Confessions of a female prisoner-no regrets

? Every time I come back from the cold iron fence in the interview room, I can't help thinking, to what extent can a woman be considered a success or a failure? Maybe there is no answer, and everyone's dreams and living standards will be different.

? Opposite me sat a woman in handcuffs and fetters, with a beautiful face in Zhang Xiuqing. When she saw me, she was cold. Without the formality and flattery of other prisoners, he looked at me calmly and said, "Everyone in prison says that the counselor is a beautiful young girl." I smiled and said, "It shouldn't be me. I am just a person who comes to listen to stories. " She smiled: "Isn't there a story in the transcript?" "I'm here to listen to you. I'm too lazy to watch. " She laughed, laughed out loud, and said slowly, "People like you come to see our jokes." She started laughing again, like a funny clown. She added, "I never knew who my father was and why he didn't want me and my mother." If I knew who he was, I would kill him, too. "Speaking of which, her eyes staring at the air, slowly tightening, as if tightening a net to catch prey.

? "When I was very young, I had no hukou and no father. I think everyone wants to bully me and my mother. Everyone is uneasy and kind. " Tears rolled down her eyes, and she kept repeating the words "uneasy and kind". At this moment, it seems that the whole world is her enemy, and there must be a demon living in her heart, devouring all her thoughts.

? "Later, my mother was able to successfully complete my studies in order to let me have a hukou. Finally compromised and married the man introduced to her by the villagers. The hukou is there, but since then it has started a life of eternal ruin. " Speaking of this, she laughed and cried, crying and laughing. I watched her quietly waiting for her to tell the next story: "When my mother first married him, he pretended to be very kind to us. This is just a wolf in sheep's clothing. Slowly, its essence appeared. He often drinks and gambles with a group of pig and dog friends at my house in the middle of the night. After drinking and gambling, they beat me and my mother and asked our mother and daughter for money. If they have no money, they will beat us to death. The whole family went through everything. I was simply fed up at that time. Do you know that?/You know what? Do you know that?/You know what? I only have one idea, that is, kill him. " She gnashed her teeth and said, "Only in this way can we get rid of it. You can see the light of day again. " Speaking of which, her eyes are bright. Much like a female leopard foraging in the dark, her hands clenched the veins stood out violently, as if to strangle her prey.

? "At the summer lunch when I was 12 years old, I finally got my chance. Kill him and finally kill him. " Haha, she laughed loudly. "Just when it was going to rain, that damn bastard came back drunk and staggered. Hit me and my mom as soon as you come in. My mother hugged me and cried all the time. The murderer also pulled me out of my mother's arms and asked me to bring him soup. Soup. Oh, yes, soup. Ha ha ..... "Strange laughter sounded in the narrow interview room, which really scared me. She looked at the air with a twisted smile and continued, "I just put rat poison in his soup bowl and he died." Finally died, but my mother went to prison. " At this point, she collapsed in the chair and began to cry. She was so excited that she simply lay on the narrow table of the Eight Immortals and burst into tears. "Since then, I have been following my grandfather to get the minimum living allowance and live a life of being laughed at. Finally, I graduated from college and got a job as an administrative assistant in a local five-star hotel. That's how I met my dead husband. "

She smiled again, this time there was no sound. Just laughed coldly, sarcastically. After laughing, she stopped and licked her lips and motioned for me to pour a glass of water. Pass her a bottle of mineral water with the bottle cap unscrewed, and signal her to continue. She took a sip of the mineral water in the bottle and continued, "I don't love him." But he has money, and his money can make my mother come out without worries. I don't know if he is not stupid, or if my mother and I can't meet a good man's life, so far we have come this far. "She looked at the hands of silver handcuffs, turned and went on to say," I am very kind to him. I cook him all kinds of delicious food every day, high in fat, high in calories and high in cholesterol. "I just want him to die early, so that the property can be mine early. I know, knowing that there are other women outside him, I am still good to him as always. I want to paralyze him and let him transfer his property to my name. Later, somehow, he found my plan. " Speaking of this, she severely pushed down the mineral water bottle on the desktop, and the water splashed all over the desktop and floor, and wet her gray cotton shoes. Shoes wet with water are like her depressed face. She spoke again and said, "He insisted on divorcing me. I knelt down and begged him not to divorce me. Marriage is not divorced. If people don't go home, their property will be transferred away. " Having said that, she grabbed her hair in annoyance and then said, "Later, I thought of a way to buy him a large amount of insurance, and the beneficiary wrote me. I invited him home for dinner and told him about the divorce. I got him drunk at dinner and injected excessive potassium cyanide solution under his arm with a syringe. That's it, he's dead. " Then she burst out laughing and burst into tears.

I asked her. Regret it?

She said, "To be honest, I don't think I did anything wrong. What is wrong is those heartless men, the man who left my mother and me from the beginning, the man who killed my mother and married her to pieces. If, without them, I wouldn't be here now, and my mother wouldn't be in prison. Everything is their fault, and my husband's death is also their fault, which is their reason. They are murderers. Yes, they are real killers. You should catch them and catch them. " She frantically struggled with her limbs in shackles and handcuffs, slapping the desktop and herself, and kept shouting.

? The prison guard jerked her back into the chair, and her chest and body kept shaking with hatred and anger, just like a fish struggling out of water.

At this point in the conversation, there is no need to continue. If she and her mother had known earlier that they were under 14 years old and didn't have to bear criminal responsibility, maybe the ending wouldn't be like this. Perhaps, they will all have a good life and a happy family.

Many times, a seemingly casual decision will change the fate of two generations. Life is so complicated that every decision is related to the future. Don't think that what you are doing now is over now; You never know what kind of joke fate will play on you for what you did in the past.