20 19 My Spring, Summer, Autumn and Winter

? Russell has a metaphor: life should be like a river. At first, the river was narrow and sandwiched between its banks. The river roared, flowed over the boulder and flew off the cliff. Later, the river gradually widened, the banks of the river became farther and farther apart, and the river flowed more gently, and finally flowed into the sea and merged with the seawater. I am convinced.

20 19 is a year full of tension in my life. /kloc-Zihao Sun Hao was born on October 27th, and everyone was very happy. He asked for leave many times to go to the hospital, the clubhouse and his son's house. He felt it was good to accompany Gege. The time spent on the road was not boring, but the criminal record described by Aunt Gege put me in a dilemma and I didn't know what to do. During that time, I would rather give up the comfort and inner satisfaction brought by visiting the babies.

On a sunny evening in spring, a bad news suddenly came. In the face of all kinds of interference without warning, I can only silently bear the lightness and heaviness of life. All the explanations seem worthless. That's what happened. There are always people who want to take the blame for others and suffer once or twice in their lives. It is also an alternative blessing. Isn't life an experience? Sweetness, warmth and comfort are one side of life, while bitterness, cold and melancholy, as the other side, also enrich the senses?

? I want to wash my soul as white as snow. I always have this voice in my heart.

? In April, I went to Shanghai to attend the new college entrance examination training and listened to a class on career planning. Not only students need planning, but also every stage of life needs planning: planning allows us to live with expectations and rely on something, otherwise who won't be tired of living like a dead body without goals? At present, people should always be on the road of self-renewal, such as career planning, phased travel planning after retirement, and planning to learn new knowledge.

? On April 14, at Shanghai Pudong Bank, four members of Chun Mu joined the reading club team invited by Qin Li. In a bookstore similar to heaven, we buy books, take photos, enjoy tea and eat cakes. Later, Pudong Institute of Education and Development invited us to eat authentic Shanghai food, during which Ms. Zhang Shaojie also came. I got books donated by Qin Li and many books bought by several of us. The next day after work, Qin Li personally drove to her hotel.

? At the end of April, I attended the national poetry seminar in Qujiang No.1 Middle School. I fully felt the grandeur and poetry of western culture in Mr. Huo Jun's Du Fu poetry appreciation class. Tears welled up in my eyes when I was moved by the lecture given by Mr. Lian China from the capital. He said if he succeeded, he could finally meet someone. In his Talking about Life, three words are interrelated, life, people and growth. He said these three words are supreme.

? On May 1, I traveled to Wuling Gorge in Hubei, intoxicated by the beautiful scenery and ruined my interest by an unexpected phone call. Come to think of it, all robberies in life are inevitable. When you want to run away from something, it's because of fear. The only way out is to face up to fear and return to love through fear.

? In June, I received a group of teachers and students from Changzhi, Shanxi. After the college entrance examination, teachers should be the most tired, and students want to relax completely, but we need to arrange for them to attend classes. On the White Deer Plain, they listened to Qiu talking about the greatness and magic of mathematics. At that moment, everyone's eyes widened. This time, our teacher Qu carefully designed the activity plan, and the lectures of the above teachers also had their own styles. Li ping is paid according to his work, and everyone who undertakes the task gives 1000 yuan. Listen to me about Chun Mu's way of studying and practicing, and stick to it silently. Miss Li asked tian teacher to send her 1,000 yuan to Mu Chun. I reacted quickly and got the money to do something. Having something to do, loving and having hope are the nine proverbs of a happy life. Living in hope must be accompanied by mutual efforts.

? * * * Several partners of the native China Reading Club remained silent for more than half a year after they decided to finish "Fifteen Years of Wanli", not only because of the death of the reader's teacher Wen, but also because the text was unfamiliar, and the whole book was at a loss. Time is the touchstone of witness relationship. Emotional interaction is a lubricant. We really need to get together and cheer up. So I thought of some young teachers who had contacted me and asked them if they would like to join this group and read Fifteen Years of Wanli with you. There is no objection. Two small gatherings arrived as scheduled, which opened a place for narrative exploration in Impression of Grandma. Everyone quickly opened their hearts and told all kinds of confusing stories encountered in education and teaching, and at the same time they also received responses, recognition and understanding from their partners. The new reading * * * has seventeen members, whose names have been given to new members. At present, it is named "Chun Mu My Hometown". Reading began in July and lasted for * * * until the end of August. After reading all chapters in the fifteenth year of Wanli, the post-reading feeling is estimated to be above100000. More importantly, all members of the same body live a pure spiritual life.

