My mother Zhang fengzhen.

I don't have beautiful writing style, and I don't like to deliberately shape my image. On Mother's Day, write a mother's story with this clumsy pen.

Mother is still alive. May she always eat like this, sleep soundly and be full of energy. May peace and health accompany her forever and let the children feel at ease outside.

The weather in the south is rainy and humid. When it comes to Suzhou, people who have been or haven't been say that there is paradise on earth and Suzhou and Hangzhou on earth. But the day is my own, and I know it very well, and only I know whether it is good or not.

Suzhou local men, if not forced to a certain extent, generally will not start work, at most scold, more reasonable. The local dialect used by women when quarreling may be the charm of Wu Nong's soft language, which will not make people feel too harsh.

But Suzhou dialect is abusive, and some words are reckless, which makes me feel uncomfortable. Such as burning brittle bones, gnome cavity and so on. At this point, my mother is different. Even in extreme anger, she never said these cruel words. What's more, in my memory, she seldom quarrels with others, let alone.

There is basically only one object my mother quarrels with, and that is my father. Father is not good at words, mother has a bad temper, and she is aggressive and nagging most of the time. As a result, I met such a silent person. After repeated nagging several times, she just lay in bed sulking and wiping her tears.

At this time, I used to lean on my mother, not knowing how to comfort her, listening to her complaining to me, listening to her telling me about her tragic fate and telling me that something was wrong with my father. I don't go near my father because his face is ugly. He said with a straight face, your mother has the same temper as your grandfather, a little grumpy.

Now, those unpleasant experiences that brought me still leave traces in my mind, but I don't remember them. I almost forgot them. More importantly, life is still happy now, and I don't want to mention the past. Over time, it will fade.

Some memories of my childhood are hard to remember; Part of it is that life is awkward.

- 0 1 -

I haven't seen my grandmother since I was born. When I grew up, I learned from my grandmother next door that my grandmother was gone when my father was nine years old. Since then, my father has been living in my uncle's house, and my aunt is ruthless and bullying. She once had a front tooth knocked out because she stole a handful of soybeans.

Why did you steal food? Because she was hungry, the woman basically refused to eat. Grandpa was afraid that his wife would not protect him, and the men were not careful. In those years, grandpa was away, and everything of some value in the family was taken back by the second grandma. It is no exaggeration to describe it as being surrounded by family.

I lived like this for several years. Later, my dad followed my grandfather to work on the boat and screwed it. The south is called a screw, and the north is called a corner. At that time, the production team earned work points and there was much water in the south. Division of labor, eating by the river.

The net used to go down the river should be soaked in pig blood and dried in the shade. This is not afraid of meeting ghosts and gods in the water, and it is not easy to rot. This is fifteen years, and the father and son spent those years on the boat. The water in southern Jiangsu is still fresh in my father's memory.

These fifteen years are almost a period from remembering to growing up.

Mother's misfortune is very similar to father's family misfortune. When she was a teenager, she lost her mother, and soon her mother appeared. The good days are gone forever.

An experience my mother told me was described as follows: It was very hot in summer, and mosquitoes were as big as flies in the cowshed. Your uncle and I can't sleep. Mosquitoes are buzzing in our ears. When I got up in the morning, my face was covered with blood and my arms and legs were covered with bags. We can't bear to scratch our skin, and there is blood everywhere.

After rice harvest, the haystack is a relatively clean place where teenage girls sleep. My neighbor advised my grandfather that it was not safe for girls to sleep outside when they were older. But that cruel grandfather later entrusted my mother to a family in Shengtian as if nothing had happened, which was similar to child labor.

Mom pastes every day, and her hands are not good in spring, summer, autumn and winter. Now there is a problem with her hands, which is easy to dry in winter, and it should fall off there.

I can't imagine what it's like to sleep in a cowshed, and I can't imagine the horror of teenagers' hands dealing with paste every day and soaking in water. I only have pain and hatred for grandpa in my heart.

It was a wonderful family, the stepmother, my mother's aunt.

- 02 -

I don't know what happened to God. It should be said that God didn't know my parents, but he tied them together.

That year, my father was 30 years old and my mother 17 years old. They have never met.

The family is poor and has no savings. Some of those savings are almost saved by finding a daughter-in-law. According to my grandfather, I looked for one in Wangzhuang, but nothing came of it. I think our family is poor and dad doesn't talk much, but dad is a real person. If there is anything good, I'll send it over.

