Female classmates who love to look in the mirror - taking selfies is about the state of mind, and putting on makeup is about feelings

When I was a child, I was such a little girl who loved looking in the mirror. That was an era when smartphones were far less popular and the camera function of mobile phones was still relatively new.

At that time, every year on my birthday, my mother would take me to the photo studio to take artistic photos. Put on makeup and wear all kinds of nice clothes. At that time, the selfie mode of tilting downwards 45 degrees and pouting cutely and winking when taking photos was not popular yet, so my expression was always a light smile. Regardless of any props, or no props, my little styling was extremely accurate and charming. I can say without shame that I was really beautiful at that time, with long hair and two stylish braids hanging in the air. Flying, or shaking the Xinjiang braids back and forth, or lantern braids... In short, I always change my braids. Everyone complimented me on my photo (that is, how well I look in photos) and said I looked like an actor. Who's here? Yes, it's Zhou Xun. At least, compared with me now, I think I looked really good when I was a kid. In other words, at that age, all little girls are beautiful little princesses.

Now in the photo album in the corner of the bookcase, in the photo frame on the table, in the hanging wooden frame that my mother modified for me, there are all the glorious and moving photos of me from my childhood until I was thirteen. Artistic photo.

When I was very young, I liked makeup and was "quite talented". I sat in front of the mirror and asked my neighbor's sister to do my makeup. I was so active and would not move for several hours. When to open and blink my eyes, when to pout, purse, and shape my lips... My expressions are all very cooperative, and I seem to enjoy the process. At that time, I basically put on the same clothes every day, stood in front of the mirror, and looked at myself in the mirror over and over again.

I am just over ten years old. Although I am narcissistic, I still have something that worries me. It is not the acne in adolescence, nor my obesity, nor my short stature, but my voice.

So, I can only accept my fate and comfort myself. Isn’t Zhou Xun’s voice a bit hoarse...?

When did all this end, or in other words, when did the "reversal" begin.

I was more pretentious then and even more glass-hearted than I am now. Maybe it has something to do with my mood. The frequency of looking in the mirror has obviously decreased.

I jumped out of bed at 6:10 in the morning, folded the quilt (strict inspection), washed my face, brushed my teeth, washed my hair, wiped my hair, grabbed my schoolbag with wet hair and ran out, crossing the playground of the University of Nottingham. , ran a long way, climbed the stairs on the third or fourth floor... until he appeared in the classroom out of breath while doing his morning self-study, and sat down in the last row of seats... This series of processes only took ten minutes to complete. Six or seven minutes. Thinking about it now, I think it was really fast. A way to challenge the limits of human beings...

At that time, especially in winter, my wet hair was frozen into ice while running, and it would only slowly melt when I returned to the classroom.

At that time, I was extremely sleep-deprived every night, and often couldn't sleep at noon as if I had a "neurasthenia". My eye circles were dark, my lips were dry, and my hair was messy. , even the oversized and oversized school uniforms are so dirty, how can their mental outlook be any better?

Later, fortunately, I moved the table from the second row to the last row, the "isolated" corner filled with sunshine. When it's severe, I can go several days without actively speaking. You don’t even need a wooden comb to comb your hair, just get started. I never eat breakfast, and then I seize the opportunity to overeat in the middle of the night. What I call washing my face is to pour cold water on my face while washing my hair. Not to mention facial cleanser, facial cream and cosmetics, I don’t even know what the soap is...

At that time, I I have a very good friend. Her skin is very fair and pretty. Every time we returned to class after dinner and passed by the hall on the third floor, she would always ask the students to "dress up" and check their appearance. I don't know if some distinguished alumni donated money. In front of the big mirror, take a good look. Although she is the same height as me, not tall, and like me, wears a fat and tacky school uniform, she always looks so radiant and energetic in the mirror. And I, standing aside, still never take photos. While saying, "Okay, okay, I'll tell you you'll be late," he pulled her away.

In fact, I was escaping, thinking that if I stayed away from the mirror, I would stay away from the messy life.

I am even more afraid of seeing myself in the mirror in a mess, with no vitality, no goals and direction, and full of negative emotions. I definitely won't like that person. I will hate her.

However, I have never thought about managing myself well. For the time being, I think it’s because I’m under too much pressure to study and too tight on time.

Now, in the morning, I have more free time than usual. I have time to wash my face with facial cleanser, time to wash my hair with hot water, and then slowly dry my hair with a hair dryer. I have time to apply some skin care products, apply lip balm, and have breakfast...

Although I have not taken good care of myself, my life is still rough. But, at least I can look in the mirror again now! I think about what to wear, how to style my hair, and I have to take narcissistic photos of myself when I pass by the car window!

