Repaying kindness to him with my body will only lead to nightmares.

18-year-old Xiaohui has been working in Shenzhen for a year. Now she has resigned and is preparing to return to her hometown. This year of working has left permanent damage to her youth. The most painful thing is that she is still addicted to the damage and unable to wake up.

Shandong girl Xiaohui came to Shenzhen to visit relatives in August last year and was assigned to work as a waiter in a hotel. Xiaohui has a plump figure, probably because she has worked in a rural area, and has a very simple and kind personality. Unexpectedly, these characteristics were immediately noticed by Pippi, a man in his 40s from Shandong.

Pippi is a frequent visitor to the hotel where Xiaohui works. Except when he goes home and uses this place as a cafeteria, all the girls in the hotel know him. After Pippi met Xiaohui, she often came to "take care of" this little fellow. Xiaohui came from a remote rural area to a prosperous city. She was envious when she saw hotel staff hanging out with friends in their free time, but having no friends in Shenzhen made her feel disappointed and felt that she had always been a country girl. One day Pippi asked her: "Where are you going to play after get off work?" Xiaohui replied: "Where can I go? I'm not familiar with this place and I can't even recognize the road." Pippi replied: "I'll take you there." That was Pippi took Xiaohui to the People's Park for the first time, eating Hakka food and shopping. Xiaohui felt very happy. Of course, she knew that Pippi had a family and children and was in his forties, but she felt that he was a fellow countryman who cared about her, nothing more.

The next day, Pippi bought Xiaohui a mobile phone, saying it was for easier contact. Xiaohui was very worried this time. She repeatedly said no. There was a phone in the hotel and she didn't have any friends. It’s no use asking for a cell phone. Pippi insisted on giving it to her, and she said, "Then I will pay you back as soon as I get paid." So Xiaohui used Pippi's mobile phone, and the two of them often went out to eat and play. Xiaohui said, "At that time, I didn't think he was a bad person. There was always a distance between us when we went out." However, Xiaohui's inner burden became heavier and heavier. After eating other people's food and taking other people's food, it became more and more difficult for her to speak.

Pippi's "attentiveness" to Xiaohui was soon known to everyone in the hotel. As long as Xiaohui goes to work, he will come to eat and drink. Xiaohui has a mobile phone and new clothes. She even feels that several female workers admire her, which satisfies her vanity to a certain extent. The first time she received a message from Pippi that she liked her, Xiaohui was a little nervous and scared. She wrote back: "You have a family and children. Why do you say such things to one of my little girls?" Pippi replied: "Love is sacred. When love comes, enjoy it. Don't think so much."

Since then, "love" has become the theme of text messages. Pippi made almost a dozen calls a day and several hours at night to preach "the true meaning of love" to Xiaohui. 41-year-old Pippi said to the 17-year-old innocent girl Xiaohui: "You are too conservative. Society is so open now, you can't eat like this. You must emancipate your mind and not be bound by those outdated concepts. Who cares if a man gets married now?" Are you a virgin? Everyone is like this. You should learn to enjoy life." Xiaohui got deeper and deeper into these specious words. She called her mother at that time and said that she was being pestered by an old man. Her mother in her hometown became anxious upon hearing this and told her to go home quickly and stop working in Shenzhen. But Xiaohui didn't leave, and she didn't dare to tell her mother what happened next.

Finally, that night, Xiaohui watched Pippi open a room in the hotel. That was December 11 last year. When she entered the house, Xiaohui wanted to resist. She said to Pippi: "Can you let me go?" But her struggle was too weak, and she accepted so many "favors" from him. Xiaohui felt that since he was determined to do this, he should repay him in this way. In the evening, she returned to the dormitory and told her roommate what happened. She said innocently: "Okay, this matter is finally over. I won't owe him anymore." The roommate said meaningfully: "You think it's over. ?The first time will be more, that's the beginning." She was right.

Xiao Hui's "reward" has really just begun, and she soon became Pippi's constant lover. Pippi was very enthusiastic at the time and came to Xiaohui for late-night snacks and shopping together almost every day. He confided in her that his wife was very capable and powerful. When he got home, he felt out of breath and once said in tears. He said: "As long as you open your mouth, I will go back and divorce her." The 17-year-old girl was overwhelmed by the middle-aged man's tears and kept urging him to be nice to his wife and never divorce her. Pippi would give her a small sum of one or two hundred yuan from time to time. At first, Xiaohui felt a bit of a psychological burden, but later she began to bear it more and more naturally. But when she returned to the dormitory late at night, Xiaohui felt dirty when she saw the money.

She wrote in her diary:

"I seem to be selling my body!" What's worse is that she gradually lost her mind in this cheap betrayal and fell in love with this man, thinking that she could be with him forever. together.

This day lasted for three months. In March this year, Xiaohui felt unwell. When she went to the hospital, she discovered that she had a serious gynecological disease. When Pippi found out, she didn't take it seriously and said, "It doesn't matter, it can be cured." She would not care about anything except giving her money for treatment. What made Xiaohui feel uncomfortable was that Pippi's attitude changed and she no longer came to the hotel often, saying that her wife was becoming more and more strict and couldn't get out. By May this year, if Xiaohui didn't call him, he would never call again. I found that his answer was always annoying: "I am very busy and have no time."

Xiao Hui's heart suddenly became empty, and she was so lost that she had no idea. One day when she was drunk, the hotel staff persuaded her to call Pippi and ask for money, saying that she could go back to her hometown after taking the money. She did it. As a result, Pippi's answer frightened her. He said, "Who do you think you are? There are many silly girls like you on the streets of Shenzhen. You can find one every day. You want to cause trouble, right? Then make trouble. You know where my home is, let's see who can make trouble! You Do you want me to divorce you and marry you? Stop dreaming, you are so naive!" Those harsh insults woke her up from her dream, and she finally realized that she was just one of the girls she was playing with. "I will never be separated from you" was just a line in these games before, but she took it seriously.

The truth is revealed, but Xiaohui doesn't want to wake up from her dream. She came to the newspaper office and told reporters everything. That day, she asked Pippi to come out and say that she had resigned and returned to her hometown. Without saying a word, Pippi wanted to give her some money, but Xiaohui refused. Xiaohui called the reporter and said: "I still love him."

The reporter said to the lost girl: "What you love is not him, it is your own innocent 17-year-old love dream, but it is a nightmare. One day, when you mature, you will know how despicably this person took advantage of your innocence. "I hope Xiaohui's tragedy will not happen again to other girls, and I also hope that Xiaohui will learn from this mistake to move forward in the future. Still the same sentence: If you start wrong, the ending is doomed.

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