Come on, Goddess

in mid-March, I was fortunate to know a young woman writer. Her real name is Jing Li, and her pen name is Laiba, an aura woman in Xiangxi.

by chance, I added her wechat. With a trembling heart, I quietly entered keywords such as "grateful to meet" and "like to appreciate" into the dialog box.

since that day, I have become a thousand people who silently watch her circle of friends, and a tiny one among her thousands of readers and fans. Every time I learn more about her life story, I deepen my appreciation and admiration for her. That kind of feeling is vivid.

in late April, I found that I really liked this woman writer more and more. She seems to be my goddess, giving me magical energy, which makes me eager to melt into her world and unveil the veil that fascinates me.

So, I read a lot of articles about her, which was not enough, and I bought her published books (except the selected area of the first essay collection "See Su" was out of stock)

It was only after reading these books that I really felt the accumulation and charm of the words of the goddess Bala. I suddenly remembered a sentence that Senior Huai Zuo once said, "Sister Jing Li is very hard-working, but I still have a long way to go, so I need to continue to work hard."

at that time, I didn't really understand the meaning behind this sentence. I just want to envy and yearn for her poetic life, which has become what most people want.

as everyone knows, no one's success is achieved overnight. For example, Bing Xin wrote a well-known saying in "Stars in Spring Water":

At this moment, I have not only a sense of appreciation and admiration for Sister Jing, but also a sense of respect and distress.

I believe that if life is just like the first time. But more firmly believe that there are always some people in your life who will make you hate it late and always think, "The most beautiful is actually not just the first meeting."

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Those unforgettable experiences of studying

Sister Jing grew up in the ancient town of Pushi, western Hunan, which is a relatively closed but clean land full of green mountains and green waters. The beauty of nature gives her innate inspiration and source power for the creation of literary paintings and books.

However, as early as junior high school, she fell to the lowest point of her studies because of her poor grades in mathematics, physics and chemistry. She felt inferior and lost herself, and even thought about dropping out of school. Youth can't help being obscured by the fog in front of you.

at that time, she was just like me from high school to today. Facing the science and engineering disciplines with poor natural understanding and full of exclusion all day, it is simply disheartening to the extreme.

Every day, I suffer from the torment of learning, and I am afraid of being forced to put on the impression label of "You are terrible", which is like a shadow that can't go away for a long time, hanging over myself who is unwilling to degenerate.

Fortunately, Sister Jing has a scholarly family, and she has cultivated good habits of reading and writing since she was a child.

It is true that in the most rebellious stage, there are teachers who encourage and recognize her; On the road of growing up, there are enlightened parents who respect and care for her; Later, in love and marriage, there was also a soul mate who supported and loved her.

But the most important thing is that she knows what she resists and really loves, and then she works hard and strives for it.

When I think of a movie I saw many years ago, when the classic lines reappeared, I was deeply impressed:

It doesn't matter that junior high school students are poor in mathematics and physics, at least she loves books and is extremely sensitive to words; It doesn't matter if she has difficulties in science in high school. At least, she is obsessed with painting and has regained her brush to embark on the road of studying for art students.

In order to enter the university, she redoubled her efforts and studied painting desperately, not daring to relax for a second. Hiding in the studio every night, accompanied by the night; Dragging his tired body out of the studio, waiting at the school gate is always the familiar old bicycle and his father's tall and thin back.

When she was in college, she majored in art design. Apart from finishing her major, she devoted almost all the rest of her time to literature, and even stayed up until several o'clock in the morning.

She also wants to lie in bed and play with her mobile phone, go shopping after a drama and have a comfortable life every day, but she can't bear to waste any time to do something that doesn't make much sense. In those four years, along with her barbaric growth, it was still Xiao Chang's late night after daylight. Silent night, quiet heart.

the postgraduate entrance examination should be like this. Persistence in the process, the bitterness and fatigue, bitterness and pressure behind persistence, I believe that people who have not experienced it personally can't really understand it.

Sister Jing often tells herself:

After studying abroad for many years, the night gave her the deepest companionship, witnessed her silent efforts and witnessed every bitter tear she shed. Fortunately, after tears, she saw a clearer world; After hard work, she found a more shining life.

