What happens to those of us who took a break from school?

From elementary school to high school, we have been learning a certain skill, or scientific and cultural knowledge. It may be out of interest, or it may be forced by parents. If no one forces you to study, will you still take the initiative to study?

There are always some rebellious children who have enough courage to resist the persecution of their parents and the judgment of society, and do whatever they want.

(1)

Wang is a reader I met when I took a break from school in Dali. Except for the messy hair during the trip, he looks like a good kid. I didn’t communicate with him frequently, but every time I listened to him talk, I always felt his deep yearning and stubborn persistence.

He is a graduate student at a prestigious university in Shanghai. During his graduate studies, he has been thinking, why study? Why are we subject to school control? Why live? With so many questions lingering in my mind, I embarked on a journey to find "why".

He has a kind of greed for the world, which has nothing to do with material things and fame and fortune, but greed for spiritual enjoyment. He has an infinite yearning for beauty and nature; remains skeptical of social ideologies; and has a strong interest in philosophy and sociology. I did not solidify myself, but allowed my own preferences to develop. I did not accept systematic learning, and relied entirely on my own reading, experience, and insights to understand the world.

I have been out of school for a year and a half, but I have never stopped thinking and reading. From Tibet (Lhasa and surrounding areas), Yunnan, Xi'an, Zhangye, Jiayuguan, Dunhuang, Beijing, Laos, Thailand, and back to Shanghai. Then again from Lhasa, Shigatse, Mount Everest, Kuala Lumpur, Nepal, Kuala Lumpur, passing by Ho Chi Minh City, passing by Guangzhou, passing by Zhuhai, and then back to Shanghai.

He is supported by his parents and friends, and earns low wages from part-time jobs, and does not care much about his financial situation. He said that he is a person who does not think about the future. He lives and enjoys the present. Except for the pressure from his parents, he does not feel any hardship.

I do not envy his freedom, nor am I willing to accuse him of being irresponsible. If you don't live according to your own wishes, you won't call it your life. You cannot judge other people’s lives.

(2)

Recalling that at the end of last semester, I took a leave of absence due to surgery. The biggest reason for awakening is not the body, but the psychology.

I am a person who only lives in my own utopian world. I don’t read the news or newspapers, and I don’t socialize much. Apart from studying, I work part-time in a bookstore. And "The Days of Skipping Classes and Going to Peking University to Take Classes" attracted many people who wanted to get to know me. The first article alone received more than 1,000 comments. Coupled with the dozens of public accounts that forwarded it, I don’t know how many reads it has. There are criticisms and praises below the article, but more of them are cries of frustration, sighs of helplessness about longing but not getting it, and then yearning for the future.

A self-isolated person receives greetings from so many people at once and does not know how to communicate and respond. Still want to stick to the original utopian life. But more and more noises made me unable to stay quietly. Although the message prompt is turned off, when I look at the APP, there are 10 messages. I respond to readers' messages out of courtesy, and I patiently give my sincere suggestions to their confused requests for help. But the guidance of peers to peers is like a blind man commanding a blind man. I am even more confused about the future.

This article opened up my world and expanded my ambition. I changed the appreciation prompt to, I want to go further. Taking advantage of my articles and photography, I immediately applied to be a volunteer in Dali, Dehong Research Independent Media, an internship in Shanghai, and a volunteer in Chiang Mai. This meant I could travel while earning money and potentially spend the rest of my life doing so.

At first, I planned to complete the final tasks of my studies, complete the Level 6 answer sheet, and use my summer vacation time to fulfill my dream. I still insist on running every night, but the call from the distance makes me want to leave my footprints in a strange distance.

Halfway through class, looking out the window, I couldn’t help but feel excited: Since I can go far away, what’s the point of studying? I suddenly lost the motivation to study. During class, I slipped out of the back door. My phone was out of battery, I didn’t bring my wallet, and I only had a random book with me. The sun above my head made me unable to raise my head, and I looked down at my shuffling footsteps, walking on the empty road. As I walked through the teaching building, the sound of the teacher's loudspeaker came from all the windows, which mixed into my ears and turned into noise.

The body is a reflection of the mind. When I was running, I started to feel pain in my lower right part. A few days later, I went to Xiangya Hospital for examination in a crowded vegetable market. Taking the B-ultrasound sheet, the doctor looked at it for a second and diagnosed it as gallbladder stones. I have never had any illness other than fever and cold. When I heard about this illness, I checked with the doctor again. The doctor said calmly: Yes, where are your family members? Let’s find out when to have surgery to remove the gallbladder!

Going back to school, I thought over and over again: If I had cancer, if I didn’t have a long life, how would I spend my days now. I think I should realize my ideas as soon as possible so that I will have no regrets in life. That stone is like the turbulent ambition within. There was a faint sound when walking and eating, urging me to move forward. Only at the fast pace of running did I feel no pain.

Final homework is piled up, exams are pressing, and stones collide with my body and impact my psychology again and again. This stone was the factor of restlessness. I used it to go home early and did not take the final exam.

After a good sleep, I found three more holes in my stomach. I thought that the turbulent stone in my heart had been removed, and my heart became calm. However, the solemn atmosphere and pale air of the hospital made me even more reluctant to stay.

