My boyfriend always feels that others have a good impression on me, or that I have a good impression on someone. What do you mean?

Those single men are too superficial for me. Their promises are like flowers in the mirror, and they are all unreliable.

And those men who already have girlfriends and are particularly loyal to their girlfriends will make me look pleasing to the eye and have a desire for possession. I don't know if I want to prove that men are disloyal, or if my charm has exceeded the moral bottom line of men.

The environment of the stars holding the moon makes me a proud princess.

I am the youngest child in my family and I am beautiful, so I have been favored at home since I was a child. Many relatives like me and often buy me some gifts. They always praise me and tease me when they meet.

I am also very open-minded and often perform some programs for them at their request. Everyone says that Xue Jia's second daughter will have a future.

I grew up in such a starry sky environment, and gradually regarded myself as a princess in a fairy tale, thinking that all good things should be related to myself.

Although my parents really want a bowl of water to be even, and my sister is not partial to one another, my sister is two years older than me, more sensible and loves me very much, so I always have her share of good things.

As far as I can remember, there was only one time that I didn't succeed as I hoped.

That year, my sister won the first place in the class in the final exam of grade four, and everyone was very happy. Grandparents gave her a red envelope. But I can't be happy.

Because that time, I only ranked twenty in my class. In order to take care of my emotions, my parents told me that I am still young and my ranking does not represent my true strength. When I am older, I will definitely surpass my sister.

They promised me that when buying a gift for my sister, they would also buy me one, encouraging me to be the "first place" in the future.

Later, the gift was bought back. Those are two beautiful princess dresses. A white one and a pink one. Because my favorite fairy tale at that time was Snow White, I always wanted to have a white princess dress, so I clamored for that white one.

Mom and dad are a little embarrassed. Because they thought I was young and easy to get dirty when they bought a skirt, they bought me a pink one, and my sister's skirt was white.

Sister 1 1 years old, I am 9 years old. Although there is only a gap of two years, there is still a big gap in figures because it is the time of development. If I insist on white, it doesn't matter if it looks big on me, but my sister can't wear pink at all.

My parents thought about it and began to coax me and promised to buy me a white one next time. Let me wear a pink one first this time. But I am very unwilling, and I have been crying and crying, and I refuse to eat.

My parents coaxed me for a while. Look, I don't want to be obedient at all, and I don't want to get used to my bad habits. They are cold to me and ignore me. At dinner, my sister came in and wanted to take me to dinner, but I was very angry and didn't want to talk to her, so I insisted on not going.

I didn't feel too hungry until midnight. My stomach is empty and I have no strength at all. It was my sister who went to the living room to help me "steal" a pack of cookies, and I survived (at that time, there was a rule at home that I couldn't eat anything after 8 pm).

When I went to school at noon the next day, my sister quietly hid my skirt in my schoolbag and dragged me to the market where my parents helped us buy skirts. At that time, I only knew which market I bought it in, but I didn't know which store it was, so I had to ask one by one and compare the skirts one by one.

Many things happened, and finally we found him. The things sold at that time were not exchanged, but the boss was very kind. Seeing that we were two little guys, he changed them for us.

After taking a bath at night, my sister and I sneaked into the room and put on new skirts together to surprise my parents. Who knows, my parents were very angry and gave me a good beating.

Said I was too girly and willful. It's just that the color of the skirt doesn't suit me, and I won't give up until I change it back.

My sister has been crying and begging my parents to stop hitting me, saying that everything was her idea. I didn't shed a tear that time. I am very eager for my parents.

According to the present statement, I am a little perfectionist, but they can't understand me and think I am willful. However, I know in my heart that my sister is good to me, and I secretly tell myself that I will treat my sister well and be her dearest sister in the future, because she is the only person in the world who cares about me so much and loves me so selflessly.

It is also because I am beautiful that I just went to primary school. Many students still don't know the age of love, so I have begun to receive notes and greeting cards from boys. Because of this, I matured prematurely. Adults don't feel anything, but I am smart and know everything. I am a little "child prodigy".

Later, in junior high school and high school, I was the beauty of the school. Beauty is one thing, and more importantly, my maturity has taught me how to dress myself up and show my best side to others.

Especially when I went to college, I was admitted to other provinces and left my parents' "jurisdiction". Teachers no longer care about whether we love each other, and many boys and girls hold hands in public on campus.

At every dinner party, there are always groups of boys standing downstairs in the girls' dormitory waiting.

Since I entered the school, I immediately became a new school beauty, and more than half of the waiting pictures in the dormitory were directed at me. They know that I don't have special respect for them, but they still come to me again and again, give me some small gifts and invite me to dinner.

