Mortuary hotel

Three months ago, a sudden serious illness shattered my original clear life track.

Before that, I had a beautiful girlfriend, a pair of clown-like parents and seemingly close friends.

After that, I only had an empty ward, an infusion bottle that I could never finish, and an operation that I couldn't afford.

But I haven't seen them for a long time, which makes me wonder if I'm dead.

I just lay quietly until the nurse pulled out the needle just now, and the screen of the ECG monitor changed from a hill to a flat ground, and the medical staff covered me with a white bill.

I can't help but sigh that this is death, so clear.

At this moment, a man in a white suit patted me on the shoulder and pulled my hand. I stood up. I stood in the middle of the ward and watched a group of people slowly push me out of the hospital bed.

"I am impermanent. Let's make a long story short. As you can see, you are dead. Now one day you are allowed to exist in this world. You can see what you want. After all, you will start from there ... "

I nodded, and he lit a cigarette and sat in the chair beside him.

"Go ahead, I'll wait for you here."

I looked back at my watch, 20: 00.

At 2 1: 00, I found my girlfriend and my boss in a big bed in a luxury hotel.

At 22: 00, I found my parents on a train that I didn't know where to go. They put their heads together and whispered. I can't hear the content clearly, but I can see that their faces are full of joy.

At 23: 00, I saw my best friend on the phone downstairs. The content is "Let's get together tonight and have a good drink."

At 24: 00, I went to my favorite bar and found a tramp as drunk as a fiddler in my usual seat. I saw the empty wine bottle in his hand and recognized it as the wine I left for my boss.

1: 00- 19: 00 I lay in the port where I disembarked when I first came to this city, watching the dawn and sunset, watching the waves tirelessly lapping at the exposed bolts on the dock, and thinking about my short life.

19: 30, a man in a black suit came up behind me and asked me:

"What do you see?"

"I saw the girl I like found what she wanted."

"Oh." I heard him mumble behind his back.

"I saw a couple start a new life full of joy, a group of close friends who could chat with each other late at night, and a kind boss brought a glass of hard liquor to a poor and lonely person."

The man smiled. He grabbed me by the collar, looked me straight in the eye and shouted:

"Don't deceive yourself. You don't feel guilty when you see your girlfriend sleeping with someone else, your parents abandon you, your friends don't care about pleasure when you are seriously ill, and the bar owner sold yours to a tramp."

"Just because you are dead, your life is meaningless. Just a stone that sinks to the bottom of the sea will eventually be forgotten in the Wang Yang. "

"Because I'm dead?"

"yes."

He has a triumphant smile on his face.

"You died because of you."

/kloc-returned to the ward at 0/9: 50 and saw cigarette butts all over the floor. White impermanence frowned and asked:

"What do you see?"

At this time, the man in a black suit pushed the door and walked into Bai impermanence. White impermanence sighed.

"It's really you, black impermanence."

"Choose, you and I together, will erase all the memories about you in the world, so that those who stay will not be sad ..."

He paused.

"Or guilty."

Black impermanence went on to say:

"I am here, and I can make people remember you forever."

He smiled

"Remember you, and they will have everything about you."

19: 55, black impermanence and white impermanence stood on both sides of the morgue, and only my lonely and cold body was lying in bed in the empty room.

I stood in the middle, like an infinite hell.

Left, through the darkness, life is like autumn leaves for decades. Although people stay away from tea, I can leave a little cinnabar in their hearts.

To the right, with the impermanence of white reincarnation, the past is like passing clouds, and the thoughts of all beings in the world are like thin threads winding around the palm. If I let go, nothing will happen.

At 20: 00, I went to the bed and lay in my dead body.

"***。" Black impermanence left angrily. White impermanence sighed and covered me with a white coat.

Even if this life is like bitter wine in my throat, I don't want to put it down and go home, leaving only the vast universe.

Even if people in this world are not sincere to me, I don't want to be a spectre and hurt my old friends and relatives.

I choose to die quietly, whether I remember or forget, it is my destiny.

Late at night, the girl hobbled out of the hotel, whispering, and finally the operation fee was enough.

Dongfang Bai, the couple are talking nonsense in their dreams. They want to take their son home and sleep under the spring.

There is no wine in the cup, and a bunch of drunks cry together, drifting away, drifting away, Hu Bugui?

Tears welled up in his eyes and the bar owner choked on the tramp. You really look like him.

My body gradually froze, and I felt my last weight gradually disappeared. Countless light and shadow intertwined in previous lives played a grand farewell in my mind.

I have tears in my eyes and a smile on my lips.

This world

I Love You, Goodbye