You are bad: never forget, no response

The "Thank You" chapter in Da Bing's book "You are Bad" is written to Shen Xiaoyue. The first line of the first page reads: She witnessed the time when I was most depressed. Not just a testimony, but also unforgettable companionship and care.

2013 may have been the most depressing time for Da Bing. He was forced to put down the microphone, his regretful business closed down, his brother who betrayed his trust, his old injuries recurred, and his bank card was overdrawn. Account...

That year, Da Bing suspended his hosting career and started writing books. It was a newcomer's new work with cold themes, and it was difficult for any publisher to publish it. At that time, Da Bing stayed at Yueyue's house. Reading the description in the book, Yueyue was a very reasonable and considerate girl. She took in every friend who needed to save money and helped without leaving any trace.

She never asked Da Bing, who went out to visit the publishing house every day, how were you today? Do you have any clues? Every time Da Bing comes home late and needs to climb over the railing, Yueyue will always hold a flashlight and shine it down, not only illuminating the road but also shining into his heart. In the guest room, tea and coffee are piled on the dining table. There was Red Bull and a hot water bottle that was always full to the point of overflowing. She knew that he would write until dawn every day when he came back. In this big city of Beijing, at least the dining table was warm. During that time, Yueyue cooked delicious food and appeared on time every meal. When Dabing was in a state of writing and couldn't see her, she would wake him up in her own way. He would eat while she watched, seeming to smile. He clicked his tongue without a smile.

Reminds me of a sentence, when others care about whether you fly high, but I only care about whether you are tired or not?

In the first half of the article, I thought Yueyue was a very lively and lovely girl, but then I could feel her loss. Later, when Da Bing's book was finally signed, she was even happier than he was.

So Da Bing left Yueyue’s home in Beijing and started a press conference for his first book. It lived up to expectations and finally became popular. This was also due to his efforts. He said that Shandong people resisted creation, and the first book The book held 100 readings in 3 months, completed 1 million handshakes from 2013 to 2017, and even contracted tenosynovitis! So I posted on WeChat Moments to act coquettishly and express sympathy, with one exception, Yueyue's: "Oh, come on."

This was of course a sentence of encouragement, but it felt more distant. He was polite He replied "Thank you". He didn't expect that Yueyue would leave a message for him, because Yueyue had already blocked his circle of friends. In the past, they didn't need to say cheers and thank you. They just cherished fate and let it happen and didn't cling to it. How could they not be sad when they were far away after all?

Da Bing always felt that Yueyue would understand him no matter what decision he made, but he also felt Yueyue's alienation. Even in the same city, Yueyue did not contact him, as if he was avoiding him on purpose. The book writes: "At that time, I hadn't figured out what the problem was. I just thought I had offended her somewhere and didn't know I had lost her."

Yueyue was kind to Da Bing without asking for anything in return. She accompanied him and took care of him when he was at his lowest. And when Da Bing was walking uphill, Yueyue chose to be distant on the surface. When they had dinner together, she saw the Rolex on Da Bing's wrist and thought it was a high imitation. Da Bing stretched out his wrist to her eyes: It's genuine, does it look good? Bought new. Yueyue didn't look at him, but after a while she said: Da Bing, don't change...

Although there are only two words, it contains a lot of what Yueyue is thinking, maybe they will never be the same again.

In fact, the reason why I bought this Rolex is because I once had one when I was a host. I bought it to support the show when he was on stage. This watch also witnessed the last period of his hosting career. Later, Da Bing began to prepare for the 100 book readings of his first book, and he had to sell his watch to get the travel expenses...

She came all the way to visit the class, but he did not accompany her with everyone. He did not say the reason. Several meetings were temporarily canceled due to emergencies and urgent work. He did not elaborate on the reasons.

Da Bing said more than once in the article: I should explain it to her... I should tell her everything exactly. If I don't tell her, how can she understand... She is Yueyue, she will Forgive me... I didn’t say what I should have said, and there were many misunderstandings that could have been avoided...

At the end of the article, it was written that Da Bing only learned about Yue Yue’s death after having dinner with Yue Yue ***’s friend. To defend him, she has fallen out with many people over the years. Some public accounts took advantage of him to increase their traffic. As long as Yueyue knew him and started to tease and retweet them, she scolded them all! From the time he held concerts until now, no matter who it is, as long as someone dares to say something bad about you in front of her, she will immediately turn her back... no matter who it is!

In an instant, I understood that Yueyue was always the kind of person who provided help in times of need, rather than being the icing on the cake. Just like the song sings: Friend, friend, have you ever thought of me? If you are enjoying happiness, please forget me...

The most touching scene for me was the 2015 Big Bing for a group of people. The wandering singer brothers held a concert. After the celebration party, Dabing drank too much. After arriving at the hotel, he held his notebook and ran around the room, shouting that he wanted to change the manuscript, and searched for a dining table in the world. In fact, what Da Bing was looking for was Yueyue's dining table, and he never wrote anything on that familiar dining table again.

After reading the article, I feel that Yueyue’s feelings for Da Bing are different from others. If she didn’t like him, she would not be just a friend, she would not block her circle of friends, and she would not defend him behind his back. All of this is beyond the scope of a friend. range, and this alienation may come from his lack of response to it.

I think for Da Bing, the meaning of Yueyue to him is different from that of other people. He will probably remember that time for a lifetime.

I keep thinking about it, but there is no response.

We miss each other, but we move further and further apart.