keep silence

Before Jimmy was ready to jump off a building, he looked up at the sky and asked, My mother loves me, too, doesn't she?

Jimmy is almost crazy, Duanmu's life is at stake, and she is extremely nervous. Duanmu is crying: Please leave my child alone and give my child a chance to see the world. I am pregnant! This sentence made Jimmy feel betrayed instantly calm. He thought of his mother and couldn't help looking up at the sky and asking what was in his heart. ...

Jimmy has a strong tragic color. From birth, he was called "little bastard" by his grandmother until he met Wan Sicheng in the orphanage. Wan Sicheng told him that he was not an illegitimate child, and his mother said he was an angel. From this time on, Jimmy had a deep envy of Wan Sicheng. Later, Jimmy was adopted to America. Jimmy in the United States suffered more serious violations, being beaten, abused and sexually assaulted, so he suffered from schizophrenia without knowing it. Jimmy impersonated Wan Sicheng. What he wants is his mother's love. He even thought he was Wan Sicheng. After Wan revealed that he was not Wan Sicheng, he stabbed Wan with a fruit knife in a rage. Jimmy committed suicide by jumping off a building, and Wan, who abandoned his child, also fell from the building. At the end of the film, two tombstones stand quietly, calm and sad.

How can you get married if you are born without raising? Jimmy, including the abandoned Wan Sicheng, two abandoned souls are far apart before they can comfort each other. Jimmy is moving towards a new life with an all-round personality. However, things are impermanent, and Jimmy suffered serious physical and mental trauma and gradually became something he didn't even know. Abandoned children, like lonely shoes drifting in deep water, are dark and cold. I often think that in the face of various environments, maybe we can't change. What we can do is to choose ourselves, distinguish right from wrong and try to correct ourselves. This is what I have always believed. However, after watching more and more TV dramas, I found that many people with bad intentions had various shortcomings when they were young, or they were caused by the bad environment the day after tomorrow. It suddenly dawned on me that self-choice is not so easy in the extreme darkness and struggle.

Only those who have experienced extreme darkness can understand the value of light. In a helpless environment, all it takes is a straw, a touch of candlelight and a smile to rekindle hope. Just like the heroine Waris Dirie in the movie Desert Flower (adapted from a real life biography), she was circumcised at the age of three, married an old man at the age of twelve, fled to the desert and almost died, but there was a glimmer of light in her life. She met Marilyn, who took him in, and Donaldson, a Bole photographer, who eventually grew into a top model in the world and devoted herself to the cause of women's liberation. Yes, she is unfortunate, yes, she is also lucky.

"Lucky people are cured by childhood all their lives, and unfortunate people are cured by childhood all their lives." This sentence deeply touched me. The influence of childhood may not be immediate, but it is lasting and far-reaching. The beauty of childhood lies not in the amount of material things, but in the inner richness and satisfaction. Maybe children are part of their parents. In the eyes of parents, children have such shortcomings, but in the eyes of children, parents are everything, no matter whether parents do well or not, they are 100%. There are too many misfortunes in the world every day. Film and television drama comes from life, higher than life. Through contradictions and conflicts, they can uncover the scars in reality, highlight the ugliness of human nature, let us see, let us feel pain and let us think.