What is your most painful emotional experience?

We were together four years ago and broke up six months later. I pestered him for six months, because he refused to answer my phone, and I sent him a text message every night. Meet at his hometown in half a year. Two days before the Mid-Autumn Festival, I skipped class and got on the bus alone to find him. Let me get off at the back and go to the hotel myself.

I got off at a fork in the road at eight o'clock in the evening and stopped a tricycle. I have forgotten whether the master said four dollars or ten dollars. After staying in the hotel for three nights, he didn't come, which was very heartbreaking. I cried at the thought of him for ten days in a row, and I barely ate a meal every day for a month in a row, so I was thin.

If you are depressed at night and can't sleep, you just cry. Many times I can't stand it, I want to die, and many times it hurts so much that I leave a bite mark on the back of my hand. . And then suddenly one day I realized it wasn't worth it. It's good now, and when I think of the past, I have a feeling of surviving.