I welcome their gifts and will eat and go shopping with them when I am in a good mood. But I'm afraid it's impossible for me to really choose a real boyfriend from them.

Because although I always have a lot of suitors, I seldom have a crush. Sometimes I have a crush on a boy and will take the initiative to provoke him, but when I am sure that he likes me, I will feel dull and my crush on him will suddenly disappear.

Later, I found that most of the boys who can make me move are boys who don't care much about me.

And those boys who like me and are willing to pay a lot for me, I don't even bother to look at them.

The more madly in love with me, the more disdainful I feel. I think they are all servile to me. If it is an ordinary girl, it should be moved, but I have seen too many such suitors. It is only a natural process from moving to numbness. I became a proud princess, and I simply ignored their enthusiasm.

The headache is that the boys I take the initiative to provoke will like me within three days and will become a member behind me, making it difficult for me to be tempted by a person for no more than three days.

Gradually, I am a little discouraged about my love. I wonder if I am a woman with a heart of stone? Will it be difficult to meet a man you like in this life?

It was not until Lin Yufeng appeared that I felt I had found hope again.

My roommate's boyfriend, for the first time, attracted me for a long time.

Lin Yufeng, my roommate Zhang Na's boyfriend, works in other places. That time he came back to see Zhang Na after a long vacation. In order to show sincerity, he specially invited our girlfriends from the whole dormitory to have a big meal together.

I really couldn't believe my eyes when he appeared in the dormitory. I really can't imagine how an ugly girl like Zhang Na can have such a handsome boyfriend.

He is not only handsome, but also has a demeanor that ordinary people don't have. He looks gentle, just my type.

That night, my soul seemed to be lost. I changed my usual liveliness and cheerfulness, stopped teasing them with everyone, and stopped stealing the limelight with witty remarks. I just looked at them sourly, and I felt very bad.

I don't know if Zhang Na is acting on purpose, or if they really are. When eating, she always pouts and gets angry, making him coax her around, but he doesn't bother her at all.

At that moment, I suddenly felt how happy it would be to have a man I like to accompany me and indulge my willfulness.

Although my suitors will indulge me and try their best to make me happy when I play a small temper, it is a completely different feeling. The more they coax me, the more I annoy them, their sense of superiority and self-love.

But Lin Yufeng is different. Although he will gently coax his girlfriend, he doesn't feel anything. On the contrary, it seems that adults are coaxing children, giving people a feeling of extreme tolerance and spoil.

I couldn't sleep that night. All I can think of is Lin Yufeng looking into Zhang Na's warm eyes. Finally, I bit my lip and swore in my heart: this man, I must get him!

I am a man of my word, and I launched an offensive the next day. I know that Lin Yufeng works as a computer, so I found an excuse for my relatives to buy a computer, and asked Zhang Na for his QQ number, saying that I wanted to give him the configuration of the computer that my relatives wanted to buy, and asked if there were any necessary changes.

After the party, Zhang Na was very proud of the scenery brought by her boyfriend and generously gave me his phone number. He also said cheerfully that there are many acquaintances in Lin Yufeng who are in this line of work, and there are several here. Might as well ask him to find someone to buy it for me directly.

I smiled coldly in my mind. I think, if you take Lin Yufeng's ability as a favor, maybe you won't have such an opportunity again.

After contacting Lin Yufeng, I pretended to copy a list of computer configurations on the Internet and listened to many of his suggestions. Of course I won't buy it. I don't have any relatives to buy computers. I live on campus and have no place to put it.

But after a while, we got to know each other on QQ.

Maybe I am naturally attractive to men, and I can feel that Lin Yufeng likes me, too. Although he only regards me as Zhang Na's good friend, at least he can prove that he doesn't hate me, which is a good start.

Soon after, I found that we were getting more and more ambiguous. Of course, these changes are all carefully designed by me. For example, if I buy a beautiful new dress, I will ask him to open the video, help me to comment, change my hairstyle and show it to him as soon as possible.

His QQ show has been hanging there naked. Obviously, he is not a person who often talks about QQ, so I chose a QQ show for him with the remaining money when I bought QQ coins. He was very surprised.

He said that he never cared about these small details, but he accidentally wore a QQ show and felt really different. Now he finds it really ugly and rude to be naked before.

I told him that QQ space also needs to be dressed up, because many netizens will wander around when they are bored, and seeing an empty space will make the host less interesting. So he got his own QQ password and became his royal designer.

