I want to be a happy person from tomorrow.

I want to be a happy person from tomorrow.

If thinking of you is my biggest worry, then I may forget you tomorrow, read the most meaningful books, listen to the most wonderful music and enjoy the most beautiful scenery. If you are my greatest happiness, then the most meaningful books I see, the most wonderful music I hear and the most beautiful scenery are actually you. Anyway, I have decided that from tomorrow on, I will be a happy person.

From tomorrow on, I will be a happy person. From tomorrow on, I will be a happy person, reading the most meaningful books, listening to the most wonderful music and enjoying the most beautiful scenery. So from now on, work hard. Care about your body and mood, and be kind to every friend around you. Cherish every happy moment. I have a beautiful dream. I want to face the sea and the flowers will not be idle.

The girl I liked in high school, at that time, the internet was not developed now. I haven't heard from her since. I almost forgot. You said that seven years is really a fast process.

From tomorrow on, I will be a happy person, chattering and jumping all over the world. Starting from tomorrow, I will talk to every relative and tell them my happiness. From tomorrow, I will sprinkle seafood and barbecue. I have a straw shed, facing the bubble, spring blossoms.

The sunshine is still as quiet and beautiful as that lovely afternoon. You are still the same as that afternoon. Sunlight is reflected on your side face, through your hanging hair and jumping on your nose. The sky-blue school uniform is as clean as the sky. You hold your cheek and think about secrets I don't know. Now, I can kiss your side face, I can scrape your little nose with my fingertips, I left my name on your school uniform, but I still don't know your secret.

No matter how desperate I am, I won't complain about the injustice of life and my bad luck. I am afraid that if I really despair, I will never see hope again. I think everything I'm going through now is a foreshadowing. Come on, you'll be happy.

One day, there will be a person who will look at all the states you have written, all the Weibo you have written, all the photos you have taken since childhood, and even go to other places to find information about you, try to listen to the songs you have heard, go to the places you have walked, read your favorite books, and taste the delicious things you are always crying for … just want to make up for your youth.

My dream is to eat when I am hungry and drink tea when I am thirsty. I'm not worried about yesterday, nor about the future.

That winter vacation, wheat fragrance filled the garden, I will never forget you, I remember I took several songs to work every day. Sodagreen when we left together, JJ Lin when you left, and this. But every time I hear this song, I will think of the winter vacation that year. Although hard, but comfortable, although tired, but at ease. Thank you, Maixiangyuan.

Pretending to be too sleepy in high school, I stood up to block the window and let the sun shine on her face. The weather in June is as beautiful as her. My ponytail is just a pink silk scarf, but I am intoxicated by Ma Feng's date with her. I woke up as a sophomore.

From tomorrow on, I will be a happy person.

One early autumn, I was on a business trip in Shenzhen, and the weather was a little cold.

In the evening, a girl named Xiaoman sent me a long message, pestering me to talk to her.

She said: I can't sleep, I'm a little lonely. Do I miss my parents too much, or does this city belong to me?

At that time, I knew that she had worked alone in my city for three years. Coincidentally, I had coffee with her several times and talked about my life several times.

In my impression, she is also a cheerful girl. Every time I see her, I smile with fascination.

There are always bright and daydreaming eyes in her eyes, and long eyelashes, like leaves on pumpkin vines in autumn.

Just like she likes my long eyelashes.

If I remember correctly, she once told me that she especially likes the city of Ningbo and wants to stay here and take root, marry the person she likes, and then have children for life!

I believed what she said, because she has a boyfriend who has been with her for four years and is very kind to her.

However, that night, she was hesitant, abnormal, and wondered again and again whether she had depression.

She asked me: What about depression? Do you still have a chance to be a happy person again?

To be honest, I don't know what kind of symptoms depression is. If I don't want to answer her questions through Baidu, I think she can start an engine search.

But I know that Xiaoman is not looking for this answer. Her emphasis is on the second half of the sentence.

She said: Why do you always feel sad when you think of something or someone?

Why is the beauty of others coming and going in the street?

Why pay so much and get so little?

Why does waiting always seem long and dark?

I asked her carefully: Are you tired from work? Or is there something wrong with your relationship?

She said: both!

Then my heart is tired!

She nodded approvingly across the screen.

02.

