He who doesn't twist the bar is the bravest-the jade bow edge in the sea of clouds

Nostalgia in Mid-Autumn Festival holiday, revisiting Liang Yusheng's The Jade Bow in the Sea of Clouds in stormy weather.

I was a junior high school student when I first read this book. I still remember that I didn't like Li Shengnan at that time. I think she is bad-tempered and selfish. I didn't expect to read it again now, but my favorite person turned out to be her.

Among the young women in A Sea of Clouds by the Jade Bow, Li Shengnan is the only one who is a little evil. Compared with Li Qinmei's innocence, she is clever and thorough, and her mind is deep; Compared with Gu Zhihua's decency, modesty and self-reliance, she has both good and evil, and dares to do it. If Li Qinmei is compared to a splendid camellia, Gu Zhihua is like a graceful peony, while Li Shengnan is a charming and enchanting poppy.

Among the three girls who all like Jin Shiyi, Li Qinmei was born in a martial arts family and has been taken care of by her relatives. She has no intention at all, but she is bent on chasing the person she likes. Her life has never experienced wind and rain, which is a bit like being silly and sweet now. Jin Shiyi and Li Qinmei are almost different in life and life experience. Li Qinmei can't really understand Jin Shiyi from the bottom of her heart, so Jin Shiyi only regards her as a lovely little sister.

Although Gu Zhihua grew up with adoptive parents, her adoptive parents are noble and decent, and her master is the famous Lv Siniang. Gu Zhihua's demeanor was developed in this growing environment. Even though she later learned that her biological father was Meng Shentong, a demon in the Jianghu, it didn't hurt her decent temperament and upbringing at all.

Li Shengnan is a posthumous child. Since her birth, she has shouldered the heavy responsibility of revenge for the whole family. Li Shengnan's mother warned her to practice martial arts since she was a child, so that she could get revenge on the enemy who ruined her family. Later, when her mother died, the orphan girl not only undertook the mission of the whole family alone, but also faced the sinister human feelings in the Jianghu. Her conservative character is closely related to her life experience of struggling to survive.

Everyone is branded with life, so Jin Shiyi, who is also an orphan, often feels that Li Sheng is his shadow, and their similar life experiences have given them many of the same feelings. Early life experiences have made their characters cynical, laughing and cursing and playing games. The biggest difference between Li Shengnan and Jin Shiyi is that Jin Shiyi has no family responsibilities and no blood feud to report. So he felt that Li Shengnan was narrow-minded and heartless, and he was more eager for Gu Zhihua's warmth and tenderness.

Young Jin Shiyi could not understand Li Shengnan's desire for superb martial arts and enemies. Because this responsibility means pain and suffering. Jin Shiyi, who has tasted the hardships of life, hopes to get more warmth and light in life.

Li Qinmei can't be with Jin Shiyi because her noble and decent family can't hold a person with both good and evil, because she is not familiar with the world and doesn't know the treachery and insidiousness of people. Gu Zhihua can't be with Jin Shiyi because she has given herself too many fetters in her heart. Gu Zhihua can't break through all kinds of barriers in their sect, status and personality.

Jin Shiyi, who is in an emotional whirlpool, is a duplicitous, indecisive and full of contradictions. His superficial game world is just a cover-up of his inner inferiority. He envies the noble and decent master demeanor and his peers with good family, because he can't be like that himself. In Jianghu, his performance is called evil, but at heart he is an upright, kind and very soft-hearted person.

Because of this contradiction in Jin Shiyi's personality, he hesitated in his emotional choice. He always feels that his favorite is the flower of the valley, but in fact it is just the light and warmth that he can't reach; He always loved and hated Li Shengnan, and finally he realized that this woman was one of his own, lonely and proud. Because she is so similar to him, Jin Shiyi loves, fears and dislikes her. Jin Shiyi's feelings for Li Shengnan are actually his own feelings for himself, which he loves and hates.

However, in this chaos, Li Shengnan has always been a person who has a hard life and is loyal to his heart. She is smarter and braver than Jin Shiyi. She knows Jin Shiyi and knows how to keep him by her side. For the sake of what she loves, Li Shengnan won't have any constraints. She will try her best to get what she wants, even if she lies, even if she hurts herself, even at the last moment of her life, she will always be with Jin Shiyi …

Li Shengnan won't stop until he gets what he wants. In order to avenge her family, she tried her best to pester Jin Shiyi to go to sea with her to find martial arts secrets and practice martial arts with her enemies. In order to realize the last wish of the next generation of masters, she worked hard to find the head of Tianshan Sect and finally became famous all over the world; For the sake of what she loves, she blocks her opponents again and again, regardless of what others say.

Li Shengnan is a passionate woman. She will go all out to achieve her goal, even if it is death. She lives bravely and frankly. Whether it is good or bad, she will always be her. No matter good or bad, she will show it to the people she loves.

Therefore, it was not until the moment of her death that Jin Shiyi suddenly realized that her true love was always with her. Just because I am in the bureau, I have always been ignorant and stubborn. His indecision was unknown, and finally he took on the responsibility to others. With the deepest feelings, he buried the tablet of "Love Wife" in front of Li Shengnan's tomb.

Now I finally understand that I began to like Li Shengnan because she didn't distort the facts and lived a true and frank life. She doesn't care about other people's eyes, only looks at the people she loves, simple and pure. No matter how the person I love treats her, she is the same: I like you, this is my own business, not your business!

I began to envy this brave girl. In her short life, she completed the important task of family, practiced peerless martial arts, and even loved her beloved. She did everything she wanted! Maybe I can never be as pure as her, but I also try to live that kind of undistorted courage!