When the heart has a habitat, it will no longer wander.

On April 22nd last year, I left school with my suitcase and embarked on a new journey. The moment I walked out of the school gate, I suddenly burst into tears. I looked back over and over again. This is the campus where I have lived and studied for nearly 4 years. Now I finally want to leave, but suddenly I feel so sad.

It's only been more than a month since I came out from home on the ninth day of the Lunar New Year, and I've been wandering around. From home to Shenzhen, then to Ji 'an, I am about to leave for Shanghai.

Da Bing said, "Dream is a horse. You can live anywhere." But I want to find a place to live for my wandering heart. Once I thought it would be Shenzhen, but it seems that there is always a force pushing me away.

The night before I left, my fellow villagers came to my room to chat and help me pack up.

He asked, "I really decided to leave, but you never seem to tell me why."

I said, "Yes, I decided to leave, but it seems that I don't want any reason. If I don't want to stay, I will leave. "

I was afraid of a sudden giggle in the cold field and said, "Dude, don't be so serious. I'm used to your fake smile, and it's scary to suddenly be so serious. "

The fellow villagers didn't say anything, but silently helped me pack my bags.

That night, I wrote in my circle of friends: I came with joy and left alone. In a short sentence, I was sad and helpless.

Lying in bed with the phone turned off, unable to sleep. As soon as I close my eyes, a series of questions will flash in my mind. Where will the next stop be and where will I stay? I was at a loss for a moment.

Don't sleep, don't sleep. Turn on the phone and play Yu Quan's Which Station. I can't sleep until dawn.

After I left Shenzhen, I stayed at school 15 days. In the past two months, I have hardly left the dormitory door except for eating and looking for a tutor to revise my thesis. In addition to the tutor, the speaker may be the aunt in the canteen.

Oh, no, there should be my parents. During this time, they called me every other day or two. Most of the content is: How about these two days? Have you finished your paper? Be sure to eat well, close the door at night and go to bed early.

In fact, I always feel very lucky. My parents have always supported me. At the beginning, I quit my job in Shenzhen without saying anything and secretly ran back to Ji 'an. When they found out, they didn't blame me, but cherished me. Many times I feel particularly unfilial and let them worry so much.

I want to go to Nanchang to find a job when I finalize my thesis. Actually, I told my friend to look for her in the past, but the plan of the world couldn't keep up with the change.

I received a phone call from my aunt that day. She said that my parents called her, knowing that I was no longer in Shenzhen, and asked me to go to Shanghai. I thought about it again and again, and after replying to my friends in Nanchang, I bought a plane ticket to Shanghai on the 22nd.

The night on the train was a sleepless night, mixed with excitement and anxiety, and the surrounding noisy environment, how could I sleep?

The next morning, the train slowly pulled into Shanghai South Railway Station. At the moment I stepped out of the carriage, I said to myself: Wish me luck. I hope this is my destination and there will be my shelter.

It took three subway trips to get to Tang Zhen subway station. My aunt said on the phone that she would wait for me at the subway entrance. I still clearly remember how excited and excited I was at that time. It was the first time I saw my aunt in six years.

The last time we met was when my grandfather died in 2009. Walking all the way to chat with my aunt, talking in dialect, very kind. My aunt was the one who loved me the most except my parents, and now this scene suddenly makes me feel at home.

I remember that the weather in Shanghai was fine that day, with blue sky and white clouds. My intuition tells me that this will be an important starting point.

After two days' rest at menstruation's house, I began to look for a job, but it seemed unexpectedly smooth. I soon found a job that was satisfactory in all aspects, and the company provided accommodation.

I really started my life after I moved my things from menstruation's house to my dormitory. Honestly, I'm looking forward to it.

While looking for a job, I also went to Nanjing West Road and the Bund with my college roommate. At the beginning of the lights on Nanjing West Road under the shadow of night, all kinds of nostalgic and retro western-style buildings are charming and moving under the mapping of lights, which makes people unable to take their eyes off.

Leaning on the railing by the Huangpu River, the breeze is blowing gently, which is very comfortable. Across the street, rows of modern buildings are flashing neon lights and dazzling oriental pearls. This scenery is really beautiful. At this moment, I suddenly felt that I was in the right place, and I fell in love with the city deeply.

Lin once said: "Some people say that falling in love with a city is because people you like live in it. In fact, falling in love with a city may be for a vivid scenery in the city, for a childhood memory, and for a familiar old house. Perhaps, just for this city. "

Personally, my love for this city has never changed since I first came to the Bund.

Besides its scenery, it is also because I feel warm and caring in this city, where I find the sense of security I want.

I am an introverted and quiet person. I am afraid of loneliness, but I like being alone, but I long for warmth and care.

Fortunately, now it is a dormitory, colleagues are easy to get along with, and it is no longer so cold and scary to get home.

When my aunt is in Shanghai, I will stay at her house for one night on weekends. Follow her to the wholesale market to buy food and help in the kitchen.

Take my little nephew to the community park to play, and chat with aunts, uncles, grandparents who bring their children to the park, and talk about family life. I don't know why there is a warm current pouring out of my heart every time.

When I got home, I chatted with my brother, sister-in-law and uncle in my hometown dialect and ate my aunt's home cooking. I found everything very real and warm.

Last Saturday, I got a call from my dad early in the morning. It turned out that he just wanted to tell me that my aunt went back to Shanghai from her hometown on Friday night. She should be home by now, and she invited me to dinner.

More than an hour later, I received a phone call from my aunt. On the phone, she said: "female (dialect), I have returned to Shanghai and come to dinner today."

"Aunt, I won't go today. You just got back. You must be very tired. Please have a good rest first, I will go next week. " I said with a smile.

Aunt said, "Nothing, I'm not tired. Come here. Aunt hasn't been to Shanghai for so long. She must have not eaten home-cooked food for a long time. Come here. Aunt will cook you something better today. "

I don't know why I wanted to cry at that moment. I'm not alone. I am always missed and cared for. In this huge city, there is always a place waiting for me to go back.

Now I suddenly understand why I want to leave Shenzhen so much. Maybe that's the reason. Don't call me melodramatic.

Now go to work, read books, keep fit and write. I share my warmth and stories with you in tender words. I have no worries, loneliness and fear, and my life is full and happy.

I am not at home on weekends, and I like to go out for a walk alone, standing at the crossroads and watching people come and go. Everyone has his own story, and everyone has his own return journey, so feel it with your heart. The world is so real and beautiful.

Some people say that "if my heart doesn't have a place to live, it will wander around", but I want to say that since I have found it, it will always be, no matter where I choose to go in the future, at least now I have it and feel it, and my heart will no longer wander.