That night, the wind in Shenzhen was very strong, and it blew straight into the French window of the hotel. The grey embroidered curtains immediately floated up, like a girl's pleated skirt, swaying back and forth, and the crystal lamp on the top swayed with it, like having a story to tell and being shy, perhaps owing a glass of old French red wine.

I curled up in bed, listening to the noise of the city that never sleeps, watching the neon outside the window cover up the boundless night sky, like a dream that will never be entangled.

Little Man's messages are sent to my mobile phone one by one. Later, she choked up when she talked about feelings.

Girls' feelings are always so serious at some time, even giving up and insisting need a good reason, and this sense of ritual will never be understood by men.

Such a girl, once sunny, is now drizzling. At first, I didn't understand what sad things she had experienced, so that she couldn't comfort herself in the middle of the night, so she knocked me so much at a distance.

Later, I realized that she was not homesick for her parents, nor how her work was, but that the people she loved were drifting away.

The sense of helplessness that my heart is gradually pulled away is helplessness that I can't describe clearly in any words.

Two years ago, there was a crack between her and him, and it was an old bridge. It's nothing more than a person who once loved you more than the whole world, and suddenly it's hot and cold. It's nothing more than a person who once promised to love you all his life, and suddenly his hands are no longer warm.

Said he didn't love you, and sometimes he gave you a warm welcome.

Say he loves you, but you often feel lonely. All festivals have no his blessing, all the waiting has turned into failure, and all the hopes have gradually turned into disappointment.

Finally, you want to go, but you can't give up the beauty of the past. You want to stay, but you can't get the happiness you had.

The reason why you are tired is probably that you often wander between persistence and giving up.

When will you be a happy person?

03.

Xiaoman said: When I graduated from college, I didn't have much money, but I had a lot of love in my heart. Looking for a job, interviewing, eating together, shopping, watching movies, singing karaoke and traveling are all full of joy.

At that time, no matter what you did, it was clear. At that time, you were very simple, but you were as happy as you wanted.

After four years of love, we still live together and sleep in the same bed, but we are never sure how much love is left in our hearts.

He beat his the glory of the king, I brushed my Weibo, he ate my cooking, I washed the dishes, he came back to sleep next to me in the middle of the night drunk, and I was crying. He thought the wind was too strong and told me to close the window and not to make too much noise.

I once had a fever in the middle of the night and felt as uncomfortable as an ant. I'm thirsty. I want to drink a glass of water and call him again and again. Finally, he said, I have a fever, and it will be fine at dawn!

It's dawn. I'm not well. He sleeps soundly. I was really tired at that moment and wanted to give up!

However, when my limbs ached and I wanted to get up and pack up and leave, he suddenly woke up, hugged me gently and said not to go!

Nothing in the world is kinder and more soft-hearted than a girl who has moved her true feelings and knows that she is in pain, but is still waiting for a miracle.

Perhaps the word love itself is a mystery. Some people love simply, find each other's hearts, and meet for life. Some people love complexity, like a maze, and they still can't figure out the way back and forth.

Or maybe you and I have never been so free and easy, and we can make the multiple-choice questions of persistence and abandonment transparent.

04.

When is a person the most tired?

It's when someone feels powerless about something.

It is a time of indecision between persistence and giving up.

When is a person most vulnerable?

It is the moment when you start to feel uneasy and suspicious about what you have been clinging to, and you slowly lose yourself in the swaying world.

So you are anxious, you are lonely, you are sad, you are fragile, and you don't understand.

At that time, whenever there is light to guide you, you will walk safer, but you haven't found the light yet, and you are still touching it in the dark night.

You know the dawn will come, but sometimes you just can't stand the loneliness and helplessness in the middle of the night.

Just like you and I both know all the great truths, sometimes we still have a hard time.

Life is easy, but the shackles may not be easily put down.

For the persistence of love, for the persistence of dreams, for the hardship of life, for the cause, for all the secular desires of mankind.

Even if you can't become a Buddha, you are not a demon.

I want to love and fear disappointment, and I don't love and fear loneliness.

When is a person happiest?

It's time for you to finally make a clear choice.

Choose to stick to it, without hesitation, regardless of gains and losses.

Choose to let go, let go of your heart, find another place and have a bright future.

You have learned to appreciate beauty, to accept the imperfection of life, to persist and to let go.

Many people often lose sleep in the middle of the night, get drunk after drinking, squat on empty street corners and cry for no reason, or have breakfast on the subway in the morning. Don't doubt life.

