Classic articles on human nature in youth

It is another year of graduation, and youth has become particularly sad this season. There is no banquet in life that never ends, and there is always a time to get together and leave. And in our graduation season, our youth will drift away in endless years ...

At the end of June 214, my college life ended and I started my social life in Hangzhou in early July. It is early February 215, and I have been in Hangzhou for more than six months.

After graduation, like many people, I chose to go to another city to fight hard. I didn't care about anything and didn't take anything with me. I just stubbornly dragged a suitcase in the hot sun, leaving the familiar people and scenery and coming to a strange city. Hot sunshine, strange buildings and crowded people are all filled with me, a foreigner who is tired and weak. On the first day of July, I was so tired that I stood in a vibrant paradise on earth-Hangzhou. My roommate Bay and I arrived at the entrance of Xianghu subway at the hottest moment at noon, waiting for my uncle from Xiaoshan, Hangzhou to pick us up.

My youngest aunt married in Hangzhou at an age I can't remember. I didn't expect that I would step into this city twenty years later. Maybe some people and things in life are sometimes doomed. For my uncle, I haven't seen him for five years. There is only one "fat" impression in my memory, and I can't search for any other memory. In the torrent of time, people and things we don't touch in our daily life are always easy to disappear without a trace, and finally we don't know how to remember them. In the dazzling light, I tried to hold up my body and gather all the spirits I could to find a fat man. When I saw a figure with a feeling similar to my memory, I was shocked and stunned by his dress.

I'm not sure that he is my uncle in my memory. When I called him "uncle" in fear and heard his unique voice calling out my nickname in time, I was relaxed and determined that he was my uncle who felt silly when I was a child. As soon as my uncle saw me, he was very angry. "My aunt has stewed ducks at home waiting for you to eat." He said excitedly, but I was listless.

sitting in a taxi, I quietly re-examined my uncle's costume with tired eyes: wearing a pair of dark glasses that don't show fashion, a slightly loose white T-shirt with spots, a pair of nude trousers on my lower body, and most unexpectedly, wearing a Yuhuan at my waist, an unknown silver watch on my left hand, and of course, my right hand is not available, wearing a string of big beads in the color of sandalwood with Maitreya Buddha. Looking down from this whole body and looking at his pudgy figure, it looks like a graceful and civilized blind man in a big city. I can't imagine how my aunt will dress. I just want to sit in a taxi with my eyes closed and blow a refreshing wind to dissipate my fatigue and make myself look very energetic.

Before I could think about meeting my aunt, I arrived at my aunt's house, in a residential area, and then laboriously climbed to the fourth floor. My uncle rang the doorbell, which also rang my inner urgency and anxiety. The first time I came to my aunt's house, I wanted to see the environment where my aunt lived for the first time. At that time, my mood was really hard to say. It was my aunt who opened the door, no doubt. When I saw my aunt's moment, I didn't feel the joy of meeting my relatives in a different place at that time, but I was swept by a sense of tension and distance. Look at my aunt's face and dress, which is full of vicissitudes of life and years.

I believe that my long-married aunt must have gone through hardships that others don't know and can't understand, because I have seen her once radiant and smiling when I was young. When we entered the door, we chatted in our hometown dialect, just a few words, but I didn't feel any intimacy when I listened to my aunt's hometown dialect. My aunt's hometown dialect has no flavor of hometown now, because she has really left home for a long time, and the affection between my aunt and me has become blurred and unfamiliar.

Turn around and have a look at this house with two rooms, one living room, one kitchen and one bathroom. It's not very big, but it's not crowded for a family of three to live in. Suddenly, it's particularly crowded when you join us. A kind of embarrassment and bewilderment quickly invaded my whole body, making me feel embarrassed from head to toe. The appearance of my cousin broke this strange atmosphere and let me find a relaxed element in a strange space. I don't have too many memories of my cousin, because she was young and I was in high school at that time, so all I can think about is her young appearance.

when I see her now, I can only sigh the magic of the years in my heart, which makes me give up the vague memory left in my mind automatically. She is as tall as me, but her body is as thin as cicada's wings, and her tenderness and arrogance are unabashedly everywhere in her body. I don't know what she will look like in the future, and I can't read anything from her little eyes, but from now on I will get to know her bit by bit ...