Two unsuitable people can't get together after all. Because at that time, the right person had not yet appeared.

In the second half of the second year, I met my mother through the introduction of aunt Ma across the river. It won't be like this, just take a look, whether it's off or not, and I won't know the rest. It was all explained by the matchmaker.

When I got married, my father wouldn't tell me exactly how much bride price I gave, and I couldn't ask. Dowry dowry is very small, my mother said. The suitcase is empty, with no clothes, no jewelry and nothing.

On the wedding day, she deliberately opened it, which made grandpa lose face and was poked in the spine. She hates it.

My father told me that after marriage, the Zhang family borrowed a lot of money in various names, never paid it back, and shamelessly left the black and white TV set he married. The shameless family have seen it, and they have never seen such a shameless person.

Unpleasant things can be remembered for a lifetime, especially such a big event as marriage.

- 03 -

In the winter in the south, it was cold and wet, and my father knocked on the door of the old horse's house next door in a hurry. That was in' 84.

"Maradona, Maradona, Feng Zhen is going to have a baby, help patiently, and take care of the car. I don't want to kill Larry with one shot, and I will be miserable. "

"Don't worry, one by one to hi shigemitsu car, according to cough up. Let's start sailing. I'll wear a cotton waist and go right away. I'll take care of the copper and silver, and I'll go to Xikou Hospital. "

I was born that winter, and what happened that night was told to me by Grandpa Ma next door.

When my mother went to the hospital to give birth to me, she was lucky enough to meet the director of obstetrics and go out from work. My mother recalled that when she saw the situation, the director followed me into the delivery room without saying anything. The new white coat, I can't put on my right sleeve, and I feel very out of the way. I cut it off with scissors. Remedy is very important. I remind my mother not to sleep from time to time.

Afterwards, my father went to the fish pond and asked for a few pounds of big crucian carp, which he gave to the director, who shirked it. Finally, he gave the crucian carp money to my father to buy nutrition for my mother. The director said that it is not easy for us country people. Crucian carp is delicious. I'll take it.

When I was a child, I felt nervous and depressed every time I heard this story. It is conceivable that the scene at that time was really dangerous. My mother gave birth to me in childbirth and almost died. Therefore, when I was a child, I listened to my mother very much.

I suppress my willfulness, dare not ask too much, and try to be a good baby. I did it. Mother is very pleased, but she often tells me that the child has no opinion and can't talk, and will suffer in the future. This cognition influenced me for a long time, until I saw inferiority and transcendence, and I didn't understand why.

As for the director, I always want to know who he is and where he lives when I listen to the story.

- 04 -

Pickling pickles requires removing old leaves and cutting off roots. Clean and dry. Then take it into the house, cut it into sections with a knife, put it into a big wooden basin, sprinkle salt on the dough, and then put it into the jar. The jar was stuffed with woven straw rope boards and poured into a porcelain basin filled with cold boiled water.

/kloc-it can be taken out after 0/month. You can fry vegetables and put bamboo shoots or edamame on them. This is what my mother is good at. Newly cooked pickles, add some sugar when frying, it's delicious. They are used to cook porridge.

Every autumn is a good time to pickle. Every year at this time, my mother will pickle three jars. In this way, breakfast in our family is porridge for half a year, so we don't need to buy side dishes.

Prunes can be made in summer. Dried plums are made of top-class rape that has not yet blossomed. Cut off tender tips, knead them with salt and boiling water, dry them in the sun to 80%, and collect them.

Find a big nylon bag and put it in, and tie the bag tightly. When you eat, take a little. The rest is airtight in the bag and can be kept for a long time. The wet south is not well sealed and can't be put down.

Mom is good at it, too.

My own vegetable field has always been full of vegetables, which is the credit of my parents. Part of my childhood happiness is also related to that vegetable field.

Sometimes people visit our vegetable fields, and my mother can always find them in time and nag my father, but my father often says.

"Steal and steal. Don't be happy! Afan can get it, but Ye Li can't hear it. "

Throughout the year, the most common dishes on the dining table are all grown in their own fields.

In early winter, there will be radishes, dried plums, sugared sherry red and frost rape on the dining table, which are very sweet and delicious, and of course, sweet potatoes are indispensable.

- 05 -

When I was a child, my clothes were never patched, and they were always clean. Even if it is washed white, my mother told me that it doesn't matter, the clothes are clean and tidy, and the important thing is to wash your face and get good grades.

