Ask for a "direct answer in summer" and offer a high reward.

You took me across the old road outside the fence.

In the barren years, even goodbye is silent.

-changed from "Oriental Break"

( 1)

It's hot summer again. However, my heart can't heat up.

A lot of words have been kept in my heart. Compared with summer, the amount of gambling has never been said. Of course, because I don't know how to say it. I always feel that he has been like the summer weather in recent days, with wind and rain, rain or shine.

When I met Xia downstairs that morning, he was arrogant and cold, as if he didn't know me at all.

"hey! Hi! Summer! " I have ripples on my face and grin and say hello loudly.

Summer just nodded slightly and rewarded my enthusiasm with the "hum" sound from my nostrils.

At that moment, I felt like a fawning puppy, and I was suddenly kicked by my master at the corner. I am depressed to death, and my mood is 200 times worse than the ghost weather in black July. I don't understand. What's wrong with the nerves in summer? I can't help but think of what my mother often said when complaining about my father. My father is always serious and always pulls the horse's face-"No one lends you millet but gives you bran!"

Summer, you little psycho, why did you suddenly ignore me after the senior high school entrance examination?

If I remember correctly, I haven't been to my house for almost half a month in summer.

In summer, you are not a star or a wrist. What kind of music are you playing? Well, haven't you always praised yourself as a man? What kind of person are you? Somehow I turned myself into a "dog ignored" steamed stuffed bun, which was so boring!

I feel a headache, but I still don't understand why summer suddenly becomes so heartless. He's really changed. It's strange. However, if someone asks me what's wrong with him, I can't say anything ugly. Anyway, I feel that she has changed, strange and unhappy!

From kindergarten to middle school, I play with summer, and I can hardly tell the gender. He didn't expect other boys to stop playing with us girls as soon as they entered middle school, and I didn't treat him like a man and keep a mysterious distance from my best friend.

Summer, but I feel that you have been avoiding me recently, haven't you? Why? I'm not the kind of wild woman who practices weightlifting, boxing, wrestling, shot put and discus throwing! I almost broke my head. Others think it is extremely clever. I still can't figure out what I have done to offend the dignity of you, a tofu eater.

Is it because I shouldn't ask him about the exam?

That day, I met Xia at the gate of the community, and as always, I patted him on the shoulder and said, "Hi! Did you do well in the summer exam? "

I really didn't mean anything, just asking by the way. Everyone can understand me. I can't relax for such an important exam. Although it's been a week since the exam ended, I've been on edge. I'm still sitting in the examination room in my sleep, either I can't see the test paper clearly or I can't do the problem, and I'm sweating all over. I want to talk to someone, maybe I'll feel more relaxed.

"Did you do well in the exam? That's it anyway. Why are you sweating so much? You women are nosy! Shit, are you tired of bringing this up after all the exams? What to do! "

I didn't expect summer to throw off my hand and get angry at me angrily. I would rather be deaf in both ears than believe that I heard what he said. The blow made me see stars, and I couldn't find the north. I just stood there motionless for ten minutes. At that moment, I was as embarrassed as described in those particularly poor novels-"I wish there was a hole in the ground", and I seemed to be the stupidest penguin on the Antarctic continent.

In my memory, summer has never been mean to me. Before that, I always thought he was a gentleman. Upstairs and downstairs, uncles, aunts, grandparents all praised him for being polite and a very nice and gentle boy. If they know that he spoke so rudely to me, he will lose his reputation.

"Ignore him, sick, take the wrong medicine! I cursed in my mind. If I don't vent my depressed mood like this, I'm sure there's only one way to go-I'll hit a cliff and die! But I don't want to die mysteriously. Fortunately, I stood up straight and didn't choke on his words!

When the summer figure disappeared into the depths of the corridor, with tears of anger and injustice, I continued to curse in my heart like a poisonous woman: "I ate for nothing, I was mentally retarded, I took the wrong medicine, and mad cow disease suddenly ..."

This has always been in my mind, like accidentally eating a green-headed fly. I think I'm a real fool. I swear in my blog:

In summer, I won't talk to you again until you become a bad old man with white hair and beard!