A week later, his space was brand-new, and I specially uploaded a photo that I was most proud of.

A few days later, I found that Zhang Na was very angry every time he saw me. He not only ignored me, but also began to criticize me in the dormitory. I know it's all because of that photo.

I pretended not to know anything and asked him what was wrong. He told me with a sad face that Zhang Na misunderstood us because he saw my photo in his space. I was surprised and said, "Do you have my photo in your space? I'll go and see! "

After a while, I said, "I remember. I wanted to upload a beautiful picture to you that day, but the system kept prompting that the upload failed." I don't know what happened, I downloaded a photo in my own space, tried to upload it, or prompted that the upload failed. " I didn't expect it to pass smoothly. I'm really sorry. You must have suffered a lot. I'll explain to Zhang Na. "

But he was in a hurry and said, "No, don't go. Nana is narrow-minded, the more you explain, the less clear you are. I don't want you to be angry with her, too You girls are so thin-skinned If she says anything about you in front of your classmates, I'm afraid you can't stand it. I will find an opportunity to explain to her. "

Of course I won't give him another chance to explain. During their cold war, I easily penetrated his heart. I don't go to class every day, so I get into the Internet cafe to accompany him. He doesn't sleep at night, and I never go offline.

He finally understood what I meant and confessed to me. He told me that he had an amazing feeling for me as early as the first day he met me. Later, I gradually came into contact and felt that I was not a woman with a beautiful face. My connotation attracted him more.

He said that I was actually his dream girl, and he had long been interested in me, but because I was a classmate of Zhang Na, he dared not have wild desires for me.

He said that he thought he would always keep this feeling in his heart, but my performance during this time gave him courage. He said that if I treat him well because I like him, he can break up with Zhang Na immediately, and he will pursue me desperately. Of course, he will consider my situation and would rather be my underground lover first, so as not to ruin my reputation in front of my classmates.

If I've been nice to him just because I misunderstood him and Zhang Na, then he didn't say anything. But now that he has met me, he can't love Zhang Na as much as before. He doesn't want to lie to her anymore, so it's only a matter of time before we break up.

I looked at his sincere face in the video, and I was completely sure. I know that at this time, even if I say "no", he can't escape from my palm.

Sure enough, I told him that I really only stayed with him because of my guilt, and he promised not to bother me again. But the next day, he called and said that he missed me. He wanted to never contact me again. He wanted me to be alone, so that I wouldn't feel embarrassed when I faced Zhang Na. He even thought that in order to make me not feel guilty, he would continue to have a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship with Zhang Na for a while, and then break up after the incident subsided.

But all night, he couldn't sleep, his eyes were full of my smile, he said he was going crazy, and he didn't think he could lose me. He knows that if I really refuse him, it means that we can't even be friends. He can't accept the fact.

What else can I say? In this way, we became boyfriend and girlfriend. Of course, according to his deliberate plan, our relationship was not made public. The reason why he broke up with Zhang Na was that she was too headstrong and narrow-minded and didn't give people a chance to explain.

That day, Zhang Na cried and apologized to me, saying that Lin Yufeng was going to break up with her because she misunderstood us.

She said she didn't really misunderstand me. She believes that I am not that kind of woman, and I will never have anything to do with Lin Yufeng. Lin Yufeng will not be a fickle and disloyal person. She is just used to being with him for so long, as if he doesn't coax her for a day, so she can't believe that he still loves her.

The reason for this is entirely because of her strong inner inferiority. She cried and begged me to help her talk to Lin Yufeng once, telling him that she was wrong and that she would change and never be willful again.

I listened to her cry, only amused and a little sad.

She really thinks I won't steal her boyfriend, and Lin Yufeng won't move on. God knows, in love, people are selfish. How can I let go of such a good man just because he is a classmate's boyfriend? And Lin Yufeng, since he met a better choice, what is the need to stay in a tasteless relationship?

Of course, I can't say these words to her. I can only put on a show and comfort her. I promise to meet Lin Yufeng on QQ again, and I will give him a good scolding and then take it out on her.

She didn't know that, in fact, at that time, Lin Yufeng was in a hotel near the school, waiting for me to sneak out after class and date the head teacher.

Unfortunately, after we were together, it didn't last long. I wonder if it's the same reason as before. When I knew that he liked me, I became less concerned about him. Some places that used to be considered advantages are not pleasing to the eye now.

For example, I used to think that he liked Zhang Na very much, and I was jealous, but when we were together, I was annoyed that he sent more than a dozen text messages every day and bombarded "greetings" indiscriminately, feeling a little too clingy.

