Why haven't you fallen in love with someone for a long time?

Heartbeat is really a very precious emotion. There are so many people in this world, but in the final analysis, not many can be remembered by you. I don’t know what a heartbeat feels like to others, why I haven’t felt this way for a long time, maybe it’s because I’m afraid. After you’ve been in love, you’ll understand the pain of losing the one you love. Love is an extremely wonderful thing, but it has too many uncontrollable factors. Not every one of us has the ability to control it.

The last time I had a heartbeat was a few years ago. I was going out with my friends and met a boy during the trip. The other party is an amateur photographer who usually goes out by himself. My friends have relatively cheerful personalities. Since we were staying in the same youth hostel, we arranged to travel together. The most important thing is that the other party has good photography skills and can take many beautiful photos for us. My friends are all married people, but I am single. I also liked taking photos at the time, and we talked about a lot of related topics while playing together. I found that we *** have been to many places together, but we have never met each other. Probably because people are more relaxed during travel. I was tempted without realizing it, but I knew there was no future, so I held it back.

We may have preset for ourselves from the beginning that we will not end up together, so we can distance ourselves and prevent ourselves from being moved. The feeling is really complicated, because I know very well the pain of not being able to love, so I didn't let myself get close to her in the first place, cutting off this possibility. I haven't liked anyone in about three or four years, because I really hate the feeling of my emotions being affected by the other person. That's just me, I don't like things that are beyond my control, I'm afraid of losing them, so I choose not to do them in the first place.