Because sometimes happiness is around us, but our eyes are covered by confusion. If I can, I can hold you and give you some comfort.

05.

Later, when I came back from Shenzhen, I went to see Xiaoman specially. She looks more vivid than the information.

In a quiet cafe, I talked about the years of parting, distance and love.

I said: stay in Ningbo, stick to it and follow your inner feelings. No matter how prosperous and ridiculous you are, you are your own love. Just like a person walking in the desert, if you lock an oasis in front of you, you will be fearless.

You believe in love, there must be love!

If you think that no matter how hard you try, you can't make you happy, then you should give up and let go. Just like seeing a river, you can know at a glance that there is an undercurrent at the bottom of the river, so come back and see qingqing grasslands.

Depression is just a person's imprisonment for himself. If you don't want to let yourself go out, no one else can save you.

Mental fatigue is just a person's obsession. When you understand the choice, the world in front of you is infinitely beautiful in black and white!

Later that year, for the last time, I sent a postcard to Xiaoman, followed by a poem by Haizi.

It's called "facing the sea, spring blossoms" and it says:

From tomorrow on, I want to be a happy person;

Comb hair, chop wood and travel around the world.

From tomorrow on, I will care about food and vegetables.

Living in a house facing the sea, spring is blooming.

From tomorrow on, write to everyone I love.

Tell them my happiness,

Give every river and mountain a warm name.

Stranger, I will also wish you happiness.

I wish you a bright future!

May you lovers get married!

May you enjoy happiness in this world!

It's autumn now. On such a windy afternoon, when we think about the past and tomorrow, we will put aside our worries.

Dear, it is better to be a happy person.

From tomorrow on, I will be a happy person. I haven't seen our blog for a long time, and I haven't had time to write or say anything for a long time. Sister Jing Jing and Sister Xue, I'm really sorry that I didn't contribute anything to all of us. I've disappeared for so long that you miss me! It's really warm to come back today to see our circle so lively and have new partners.

This period of work, how to say it, is like a whip that keeps waving, constantly beating our crazy gyro and constantly turning ~ ~ ~ tired! But we can't stop and we can't stop. The burden on everyone's shoulders is too heavy, and we need to be responsible for so many people. We can only try our best to do these things well. I received a guest today and stole a lazy girl after talking about the project. I will continue to fight tomorrow.

Busy work during the day really let me temporarily put down those thoughts that I shouldn't have and have no time to think about emotional things. Even my boyfriend hangs around in front of me all day, treating him as an ordinary colleague. When he comes home from work, he often falls asleep when he is tired. I think this kind of life can make my mind return to real peace and return to its proper position; I even deluded myself that I didn't have time to think, but people who appeared in my dreams repeatedly reminded me that not thinking doesn't mean forgetting. The past doesn't mean it hasn't happened, there is no connection, and it doesn't mean it has really been put down. It turns out that he is so deeply engraved in my heart. When I can't cover it up with busyness, when I take off my mask in my sleep, it ridicules me so unscrupulously, ridicules my unwillingness, and ridicules the little unclear feelings in my heart. This makes me a little scared, afraid that I will inadvertently reveal a secret that will make me invincible. I always use various ways to test my boyfriend's mood when I wake up every day. Alas ~ ~ it's really tangled ~ ~ I don't know whether time can really dilute all these thoughts, and I don't know how long this time limit will take. I have warned myself soberly countless times, and many times I see it clearly and thoroughly in my heart than anyone else. But people, especially women, always love to find such and such reasons to deceive themselves, and always let themselves unconsciously fall into that pale memory to find the illusion of happiness. No matter how strong you are in front of people, no matter how warm you are in front of people, you can't see and can't help it. You will always be just a stupid weak woman who doesn't know how to let go. At least emotionally, we are all so weak.

Actually, it's not without happiness. The arrival of my boyfriend is a great comfort to me. He is always kind to me. I can have any expression in front of him, but I am still a real me in front of him, except for the secrets in my heart. Love what you choose, even if he has nothing now, but I have seen his efforts; Maybe he is really not as good as that man, but he is better than ordinary truth; Although a little harder and more tired, we can catch it; I can see all these things. For so many years, I have never been able to let him leave my side again and again. Let's stay together well, slowly and quietly break my delusion in the torrent of time, and strive to make us all happy.

From tomorrow on, be a happy person!