How does it feel to wake up with a new daughter?

in a daze, I heard this voice.

dad?

I'm only a senior three, and I just finished the college entrance examination. I had dinner with my classmates and drank a lot of wine in indulgence, but I'm only 18 years old. How did I suddenly become a father?

are you dreaming?

"The teacher said that there would be a donation fee of 1 yuan." Ear, voice rang again.

The girl's voice, which is crisp and pleasant to listen to, is not very old, but there is a hint of worry and helplessness in her tone.

The voice was so clear that I woke up suddenly. When I opened my eyes, I saw a little girl standing in front of me.

The girl is very handsome. She is young but looks like a beauty embryo. She has a ponytail and bright black hair. She is seven or eight years old and is looking at me with a pink schoolbag on her back.

The eyebrows and eyes are indeed somewhat similar to mine.

"Are you talking to me?" I asked, and out of the corner of my eye, I found the surrounding environment a little confused and panicked.

this is not a hotel, but a home.

on the security net in the window, there are some clothes hanging, and there are several pots of flowers and plants under it. One pot is already dead, and there is a cupboard in one corner.

There are combs, toilet paper, mirrors and some clothes that have been taken off and haven't had time to change. It seems that there are still some diapers on the clothes.

At the door, there is a shoe cabinet with some dust on it. It seems that it hasn't been wiped for a long time. Next to the shoe cabinet, there is a square table with a red plastic vegetable cover and two dishes under it, which are hidden and can't be seen clearly.

"Dad, I'm not talking to you. Am I talking to my sister?" The girl said, "Today is the deadline. The teacher said that you must bring ten dollars, otherwise you will be criticized."

and a younger sister?

my heart was shocked again, and I finally noticed the position of the foot of the bed. There was also a baby bed made of wood with some quilts in it. I sat up and glanced in.

Sure enough, there is a child lying in the crib, sleeping soundly. It seems that he is only about one year old.

I touched my lower lip and felt a little prick.

I panicked, got out of bed, ran to the cabinet and picked up the small round mirror, and couldn't wait to look at myself in the mirror.

at this, I froze.

Although I can vaguely see myself in the mirror when I was eighteen years old, I am eight or nine years old, my childishness has completely disappeared, and I have matured a lot. I have completely lost my vitality when I was eighteen years old, and I look a little decadent, with a big beard and greasy hair.

At this time, I don't doubt it any more. I probably came to 1989 inexplicably because of the indulgence after the college entrance examination.

that is to say, I am now, after 1989, but I can't remember the memories of these years at all, as if I had amnesia.

"Is there no money?" The little girl said again, with some injustice and fear in her voice.

I'm probably worried about being punished and criticized by the teacher.

"If you have money, how can you have no money? It's just ten dollars. Wait a minute." I said quickly, then rummaged around.

The pockets are all empty, except for a pack of cigarettes, and there is no money.

"well ... do you know where I put my money?" Embarrassed, I turned to the little girl and said, "I slept a little, my head is still dizzy, and my memory is not very good."

"Your money is always in your pocket." The little girl said.

"But it's not in my pocket, not a dime." I said, "Not even a bank card."

suddenly, I thought of a possibility, and I showed an epiphany: "I remember, did your mother have the money and the bank card, and she hid them?"

I accepted my identity for the time being, and the reasons behind it will be explored later.

since I have two daughters, it means that I'm married, and I'm spluttered. It's just that I'm a little sorry. I haven't felt the thrill of spluttering yet, but I suddenly have two daughters.

it gives people a strange feeling.

"Dad, are you okay?" The little girl looked at me anxiously. "Mom left us six months ago. How could she hide your money?"

the daughter-in-law ran away?

"why did she leave?" I'm a little angry.

"Mom says that you are not motivated. After so many years of marriage, you are lazy and refuse to go out to work. You only want to write novels. You only earn a few hundred dollars a month, even your sister's milk powder is not enough. You have had enough and left." The little girl said.

ok.