In the past, when he chatted with me, he often asked about Zhang Na. I only thought he cared about her before, but now I find that he is actually very narrow-minded. Always asking me where I am. Knowing which boy I went out to play with again will make me very unhappy and sometimes I will lose my temper.

I don't think he really understands me. In the past, even without him as a boyfriend, those boys and I were limited to eating and shopping, and I wouldn't go to the movies with them. Of course, I will have proper limit. But he is always jealous and thinks I am a playboy.

He and I live in two different places. If you can't keep some normal contacts with boys, I really don't know what fun life is.

There was a quarrel slowly, and soon after, I couldn't bear to break up.

I didn't expect him to fly over the next day and stick it downstairs in my dormitory. Roommates don't know the inside story. They all thought that he had changed his mind and came to Zhang Na, so together they pushed Zhang Na downstairs. I tidied up my textbooks and tried to sneak into the library.

But he saw me at a glance, regardless of Zhang Na, and immediately rushed to me, grabbed me and begged me to give him another chance.

Zhang Na see in the eye, cover your face, "wow" cried and ran away. I turned around bitterly, gave him a slap of cutting and left.

I was completely isolated in the dormitory. I say it doesn't matter, but my heart is still slightly lost. But I am as proud as ever, and I won't apologize to anyone. Originally, feelings were two of a kind's business, and no one could force anyone. Although Lin Yufeng used to be Zhang Na's boyfriend, he has the right to choose again, and I have reason to accept him.

The only gain from this incident is that I finally understand what kind of man I like.

I find those single men too superficial for me. Their promises are like flowers in the mirror, and they are all unreliable. And those men who already have girlfriends and are particularly loyal to their girlfriends will make me look pleasing to the eye and have a desire for possession.

I don't know if I want to prove that men are disloyal, or if my charm has exceeded the moral bottom line of men. As a result, I was not only isolated in the dormitory, but also had a bad reputation at school.

Some girls whose boyfriends I robbed spoke ill of me behind my back, and even made up some unpleasant stories about me. For example, I'm sitting on the stage, sitting on a rich man or something. And my former friends either turned against me or gradually alienated me.

The remaining few only keep the relationship of eating, drinking and having fun together. When it comes to emotional topics, they will show a wolf-proof look, which makes me very uncomfortable. No one is willing to confide in me anymore, and no one will come to me with a boyfriend for evaluation.

Maybe it's because I'm rebellious I was deliberately indifferent and didn't care about those so-called friendships at all. I continue to mingle with boys, continue to create an ambiguous atmosphere in front of the man I like, and continue to talk about the love of the carousel. Because I know that my beauty and temperament, no matter when, I will still be welcomed by boys.

Who is more perfect, me or his wife?

Finally graduated, and I ended my infamous college time. I know that "judging people by their looks" is a common problem, so with my appearance, it will be easier to get a job than others.

I have always been a person who has a good plan for the future. Although my grades in school are not very good, I have always attached great importance to oral practice. I know that as long as my spoken English is good, it shouldn't be a problem to get a high salary.

Sure enough, my first job made me very satisfied, working as a foreign guest reception in a resort. When there are no foreign guests, I am very free. I can get a basic salary of several thousand yuan a month as long as I sit in my office and surf the Internet with air conditioning. When foreign guests come, I will accompany them all the way and be their guide and interpreter. Not only will I get a commission, but I may also receive a lot of tips.

There are many female receptionists in the resort, but I am still the most beautiful one, and I soon became the target of male colleagues. Some male foreign guests also like me very much and have the intention to pursue me.

However, although I am willing to serve foreign guests and earn more money from them, it is still difficult to accept the idea of having in-depth contact with a person with different living habits and language styles. Therefore, I am generally more polite and stay away from those foreign guests who have a good impression on me.

And those male colleagues, I am still the same as before, the better I am, the less interested I am, while those married men in the office, I feel their different charm.

What attracts me most should be Zhao. In fact, he is not the type of Prince Charming. Even in the eyes of some girls, he still lacks masculinity. He and Lin Yufeng are also completely different types. However, what he once said to me unintentionally touched me a lot.

Zhao, 35, is a famous model husband in the company. Although he is the manager of the planning department, he has great power and ability in the company, but he is a good man who doesn't drink, smoke or like women.

Although the resort is open 24 hours a day, the planning department can work from nine to five, and Zhao must be the first person to punch in on time every day. There is a gossip that the first thing he does after work is not to go home, but to buy food in the supermarket near the company. What is even more incredible is that it is said that he does all the housework at home.

