Reflections after reading "Youth"

In my opinion, ideals should be realized, not spoken. People who are truly ideal will not care about small gains and losses, and will not let themselves be limited for the sake of temporary honor and disgrace. People with ideals understand their own status and level, know what they want, and know how to get it. Get what you want. His only purpose is to achieve his goals, and other trivial matters have nothing to do with him. He knows that his strength is the strongest asset against fate, and there is no other way. If anyone doubts that this emphasizes individualism, yes, it is individualism. A person must first be valuable himself in order to bring value to the team and the collective. What the team needs is teammates, not burdens.

In an age of collectivism, having ideals is often seen as heresy. Do the people in the art troupe have ideals? I don't know, I can't see it in the original work. But a group like the art troupe is not a good breeding ground for the development of ideals. People may think that they can stay in the art troupe for a lifetime, so ideals don't matter and they can just follow the situation. The book doesn't tell how Xiao Suizi became a writer, how Hao Shuwen's husband started a business, or how Liu Feng, a wounded veteran, thought of selling pirated books, but I think it all has an ideal effect more or less. . After leaving the shelter of the collective, making money to support their families and getting rich became their biggest ideal. This ideal came a little late and was a bit passive, but at least it gave them a meaning in life. Their ideal was survival.

When survival becomes an ideal, this is the greatest tragedy of ideals.

Ideal should be a guide, a beacon, to see more scenery, meet more people, and pursue a better life. Ideal is the climax of every life, the intersection of suffering and joy, the connection point between the present of self-growth and the unforeseen future. When he was in the art troupe, Liu Feng regarded love as his ideal, and his ideal was Lin Dingding. In his opinion, this was a turnaround for himself as a poor boy, and it was the highest reward he could get.

Liu Feng has set his ideals too low. In fact, Liu Feng and Lin Dingding are not at the same level at all. Lin Dingding knew this gap, so she couldn't accept it. She couldn't accept that a normally noble image came down from the altar to confess to her. What made Lin Dingding resist was not Liu Feng personally, but Liu Feng, who had the same status as them in the art troupe, and had the aura of a party member and a pacesetter who imitated Lei Feng. With the aura, Liu Feng looked like a saint. If Liu Feng didn't have this halo, Lin Dingding would accept him like a photographer. If Liu Feng's aura was stronger, the delicate and shy Lin Dingding might also try to cling to him. There is nothing wrong with Liu Feng's pursuit of love. What is wrong is that he pursues love at the expense of his ideals. The weight is too heavy. No wonder the balance will collapse.

The last factor is the individual. Through this factor, I want to explain that people must understand themselves, maintain a clear and objective understanding of themselves, and cannot be self-aggrandizing, let alone self-deprecating. Xiaoping, a humble girl, was bullied during her time in the art troupe, but she persisted in practicing her dance despite being ridiculed and interfered by others. She knew that the art troupe was her only way out, and she could only grasp this way out. Reading Notes. It is a pity that when the Sino-Vietnam War broke out, she saved lives and injured in the rear hospital on the front line and became a model nurse. However, she could not accept the contrast of reality for a moment and experienced a period of schizophrenia. The original work did not explain how He Xiaoping recovered in the end, but I think it was a blessing for He Xiaoping to be able to return to normal.

As far as the book Youth is concerned, He Xiaoping is the most diligent and motivated of all the characters. If He Xiaoping's personal understanding is not so biased, she will definitely have a much better ending than the current situation. Objective and true self-evaluation includes two aspects, one is one's own understanding of oneself, and the other is others' evaluation of oneself. In the life that He Xiaoping experienced, before she became a model nurse, He Xiaoping received relatively poor evaluations. In the family, He Xiaoping is insignificant, and after joining the art troupe, He Xiaoping has the lowest status. The experience of continuous setbacks gave her a sense of devaluation of herself, as if only in this way could she conform to the public's evaluation of her and cater to everyone. What He Xiaoping did was completely unnecessary and could not change the reality at all.

Despite this, this is not He Xiaoping's biggest mistake. He Xiaoping's biggest mistake should be the act of pretending to be sick when the cultural troupe performed for the cavalry regiment and the military horse farm. The background of that incident was that after Liu Feng was transferred to the logging company, and after Liu Feng left, He Xiaoping was completely disappointed with the despondency of everyone in the art troupe. She wanted to take this opportunity to leave the art troupe. Her goal was achieved, but at the same time she left the biggest stain on herself. If He Xiaoping had not committed that act of pretending to be ill, her fate might have been the same as that of everyone else in the art troupe. He Xiaoping, who had no stain, could still live a strong life for herself. There is no doubt that she would have lived a better life than the ending.

There is another person who does not have a good grasp of himself, and that is Liu Feng. Liu Feng’s experience is regrettable. It does not mean that good people like ordinary people. Liu Feng, a good person, has no feeling for ordinary people, no matter what. Such days are not ordinary in Liu Feng's eyes. From the section in the book where Liu Feng and He Xiaoping pay homage to their fallen comrades, it can be seen that Liu Feng has an extremely open mind. In his opinion, coming off the battlefield alive is already much better than those of his fallen comrades.

Liu Feng's thought runs through his entire life. The individual is insignificant to Liu Feng. He cares more about the collective and others. When he was in the art troupe, he cared more about Lin Dingding than himself, so the touching incident occurred.

The description of the touching incident in the book is also quite disturbing. As a party member, he could have gone further. Liu Feng had the opportunity to be promoted to a cadre. Just imagine, if Liu Feng became a cadre, had a higher level, and had more resources, would Lin Dingding still reject him so ruthlessly? If Liu Feng becomes a cadre, he will have the opportunity to find more people who are better than Lin Dingding in the army. It is not yet known whether Liu Feng will maintain the same feelings for Lin Dingding.

Being among a group of talented people, Liu Feng, who was dazed by love, did not maintain a rational and clear understanding of the individual. This was a scar in his youth. By uncovering this scar, we see good people becoming ordinary, the ugliness of human nature, and the suffering of vulnerable groups. Without this scar, our good man Liu Feng could become a very good person. People will always make mistakes, and only by experiencing mistakes can they grow. Making mistakes naturally requires paying a price. Liu Feng made a mistake at a critical moment that cost him his right arm and a bright future. Liu Feng finally I believe the ordinary ending is something that no reader wants to see. There is no way, there is no turning back in life.

I hope we can overcome the environment, adhere to our ideals, and implement ourselves. Stand tall and proud, shining brightly in the changing tide of the times.

May we, who have gone through hardships, remain youthful and immortal!