It doesn't hurt not to read.

Some things, without reason or result, are still going on.

Some love, no chance, no sharing, still intoxicated.

In this love battle without smoke, I once stubbornly thought that I had never lost to you, but after several years of accidental meeting, I suddenly realized that love had not won or lost.

Don't worry, it doesn't hurt.

In the year of graduation, I left the city that made me desperate and tired. I thought I would never come back to see you again in my life. I tried to change the fingerprint of fate, but I didn't expect that there was a deeper desolation behind it. In the face of the torrent of fate, we are as insignificant as dust, and we can only be at the mercy of fate, meet and fall in love, and finally end up in a tragic way that we never expected.

Because of the company's business trip, I returned to the city where I had been in college for four years, and I returned to that unforgettable and scarred city. Long time no see, the scenery of the city remains the same, but people's mood has changed dramatically. With my luggage and a complicated and heavy heart, I stepped into the door of the hotel. "Mo Nian" was stopped by a deep and moist voice without walking a few steps.

When I turned my head, a familiar and unfamiliar figure came into view. I just froze in place, and tears kept rolling in my eyes. I bit my trembling lips and couldn't say a word for a long time. "Mo years, it's really you. Did you have fun? " Mozan greeted him with surprise and caution. I don't know if the answer is good. Finally, the word "OK" popped out of my mouth.

Good or bad is just a mood that is not worth mentioning in four years of discrete love. What if love is not in the mood? Mosan, you won't understand after all Mosang handed me a business card, and I took it calmly, then turned around and left in a hurry, without giving Mosang a chance to chat. I'm afraid that the locked tears will burst out in the end, and I'm even more afraid that Mosan will see me embarrassed. However, at the moment of turning around, tears could not stop flowing down, and finally gradually blurred the line of sight.

Mosan, I think we should stop here and finally forget about it. I thought I would turn a blind eye to you standing in front of me with your head held high, but I was wrong after all. I couldn't help blushing at the moment I met you.

"One" His name is Mosan, and he is my senior in junior year. The first time I met Mosan was in the freshman club. I vaguely remember that night when I came back from military training, Mo San wore a suit and tie and knocked at the door politely. Standing in the middle of the dormitory, he is so handsome and aggressive, and warm as jade.

I am a person who doesn't believe in love at first sight. I used to think that love at first sight was too illusory. They only exist in novels or TV plots. But at the moment I met Mosang, I was convinced that love at first sight existed. Mosan is the minister of sports. He patiently and enthusiastically introduced his club, the Sports Department. Finally, he smiled at me and asked, "Junior, is there anything else you want to know?"

From the moment I introduced Mosan, my heart was pounding like a deer. I have long been addicted to Mosan's exquisite appearance and outstanding temperament. "Mon Nian, the senior asks you", and only under the reminder of his roommate R, he hurried back to reality. I blushed and replied incoherently, "Yes, I want to sign up." Mosan smiled helplessly. "This junior is so cute." In this way, I joined the sports department for Mosan.

So every Tuesday has become the day I look forward to most, because I can watch Mosan closely at the regular meeting on Tuesday. Every Tuesday, I will give up the opportunity to have lunch and come to the conference classroom early, just to sit in the front row. At that time, my greatest wish was that Mo San could notice me. Later, I added Mo San from the QQ group of the sports department and stared at Mo San's head on the list every night. Every beat will make me excited for a long time, even if it is the task notice of the sports department.

When he was a student, Mosan was so excellent that every part of him shone with light that others could not reach. Mo San is a male god recognized by all the girls in the school, and is the right-hand man in the eyes of teachers and school leaders. I know that I am far away from Mosang, and I silently follow Mosang's footsteps, regardless of the hardships and tiredness of the journey and the immediate difficulties. Just for one day, I can stand beside Mosang in a glamorous way, become golden couple, and become a talented person and a beautiful woman admired by everyone.

The annual sports meeting is an opportunity for members of the sports department to show their talents, and it is also an excellent opportunity for Mo San to notice me. I did not hesitate to apply for the women's 3000-meter event. Every morning, I get up early and drag my tired body to the playground to practice running, and then I am endlessly tortured by sleepy pain in the morning class. In every hot afternoon, I still run on the track of the playground in the scorching sun, and my clothes and the whole track are soaked with sweat. During that time, my skin was tanned by the scorching sun, and my homework was much behind.

Countless nights, I sobbed under the covers. For a moment, I wanted to give up. But whenever this happens, my mind will see the face of Mosan, and Mosan has become my only spiritual pillar, supporting me through countless painful moments. The sports meeting arrived as scheduled, and my efforts were not in vain after all. I won the first place in the women's 3000-meter race. Standing on the podium, looking at the admiring eyes from Mosang, all the bitterness and pain were quietly released at that moment.

