I can't go back to my hometown.

What is the most heartless thing in the world? I think it's probably time. Happiness is getting less and less, sadness is getting more and more, face is getting older and memory is getting weaker and weaker. After leaving my hometown for many years, compared with the glitz, right and wrong, and human feelings in the city, the sporadic memories of my childhood before going to bed are easier to jump into my mind and calm me down. ...

When I was young, Chengzhuang and Zhuzhuang were my happy childhood, which gave me warmth and happiness. Zhu Zhuang, my grandmother's hometown, in the early days of reform and opening up, was like many rural areas in the Central Plains, with small bridges and flowing water, full of rivers and pits, lush trees, smoke curling up and birds returning to their nests.

Grandma's house was a typical adobe house in that era, with a large yard. The west side of the adobe house used to be a clearing. Because grandpa is hardworking and capable, three tile houses were built in the village early, and many trees were planted in the yard. What impressed me most was that the spring trees in front of the East House were thick and tall, and there were five or six jujube trees and seven or eight persimmon trees in the yard. There is a clear pond in front of the yard.

Grandma's appearance is sometimes clear and sometimes vague in my memory, but it is always so kind. Whenever it rains and the water rises, grandpa will catch some light rain shrimp in the river, and grandma will tell her little brother and aunt to "go to the bank and call Huiyong". In those days when oil and salt were scarce, this was the most delicious food! I still remember my aunt told me that I was too young to chew sweet cane, and my grandmother chopped it for me, which made my gums bleed.

Grandma was weak, and my mother took her to the medical room of the brigade for many days. In the meantime, my little brother caught a bird and tied it to me with a rope. The bird suddenly pecked my thumb and flew away, leaving a red dot on my thumb until 1997. I still wondered for a long time.

Five aunts and young aunts are only three or five years older than me, but they know more than me. They let me spend my childhood together, cutting grass, catching fish, catching grasshoppers, feeding chickens and Petunia by the ridge, by the river, in the grass and in the wheat field. ...

My little brother is closest to me. I shared a bed with him when I was a child. I wet the bed at night, knowing it's not a good thing. I was embarrassed to say anything, but I managed to keep the wet place warm all night. Although my little brother has little knowledge, he is very clever. When I was a child, he warned me that "I must go to college when I grow up". Now think about it, my little brother was my first mentor in my life direction when I was a child. I didn't like fish, but once the roe deer lit a fire and my brother fried fish, which was the best fish I had ever eaten. I take a bath in the river with him every day, go to the fields to see melons, go to parties to go to the market, and look up at the stars in the bed in the yard in summer nights. I remember my brother-in-law once said, "Whoever has 1 10,000 yuan will never spend it all his life ..."

The earliest and clearest dream I can remember is that I may have a slight illness at that time. On the bed in grandma's yard, I dreamed that I was alone on a plane at an altitude of 10,000 meters. There was silence and darkness around me, and I felt like I was on an alien planet.

1982, my second aunt returned to my grandmother's house from Xinjiang. In addition to the raisins she has never seen before, she also brought back a four-year-old cousin, who is three years old. Once she was very angry and bit my head. Haha, it hurts and is funny. This lovely little cousin is really naughty and quarrelsome.

When my second aunt left, I took my fifth aunt with me. My dad sent the three of them to Zhengzhou and picked me up. It was the first time I took a train and saw the tall buildings in the city for the first time. I saw Greenland Hotel at Zhengzhou Railway Station. In the evening, my father said to me downstairs, "How many floors does this building have?" More than 30 years later, I passed this building again, filled with emotion:

When I first saw Greenland as a child,

Insert the ground into the clouds.

Father asked how high the building was.

Check the index.

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Just before my second aunt took her sister and cousin on the train, my sister gave me some brand-new tickets for "one point, two points and five points" and said to me, "Keep a souvenir, and meet again after many years to see if you still have it."

Big JIU was spoiled by grandpa when he was a child. When he was a few years old, he and his grandfather went to the market. Grandpa was afraid that he would lose it and put his head in a sack. I think it should be exposed. How else would he breathe? Once my uncle was kicked by a horse at home. Grandpa was very angry and picked up the whip and whipped it on the horse.

When fourth aunt first went to primary school, she studied in the same class as her uncle. "Protecting my brother from being bullied by others" is the task given to her by her grandfather. I can still recall their junior high school days. Lai Mingling is their teacher. Teacher Lai didn't understand the question, so Aunt Si explained it to him. Four aunts finished the college entrance examination, went to the county hospital for a physical examination before taking the university notice, and brought a film when she came back.

My fourth aunt came home from college during the summer vacation. I was in the fourth grade of primary school at that time. I asked her, "Why has this sentence always been in my composition since the Third Plenary Session of the Eleventh Central Committee? Why do you say that life in the countryside has undergone tremendous changes after this meeting? " Why can't I feel any changes in the countryside? Fourth Aunt patiently explained to me, "After the downfall of the Gang of Four, the country accelerated the pace of economic development, and the party's policies implemented reform and opening up, breaking the original form of ..."

When I was in the fifth grade of primary school, I first met my fourth uncle at my grandmother's house. At that time, he and his fourth aunt were not married. On the way home with my father, I asked my father, "Why is he so learned?" What I said is still useful: "Not only ... but also ..." Dad smiled and said, "Of course, he graduated from college!"

The most lively scene in my memory is the scene of visiting my grandmother's house during the Spring Festival. My aunt, uncle and uncle and nephew are all busy, smiling and laughing.

Third aunt is the most beautiful, but she contributes the most at home and works the most. Because my grandparents and my sister don't study, I often mow the grass in the former village with my sister. Sanyi often said: "Hui Yong was the funniest when he was a child. If he wants to eat the neighbor's food, he will take a basin and chopsticks and tell others a book in the neighbor's yard. " Sanyi also said: "Some neighbors like to play jokes on Hui Yong. As soon as they said that your aunt was taken away by the eagle, you still burst into tears and cried, who will make my cloth shoes in the future? "

Once I was sick and had a fever, lying in grandma's bed. I was about five or six years old that year and didn't go to school. My father asked me, "Where did your mother go?" I replied, "My mother went by plane." Father smiled and repeated, "I went by plane."

Zeng Guofan once summed up a sentence, "Things come in line, but the future doesn't. At that time, they didn't mix and didn't love." This statement makes sense, chewing has a deep taste.

But why do I have so many daily affairs, and my childhood memories always jump in my mind at a certain moment, and tears condense in my eyes? I think this is the warmest and most fragile nerve in my heart, the hard years our parents lived, their strength and courage, their feelings between brothers and sisters, their mutual help, their youth, they taught us to babble word by word, they held our hands step by step and watched us grow up with a knowing smile.

Now, their white hair at the temples, their faltering steps, the wrinkles in the corners of their eyes and their loving eyes can't stop me from crying in middle age.