I miss you, I didn’t drink

A Heng:

On the sixty-third day after you left, Liuliu held me in his arms and asked me where my mother had gone. I could only tell him that you had gone far away. place for a business trip.

On the day I went to the Civil Affairs Bureau for divorce with you, I looked at your leaving figure and took off the ring in my hand. From then on, I resumed my single life. I thought I would erase you from my life. I went to bars to flirt with girls and had affairs with the girls around me. I know I'm a scumbag, but this is the only way I can forget you. He talked to them about the love between men and women, which was extremely free and unrestrained. However, when I get home and see Liuliu, I will still think of you.

Ah Heng, do you still remember the scene when we met?

In 2010, I was sent by the hospital on a business trip to France. I was 26 years old that year, and I was the youngest person in the hospital who went out to study. They talked about me behind my back, saying that I relied on my parents’ relationship to get there. this opportunity. I still want to use my strength to prove that I don’t rely on my parents to survive.

I participated in the competition. As the only Chinese in the competition, although medicine has no borders, many foreign people still don’t think highly of the Chinese. Fortunately, I only passed the preliminary round, which already made quite a splash.

During the break of the competition, I am going to take a good look at the streets of France. After all, this is my first time going abroad.

There are many bronze figures in French parks. Standing there motionless, they are making money, which can also be said to be performance art.

Suddenly I heard someone shouting at the door of a hotel, and someone fainted. Out of the doctor's inertia, I hurried over.

A woman was already there checking on the fainted man. "He must have been bitten by a small snake in the park. Does the hotel have ice and lemons? Bring them. This can help spread the poison. Also, if you have a mobile phone, call the hospital. Hurry."

The chef next to him hurriedly went to the back kitchen and brought lemons and ice cubes. She placed it on the injury and an ambulance soon arrived. The doctor who followed praised the little girl for handling her case well.

I stood in the crowd and watched all this silently, and admired silently in my heart. I wish I could take the initiative and ask you for your phone number.

When I came back from France, people in the hospital no longer talked about my background, and the director of the department also thought highly of me. I became a rising star in the medical world. I am responsible for all surgeries, big and small.

It was a year later when I saw you again. I had just published an academic paper. Although it did not cause any sensation in the country, the TV stations in this province went crazy. They sent many people to invite me. Attend the show. I refused them all.

"I beg you, please tell Dr. Fang and let me see him, just once." There may be reporters or family members of the patients outside.

"Just for a moment, I'm going to ask Dr. Fang a question. It only takes a minute and won't take you too long. I know Dr. Fang is very busy." The woman was still pleading with Xiao Zhao. Let her in.

Listening to the noise outside, the woman and Xiao Zhao also struggled for a while. I really couldn't listen anymore, so when I opened the door, I saw a girl wearing a gray suit, black pants, high heels, a ponytail, and a video camera in her hand. It turns out that you are the girl I met in France, the girl that I have been thinking about this year, the girl that I can never find.

I can’t hide the joy in my heart. I believe that love at first sight lasts forever. I told Xiao Zhao to let her in, it wouldn't take long.

You were so happy that you didn’t know what to say. You just bowed to me and Xiao Zhao and said thank you. You look so good-looking and youthful.

I left your phone number and said that I would contact you if I had anything to do in the future. You happily agreed that you had met a soulmate, and you would have nothing to fear when doing interviews in the future with a big shot behind you. Of course, that's not what I thought. I just wanted to find a legitimate excuse to chase you.

I asked you to watch a movie, and you agreed. I asked you to dinner, and you agreed. You never like to go to expensive restaurants to eat expensive Western food, but you like to go to small restaurants with me to eat authentic food. Chinese food.

My colleagues joked that I forgot about work after I got a girlfriend, and that I no longer work as hard as before. I smiled and touched my head. Taunt them to get a girlfriend too.

The day I confessed my love to you, you went to Kaili on a business trip. The day before you left, you called and said you didn’t want to go to such a far place. I comforted you. Kaili is an ancient city in China. Treat the interview like a trip.