Walking off the podium, Mo San jokingly said, "Mo Nian, I didn't expect you to be a weak-looking athlete. I really admire you. " I pretended to be relaxed and replied, "You underestimate me anyway. It's so easy. But you know, Mosan, behind everything that seems effortless, you are working hard, but you never know my efforts.

In the later period of "Three", I gradually became familiar with Mosang, and the conversation content on QQ gradually evolved from task notification to chat and talk. At every moment when I miss Mo San, I will take out my mobile phone, read the chat records with Mo San page by page, and then recall every word over and over again. The unlocking of the mobile phone screen was also quietly changed to Mosan's birthday, and Mosan didn't know anything at this time.

The New Year's Eve party is coming. I overheard my classmates say that Mosan is the male host on New Year's Day this year. I wrote my name "Mo Nian" without thinking at the hostess recruitment contest. So I began to practice pronunciation and study every movement and expression of the host. Among many outstanding people, I finally stood out and became the host partner of Mosan. That night, wearing an evening dress, I finally stood beside Mo San. That night, Mo San and I finally became what others call gifted scholars and beautiful women. It's just that I know that talents and beautiful women are just what others say, that's all.

Mosang kept running forward, and I tried my best to catch up with Mosang's pace. Mosan likes reading, so I borrowed piles of books from the library and read them day and night. Mosan likes photography, so I worked part-time desperately and finally bought a camera with the money I earned from part-time. Mosan likes traveling, so I studied the city he wanted to go to upside down. I'm trying to be what Mo San likes, trying to be excellent, excellent, and excellent again. Finally, one day, I became the girl around Mosang, not just what others said.

"Four" It was the time when I was slightly drunk at a club party and finally got up the courage to confess my love to Mosan. Mosan froze at first, and then fell into a deep silence. I didn't force Mozan to reply immediately, but turned away in Mozan's silence. That night, I left early on the pretext of something. On the way back to school, the wind was biting, but I broke out in a hot sweat. Either happy or nervous.

The next night, I was about to fall asleep when I suddenly received a text message. There are only three words "girlfriend" on the short message, and the sender is "Mo San". I stared at the screen of my mobile phone and almost screamed with excitement. That night, I stayed up all night. That night, I had the first love of my life-Mosang.

In his senior year, Mosan was the president of the Student Union. With the help of Mosang, I successfully entered the student union of the school, and my ability and social interaction have been greatly improved. Mosan taught me a lot about the world. In the association with Mosan, I changed from an inexperienced girl to a strong girl who is sociable. Mosan is very kind to me and takes care of everything. When I was nine years old, I thought I had caught cicadas all summer. When I was nineteen years old, I kissed Mosang's face, thinking that I could be with Mosang forever.

However, good things are often short-lived and fleeting. When shopping, Mosan always chooses blue clothes for me. He said blue suits me best. I will always make rose tea that I don't like, and when I stare at me for a while, I will always be distracted, as if I were looking for another person through my eyes. Every time I try to control my thoughts, I deceive myself again and again with the excuse that Mosan is good to me. Fall in love with Mosan more and more deeply. However, all the calmness was finally broken by a girl named Mei Sheng, and all the previous doubts were also explained by this girl named Mei Sheng.

Meisheng is Mosang's ex-girlfriend, and the day Mosang promised to be with me was also the day Meisheng and Mosang broke up. Meisheng got my phone number from Mosan and asked me to meet in Blue. Mei Sheng ordered a cup of rose tea, which she said has always been her favorite. Mei Sheng wore a blue dress, which was noble and elegant. Mei Sheng said, "You are indeed somewhat similar to me. Mo San really hasn't forgotten me." . At this time, I was flustered like a clown when I was fog-clearing. It turns out that I have always existed in the form of other people's body body double.

Later, I broke up with Mosan. On a hot afternoon in summer, I felt very cold when walking on the road. No matter how much I begged, Mosan turned decisively and left. The last sentence that Mosang left me was "Meisheng, not you, is the one I have always loved".

When I got back, I threw away all things related to Mosan, deleted all contact information with Mosan, and automatically blocked all things related to Mosan. After graduating from college, I left the city where Mo San lived.

I try to be better in the days without Mosan. I served as the president of the school student union, and after graduation, I entered the world's top 500 companies with extraordinary ability. I got everything I expected. I don't think I've ever lost to Mosan. But I was wrong. Love does not win or lose. No matter how I pretend to be strong, Mosan will always be a scar hidden in my memory. The moment we meet again, it will still bleed or hurt.

Forget it. Forget it for the rest of your life.

Mosang Mosang, a lifetime of vicissitudes.