Decide to fulfill your dream as soon as possible in your lifetime. The surgical sutures on his stomach were not removed before he embarked on his journey to Zhengchen. This time I also brought my younger brother who didn’t want to continue high school. I thought: since he thinks he can’t learn anything in school, let him go out into society and learn about it and make his own choices.

(3)

Volunteering in Dali, Cangshan Mountain and Erhai Lake, wind, flowers, snow and moon, life is leisurely and comfortable. No pressure, no control, no responsibility, I just wandered the streets of Dali every day. I have met many people who have quit their jobs to travel, and their aberrations will not be looked upon in any strange way here.

People who work here can live a free and undisciplined life as long as they have a skill or just strength. Street vendors in Dali are a group of people who rent a small house here, drink tea and read poetry during the day, and set up a street stall on Renmin Road for a few hours in the evening. After closing the stall early in the evening, they can go to the bar to drink and listen to music. When business is good, you can earn tens of thousands of dollars. They don't consider getting married and buying a house, they just enjoy their current poetic life.

But when the income is low, they will sigh like this: "The so-called freedom is just a kind of wandering, and a kind of wandering is a life of poverty."

Half a month later Such a free life. I felt like my life had stopped here. Maybe this is the "unbearable lightness of life." Without a career that I am passionate about to devote my time and energy to, my life will be like a feather, blowing in the wind. Without responsibility and love, it is like a kite with a broken string.

(4)

After half a month, I got up and left for an internship in Shanghai. My younger brother is still willing to work alone in a bar in Dali, and I let him choose his future path.

From an unstructured and unstructured environment to this highly institutionalized city of desire, my worldview has been impacted like never before. How can there be such rich people in the world? How can a piece of clothing be so expensive? How can people endure a job they don't like just to satisfy their temporary vanity? Most people go home early in the morning with sleepy faces after a busy day and then drag their tired footsteps home.

I have also seen intellectuals like Dr. Liu Yuelai who do not care about money and fame, but devote all their energy to their careers. Even when the temperature is over 40 degrees Celsius, I still hold my camera and ride my exclusive bicycle through the projects I have organized and completed, playing and taking pictures with my children. Judging from the smile on his face, he is still a young man full of curiosity and enthusiasm for the world. The same is true for my professional teacher, Teacher Zhou, who still maintains a pure smile like a girl's face.

I think this is the best state of life, not chasing fame and fortune, but having a career that you love and can get a sense of fulfillment.

(5)

When I set out, I asked for directions with confusion about the future, not knowing whether I would go back to school. Fortunately, I have met people in various life situations and seen the life I want. During the half month since I returned to school, I spent every day in the library, learning professional knowledge, understanding books on new media that interested me, and reading literature in my free time. My thirst for knowledge is stronger than ever before.

Books not only allowed me to understand the knowledge and culture that I had not yet mastered, but also allowed me to see the social connotation that I had never seen, and also gave me deep thinking that I had not yet understood. The more books I read, the more ignorant I feel.

(6)

When we are young, we always have prejudices against the world. We are eager to get rid of the control of parents at school and have a strong desire to live according to our own ideas.

Just like Wang said, "I feel that the land I have stepped on is the same as the thoughts in my mind. As I step on more and more places, the boundaries of my thoughts are constantly expanding. I have been exploring more possibilities. This may come from - there is only one cherishment in life."

And Wang is a person like Maugham who pursues freedom infinitely. The female teacher who is making headlines again now and wrote "The world is so big, I want to see it" met her significant other and opened a B&B in Yunnan. They all bravely pursue the life they want.

We are all teenagers who are curious about the world, but when our worldview is still taking shape, we will always be influenced by the people around us, and we will always long for a seemingly free state, but we never understand what they want to show to the world. I feel helpless and I don’t know the efforts behind it. We do not yet have the ability to independently judge the world, nor can we decide now how to live our lives.

We who are eager to fly to distant places should learn knowledge and cultivate ourselves before soaring with broad wings, so that we can have the ability and confidence to pursue the life we ??want.

The purpose of learning is not to work, but to better understand this society, see the world more clearly as it is, and have more ability to pursue freedom.

A good education should enable people to form a good outlook on life, have the ability to distinguish between good and bad, and have richer knowledge and learning abilities to cope with the ever-changing society.

(7)

If the story of dropping out of school was a novel, the protagonist might fall into a tragedy, or reach a turning point and reach the pinnacle of life.

However, the story of Bill Gates dropping out of school and later becoming the world's richest man is difficult to write. All achievements require a step-by-step accumulation of knowledge and struggle.

Realizing the importance of studying, I went back to school and studied obediently. My younger brother’s teammates from famous and famous college students who played LoL also aroused his initiative in studying. And Wang now feels powerless and helpless that he cannot have a deep understanding of philosophy, music, and art. However, he still has not found the path he likes and can only study the subjects he is interested in by himself.

Life is short, and the pursuit of freedom is the driving force of life. But desire is not just about thinking. All pursuits require dedication and the accumulation of knowledge or resources. After enjoying the resources brought to us by society and parents, we cannot escape our responsibilities to parents or society.

For this short life, we are always eager to complete something, but if it is not at the end of life, the most important thing to do is to keep the road steady.

Young people, control our ambition, let it be nourished in the heart, grow well, and when the time is right, we can ride in the wilderness.

Every stage of life has different understandings; every living state of life can become enjoyment. I hope that I can enjoy the beautiful scenery with you in the distance, and I can also communicate with you in the library.