Lunch is very rich, and every dish exudes my aunt's intention, and the color and fragrance of each dish are very light. If it is placed together with the dishes in my hometown, it will definitely form a sharp contrast. Although these dishes are light, I am not disappointed, because I have tasted another taste of life. After lunch, after a short rest, I lay on my cousin's bed and slept soundly all afternoon. When I woke up under the air conditioning, I saw my aunt preparing dinner in the kitchen. Her back awakened my confused consciousness.

I propped up my weak body and walked down from the bed to my thin aunt and asked her, "Do you need any help?" "Don't come here because the kitchen is so dirty. Go and take a shower and eat later." My aunt said to me with a smile. Looking at the sunset sky outside the window, I casually walked to the bathroom ... After dinner, my aunt took us for a walk around the community for about an hour, which made my heart in a different place enjoy a pleasant evening. At that moment, I fell in love with this city silently.

I once read the sentence "I love a city because someone I like lives in it." And I fell in love with this city in order to meet some charming scenery and touching stories, and to dye my youth with different colors. With the beautiful night, I'm in the middle of my sleep, and I'm looking for a job tomorrow to have a bright start ...

For a newly graduated college student, it's actually very difficult to find a decent job. For me, who graduated from a third-rate college, it is even more difficult. Thinking of this, my heart can't help but feel a little inferior. I admit that I am a person with weak heart, but I will take it seriously until the last moment when I choose. This is my belief and will not be changed by anyone.

I know that I am an indecisive person, and I don't know what kind of job I will choose in the end. Anyway, I can stay at my aunt's house, so I'm not in a hurry to find a job. Plus, my uncle told me, "Don't look for a job yet. When the weekend comes, I'll take you to the West Lake to play around, and then I'll go to my classmate's to ask about the job. Anyway, there's no need to worry."

after listening to such reassuring words, I think there is no reason why I should not visit the West Lake to enjoy the West Lake. That night, I just casually submitted some resumes on the Internet, and the next day I received several interview notices. As soon as I heard about the nature of the work and the salary, I refused willfully. On Sunday, I went to visit the West Lake with great joy, but the West Lake in reality was not as beautiful as it was on TV. Standing on the bank of the West Lake, there is no scenery in my eyes, only tourists, and I can't feel the beauty of the West Lake in my heart. The next day, I forgot about the West Lake and embarked on a difficult journey to find a job. My uncle introduced us to a job, a relatively "tall" five-star hotel in Hangzhou. We went for an interview but gave up because we didn't like it. I still clearly remember the charity of the boss and the disappointment of my uncle ...

The first job was given up by us in such a hesitant way, and then I entered the day of running around in the hot sunshine every day. In this way, a week has passed and I still haven't found a satisfactory job. It happened that a large-scale recruitment meeting of fresh graduates was to be held in Xiaoshan talent market on the 1th. Seeing this news was as happy as seeing an oasis in the desert, and we were also full of confidence, and then looked at each other silently and relatively firmly. In order to recharge our batteries, we took a day off and made some preparations for the interview.

when I came to the talent market the next day, the scene was macro, and it was a bit exaggerated to say that there was a sea of people, but it was also crowded. The first time I saw such a job-hunting scene, I was still a little at a loss, and my tension and pressure quietly rose. After a cursory reading of the whole venue, my mind was full of vague words, and my ears were full of noisy voices. At this time, I am dizzy, and at the same time my heart is burning with inexplicable sadness. People who are full of eyes can't see a familiar position, but they can't find one they want.

Confusion, hesitation, loss and fear floated all over my chest, and I couldn't find any fresh air to save me from suffocation. At this time, when we saw the Bay coming, we had a brief exchange and went outside to relax together. In addition, two of our college classmates also came to Hangzhou today. We invited them to visit Xiaoshan talent market, and we can also get together here. After all, it is also a comfort and joy for everyone to have the opportunity to meet after graduation.

while waiting for them to come to Xiaoshan (at that time, they stayed with relatives in Gongshu District, and it took about two hours to come to Xiaoshan by car), we regained our mood and went to see the recruitment information again. I laboriously read every recruitment information with my dull eyes, for fear of missing a job that is exactly what I want. Finally, I had no choice but to submit two resumes. One recruiter said that I had noticed me long ago and that I lacked confidence in my confusion. Yes, I'm really confused now, really, really confused, so confused that I can't find any confidence.

who will give me confidence, who will give me confidence and who will give me encouragement? In this strange city, I can only look up at the blue sky and white clouds to cheer for myself! At about eleven o'clock, the students from Gongshu arrived, exhausted, and went to see the recruitment information without gossiping. We also worked hard to find a job. At noon, we went to a nearby fast food restaurant called "Shunwangke" for dinner, and at the same time fell in love with a cold dish "preserved egg tofu", which has become a must-have dish in fast food restaurants since then. This cold dish witnessed our reunion, and also opened the years when we had to struggle together. More importantly, it contained the days we experienced together in youth after graduation. This meal, we had a good time, talked a lot, said some of their own feelings, summed up some lessons together, and of course sent out a lot of feelings.