Of course, I don’t mean that loving to look in the mirror means that this person’s quality of life is better than before, his mood is better, and he is more positive and optimistic. Not so.

It doesn’t mean that I love looking at myself in the mirror just because I have too much time and my spare time makes me less enterprising and lazy than before.

But, at least you have the courage to look at yourself. Have the idea of ????making your life better and more refined. Even to a certain extent, I have confidence and optimism, and the enthusiasm and enthusiasm to open up to new things. No matter what this new thing is, whether it is the goal of improving one's studies, the exploration and improvement of various abilities, the skills and attitude of interacting with others, or it is just for one person, there is no problem.

The "secret" I discovered is that a person's appearance is really closely related to his mood and expression. Maybe it’s because I took pictures when I was a kid, but now when I take selfies, I don’t have any exaggerated expressions, so some people say I have facial paralysis. However, I really tried my best to act cute. What do you see when you look in the mirror, what do you do when you take selfies, what do you do when you put on makeup, what do you do when you look cute? For me, it’s not about appearance at all, because now my ordinary appearance is really unappreciable. What is that? It is a mood, a state of mind, and a spirit.

Whether it is taken by a beauty camera, filtered by various filters, exaggerated expressions, deliberately cute, or beautiful pictures, when you see that in the photo If you look like a sunny and cute self, you will receive a kind of positive feedback from yourself.

If no one praises me, if there is nothing about me that deserves to be praised by others, even if my current life is still a bit unbearable and chaotic, my current mood is still a bit not beautiful, and I am still not The little princess I dreamed of when I was a child is not the fair-skinned, beautiful, slender, well-versed, and knowledgeable goddess I dreamed of when I grew up...

Well, at least, I can praise myself, Even if it’s praising the “packaged” self. Then, tell her, my dear, you are beautiful and lovely. You deserve to be loved, and one day you will realize your dreams, and everything in your life will get better one day.

No matter how introverted a girl is, she may have a dream of standing in the center of the stage, being appreciated and praised by thousands of people, and shocking everyone with her words.

However, I know that not everyone is likely to be like that. It may even never be possible.

"I have no experience in making chicken soup with sweet talk, everyone is very busy. You are still the white, rich and beautiful, and I am still the poor guy"

It is a bit extreme, but at least, I can try my best. Make progress little by little.

If you say this, many people will definitely disagree. Then there's nothing I can do.

What I want to say is,

If I love you, I will feel your existence through the most intuitive touch. The touch, care and warmth you gave me.

The foundation is nostalgia and love.

When I love myself, I first accept the information conveyed to me by my appearance, and then filter, blend, and adjust it, and finally form a self with a sense of self-identity in my heart.

The foundation is ability and self-confidence.

It looks like it is a surface that points to the end result from the beginning. In fact, I think it is an ongoing process. growth process.

I had uneasily imagined how this young face and this young body would look like when they become old.

There is no doubt that this is a negative, even superficial performance.

Because I don’t want to live up to my youth and my so-called inner self. Your appearance is not you, but what appears after the unified combination of appearance and soul is you. That is, temperament. Paying too much attention to any one is unbalanced and disappointing.

Many articles have quoted a sentence as an example of how ugly people should read more.

Sanmao said: If you read too many books, your appearance will naturally change.

Although I am a fan of Sanmao, I still don’t agree with this sentence.

If you are ugly, you should put on more makeup and dress up. The most important thing is that I think what can really be compared with reading and I think it is more important than reading is to laugh more and be funny.

What you learn from books is just knowledge, what you understand are just principles, what you feel are just emotions, and what you experience are just thoughts.

I admit that I am addicted to makeup, and I am afraid to face others with my true appearance, but this only shows that you have not truly accepted yourself. In this case, no matter how high-end cosmetics, high-end beauty techniques, and superb makeup technology are, they will not help. Because that layer of cosmetics is not integrated with your face, your expression, your smile, and your heart.

Makeup is just a tool, a medium, and a "means".

A true goddess, a true role model, a truly strong and outstanding woman. Her temperament and inner nature are enough to support her exquisite appearance. How was it packaged?

This is what Bi Shumin said; it is much harder to sharpen the heart than to polish the appearance. It's like the difference between crystal and glass.

Although the logic still feels a bit strange, in order to finish this article quickly

I finally said: I am me, different fireworks. Whose life is without packaging? If the level of packaging is high, it is armed.

I am who I am, a female classmate who wants to look in the mirror forever, who is beautiful but not pure, who is sincere but not frank, who faces the "bleak" life head-on.

After I was thirteen years old, I never took an artistic photo, never took the initiative to put on makeup or lipstick, or wore real high heels...

< p> I would like to dedicate this article to everyone who reads it! The other thing is to remember your youth and dedicate it to yourself who has the most (pseudo) literary dream.

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