Those who have cried, suffered from insomnia and collapsed are the most painful people.

On the afternoon of March 7, the sunshine in the south was warm through the glass window. Wang Xin (a pseudonym), a child who is being isolated in the hotel, listened to his mother chanting: "Baby, let's go home and live."

There was a loud noise and the whole hotel collapsed.

In just a few seconds, Wang Xin fell into the ruins from a quiet room. Surrounded by criss-crossing reinforced concrete, Wang Xin was trapped in the gap, fearing that he would be scratched by steel bars and even pierce his body when he moved.

2 1 After the collapse of Xinjia Hotel in Quanzhou, Xinhe Wang's mother trapped in the ruins was finally rescued by firefighters who came to the rescue.

At this point, the roadside has been full of people. The scene was filled with dust, which choked my throat slightly.

Through the dust all over the sky, you can still hear the heartbreaking cries of onlookers.

The firemen searched one by one and then moved one by one. Some people were cut off by a wall, bleeding profusely, and some people were directly covered in blood and died before they were sent to an ambulance.

The screams, cries and shouts at the scene were mixed together and full of despair.

Firefighters walked carefully beside the ruins, shouting, using detectors to detect, waiting for someone to respond, waiting for the instrument to respond, waiting for life to come back to life.

Even if there is only one survivor, even if he has only one breath.

But the firemen moved the broken wall away, and when they saw this scene, they burst into tears.

The 2-year-old brother held his 4-year-old sister's waist tightly, and the sister held his brother in her arms with a bow.

Not breathing.

Firefighters suffocated the children's young and cold bodies and put them on stretchers. Watching them be sent to the car in sealed bags.

Then I squatted on the side of the road and cried out of control.

In the eyes of many people, doctors, firefighters, policemen and rescuers are people who are used to life and death and big scenes. So I always feel that they are insensitive, even regardless of life and death.

Wrong. After the disaster, their emotional and psychological trauma will also fall into an unmanageable predicament.

These painful images will linger in the minds of firefighters. Even when I go home to face my baby of the same age, I can think of the two cold bodies under the reinforced concrete.

They will live in fear of their loved ones all their lives.

But we know nothing about their pain.

When it comes to the occupations that have contacted and witnessed the most deaths, rescuers are definitely the first to bear the brunt. When a disaster happens, medical workers, police and firefighters will arrive at the first time.

Although they have seen death, they never despise it.

The medical library survey in 20 17 investigated medical practitioners. Doctors who are usually labeled as "looking down on life and death" are actually not as numb and calm as ordinary people think.

A total of 744 people participated in this survey, of which 600 people denied that they died of numbness.

In the face of death, only a few people can be calm.

70% of medical staff are still depressed in the face of death and critical illness.

For example, in this epidemic, an old lady wanted to give up treatment and let the post-90 s nurses euthanize her.

The nurse was shocked and sad after hearing this. After trying to appease the old man, she dared not cry and withdrew from the ward.

"There are old people in my family. I am particularly desperate to hear her say this. "

And this situation is the normal state of every medical staff. They need to endure it forcibly and then digest it quietly.

In this epidemic, what doctors have to face is never to overcome the treatment problem. What they have to face is the double danger of body and mind.

There are as many as 400 patients with fever every day in tongji hospital, and nurse Ji Shen has to puncture at least 150 people every day.

Because it is inconvenient to wear thick gloves for puncture, she accompanies each patient 1 minute on average. She wears thick protective clothing and bows at 90 degrees for three hours every day.

For medical staff, spinal pain and edema have become the norm during the epidemic.

In a highly saturated working state, we have to accept the psychological challenges brought by death and critical illness.

Tongji hospital has a new patient every five minutes on average. Many patients arrived in critical condition.

Huang Haishan, the head nurse, had such an experience. Family members shouted outside: "doctor, doctor, my mother is dying."

After hearing the cry for help, she immediately rushed to the private car with her family, but when she arrived, the patient had no breathing and heartbeat. There were no beds in the overcrowded hospital, and she paved the way for cardiopulmonary resuscitation with the medical staff. After more than ten minutes of rescue, the patient still did not reverse the result.

She didn't show her emotions in front of her family, but when she returned to the ward, she collapsed alone.

There are countless such situations during the epidemic. Many doctors have no outlet to vent their emotions, so they can only use high-density work to numb their great inner pain.

"We don't have time to grieve because there are more patients waiting for us."

But by the time I get off work at night, this kind of broken bits and pieces will be forced into a torrent at any time, which is unbearable.

Slowly, what they once liked and insisted on became meaningless, and they began to worry about similar situations at home. Their words gradually lost their enthusiasm.

They have to face the pressure and traumatic obstacles after the disaster, and they can't say how helpless and sad they are.

They also want to talk to people about what they saw with their own eyes, but in front of close people, the topic of "death" can't be opened.

"Forget it, saying that others will only panic."

In fact, they are also very scared and uneasy, but they can only bear it in the face of people around them. After all, the topic of "death" is too heavy, and they choose to bear it alone.

Can only bear it alone.

Physical and mental stress, may collapse at any time.

After the disaster, both rescuers and victims will face post-disaster traumatic stress disorder.

Every day, they are awakened by deja vu and fall into confusion and fear.

Those rescuers who bear the burden of others face no less psychological problems than the victims themselves.

Many doctors who come back from the front of the war often have nightmares and rely on drugs to maintain the necessary sleep.

Some people are afraid to see the red because they are afraid of bloody bodies.

Some people are always in fear, and they are frantically worried that their families will suffer the same tragedy. I even began to sleep all night, afraid that those mutilated limbs, corpses and dull eyes would give me nightmares.