People are emotional, and it's easy to get emotional, especially after a lot of experiences, they become nostalgic and sentimental. After dinner, we returned to the talent market, only to find a venue as quiet as water and as empty as a night street, and there was a kind of desolation when people took tea and cooled down. It turned out that the job fair was only held for one morning, so we had to go back silently and wait for tomorrow's interview. The next day, we were busy going to the interview, running around in strange streets alone, tossing and turning on buses with different colors, and thinking a lot of things about unknown so alone at night. The night is an absolutely trustworthy secret keeper. I can tell her what I dare not say during the day, or I can expose my weak face when I cry, expose my disappointing side in the deep night without reservation, and see my true self.

more than half a month has passed, and the job search and interview have come to an end temporarily. I chose to go to a state-owned enterprise and introduced them. The next time we just need to wait for the job with peace of mind, but at the same time we are also facing great difficulties in renting a house. The sun is still so hot every day, and when I go out, I will be tanned black and red, and the most terrible thing is that I have nothing to gain after a hard day out.

I can only sigh with emotion: it is best not to go out in hot summer, especially for girls. Once they are tanned, they need a winter to recover. Of course, they may not recover. This is a rather tragic thing. In today's society, I know that buying a house is quite difficult, but I didn't expect renting a house to be as difficult as buying a house. In fact, everything is quite difficult, when we enter the society. We want to rent an unfurnished suite with one room, one living room, one kitchen and one bathroom, but we have to pay the rent for a year and a half in advance, which is definitely beyond our means. Looking for all kinds of rental information in the farmhouse alleys under the hot sun every day, they all gave up because of the way of paying rent.

after looking for it for a week, we all collapsed, and all looked like black people. Just at the moment of frustration, I received a phone call that made people completely collapse. The college we graduated from was run by the people, and the diploma was unqualified, so we couldn't join the job. When I heard the news, I collapsed, as if I had been slapped in the face in broad daylight. Somehow, I still stood in the same place waiting for others to explain. In the end, nothing came, and time has been wasted for more than half a month.

to this day, I don't believe what that man said is true, because that man called me again later, and although there was no news in the end, I can only say that I am too young and tender at the moment. After being pierced by thousands of arrows, we continued to send resumes online with grief and indignation and received various interview calls. At the end of July, we picked two companies and went to the interview in two ways. First, I trained in a financial investment company for a day. We knew nothing about the investment in gold and silver, and it didn't match our major at all, so we agreed that we were not suitable and the working atmosphere made us feel a little depressed.

On August 1st, Ping received the employment notice from the company she had interviewed before. On the first day of August, Ping took the lead in working in an automobile sales company and successfully recommended the three of us. The next day, the three of us took an hour's bus ride with Ping to the company, and then Ping introduced us to the person in charge and went to work, while we just waited quietly for the interview. I waited nervously for the interview and kept looking at this beautiful 4S shop. I am both looking forward to and afraid of coming to work here. I have been looking at the fluorescent lamp for a long time, and my head is empty without thoughts, and even my eyes have become particularly dull. A few minutes later, the leader realized that we were all classmates, so he asked us to interview at the same time. This scene is both spectacular and strange. The leaders of three women and one man sit in a row opposite us, so we can stretch our arms and shake hands with them for a long talk.

Listening to the tense breath we exhaled together, and looking at the beautiful and handsome leader across the street, I felt a strange light fell on us and refused to leave for a long time. The careful interview time was unconsciously filled with our immature words, and then we looked at ourselves in the dark, and we all smiled. Out of the 4S shop, a fresh and cold air rolled with the wind, and I felt particularly hearty without chills. It rained lightly in the bright gray sky, so I took the bus and sat down in a window position. At the moment, I am very calm, through the window of the rain.