I attended our friend's wedding, but he didn't come.

This is a diary written on the plane.

A few months ago, when I learned that his * * * and his good friend Xiaofeng were getting married, I wrote down the date. First, I want to go to the scene as much as possible and bless Xiaofeng. In 218, I traveled to Qingdao, and Xiaofeng entertained me. Xiaofeng, who had not worked at that time, invited me to eat, drink and have fun, and spent a lot of money. I want to return the gift.

Secondly, he refers to my college sweetheart. If I have the chance to see my college sweetheart again, I want to see her again. I can't explain this obsession. Even if he didn't want to see me, we would have lost contact. Maybe others think it is inappropriate and unnecessary. But I am so persistent and willful that I have spent so much energy here, and I don't care about this view anymore. Maybe no one else will care about you.

I took a three-day leave of absence and planned to fly from Changsha to Qingdao. However, there was an epidemic imported from other provinces in Changsha a few days before the departure, so I chose to refund the ticket and bought the one that took off from Guilin again, losing several hundred dollars.

The landing time in Guilin is not as convenient as that in Changsha. It's early in the morning. Moreover, it's a transit, and it stops in Hangzhou for five hours, until I feel sick and my tinnitus lasts several times.

I'm tired, but I don't think it's bothering me at all. In the world view of the book Fantasy Journey of the Shepherd Boys, everything is the process of your pursuit of your destiny.

In the early morning of 21st, my plane landed at Qingdao Jiaodong Airport, and I stayed in the airport space capsule for one night. At six o'clock in the morning, I took the subway to Qingdao North Station and transferred to the high-speed train to jimo city, only 16 minutes. I arrived in Jimo at 9 o'clock in the morning, found a hotel to settle down, washed and changed, and took a taxi to the wedding hotel at 11 o'clock in the morning.

it was a smooth journey.

When I got to the wedding hall of the hotel, the best man and I saw me coming slowly at the door, so I was surprised and asked why I came. I said I was coming. I don't know how to explain my coming here, as long as you see me, you will guess a little.

Hehe, Brother Ye is Xiaofeng's best man, and we are both college classmates.

Hehe asked me if I told Xiaofeng, and I said I did.

Actually, I told Xiaofeng that I would come when I was free during the National Day holiday, but I didn't say I would definitely come. I asked Xiaofeng not to tell anyone we know.

Xiaofeng didn't greet the guests at the door. He may have something to do, and he led me to the banquet.

I saw the names of my college sweetheart and his wife on this table.

if it were me, I'd be embarrassed. I don't feel embarrassed, but I care whether these two people will come or not. I think I can kindly ask them when they plan to have a second child.

after all, I just want to see him, just meet him.

at the same time, I also hope that they will be embarrassed and cause them a little harm, which is my revenge for not choosing me firmly.

But it's just my wishful thinking. Maybe others won't care about me.

I searched the meeting place with my eyes in my seat, and I saw someone who looked like him. I squinted carefully to make sure it was not.

I feel that most people in Shandong look very similar. On the plane, I knew they were from Shandong when I heard their tone and way of speaking. Or from some facial structures, it can be seen that it is a typical Shandong appearance. I can't say why. It is this feeling that gives me the feeling of "why all men in Shandong look the same".

until the end of the wedding, two seats beside me were vacant, and his wife didn't come. I asked Hehe why he didn't come, and Hehe said he didn't know.

After the wedding, Brother Heye Yang Heng left, and Xiaofeng and the bride came to talk to me. The bride is a lovely and good-natured girl. Seeing that I had something to ask Xiaofeng, she went to work by herself.

Then Xiaofeng sat down and talked with me about my work and recent situation, about the hard life.

I asked why he didn't come, but Xiaofeng said he didn't know, there was no reason and no phone call, and he said he would come before.

Xiaofeng sighed, lowered his head and thought about how to persuade me, sighing why my heart was so serious.

I actually made today's groom sigh. I'll stop talking at once. It's all my fate. I think today is the last chance to see him, and I won't see him again in my life.

Before I knew it, my eyes were wet again. I took out a tissue and wiped it off.

Xiaofeng's sigh is even heavier.

I'm so embarrassed to say that today is your big day, but I'm so rude. Xiaofeng expressed his understanding of my mood and hoped that I would do something happy to divert my attention.

Because at this moment, I wish someone could understand my feelings.

I told Xiaofeng that I came to attend your wedding, but I still have a little expectation to see him. Without this mood, it would be impossible, and I don't want to lie to you. I came solely for your wedding to witness your happiness. I still have selfishness. Actually, I know Xiaofeng thinks it's okay if I come or not. I said it's worthwhile for me to come for you, but I'm really sorry I didn't see him.

I hope Xiaofeng will contact him later, please tell him I'm here. It's a pity that I didn't see him. Xiaofeng nodded and said that he would tell him. I said you must tell him.

but for them, will it be a kind of luck not to see me?

I lost my chance and they escaped.

I really don't want to, but it's fate.

when I got back to the hotel, I began to cry.

In the evening, I took the high-speed train back to Qingdao North Station and took the subway to May 4th Square. Xiaofeng told me before that there was a fireworks show in May 4th Square. However, I found that it was off-season after October 16th, only on Saturday and Sunday, but not today and Thursday.

it's always almost there. it's almost there.

fill your stomach when it's cold.

I randomly found a seafood dumpling shop in the nearby Vientiane City, ordered a family portrait seafood dumpling, and ate four flavors. The hot jiaozi was delicious. And ordered a bird's nest. Remembering the famous saying in The Lonely Gourmet, it is everyone's freedom not to be bound by time and society. That's why I can be carefree when I eat.

Is there anyone like me in this world? It should be said that it is a knot or obsession. I have kept it in my heart for many years. I know that he is married and has children, and he is moving towards his own life step by step, and there is no intersection with me anymore, but he still has not reconciled with himself. His departure took away a lot of things from me, which I couldn't get back, which were scarred and still hurt in many moments.

After dinner, I walked to the May 4th Square near the sea with my luggage on my back. I remember seeing the sea for the first time in Qingdao. The sea is dark at night, and the lights on the shore are not bright, but you can still see the romantic purple light from the lover tower in the distance.

A street singer in the distance is singing "Kill that Shijiazhuang Man", and the song is accompanied by the sound of the waves. I feel the desolation of fate again. Some people, if they don't deliberately meet, will never see each other again. So, I think the last chance to meet each other in our life has been missed.

Actually, every time I say the last time, I look forward to the next time. I never want to lose touch with you, but it's fate.

I understand that for you, you never want to recall the past again, because there are still many things to do in the next step of your life. Me too, I have a new lover, but these knots can't be told to him.

if you want to know the reason why you didn't come, I just need to get to the bottom of my friends. But at this moment on the plane, I don't want to ask.

I hope someone can understand me, understand and support my selfishness, a kind of revenge, and a kind of deep feelings that can't be told in words. I hope someone can stand on my side and show deep sympathy and empathy to me, not someone who tries to reason and persuade me, because it's useless.