Love rat killed me with deep affection —— Thoughts on Reading I'm Dying.

In the frivolous years, I always feel that I am different, and I try my best to show my maverick in manners, hobbies and other aspects. Just as most people like to watch comedies, they expect a happy ending and give themselves a happy time. I once believed that "happiness makes people superficial", but I scoffed at it and preferred tragedy, as if this alone could kill a "vulgar" public. Look, I am more profound and meaningful than you.

And I did get comfort in the process of being abused by stories, so that I often doubt myself-why do I like stories that abuse my heart? Is my mental health worrying already? I just saw a lot of worrying works in my struggle. Just read while you are young, you won't forget it, and you won't think about it day and night. But now people are getting old and their hearts are getting soft. After reading this novel, I tossed and turned and couldn't sleep. The dialogues and stories of the characters repeatedly lashed my fragile mind and made me suffocate, as if the whole person would burst in the next second. Alas, who made me retarded and asked for it? You can only bear the consequences.

The simpler, the more cruel; The more real, the more painful. The story was told by a dying man. Behind the seemingly peaceful words is a heart scarred by deep affection, a feeling destroyed by misunderstanding. At a party that year, Cheng Yuanfeng fell in love with Qin Yun at first sight and finally captured Qin Yun's heart. In the past seven years, they have not been happy. They have always been inseparable, lingering. They share joys and sorrows. Their final farewell was not lost to time, but to lack of communication and trust.

Because love breeds resentment and resentment breeds estrangement, all you need is a video and a pendant. If one day, you see the restricted videos of your close lover and other people who have been with you for many years; If one day, you received a jade Buddha from another man, which you bought with your lover, what would you do? Is it unbelievable or furious? Should we ask questions immediately for an explanation, or should we keep silent and wait for revenge? Or break up decisively without asking why? I think everyone will have their own way of dealing with it.

Let's see how Cheng Yuanfeng did it.

Seeing the video, he was furious, even more angry than painful. Without thinking, he decided that Qin Yun had broken his oath and cheated himself, but he didn't want to think about it at all. For the development of the company, he forgot to eat and sleep, stayed up all night, gave up drinking for himself, drank stomach bleeding, and accompanied his lover Qin Yun for many years. Is there anything to hide? I never thought about it either. Liu Yuedong, the so-called "derailed object" in the video, is a demon who does whatever it takes to achieve his goal. He once forced Qin to seduce and speak ill of him. I never even thought about it. My mother, who has always disliked Qin Yun, is going to break them up to see if this video has ulterior motives.

He didn't ask anything, didn't think about anything, and even felt that he didn't have to think about anything, so he was self-righteous and firmly believed that Qin Yun had failed him. Because he is more concerned about the shame brought by this result than the reason of "derailment", his competitive spirit makes him ignore all kinds of clues and only compete with Liu Yuedong. If he was blinded by anger for a while, I barely understand, but what did you do after that?

After calming down, Cheng Yuanfeng still didn't take the initiative to communicate. He transferred Qin Yun's shares in the company, leaving nothing for Qin Yun. He even went behind Song Xiao's back to avenge Qin Yun's alleged betrayal. The explanation he gave later seemed reasonable and impeccable, which made me disdain but could not help but expose his ugly face in love rat.

According to Cheng Yuanfeng, after seeing the video, he was in shock, thinking that Qin Yun had rejected himself, and he was even more afraid that Qin Yun would leave him after the truth came out. So he didn't dare to ask, and the restriction of economic freedom was also to keep Qin Yun. Ok, let's understand Cheng Yuanfeng's timidity and irrationality because of being swayed by considerations of gain and loss, and then cheat.

Cheng Yuanfeng explained this. He said that Song Xiao appeared in his painful struggle. He refused several times, but they were all "designed" by Song Xiao. Ironically, Shang Hai, the son of Cheng Dagong, has not cultivated a pair of discerning eyes for many years, is ignorant of people and lacks basic vigilance against people with ulterior motives. But after all, Cheng Yuanfeng was unconscious and didn't take the initiative to cheat. We can forgive him.

But what did he do after the first passive derailment? He is actually showing off and keeping a lover relationship with Song Xiao. Oh, it's really tit for tat, fighting hard, turning passivity into initiative and pulling back the situation.

He said that he had no feelings for Song Xiao, and he was only with him to escape the pain, for fear of losing control and hurting Qin Yun, so he used Song Xiao to vent his desire. This is killing two birds with one stone, insulting Qin Yun, who loves him deeply, and hurting Song Xiao, who is infatuated with him. Well, bear with it first, just think of him as a sperm in his brain and be confused for a while.

However, when Qin Yun found out that he and Song Xiao had opened a room in the hotel, how did they handle it?

He saw that Qin Yun was sad and uncomfortable, but he didn't feel ashamed and blamed himself. Instead, he felt in a good mood. What a wonderful reaction! Qin Yun didn't make a fuss, just asked a reason, but didn't take the opportunity to make it clear. He simply changed the derailment from concealment to aboveboard. He even ignored Qin Yun's weakness and vomiting, staged a live erotic scene with Song Xiao in the company bathroom to stimulate Qin Yun, and later rushed into the office to humiliate and rape him. Seeing this, I was really shocked by Cheng Yuanfeng's animal behavior and was speechless.

Perhaps this is what he called the pleasure of revenge?

Later, while regretting himself, he let Song Xiao stimulate and hurt Qin Yun. He said he wanted to make a clean break with Song Xiao, but Song Xiao threatened with inside information, so he had to agree to Song Xiao's request and use him to hide his eyes and ears to acquire his mother's company. I don't understand, since I know my mistake, and since I still love you deeply, why can't I tell the truth bravely and frankly to reassure Qin Yun? Why let Qin Yun continue to suffer and refuse to stop? Is this what you call affection?

Cheng Yuanfeng's notorious misdeeds and crimes are countless, which makes people unbearable to look directly at and hear.

So in my opinion, Cheng Yuanfeng is not a sentimental pseudo-love rat at all, but an out-and-out real scum. Cheating is cheating, and no amount of high-sounding reasons can change the fact of betrayal. If you don't like cheating, it is immoral and not particular at most; Still deeply involved in love and derailment, either this so-called love is deceptive, or the derailed person is worse than an animal. Betrayal is the greatest insult to one's lover and the most fatal injury. There is no excuse for sin, and his heart will be punished.

Cheng Yuanfeng did cruel things in the name of love; With his so-called sincerity and Qin Yun's affection for him, he bit by bit obliterated Qin Yun's hope for love and belief in life, making him lose face and shed blood. Cheng Yuanfeng used deep affection as a weapon and finally killed Qin Yun.

This is a good move, but what are you proud of? You just love Qin Yun more than you love him.

Qin Yun ignored Cheng Yuanfeng's wishes, broke his oath and exchanged his own sacrifice for Cheng Yuanfeng's unwanted return. He is willing to die for apologizing. Cheng Yuanfeng will also pay a painful price for his willfulness and willful impulse. He will lose love forever and be sad for a lifetime.

I don't want to believe in the so-called love game theory, but I often can't help but believe in reality. Those who fall in love first always lose, and those who love more will lose. May you indulge in love, leave yourself a way out, and don't give everything. In this way, even if we finally break up, we won't lose the whole world.