I sighed. I have no impression at all.

"Don't worry, I'll look again. I don't believe I can't find any money in such a big home." I comforted the little girl, that is, my daughter, and then looked around again.

finally, god pays off, and I pursed my ass and pulled out a dollar coin from under the bed.

"Dad is rich, see? Take it to your teacher. " I brushed the dust off the coin, rubbed it twice on my body and handed it to my daughter.

"just a dollar?" The daughter took the coin, and her mood was not very high.

"You are wrong. How can you have such an idea?" I'm a little unhappy. Education criticized, "Donation can't be mandatory, it has to be voluntary. It's wrong for your teacher to ask everyone to donate 1 yuan."

"Besides, as long as there is love, even a dime is a good deed, and a dollar is no different from ten dollars. Ok, go to school quickly, don't be late. "

"oh." My daughter seems to understand something, feel better, and go out in a hurry.

There's no one at home except a baby who is still sleeping. At this time, I feel relieved and walk around the house, trying to find some useful clues to deal with the situation I'm facing.

This home is small, less than 5 square meters, with kitchen and bathroom, but there is only one room, bedroom, dining room and living room all crowded together. In the drawer, I found a photo pressed under my clothes.

there are four people in the photo.

One is a little girl just now, the other is an infant, and there are two others, one is me, and the other is a beautiful woman in her mid-twenties, standing beside me with her baby in her arms. She should be my daughter-in-law.

This woman is 1.7 meters tall, only seven or eight centimeters shorter than me. She is very tall among women. She is dressed very capable, has a good face and is very beautiful.

it's just that when I took this photo, the woman seemed to have something on her mind, and her mood was not so good, and her eyebrows frowned slightly.

"I don't remember at all." I muttered, I don't know this woman in the photo at all.

I think we met after high school.

"Tang Wan and I didn't get together in the end?" When I was in high school, there was someone I liked. I thought she would not marry in the future. Unexpectedly, I married another woman and had children.

On the back of the photo, there are several people's names, which are connected by heart-shaped patterns.

"Jin Chen, um, is my name." I muttered softly, "Tong Wangjun, it should be the name of this woman. Wangjun, this name is interesting. Her parents must be disappointed to have a daughter."

"I really don't know him. I've never heard of the name Tong Wangjun. Chen Ke, Chen Le, this should be the names of two daughters, and I don't know who started it. I have no impression at all. "

In the middle of the seven or eight years, there was no memory at all, and it was a blank. I couldn't think of anything.

On the messy bed, I found another exercise book with the word Chen Ke written in the name column. The class is Class 3, Grade 3.

Those who sleep in the crib can't write, so Chen Ke can only be the name of the eldest daughter, and the daughter in the crib is Chen Le.

I lifted the plastic dish cover on the table and saw two dishes that I hadn't finished. I was a little stunned.

a plate of cabbage, with a small half left, and a plate of white radish with a large half left.

"This family looks very poor." I murmured.

There is no meat in two dishes, but these two dishes are still common vegetables, which are very cheap. They used to be the scene dishes in the school cafeteria.

I didn't expect that I, who had no meat and no joy, and my family was fairly good, would be reduced to this point.

"When Chen Ke went out just now, he didn't seem to have breakfast." Looking at the food on the table, I suddenly realized this problem.

I couldn't find ten dollars. Naturally, Chen Ke didn't have the money to go outside too early. I went to the kitchen to look for it for a while. The rice jar was empty, and the garbage basket was full of noodle bags. It was still the cheapest kind of noodles.

When I was in high school, my family was well-off, and my living expenses for a week were more than 3 yuan, while that for ordinary students was only 1 yuan. When did I get so miserable?

suddenly, I feel a little sad when I think of Chen Ke listening to the class with an empty stomach in the classroom.

There was a knock at the door. I went over and opened the door. There was a beautiful woman standing outside the door. It was the woman named Tong Wangjun in the photo I just saw.

my wife.