? In August, I visited Doucun Village in Zhouzhi and chatted with my friends at the prestigious Louguantai. All day, everyone thought it was meaningful to get together to study and inspect. The trip to Japan, which is worth remembering forever, has subverted many previous ideas. There is a big difference between eating, living and traveling in Japan and domestic travel. In the tour guide's explanation, I seem to have a partial understanding and experience of Japanese culture. Traveling to Japan with members of Muchun Reading Club has a strong sense of familiarity, and I often feel that everything is in a state of existence and there is no sense of existence. Now, that is, the daily jokes remain the same, and the fun remains the same. Lack of unfamiliar scenes. What is often worth using is the lecture tour in Changzhi. Before we set off, our five-person group had a detailed activity plan, which was of course formed by the members of the same body after repeated pondering. One bag contains dirt, and the other bag contains gold. We may have sent valuable parts, but we have also experienced many wonderful things. The trip to Changzhi allowed the overall concept of our team to be openly and fully expressed. Thanks to the trust of Mr. Ping Li, of course, it is impossible without the recommendation of Dr. Wang and President Ling. The class fee this time is 3 thousand per person. In summer, there is another beautiful day to remember, that is August 22nd. That night, I shared "several paradoxes about * * * isomorphism" in the group of "Teachers' Courage Update". On that day, I climbed Sanqingshan Mountain in Jiangxi with a group of educators such as Mr. Wu Guozhen, Mr. Qiu Lei and Dr. Li Wei, and my inner joy wavered between the lines. In fact, there was only an outline in my mobile phone that day. Thanks to Dr. Li Wei's willingness to do trivial things, he helped me pull one from the hotel counter. Spring and summer have passed. If spring is unlucky, has summer changed? I am good at doing things, I can do things well; I am a hopeful person, and I love not fade away in my heart. There is always a voice in my heart: washing my soul is as white as snow. An incredible thing happened in autumn, if you write it. That would be meaningless, but my only thought at that time was to walk around the world alone once. When I decided to go to Thailand, Thailand, a special country, officially entered my field of vision. Riding an elephant and splashing water can't arouse much interest of the senses at all. When I saw the sea, my mood suddenly entered the vastness, vastness and infinity. The ups and downs of the sea make it easy for me to think and open myself up. Sometimes it is healing, often comforting and always helpful. The inscription on the tombstone of American doctor Trudeau explains the greatness of the sea. Is there any truth? The lonely trip to Thailand cured me. I eased my self-torture. I define human nature on a broader boundary. After coming back, I wrote a long article "This world deserves our gentleness". When I want to know myself better, Who am I came out. 10, my hometown muchun * * * reading activity, after careful discussion, was determined as "teaching courage-walking in the hearts of teachers" The question "Who am I?" also received more than 20 replies. So I went to look for "Zhao Qingfeng" in everyone's eyes, eager to embrace and reconcile with her childhood, adolescence and immaturity. Yes, I am mature and firm today. I will treat the world gently. I don't think the world owes me anything. All the past made me who I am today-I met her in the spring, and she took a class of "A Good Teacher in the World" in poetic sentences, and Liu Ye took a class. This semester, Jia, Ruan Jinfang, Qu, and Shi Weifeng all participated in the teaching of Good Teachers in the World. Some even took two or three classes. These courses choose their own topics and determine their own teaching forms, but there are also some obstacles, especially self-talk, no audience, and self-creation on CC platform without any remuneration. In the last open class for the whole country, teachers had confidence and pressure, and their sense of accomplishment and fear were two sides. Go to the public and accept the test of the public, so as to read more confidently. Teaching Yong, a classic, is not a book that can be read casually, so we continued to discuss openly after a group discussion full of tension. We chose No.56 Middle School for the first time and No.3 Middle School in Dongcheng for the second time because of the support of the principal and reliable host. We made a notice in the form of a reading club in the whole region, which avoided the embarrassment of the members of the reading club asking for leave, and also made our reading club partners recognized and supported by the school. When I do things, I gradually turn from the front to the back. I will try not to give lectures. It's not that I am old and about to retire, but that Chun Mu's team needs a lot of talents to stand out. They can take part in * * * reading or read independently. They can write, be independent, bear all kinds of pressures, are not afraid of embarrassment, and dare to grow up in a paradox full of tension. The day before yesterday was the solstice winter, and winter came! I made stewed mutton with angelica and ginger according to the wonderful prescription of Emperor's Canon of Internal Medicine taught by Qu Limin. I also prepared leeks and meat for jiaozi. Who knows, my son asked the courier to send jiaozi with mutton and carrot stuffing. Forty jiaozi, three meals. Winter is coming! Spring is not far away! The river of life gradually widens, the banks are farther and farther away, the river flows more gently, and finally flows into the sea and blends with it. This is the life I want.