What is the realistic prototype of vivian maier in Looking for vivian maier?

I don't like socializing, I resist intimacy, I don't have many friends, and I am not close to my family. It is easy to feel inferior when interacting with people. I can't speak and I won't be a caring person. It can be said that he is a layman who has no self-confidence, is unwilling to socialize and is self-enclosed. I once told many people with a smile that if I were a boy, I would be straight.

Actually, I'm a little depressed.

When I went home for the New Year, this frustration gradually turned into resistance.

This resistance reached its peak at the reunion dinner.

At that moment, I couldn't control my emotions at all, and I couldn't even maintain a forced fake smile.

At the dinner table of the reunion dinner, after a few drinks, some elders in the big family began to talk a lot.

Say to me-XXX, you will graduate in more than one year. Listen to me and stay in Changsha.

Is one of my elders. I stood at the door. Maybe he wanted to say something to me, but I pretended not to hear him and turned away.

During the whole Chinese New Year, I felt a little out of place.

In fact, it's nothing, but there are always many differences between my views and my family.

And most of the time, I always keep silent. Because I don't like talking very much, I once said that one of the reasons why I don't want to stay in my hometown is that I am afraid that I will get married and have children at the right age, and then live the same life as my family. And what I am most afraid of is that even in the end, I feel that I have resisted like this because I am naive.

My friend poked me hard and said, but have you ever thought that you may have resisted, but you still have to go on this road in the end?

It is the biggest misunderstanding for me to think that I think this kind of life is not good!

Instead, there will be a moment when I suddenly yearn for such a life.

This is by no means the so-called "don't drown everyone" thing.

It's just that what I yearn for so much is a different life. If this is ordinary, then this yearning itself is another kind of ordinary.

I yearn for an ordinary life too much.

I hate this kind of life in the mouth of my elders. It's just that I hate the feeling that my life is out of control

I want some freedom.

If there is no freedom in life, is life too boring?

I know these words. I tell some people, and some people will say that I am too idealistic and naive.

However, so what?

Actually, I don't resist change.

I hope that when others want to change me, they will convince me with reason.

I am a good listener. Because I have my own ideas and opinions, I just hate people trying to domesticate me all the time, never giving any reasons, just saying-you are still young, you will know later.

This is not a hooligan!

I doubt myself, too

Later, I met some people, watched some other people's lives and got something new.

Until I saw a documentary about finding vivian maier.

I think I'm suddenly open-minded.

Behind one of Vivian Meyer's photo albums, someone said:-If a woman has no family, no love, no children, or even few relatives and friends, can she spend her life without collapse?

-unless, she has faith, or love like faith, or something that fascinates her like love. A nanny, she has her own secrets, eccentric, withdrawn, neurotic, calm, alert, sensitive, refusing to reveal, spy or explain.

No one knew that she had taken so many photos;

No one knew that she had walked so many streets;

No one knew that she looked ordinary but did such a great thing. It is such a person who changed my point of view and changed my life.