Years are like songs-days accompanied by songs.

Inscription: It is dusk in a blink of an eye, and I will never squat on the toilet and look at the ceiling and scream, "All your pride can only fly in the painting ..."

The small mountain village that left home with a painter's dream set foot on Sanmenxia, the swan city in western Henan, with the fourth place in the county's fine arts, and began a normal life of ignorance for three years! Roaring at the endless distant mountains in my hometown, "My family lives on the high loess slope, and the four monsoon winds blow over the slope …" I waved and left!

In fact, I am not particularly nostalgic, because I know that the past will eventually become the past! I would have been buried in my heart forever if I didn't intend to extend my roots of growth to the fertile soil of music!

In fact, before I entered Yuxi Normal University, I took the professional examination of Luohe artists with the first place in Fine Arts County, but my father didn't want me to go too far. The admission notice of Yuxi Teachers College came down almost at the same time as Luohe Fine Arts, and my parents quietly withheld the admission notice of Luohe Fine Arts after weighing it. (This is what my mother said many years later) I had no choice but to plunge into this swan city where I haven't seen a swan for three years!

In the first class of normal school, I was confident in my major to the point of arrogance. Today is about music, not about art for the time being! On New Year's Day, the first semester of normal school, the class organized a gala. It's a pity that my song "Where is Your Home" by Xiao Xiangyu didn't conquer all the girls in the class. Because at that time, our Commission for Discipline Inspection, a capable young man with curly hair and full of pursuit of freedom and perfection like me, sang the first song of Fu's "Sailing with a Paddle" and won a full house applause! In fact, it's not that I'm not good at singing, but that the songs I sing don't meet the tastes of these ignorant teenagers! "Where is your home?" It's a play taught by a music teacher in her fifties in my middle school, with some elements of Henan opera! At that time, my music teacher once told me that you would follow me to learn music and ensure that you would be the first in the exam. I refused!

The first setback didn't affect my fighting spirit at all. Our specialized courses can let me listen to songs while painting! In that ignorant teenager, listening to songs and singing is a special way for us to vent our communication! At that time, some students from better families began to buy walkmen (small players for playing cassettes)! Occasionally borrow a classmate's walkman and listen to your favorite songs. At that time, I met Andy Lau, the four kings of Jacky Cheung, and Little Tiger was no longer young. When I was confused, I shouted at Zhao Chuan's "I am a bird, but I can't fly high if I want to …"! At that time, I practiced harmoniously with the borrowed guitar. I could play youthful, leisurely and rebellious songs on the flute! At that time, I knew that there was still a man's love in the world-wine! Vent loneliness from songs and understand the world from lyrics. ...

In a blink of an eye, I graduated from normal school for three years, and with my own efforts and persistence, I was admitted to the Fine Arts Department of Luoyang Institute of Education non-stop. At that time, normal school graduation was assigned by the package, and it was not allowed to enter colleges and universities! No one can stop the dream from coming true, because evil influence and the Buddha block, kill the Buddha!

On the first day at Luoyang Institute of Education, I was called by the class teacher to be the monitor, so I learned to take responsibility in singing youth! Hot-blooded youth is rampant in this ancient capital of nine dynasties with ancient history and cultural background!

At this time, Dong Wenhua's "1997" is floating in the streets and lanes during the return of Macao. It was a spring, and an old man drew a circle on the South China Sea in China ... "At that time, the domestic economy burst into a once-in-a-century vitality, and my parents' unit salary was enviable for the first time. I also spent more than 500 yuan next month with the strong support of my parents! I bought a big tape recorder (a cassette player) at that time. People who study art have a long feeling for pop music. The old city night market in the ancient capital is full of pirated tapes. We can buy pirated tapes that are almost the same as genuine ones for one dollar. The last thing before going to bed every night is to turn off the tape recorder, and the first thing in the morning is to turn on the tape recorder. One of my tape recorders was overhauled a year later, and it will never return to its former appearance! Students' wardrobes and desks are full of their favorite photo albums! The four heavenly kings are still rampant, Andy Lau's earnest insistence, Jacky Cheung's infatuation and freedom, Dawn's low-key shyness, Aaron Kwok's passionate publicity ... Screaming Ka Kui Wong, roaring Tang Dynasty, and dazzling Michael. At that time, they began to talk with their hearts through songs, and after the evening self-study, they wrote down the lyrics of their own single cycle on the classroom floor with a brush dipped in water, and looked through the library to find their own confusion! I began to write poems quietly. At that time, I could accurately remember the melody and lyrics of hundreds of songs. At the weekend, Ka Kui Wong and I played drift and roared together at the first skating rink in the ancient capital.