I still suspect that the "male menopause syndrome" in summer has arrived ahead of schedule. Is it a quarter of a century earlier than my dad who just had a 49 virus attack?

(2)

Today is the day to receive the report card of the senior high school entrance examination.

I heard that I did badly in the summer exam, and I really felt sorry for him. I believe he's already sweating with that horrible report card, right? This contract is really black. Desperate, he must be fluttering in the boundless darkness like a crow.

I made a detour home from school for fear of meeting summer. I don't know if I should comfort him. In fact, I want to laugh since I got my report card! If someone says I am a villain, I have nothing to object to. I wanted to laugh at that time, and I did secretly laugh away from my classmates. However, when I saw the dead gray faces of those students who did badly in the exam like summer, I was really embarrassed to smile like a peach blossom.

After three years of "bloody" day and night fighting and suffering, I can finally strut into the proud school gate of No.4 Middle School. As long as I endure the "inhuman torture" for three years as always, the admission notices from Peking University, Tsinghua or Fudan will definitely be waiting for me.

Now I finally understand the anomalies in summer in recent days.

I don't expect to be in No.4 Middle School in summer, because he seems to have never thought about it, and certainly won't work hard for his dream goal like me. However, in any case, he should be admitted to an ordinary high school, right? Poor him! Why did he get such a small score in the exam? I'm a little concerned about vocational high school? Now I know that he still cares about exams, especially what adults call "exams that can determine our future destiny and future." He actually predicted the result of the exam a long time ago. No wonder he was angry with me when I mentioned the exam that day.

However, I still think he has no reason to ignore me, even if he feels as uncomfortable as a long caterpillar crawling into the room in summer. I asked myself, what did I do wrong? Why should he take it out on me? Of course, I have completely forgiven him now, without any reason. Anyway, forgiveness is forgiveness. However, I still have a lot to say to him in my heart. I think I'm a little abnormal. I think no one can understand this abnormal feeling!

I dare not take the initiative to find summer, because I am afraid of meeting his sharp "thorn" again.

Somehow, I suddenly feel so miserable in summer now. I really want to comfort him and show him my heartfelt understanding. But I know he is definitely unwilling to accept other people's sympathy.

But I want to say that my 300% sympathy for summer comes from the depths of my soul.

However, who will believe it except me?

(3)

Happy days are actually not easy to pass. Please don't call me melodramatic.

Who wants to hear how I'm doing these days? Besides being happy, I am just worried about summer. I can't help thinking, if I were him, how could I waste such a dark holiday?

Mom and dad let me toss for the first time. Summer is known, and I am not a particularly funny person. My best friend has flown all over the country, and everyone is at large. My parents are busy with projects and have no time to go out with me. And they say it's just a long March, and it's not worth celebrating. I'm dizzy! They are just like hyperthyroidism, appetite and African elephants in asking me to study hard. It's as hot as a sauna outside. I can only stay at home from morning till night, blowing air conditioning and thinking. I always surf the internet and occasionally chat with the netizen who calls himself a little donkey.

"Little donkey, you must help me. I want to laugh but dare not! I want to cry, but I don't know why. Help me! "

"Ha ha! Coffee cat, isn't that simple? You laugh hard first, and you'd better laugh off your big teeth. Then, you cry at the top of your lungs until your lacrimal gland is paralyzed! Ha ha laugh ... Blare ... "

"Don't tease, little donkey, what I said is true! I'm not kidding, I sent you an SOS signal seriously! "

"Coffee cat, what I said is true, I'm not kidding you. Please, stop making fun of me! Are you not satisfied with being admitted to No.4 Middle School? Aren't you' too fat to eat meat'? "

......

I feel bored and bored. How can a donkey feel this feeling? !

I wanted to send a letter "Yi Meier" to Xia Tian, but I didn't do it in the end. Don't know why!

Open my blog, I haven't written a word for several days. At the moment, I bored out such a sentence:

From then on, the rain dripped into my heart!

(4)

God has a strange temper. The overwhelming thunder and heavy rain tore the northern city to pieces. Standing at the window, I feel that the world is about to be destroyed.

