From postgraduate entrance examination to photography major

Ang Lee said: "Any moving and established thing has its own natural power. If growth itself needs to be cultivated, young people should allow themselves to be cultivated. "

But there is a price to pay for giving birth to yourself. Looking back on the first half of my life, I can still remember quite a few things clearly, including those piercing, crazy and touching things ... but two things have become the main theme of my life.

I have been a scum in my class since I was a child, but apart from my grades, I am what my mothers call "someone else's child." From elementary school to high school, I went to a poor school at home. Everyone thinks that I am the one who can go home, get married and have children after graduating from high school, and this is the end of my life.

But there are always surprises in life that you can't predict. In the third year of high school, I met the first person I liked in my life. He is tall and handsome, with a good hand and charm. What I like best is his smile. A smile can warm the whole winter. The most exquisite thing is that he sits in front of me and looks up every day to see his every move. Is this the so-called love seed?

He got good grades and was the top student in his class. In order to communicate with him more, I began to study hard. If I don't understand, I will ask him, and he will patiently explain it to me. Two months later, my grades have been greatly improved, and the teachers all said that I had the hope of being admitted to the undergraduate course. I was secretly pleased, so I silently set up a flag: he and I were admitted to the same university.

The college entrance examination was over, and he was admitted to Tongji, while I was admitted to an ordinary university. Although I didn't get what I wanted, I was very happy. At least through my efforts, I changed the fate of "seeing the end at a glance".

When I arrived at the university, many people around me complained that their university was not good. As soon as they passed the lifelong exam, they began to believe that "universities can be free". What should they do?

But I think this is a new beginning. I set up a flag: graduate student of Tongji University. I study hard every day and take part in social practice activities. At that time, my major was mathematics. I read all the books on the math bookshelf in the library, and went to the computer department as an auditor and minored in computer. Finally, the computer teacher mistakenly thought I was a student in their class. During my college years, I not only got excellent grades, but also realized "freedom of wealth" through social practice and small-scale entrepreneurship.

In my senior year, when I was preparing for the postgraduate entrance examination, I had an opportunity to stay in school and teach. The graduate student I take is Tongji University, which is interdisciplinary (from mathematics to educational technology) and only accepts two students. The most terrible thing is that my English score is 5 points higher than the national line, but English is my death. How should I choose?

At that time, my tutor, college leaders, family and friends didn't agree with me to take the postgraduate entrance examination, because the chances of being admitted were too small, but staying in school was a very rare opportunity. I am puzzled that Tongji University did not review the reference materials of this major. I don't know if what I review every day is in vain, but I still don't want to give up. I want to have a try. But one month before the exam, I woke up crying in the morning and didn't dare to go to the study room. As the exam approached, I was afraid to face the exam. What should we do?

In an instant, I made a crazy decision. I want to escape! I ran to the railway station with only 600 yuan left and didn't wash my hair, because I was afraid that after washing my hair, I would change my mind again. When I arrived at the railway station, I said that I would go to a city without friends, and I wanted to see how strong my viability was. Finally, I bought a train ticket to Beijing and arrived in Beijing at 1: 00 in the morning. I had no money to stay, so I slept in the waiting room. The next day, I went to various universities. Coincidentally, I met one of my senior sisters in China University. She showed me around her laboratory. I am deeply attracted by the research she is doing now. A good school is unique and worthy of yearning.

After coming back, there is only one month left. I feel that I have beaten chicken blood. I have no pressure or fear, but I have the energy to rush forward towards my dream. In the end, my major was the second in Tongji University, but I missed Tongji by 3 points in English. Finally, I was transferred to the Department of Educational Technology of Shanghai Normal University, where I met another important life tutor, which changed my keen perception of education and new things. After graduation, I realized my dream and came to a key school in Shanghai as a teacher.

After studying all the way, I didn't expect to become a teacher who learned to bully people. Life is really wonderful. Although in my best grades, I have never caught up with the person I like or entered the ideal university, but I have no regrets, because "the direction of the tree is determined by the wind, and the direction of life is determined by myself." Life is an experience. Only by constantly breaking through your own boundaries can you get a different kind of interest.

A year ago, there were only two things in my life: work and travel. Work hard for nine months a year, then travel and take photos for three months. Last year, I went to 15 cities in three countries and went as far as the Arctic Circle to see the aurora. Many people say that my life is an extreme life of death, either working overtime or dying on the road.

Last summer vacation, on August13, I just returned from a trip to Tibet and received a phone call from the landlord at the airport. He said that his son was married and the house was not rented, so he gave me three days to move out. The news suddenly brought me back to reality from afar. It was hot in Shanghai at that time. The temperature is 40 degrees, I have been looking at the house all day and visited 13 of the house. Either the house is too bad or the price is too high. I sat on the side of the road and looked at the people coming and going in despair. It seems that the whole world has abandoned me, and I am desperate for life.

But no matter how desperate you are, you must rent a house today, or sleep on the road. Get up and keep looking. Finally, I saw one. Wow, there is a big bay window, which I have always liked. In an instant, I ignored others and immediately settled down to sign the contract. When I moved in, I found that this house had all kinds of problems, all kinds of dirty and messy, which made me unbearable. I want to return it, but if I break the contract, it will cost 3000 yuan. What are we going to do? I am particularly entangled, in a terrible mood, and I feel hopeless about life. That day, I cried very sadly. My friend called me melodramatic, saying that life is not like this, and it will pass soon. How to live life? Work has been very hard, and I have to face a messy environment when I get home. How bad and desperate that life would be.

I don't want this life. At this time, a voice appeared in my heart: I either adapt to the environment or change the environment and choose for myself. I chose the latter, so I began to transform the room. I go online to buy materials, such as carpets, bookshelves, chairs, shoe cabinets, curtains, tableware and so on. According to my imaginary home, I even bought buckets of wall paint, repainted the walls, and finally rented a house that felt like home. This is home. I feel much better every day. After work, I no longer stay in the coffee shop. I just want to go home as soon as possible, turn on the music, try all kinds of food practices, clean up after dinner, do what I like, such as taking pictures, reading and writing, and make me a copy every day. As long as you are willing to discover, life will always surprise you. As soon as I get up every day, I see the sun shining into the small room through the bay window, leaving some light and shadow. There's no need to look for it. Scenery is everywhere, which is particularly interesting.

When I posted my daily life to my circle of friends, it resonated with many people. See, this is what life should be like. A friend commented: the house is rented, but life is your own. Once dreams will come true one by one; The life you yearn for will also be a poem. In the days of war, be with everything you like.

From then on, I believe in one sentence: I believe that all good life is worth looking forward to and all good things are worth recording. I began to pay attention to life, recording the little lucky things that are easily overlooked in life through the lens, using the trivial time in life to shoot, satisfying my hobbies and recording my life at the same time. Pay attention to your life, record the little beauty in life with your photographic eyes, and you will find that there are many little beauty in life besides those troubles. These are the most authentic aspects of your life, and then share this happiness and pass on positive energy. People who want to watch can pay attention to their lives through my lens, so that their lives are full of temperature and positive energy no matter what state.

As long as you want it, go for it. The ritual sense of life has nothing to do with intention, but an expression of your love for life.