In a disaster, the pain that rescuers have to bear is unimaginable. After witnessing the scene, even if I fell asleep, my ears kept calling for help and groaning in pain.

The hope and vitality of all the victims are closely related to them. Life or death, rescuers must face it.

Use an inappropriate metaphor to describe the pain that medical staff have to face:

As long as the families of the deceased face one death, they will face countless times.

Repeating the same heartache ten times, even dozens of times, even the most powerful people can't bear it.

And this kind of work that makes ordinary people collapse in one day has become their daily work.

In the past, the media only reported the results of the incident, lacking many details of the process. Once the rescue failed, their efforts became insignificant and insignificant in the eyes of ordinary people.

18 There was such a news that deeply touched my sister.

In order to save a suicidal girl who was sexually assaulted by a teacher, firefighters tried to persuade her for three hours on the roof.

The crowd watching downstairs kept shouting, "Jump!" I have been waiting for a long time. "What's more, it is a sensation in the circle of friends.

Finally, the girl broke free from the fireman's hand loudly and jumped.

The onlookers applauded downstairs, and the screams and cries of firefighters came from the roof.

Later, public opinion accused the rescuers more: "Why not use the rescue air cushion?" Why don't you hug her? "

Later, in an interview, firefighters specifically explained this problem. Every time the rescuers downstairs tried to inflate the air cushion, the girl threatened to jump.

If you can save lives, who wants someone to sacrifice.

If everyone is safe, who wants to see blood dripping?

In the whole incident, Xin Jie was most distressed by these innocent firefighters. Because of the lack of reports, their kindness and professionalism have been questioned and even attacked by countless people.

What is obviously wrong is the crazy onlookers downstairs and the teachers who are worse than animals. Why does public opinion target them?

If there is no psychological counseling, it will become a scar for their life. Every time they think about it, they will think that the girl died because of herself.

When they begin to feel remorse and guilt in the face of public opinion, their lives and families will also face negative changes.

The passage is also to save the lives of rescuers.

During the epidemic, medical staff who went to Hubei faced high-density death, high-intensity work and high risk of infection every day. Their psychology is overwhelmed, and many people begin to lose sleep, which will last all night.

As usual, they can't go out shopping, meet friends or even chat with their families. Without the usual way of venting, the stress response will come very quickly.

Therefore, many psychologists also go to the front line in order to let the front-line staff readjust their mentality.

Psychologists say that these reactions have affected the work and life of medical staff. Their private time is broken by work, and they always feel fear and worry.

Even after the epidemic has passed, these rescuers and post-traumatic stress disorder need continuous attention.

Emotion is like a long fuse. Self-reproach is a flame. No matter how weak you are, you may swim slowly, which will eventually lead to an outbreak.

For example, after the Wenchuan earthquake, there was a survey that after the rescue, 76.8% of the search and rescue personnel would have a stress reaction. The following psychology is the most common.

"I am the one who didn't save them."

"Will this kind of disaster befall family and friends?"

"I don't sleep well, and I gradually lose interest in what I like."

Sadly, after everyone has gradually forgotten the Wenchuan earthquake, there are still rescuers with insomnia, nightmares and a lot of hair loss.

Why?

Because rescuers can't help thinking, "I could have saved them."

This high sense of responsibility has become their burden, and they gradually become completely different from themselves in the past.

This change is a great challenge to the families of victims of post-disaster stress trauma. In their description, the other half began to feel depressed and numb.

"I don't understand why my father, who is a fireman, never wants to play with me again. Since his accident, he has been indifferent to me and my mother. "

I lost enthusiasm for the life I once loved, lost confidence in my competent work, began to lack communication with my family, and my personality changed. Unfortunately, these problems often occur together, not independently.

For them, some unspeakable changes are taking place between themselves and their lives.

Doctors cannot heal themselves, and rescuers cannot save themselves. Psychological problems, which should be highly valued, are always ignored.

We must not freeze to death in the snow.

Rescuers are a group that can't speak independently. What the media reports, what the audience receives.

In the process of receiving, the details of things and the psychology of rescuers are often ignored.

When the disaster happened and the result was not satisfactory, there were harsh remarks scolding them: "What did the rescuers do long ago?"

For rescuers, this sentence hit a soft spot. What they want most is to give hope to the victims in the first place.

For example, in our daily medical treatment, both doctors and patients need time, one is the operation time, and the other is the waiting time.

If the patient is in poor health, he may not be able to wait. Investigate its responsibility, disease is the enemy of patients, but doctors are not.

Many families of patients who did not accept the results planned many medical incidents. A small number are medical accidents, and more are to impose the responsibility for death on doctors.

What happened to them?

Search and rescue personnel are constantly searching for living life. The medical staff took off their masks and their faces were covered with ligature marks. Firefighters are the most beautiful in the fire. They are more desperate than we thought.

In the face of disaster, rescuers are more worried about the outcome than we are. But the reality is cruel, and not everyone waiting for help can have a chance.

They really tried their best.

Rescuers are not superheroes. They will be heartbroken in the face of difficulties.

But in the public's cognition, saving people is their bounden duty. Save, must save.

It's not so much duty as handcuffing them.

Who is born not afraid of death? Rescuers are not used to life and death, but they have to face it!

The 67-year-old COVID-19 patient passed away, and the 27-year-old doctor was in tears.

But neither the media nor the public paid attention to their psychological trauma.

In fact, we can pay more attention to them than praise.

The concern between people should be a circle, and the gap should not be created just because of the identity of the rescuer.

Don't let love and care stop there.

They have great love in their hearts and many shortcomings.

What we can do is to fill these gaps with warmth.