Every time there is a hole in my sock, she will mend it for me. She also said that your grandfather's socks can't be mended, that is, wearing socks on the surface is actually the same as not wearing them.

The styles of clothes are all imitation, and the materials are basically cotton. I once admired my mother, because she could put a piece of cloth through scissors, tape measure, dicing, and finally make wearable clothes and pants with the butterfly sewing machine at home, and it was just right every time. It's fun to wear new clothes for free.

But after primary school, gradually, I stopped wearing the coat that my mother sewed. Because once, I told my mother that a classmate told me that the clothes he bought were better than mine, and they were made at home, so rustic! Mother didn't speak when she knew.

That summer, I was very happy wearing a blue fiber shirt that my mother helped me choose. And from then on, except underwear and autumn clothes and trousers, which were made by my mother, I bought them from the mall and put them on school uniforms until I finished high school.

- 06 -

/kloc-in the winter of 0/984, grandpa heard that his mother had a son, himself. Think about having grandchildren, in heaven. I'm in a hurry to go to Huangdai to buy some nutrition. On the way, I fell down, dislocated my chin and broke several teeth.

Later, I heard from my mother that my grandmother tripped. Otherwise, how could she knock so hard? I think grandma has been dead for so many years, and this reason is a comfort.

During that time, my father was sad and happy, and his heart was haggard. My son was born, my wife was anemic, the old man had an accident, and money was tight.

When I arrived at the First Hospital of Suzhou, my grandfather was sitting on a stool alone, dripping blood on the ground, and nobody cared. My father was in tears. The big hospital in downtown Suzhou asked him if he was from the countryside, ignored him and only asked if he had paid the money.

Grandpa's chin, until his death, was a little oblique. It costs a lot of money to correct it, so I look down on it. Father occasionally mentioned that sadness, and there were always tears in his eyes.

My mother told me that this is fate. If the moon doesn't come out, we should take care of the children and the elderly.

My mother often complains that my father only sulks there in an emergency, and my father keeps silent about it.

- 07 -

Before I went to kindergarten, I was a frequent visitor to children's hospital. I know all the girls there. Every time I have an injection, I sweetly call someone aunt. On the ass, left and right.

Every time I catch a cold, my mother is very scared, because many times, a cold can cause a cough, which in turn leads to asthma. Every time this happens, it's 3 o'clock in the morning. My mother hugged me and drove to children's hospital with my father. I have to walk more than 20 kilometers without a car.

As for later, I can't remember clearly whether my illness was cured by folk prescription or by development.

Now I have been in good health. I wonder if I drank too much medicine when I was a child. Mom said that children stumble when they are young, but they will grow up safely. I believe what she said.

Habitually, my mother will still ask me if I am doing well outside. The weather is hot and cold. Pay attention to clothes and diet. Later, I got married and asked more people if it was sunny. Being a grandmother, worrying becomes a habit, but caring as usual.

- 08 -

Go to junior high school, high school or university. There is no shortage of money for me at home, and my parents are completely satisfied with the money. I have seen the hardships of making money since I was a child. Don't dare to spend. Occasionally, I was presumptuous once or twice, and they were never harsh.

In middle school, my mother would get up before dawn and wipe the cloth with a sewing machine. She would sit for a whole day, every day.

Now that the weather changes suddenly, her lumbar spine will feel uncomfortable and she can't sit for a long time. I think I was overworked at that time.

-Eventually-

A few days ago, my grandfather celebrated his 80th birthday. She said that as a daughter, there is still filial piety.

In my opinion, the kindness of parents' education is exquisite. Father is raising, mother is raising. When the old man was very young, he didn't fulfill his father's responsibility. Why should you be filial when he is so old?

Mother said, let bygones be bygones. She can't bear to look at the old man like this. She's still a father anyway.

Later, I thought, yes, when grandpa has physical problems, my mother takes care of him wholeheartedly, not to mention that he is her biological father.

Life is much better now. Go to work on weekdays and burn incense on the fifteenth day of the first month. The anger is not as big as before, but the smell of doing things is still there.

She said that she is not old, and she can earn more while working. When you are old and have pocket money in your pocket, it is always inevitable to catch a cold.

I know, she doesn't want to bother us junior girls and drag us down.

This is my mother, Ms. Zhang Fengzhen.