As you can imagine, my mood is extremely depressed, just like falling into the Mariana Trench, the lowest point in the world. Want to cry, just want to cry for no reason! Several times, like a crazy woman, I cried at the dying crooked elm tree outside the window in the storm. I cried enough, but I didn't have any strength. On the contrary, I felt relaxed, slumped in bed lazily, and my thoughts drifted.

It's really funny. I like to recall the past at every turn now. Don't laugh at me for "worrying about adding new words", anyway, I think I have really experienced many vicissitudes! I always think that I am a very profound person, and I also think that whether a person is profound or not has nothing to do with age.

I told my mother that I wanted to write a memoir of myself, and I was not kidding. I have thought of all the topics, and the topic is "I don't know". Does anyone think this topic is not "cool"? Guess what my mother said? She called me a "teenager who doesn't know the taste of sadness"! I really want to raise three hands against her. How can my mother understand this feeling? Although she is still a well-known expert in historical research, in my opinion, she will never study me as a living person. My mother said that I was admitted to No.4 Middle School. My summer vacation was generously left to me. You should wake up smiling when you are asleep. Why do I still feel full and have nothing to do?

I had a dream the night before, and summer appeared in my dream again. It seems that we are still young, probably after school in the afternoon. We walked into the "Star Lights" Hutong and stopped in front of the pot-stewed food shop opened by Sichuanese on the corner. Summer generously handed him fifty cents, loudly say:

"Master, three duck feet, can you choose a bigger one?"

I followed the summer with my schoolbag on my back, staring at the delicious golden guy, just like a little beast who saw its prey.

"Well, give you two, I have one! Don't forget, tomorrow is your treat! " Summer said.

The two of us stood in the street and ate with relish. I don't know why, but I can't get up on my face with laughter.

"You don't tease, I have a stomachache. I can't eat any more. You can eat the leftover duck feet. I said.

In summer, I grabbed the half of the duck's paw that I had chewed badly and wolfed it down.

"Wow, you are so retarded, I just want to make you laugh! Are you fooled again? "

Summer, you are so bad! I remember being played by you. It's a pity that I was a little retarded at that time. I didn't know there was an idiom in the dictionary called "Correct when you know your mistakes". Otherwise, half a duck's paw won't fit into your stomach. Hum!

In order to find the clues in my dream, I risked being killed by lightning yesterday afternoon and went to Xingguang Hutong.

The dusty sign is still hanging on the trunk of the old elm tree in Hutongkou. However, the blue brick houses on both sides of the hutong have been demolished, and there are messy bricks and mud everywhere. Some migrant workers wearing yellow hats are building new buildings. The store set up by the Sichuanese is gone!

Somehow, I suddenly felt very sad, as if I had lost something important.

When I left the stars to light a lamp, I looked back at the old elm tree with its branches hovering, and tears welled up inexplicably. ......

(5)

Suddenly I feel a little old, because the book says that only old people like to look back on the past.

During this time, the time when I was a child and played together in summer kept shaking in front of my eyes. Everything is so far away, and everything seems to have happened yesterday.

At that time, although I was often unhappy because of trivial things, I was all right after a while. We still walk side by side through the starry alleys to go to school and go home. It seems that we have no secrets in our hearts, and we don't hide anything.

When I was in the sixth grade of primary school, my classmates loved to tell me who was "good" behind my back.

One afternoon, we walked into Xingguang Hutong. After buying duck feet as usual, we ate with relish, talking and laughing.

Summer suddenly asked me mysteriously, "Do you like that boy in our class?"

I think this question is very funny, so I asked with a smile, "Tell me first, which girl in our class do you like best?"

"You guess."

We almost walked around the Normal University. I asked all the girls' names in my class, but I can't think of anyone else. Then it dawned on me and I suddenly said excitedly, "Is that me?"

Summer boasted about Haikou and repeatedly said, "How do you know? You are so smart! "

Did I tell you which boy I like later? I don't remember now.

I still blush when I think of what I said at that time. However, at that time, we were not embarrassed! It's really strange to think about it. Now that we are all grown up, even if we play together, we don't want to be as casual as before. When we stay together, we feel bored, so we have to play checkers or video games. Moreover, after junior high school, I fell in love with playing football in summer, and I would go to Normal University to play football for a while after school almost every afternoon, so we seldom go home together.

