Looking up at the moon or looking down at sixpence?

Wang Xiaobo's most well-known quotation is probably from Running at Night: it is not enough for a person to have this life, but also to have a poetic world. This sentence has been cited as the motto by countless people.

But it's not my favorite. My favorite is an inner monologue of Wang Xiaobo in the golden age.

He said that when he was in his twenties, he had many extravagant hopes. He wants to love, eat, and become a half-bright and half-dark cloud in the sky. But with the growth of age, expectations gradually disappear, and finally found that life is a process of being hammered slowly.

I feel more and more as if this is the reality. In life, there are more hardships, more dog blood and more being hammered by life. The world is like a melting pot, mixing the blood, impulse and ideal of youth into a hodgepodge, which makes people have mixed tastes.

No wonder Kitajima said with emotion: At that time, we had dreams, about literature, about love and about traveling around the world. Now, we drink late at night, and the cups touch together, all of which are the sound of broken dreams.

02

I still remember a friend of mine who was a freshman said that it was annoying to see middle-aged people bragging at food stalls and roadside stalls. These people have no pursuit, struggling in the quagmire of life, and only from memories can they find traces of their dreams.

I smiled and said nothing. He is only twenty years old, and his youth and frivolity should be respected. If you are not crazy at the age of twenty, you have no ambition. However, he doesn't know that for these middle-aged people with heavy burdens, their dreams have quietly changed. Crazy? That's brainless.

Most of my friends are young people who have just stepped out of society after 90, but in fact, we rarely talk about dreams. After stepping out of society, you will find that many times dreams are worthless. Literature and art can't compete with life, and petty bourgeoisie needs a job.

Usually in the WeChat group, about society and ideals, I talk about how annoying many bosses are, how tricky customers are, and how difficult it is to buy a house ... I dream that this luxury is carefully hidden. After all, a dream that can't be realized is a fantasy.

However, sometimes you don't even know where the boundary between dreams and desires is, which is very confusing. Those contestants on the draft stage say that they come for their dreams. In fact, some people have participated in seven or eight drafts a year. They want to become famous overnight. They are crazy. They talk about their dreams just to appear reluctant. Interestingly, is it a dream to want to be red?

Is the boundary between the "moon" representing dreams and the "sixpence" representing the secular world really so clear?

03

This year, I made an appointment with some friends to travel. Along the way, perhaps the scenery was too sultry, and we talked about our dreams.

Chen said that he intends to get relevant documents and open a small clinic before he is 30 years old. His dream is to be financially independent after 40 years old, and then just read books, dig potted plants in the mountains, carve roots and write things every day.

Chen is a person who enjoys life very much. He has a wide range of interests and dabbles in many fields. After graduation, he returned to his hometown and was admitted to the civil service. He married a small town girl and lived a happy life.

Dalin is different from Chen. As soon as she graduated, she went to the north and became a wandering girl. She understands those young people who are bent on taking root at the grassroots level and returning to their hometown, but she says that's not the life she wants.

After going to Beijing, she set up her own photography studio. At first, she did all the work by herself, and she was exhausted every day. But slowly, she also has her own studio members, and the future is bright. "When I was young, I should go out to make a living. I am content with the status quo and talk about how sad Buddha is. Dream! Do you understand? " She said.

We all laughed and felt deeply for a moment.

Chen is content with the status quo and lives with his heart. Dalin aimed in all directions and climbed up under pressure. Do they have different dreams?

Everyone's dream should be respected, no matter what, they are all struggling warriors.

However, most people's dreams are not worthy of being called dreams. They can't achieve these goals, and they don't work hard for them. Just like you said you were going to travel around the world, did you prepare carefully? You said you had a musical dream. Did you practice until it was dark? You said you were going to open a coffee shop in the ancient town. Did you really do it? After all, have you ever worked hard for your dreams? If not, who are you to say that you have a dream?

Where can there be dreams if you just talk and don't do it? All you have is a bunch of ideas and desires that can't be realized at best.

04

In Mao Mu's The Moon and Sixpence, the hero Charlie abandoned his family and children for painting. He didn't care about other people's eyes. He went forward bravely for his dream, put aside the secular world and became a world of his own.

He said, "I have to draw, just like a drowning person has to struggle." Do you have this ultimate love? You can abandon everything for your dreams. Do you dare?

Many of us often talk about our dreams, but it is never easy to realize them. I want to get rid of mediocrity, but I don't fight for it. I always say that I still have dreams, but what if I do? To consume brain cells?

Finally, I want to say that if you look up at the moon, you don't have to look down on people who bend their heads to pick up sixpence. In this world, everyone has his own opinion. Maybe the moon you think is just a sesame seed cake in the eyes of others.

Whether it is a dream catcher or a mediocre person assimilated by the secular. Most people live by heart. And if you can live the life you want, even if this life is mediocre in the eyes of others, and you are a sixpence picker, then you have the moon yourself.

Looking up at the moon or looking down at sixpence? This may not be a multiple choice question. As long as you put your heart into it, you are your own sun.

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