Here, the girl who is timid and self-abased has an indomitable spirit in her heart, and has gradually been honed by life to be more courageous, determined and calm.

As she wrote in the book: "Only after suffering, with the determination of not admitting defeat, will it be possible to change the state of life."

At this moment, I have also asked myself: "Have I ever climbed desperately in the direction of my dream for so many years?"

I don't think so. Even if there is, will it be mixed with self-esteem distortion or false efforts?

I have mixed feelings, only clear, and I don't want to find any reason to cover up what I have devoted myself to.

There are many factors that can affect us in this world, but only oneself can really change our destiny. Don't be afraid even if you have experienced loneliness, hardships and even ridicule. Because the beautiful scenery of the dream terminal will make you forget the pain along the way.

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Stick to your inner choice bravely

After studying in Xi 'an, Sister Jing stayed in that city to continue her work, and she was engaged in the teaching profession within the university system.

She is devoted to her major, loves teaching, is kind and gentle, Jing Ya, the leaders attach great importance to her, her colleagues get along well with her, and the students love her dearly.

however, one year later, she chose to leave her job. It's not that teaching in colleges and universities is unhappy, but because she wants to live the life she really likes, the free, dedicated and full-fledged happy life.

she understands that the work within the system does look glamorous and secure, but it limits her potential to give full play to her own advantages. And creation is most suitable for her temperament, aura and endowment, so as to gain more spiritual freedom, influence more dream catchers and become a better self.

Sister Jing, who is gentle in appearance and firm in heart, has been out alone for so many years, but has never complained about the hardships of life, and has carried it all the way.

She's not afraid of hardship or the pressure of life at all, but the only thing that makes her feel bitter and scared is that she can't do what she really loves.

Writer Ai Mingya wrote in the preface:

After becoming a freelancer, she became more and more hardworking, gained more freedom and achievements in self-discipline, and gained more happiness and value in love.

she has no end to pursuing spiritual wealth. Tens of thousands of books at home seem to be her lifeblood, and she has a solid sense of security and happiness when she sleeps day and night.

she loves writing, and she loves it to the bone marrow. Writing is the core competitiveness of her career, and it is also the main trunk of her "slash youth" identity. In addition to writing at her desk, she will also go to photography design, online teaching or travel experience.

In short, she will love life, have fun and feel the world full of beauty and goodwill with her heart in her favorite way.

if you do one thing to the extreme, everything else will happen.

The magic thing is that Sister Jing should have taken the "beauty of recording" to the extreme. She wrote one article after another and published one book after another, which influenced thousands of readers with dreams and colleagues with literary dreams in their hearts; He has taken countless beautiful and meaningful photographs, and has become the tutor of "Photography Dream Class", leading more ordinary people to make extraordinary photography dreams.

There is a controversial saying, but I agree with it: "There is another kind of success in this world, that is, to live your life in the way you like."

I think the goddess Bala is the most perfect interpreter, which properly expresses the true meaning of this sentence.

isn't it worthwhile for people to live in order to better experience life, experience life and be happy? If you don't know what you want and what to do, this is especially sad; But if you have a clear idea of the road you want to take, then don't hesitate, boldly follow your inner choice and strive for what is really important, precious and loving.

how important and crucial it is to know what you want and what you can want. Only in this way, the heart will be quiet and transparent, and the action will be firm and calm.

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? Good love comes from knowing each other

Some time ago, I read an article posted by Sister Jing on "Reading at Ten o'clock" entitled "Find a person with the same frequency".

I was deeply impressed by a passage in the following article:

Perhaps this tacit understanding is an extension of another word "know".

because we know each other, we are in love, and we will never give up and become soul mates. This life, just to love you; This happiness is enough for you and me.

A few years ago, teacher Xue Xiaochan was worried about her happiness: "Your partner should be a few years older than you, mature and steady, with a large pattern and connotation, and can understand and support your writing dream spiritually."

Fortunately, Sister Jing later met the lover who understood her and matched her soul (global traveler: Yan Ling).

when I first met him, I made a fate and believed in love. At that time, she was in a small town in western Hunan, and she wrote her first love poem to him who was traveling abroad with great expectations. Between the lines, all that flowed was love.

