether you are willing to return the same love to me in the future, you can never play the role of a third party.

Only then can we truly realize how much harm love can do, especially knowing that love is hopeless, but we can't reduce our feelings.

I stayed in bed for a few days, but I didn't want to get up. Desperate love hurts my heart every minute. The severe pain made me lose the will to live. I lay down, and my family was surprised that I was very ill and wanted to take me to the hospital, so I got out of bed. Then, another dilemma immediately restrained me.

It was when I got out of bed, a crazy idea stuck in my heart and simply repeated: I want to see you, I want to see you, just to see you.

I argued with myself for a day and a night, but after all, I couldn't beat my heavy desire to see you. Finally, I told myself (although I knew I was deceiving myself) that I just wanted to see you one last time.

I cleaned up a little before I saw myself in the mirror. How surprised I am at the great change in my whole appearance. I am not a handsome boy. Many tears and uneasy hearts in the past few days have made me lose my only handsome luster. I was haggard and haggard, but at that time, I couldn't take care of it, and my only plan was to see you again anyway.

But how can I see you? I can only forget you slowly!

So autumn came, winter passed, and in a blink of an eye, it was the late spring season with continuous spring rain. In that memory, standing on the podium, the fluffy figure is no longer used as the background, but tired and sleepy.

Three years later, when I think back, the whole thing is still so abrupt and chaotic. It may still be a very unpleasant memory for you to mention the situation at that time, but I would rather believe that you will be more tolerant and considerate after this journey.

The afternoon was foggy and white, but the sky was still gloomy. I sat for a while, and the car flew past the shopping mall outside the office, running across the dry ground and talking to the sultry crowd. I don't know how long it took, but I inadvertently looked up and saw kapok all over the street. Some trees are all hung on the ground by the sun, and the trunk is covered with green leaves. Some bare trunks are still hung with residual flowers, and some flowers are in full bloom. I vaguely think of the usual spring rain in the south, when the weather is rarely sunny and kapok is not well developed, there will be such a shadow.

In this street, I seem to see kapok blooming all over the street, and at that moment, in my gradually clear thoughts, I really felt that you were leaving my life, and my tangled complex began to ease.

But I am not happy at all, and I have only endless vanity in my heart.

I know that one day, I must have a choice, and I know that I still have a long way to go. However, CHJ, just like my love for you, I have no regrets. I know that no matter what choice I make, I will go on without regrets and determination. I have great confidence in myself.

I hope you can remember who I am.

Change your name, change your place, and think for yourself! Add some thoughts and love to her. ...

For reference only, don't copy them all! This is my treasure about this beloved girl!