"Forgive me this life unruly indulgence love freedom.

I am also afraid that one day I will fall down ... "

In the bathroom, there was a natural echo, and no one was shouting "I came in a hurry, but I went in a hurry and wished I could not meet each other ..."

When the first outdoor KTV in the old city night market opened, we endured the heartache of singing a song for five dollars until one or two hundred people around us unconsciously applauded! Sing for our boy with tears!

There are not only Chyi Chin's "Past with the Wind" and "Don't Be Forced", but also Changyu's "The Disaster Caused by the Moon" and "It's Raining Non-stop", and everyone in the street will hum! We often sing and say that we have lost several meals! Sing until the boss urges the door to close, sing until the autumn wind starts to rain, and unconsciously fall!

Many years later, I heard a story from my brother. It is said that in junior year, at dusk, a boy in the class would sit on the stairs of the teaching building with his guitar on time and gently play and sing a song-"Her Back" until he burst into tears and could no longer sing! Then the boy disappeared before he graduated! Nobody knows where he went! I wonder what kind of story this boy has in mind. In that impetuous era, love can still be expected! Maybe, I don't know.

Later, I listened to the song "Her Back" many times, and I finally understood the boy's heartache! Review the lyrics of Her Back!

Wang Jie: Her back.

Nobody can tell me.

No one can understand me.

So what is love?

Makes my heart a blur.

In my mind.

How many years later, some people say

Love won't last long.

Maybe it's really beautiful.

Maybe not after tonight.

oh

I won't drink after tonight.

Maybe this life is doomed to be impossible.

Seeing love floating so far away.

Only let go with tears.

Her back has slowly disappeared in the wind.

Stay in the wind every day and let it blow.

The wind can remind me.

The past and your feelings

Stay in the wind every day and let it blow.

The wind can remind me.

The relationship with you in the past.

The most precious love always happens when you are young! It was too green at that time. A moment that should last forever has come and gone before I know it! Just like everyone has a juvenile story in their hearts, but who is the unforgettable figure, who is the cinnabar that can't be said in their hearts, is so ethereal and nothingness! Just like many years later, many people always have a single cycle in their hearts! Maybe it's William Feng's song "The first time I met you, it was under the sunshine ..." in "One Hundred Years" ...

These songs and melodies rooted in the heart, at most, are unintelligible self-entertainment in youth, and now they are deeply rooted in the bone marrow! Let the barren life be thicker!

It was dusk in the blink of an eye. Now I will never squat on the toilet and look at the ceiling and scream, "All your pride can only fly in the painting ..." I will never roar at the sky when no one is around, "Come in a hurry, go in a hurry and hate not meeting each other" and "There are so many beautiful women in the world, I love you alone ..."

Only in the youth accompanied by songs, the time is amazing and the years are gentle!

Fourth from left is me!

Postscript:

After the article was written, I immediately sent it to my best friend in college through WeChat. He also gave me a reply at the first time, saying that he didn't finish reading the article in one breath and that I don't drink much now. I replied, I drink but I don't drink! He also said that some of his old friends were free to get together in Luoyang. After a while, I replied, I still won't go. It's easy to feel sad. I'm afraid it's better to stay in my heart without the previous tacit understanding! It's been 20 years, and I've taken a different path, just follow the fate!