The day after you left, I got on the plane to Kaili, bringing rings and flowers.

When I saw you, you were interviewing an old man who stayed behind. Your camera was pointed at him, and you slowly listened to him talk about his life experience. The listeners thought about it and the listeners shed tears.

I stood quietly behind you and watched you chatting with the old man. Your voice was very pleasant, like the murmur of a gentle cat.

After the interview, you sent the old man into the house and helped him deal with some daily things. When you came out, I was standing behind the big tree in the old man's yard.

You hit your back and twisted your waist, feeling a little tired.

I suddenly came from behind the tree, carrying a bouquet of flowers.

You looked at me in surprise. I knelt down on one knee, holding the flowers and the ring on top of the flowers.

You were shocked when you saw this sudden proposal. You covered your mouth to prevent yourself from crying too loudly. On the day you left, I told you that I was in a meeting and might not be able to see you off. , but in a blink of an eye, I flew to your side and proposed to you.

You nodded excitedly. I put down the flower, picked up the ring inside, and put it on you. From now on, we will no longer be separated from each other.

After returning from Kaili, we didn’t hold a wedding, we just went to get the certificate. The parents at home met each other and had a meal.

I'm sorry to say to you that I couldn't give you what every woman dreams of doing in her life. You took my hand and said, no need, everything is best with you.

I think I am lucky to marry you.

After marriage, we were each busy with our own work, but when I came home, you could always make a good meal and wait for me. During the holidays, I naturally do all the work at home, mopping the floor, doing laundry, and wiping dust.

In the second year after the results, I was sent to study in Italy. I refused to go to the dean, but you secretly told the dean behind your back that you could send me out. You said this was a rare opportunity that you couldn't miss.

I'm worried about you. When I go to Italy, you will be the only one left in this family. How can you take care of this alone?

In the first month after I left, my mother called and said that your wife was pregnant, three months old. You are going to be a father and I am going to be a grandma.

I could tell that my mom was happy, and I was the same on the other end of the phone. I really wanted to take a plane back then.

When I was studying in Italy, I accidentally met a Chinese female student in a cafe. She was studying alone in Italy and working part-time. Living conditions are not very good either.

Out of sympathy, I would ask a few more questions every time, hoping to help her, but gradually, I found that she did not regard me as her friend, but as her lover.

The day you gave birth to your baby, I was still in Italy. My heart was as troubled as yours. I stayed by the phone, hoping that you would call me and let me know as soon as the baby was born.

The phone rang, but it wasn’t yours, it was that female student’s. She said she was molested while working in a hotel, and she hoped I could come over.

I hurried over and saw that she was wearing rags and was sitting there alone, like an angel with broken wings. She said she was just here to work, but this happened. I took her to the Public Security Bureau to register and investigate. The phone in my pocket rang countless times but I didn't hear it.

After returning to China, the female students also followed me back. I arranged a place for her to live, gave her some money, and finally told her that I had a child and hoped that she would not disturb our lives. If she had any difficulties, we would all be willing to help her.

I didn’t cheat, but because of her, we had more and more quarrels. Later, when she came to our house and chatted with you, she talked about her past, and you found out that you gave birth to a child. I didn't answer the phone that day because I was with her.

I use work to avoid these difficult problems. My emotional intelligence is not high, and these problems are a real headache.

You also understand me, but you still hope to hear my explanation. The last time, the people in the bar called and said that the female student committed suicide in the bar, hoping that I could go there, and I rushed over again, just like Same as a year ago.

I sent her to the hospital, and when she woke up, I realized that today was her first birthday, and I was going to celebrate his birthday.

You have not forgiven me again, and I have no way to ask for your forgiveness. We are divorced.

I took Liuliu with me, and you left with your luggage and went to a place I could never find. Now, I really miss you. Really, I didn’t drink.

I love you, Aheng. Love you forever.