Perhaps, it is better not to grow up!

(6)

At lunch, my mother told me that my family would come to my house in the summer. I can't hide my surprise.

Throughout the afternoon, I visited several supermarkets nearby and searched all the snack bars around. Hard work pays off! I finally bought the duck feet that we used to chew every day. My mouth is watering, but I fought back and didn't want to eat anything. I imagine my surprise when I saw a plate full of duck feet in summer. He will definitely look up and smile at me. I think only I can understand the meaning of his smile.

My mother was puzzled when I searched all over the world for duck feet. She said, "I have never seen a greedy girl like you."

Hey, how can mom understand this feeling?

I want to eat duck feet specially bought for him in summer, and I will feel different. He can't keep thinking about the exam. If he is willing, I will do my best to help him. As a "multi-star" in the eyes of his classmates, he can get good grades as long as he pays a little attention to his studies.

Wait a minute.

wait for ......

Never felt so long! I kept looking at my watch, clock and curtains, looking for the familiar figure in summer in the open space in front of the building. Every noisy footstep in the corridor will make my heart beat faster. What is wrong with me? I don't quite understand this feeling myself. I think I am a little different from myself.

If Xia knew my unreasonable behavior, he would die proudly. Seeing that he is now in an "extraordinary period", I will make him proud for the time being!

However, however, however, he didn't come to my house with his parents in summer!

His mother said that he is very busy now, and he is taking a cram school outside, preparing to take the exam again next year.

I am happy for summer! It seems that he is not as depressed as I thought. I think he must be in pain now! It seems that I just feel that I know him very well, but in fact I have been cheated by my feelings.

I was so disappointed that my heart was as heavy as a huge shot put. Looking at a plate full of duck feet, I lost my appetite. My eyes are actually wet. I found a flawed reason to leave the table, leaving all the time and space for these four adults with unusual relationships.

I also found an excuse that sounded grandiose and pretended to walk out the door as if nothing had happened.

At the moment, the community is unusually quiet. My heart is empty, and I can't say how lonely I am. I want to cry, I just want to cry. However, I still can't cry, and I always feel very flustered. Now I feel that intense study is not necessarily a bad thing. Just like I am now, there is no pile of homework and no pressure to study. That guy named "emptiness" took the opportunity to catch me. I want to get rid of its control, but I can't.

I even began to envy the busyness of summer.

I walked into the alley and my mind was full of stars and lights.

The old elm tree still stands alone in the alley mouth. Perhaps the only one who remembers the time he spent in the alley in the summer when he was a child. There are many new snack bars across the hutong, including kebabs from Xinjiang and spicy food from Sichuan. The duck's paw stall on Sichuan Road in ......................................................................................................................................................... has been put out again!

I stood in front of him with mixed feelings.

I want to say something to him, just like seeing a long-lost friend.

"Little sister, do you want some duck feet? Smells delicious! "

Obviously, he doesn't know me. I was about to turn away when I heard a familiar voice: "Eat duck feet?"

"No, I want to eat mala Tang!" A delicate girl croaked.

It's summer! How could it be him? Why is he here? Didn't he go to cram school?

Hanging out with a girl with red hair in her arms in summer.

I quickly got into the starry alley and felt as if I was going to float.

I don't believe what I just saw is true.

I burst into tears for no reason.

(7)

I don't like Jay Chou all the time, but now I'm crazy about his Broken East.

I firmly believe that Jay Chou and I are connected, and every lyric sings my deep sadness-

Who is playing the oriental music pipa,

Years peeled off on the wall until I was a child.

I still remember when we were very young. ......

(8)

In October again, ginkgo trees are everywhere in the campus of No.4 Middle School.

For the dream of Tsinghua, I locked those unknown feelings in summer into my diary.

On weekends, occasionally in corridors and in summer, we meet in a hurry. We all smiled politely and walked away without saying anything.

Occasionally, I will think of the fork in the road opposite the dotted alley.

In summer, from then on, we are destined to run on different roads.

Where will I go in three years?

What about you?