I really can't figure out how a man who is not good at alcohol and tobacco and spends most of his time and energy on his family can rise to the top. I think from the perspective of mate selection, he should also be a perfect candidate.

To prove it, I asked his wife directly if she was beautiful and miserable, which is why he worked so hard.

He smiled and said, "Whether beautiful or not, girls are born to be hurt."

I was really shocked by this sentence. I thought he would say how much he loved his wife, or that she wouldn't rely on him alone, but he gave me this answer.

I think all women will be tempted to hear this sentence? What woman doesn't think she is a princess? What woman doesn't want her man to think that she was born to be loved? However, too many men's efforts are based on the premise of taking. Only he feels that such efforts are justified and duty-bound.

I thought at that time, I must not let such a man go. I even thought that it would be a happy thing if I could really get married and have children with him. In this life, don't women expect to find a lover who knows how to be warm and cold? Always drifting like me is not a long-term solution.

The office is always a place where love is easy to breed. My method with Zhao is actually very simple. It is nothing more than quietly filling out an overtime list when he works overtime, then pretending to "meet" when he leaves his job, and then inviting him to have a snack together.

As a man, he naturally has an obligation to send me home. With more and more such "encounters", we have also formed some kind of tacit understanding. Although there is no difference between going to work during the day and peacetime, when looking at each other, we can feel some space that belongs only to the two of us.

Zhao asked me out for the weekend for the first time, which made me very excited. I thought a "good man" like him would have to wait a long time and spend a lot of effort to impress me. Unexpectedly, he asked me out soon.

But after meeting, I was disappointed. It turned out that he only asked me out because of his wife's birthday and wanted me to choose a gift for him. I reluctantly agreed to his request, but deliberately chose a sexy pajamas for him to give to his wife.

I think his wife should be in her thirties. I don't know if she is old, but a woman who has given birth to a child always has some defects in her figure. I just want her to completely expose her shortcomings in front of him, and then he will naturally feel my beauty.

To my surprise, the day after his wife's birthday, he told me when he invited me to have a midnight snack, and he really wanted to thank me. His wife liked pajamas very much after she got them. They looked good on her. He said that she is a woman who keeps a very good figure. He ignored it before and didn't give her a chance to show her sexy. He will pay more attention in the future.

I feel bored. I feel like an idiot. I made a wedding dress for someone else. With a little hatred and indomitable spirit, I want to get Zhao at once, even if I put down the pretense of reserve, I will get him.

A few days later, I specially asked Zhao to do me a favor. I didn't say anything on purpose and asked him to come to my place. After a few glasses of red wine, he is already a little drunk. I walked into the bathroom, put on my sexy pajamas and appeared in front of him. I asked him, "Who do you think is more perfect than your wife?"

He froze. Finally, the drunkenness and impulsiveness in his body temporarily knocked down his so-called loyalty. He didn't refuse my body to sit in his arms.

In the middle of that night, although he got up from my bed in a hurry and ran away in a mess, I still smiled. I think he is not a heartless man. He can't pretend nothing happened like those prodigals.

Then, from now on, he and I can no longer be just ordinary friends. He will be responsible for his actions. I think this is my only chance.

I really didn't guess wrong. He is a person who will be responsible for his actions, but my mistake is that he is responsible, not me.

On that day, he confessed everything about us to his wife and vowed that this would never happen again. However, her wife has always been a spoiled little woman, and it is hard to accept this fact. The next day, she found the company and confronted me face to face in front of all my colleagues.

I can't understand what kind of woman this is. Does she care about her husband's future and face? In the face of his questioning, I was speechless and had to bow my head in shame. I thought she would be finished by making a scene, but in the afternoon I received a notice of dismissal from the personnel department.

The reason is that we are a service industry, and this kind of thing has made such a big noise that many guests have seen it, which has had a serious impact on the company. The personnel director told me seriously that the company's advertising slogan is: customer satisfaction, leaders rest assured, and wife rest assured. But now that this has happened, the company is worried that the guest's wife will no longer be "at ease" here and has to ask me out.

I led the company to compensate me for an extra three months' salary and walked out of the gate of the resort alone, wanting to cry.

I don't understand that in this era, the problem of "life style" is actually linked to work! So, what about Zhao? Has he been punished accordingly? The little wife he holds in his hand really doesn't know what he thinks. Why can he do such a crazy thing because of a little problem in marriage? I can't help feeling a little scared about marriage. I finally believe that sentence: marriage is the grave of love.

Whether buried or sublimated, until today, I have never even got a true love. Is God too stingy with me? Or am I too greedy?