Fate made her meet him, married her to love, and made them live as one. As written in the poem, they turned life into a poem, a love poem with many people's beautiful first dreams hidden.

what is love? He said to her with a happy face, "You are the best gift from God. Because I love you, I am willing to give you everything I have."

when you love for a moment, it takes him a lifetime to interpret it.

For her sake, he was willing to leave his hometown of Beijing, give up the bustling city life, and accompany her to manage "Meeting Mei Su" in the secluded and beautiful ancient town of Pushi, Xiangxi, and settle down and work in peace and contentment.

Good love and even marriage all come from mutual understanding. Understand the true love, spiritual pursuit and inner firmness of a lover, and know how to support her (his) dream wholeheartedly.

If the weight of the word "know" is reduced, or the sincerity is missing, it is inevitable that there will be more indifference, which will cause cracks in the love nest built by two people, and even love will disappear.

I never thought that in this impetuous era, even in some thin and cool worlds, some people really live a poetic life like a paradise.

They (called the Jingling couple) return to their original nature, stick to their original heart, scatter their light, live outside the secular world, live in the state of life created by themselves, and live the most authentic life. So clear, rich, free and quiet.

In fact, houses, cars and tickets are things outside the body. As long as you work hard, you can have them in the future. But love and companionship are the most precious core of soul, which comes from the mutual understanding, care and warmth of two people and two hearts.

The so-called "love" should be the combination of mind and soul. We need mutual appreciation and respect, * * * grow and care together, walk together and never give up. This is the cause of love, but also the value and freedom of love.

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Before searching for the warmest green hole in life

, I listened to a column class by teacher Chen Guo in the Himalayas. There was an audio session about Searching for the Green Hole in Life, which mentioned a movie by Wong Kar-wai.

In the last scene of the film, a man stood alone in a remote corner with only one tree, then dug a hole in the tree, then held the tree with his mouth to the hole and said a lot of heartfelt words.

Then, there was a move that made Mr. Chen Guo burst into tears-after speaking, he picked up a piece of mud and blocked the tree hole in front of him.

when I heard this, I was deeply touched, and a familiar and long-lost picture came to my mind instantly.

Many times, I like to stay alone in a secluded place. Even if I just stare blankly and meditate, I don't feel wasting my time. On the contrary, I feel like I'm talking to my heart and my soul is being placed. But I know very well that this is not the same as listening to the silent companion of the "green hole".

I vaguely remember one night a few years ago, during the tense stage of preparing for the exam, all the students were studying in the quiet ground at night. But I secretly left the classroom that made me depressed and anxious, went out to the open playground and began to run around.

When you are tired of running, stop and walk slowly. From time to time, look up at the night sky, the stars, and glance at the roadside trees and flowers in the corner. Or look around to see if someone is as lost as I am. Or there is nothing in your head, just God walking, empty and drifting.

The night wind outside is very cool, which has messed up my hair, blown away my mood and dried my tears that can't help sliding down the corner of my eyes.

I don't know why, after such a situation flooded into my mind, it turned to my heart, like a sad story that I couldn't tell outsiders.

Fortunately, Sister Jing found someone who knows her in life.

There are parents who respect and love her, lovers who give up the whole world for her, friends who are sincere and close to each other, girlfriends and mentors, and people who are destined to be scattered all over the world.

Teacher Xue Xiaochan once said to her:

"When I get old, I hope you will still be around."

Sister Jing replied firmly:

"I will always be there and never leave."

this promise is a lifelong kindness and fate. I hope that when you and I are old, we can still sit in the Buddhist temple and savor the traces left by the years again.

Yes, in this life, we will meet many people and experience many things, but not everyone can be engraved in their own souls and become your bosom friends who can tell your stories and secrets.

Because most people will pass you by in the end, and only become passers-by in life.

Similarly, people don't have close friends all their lives.

If you meet someone who understands you and lets you confide in your heart, I hope you can cherish it and try to manage this rare friendship. At the same time, let this tree hole with love and hope bloom an immortal green flower of life.

Write at the end:

In the preface to the short story collection When Mo meets Li, the famous writer Xue Xiaochan wrote:

Knowing Sister Jing deeply, I was fascinated.