Meditate late at night

Night came completely, covering the whole world with overwhelming power. I went to the balcony and stared at the silent house opposite in the dark. This tall house, after a day of new life, is like a tenant living in it, sleeping in loneliness and tranquility. Such a quiet night, such a dark night, I have refused more than once in my life. However, I won't back down in the middle of the night because of my resistance and worry. It's here. It's time to come. The window of my room is open from morning till night. It seems that in order to meet every joys and sorrows of nature, she put on her costume and waited with a good mood. It was supposed to be the perfect time to go to bed, but I couldn't sleep. The sultry weather and the life more painful than the sultry weather torment me and age my firm thoughts. Busy working hours have left me for several hours, but the hypocritical atmosphere still lingers in my mind, like a meat cleaver deeply engraved in my young life. I took off my coat and faced the quiet window. Many heavy thoughts appeared in my sober mind.

I think even in such a small city, there are still many people staying up late. Their youth and passion are used to squandering in the middle of the night, and every activist in their blood should be unreservedly dedicated to the goddess of the night. Yes, maybe I should understand them, just as I need others to understand me sincerely. Those young people who squander their youth and passion in the dark, those homeless children who release all the most precious enthusiasm in their lives in the middle of the night, may suffer loneliness and boredom like me. The good time of the day should belong to them, but the long-established concept of social class deprived them. They do manual labor that is not respected in the boring workshop of the factory, look at the boss's eyes and write false documents in the small office of the tall office building, and vividly tell their work performance in the first half of the month in front of the business manager of the insurance company; Even in front of the checkout counter of the shopping mall, in front of the desk of the advertising company, in every delivery car of the express company, in the noisy kitchen of the hotel ... they are sweating silently, hiding their dignity and real desire for a salary. In the middle of the night, only in the dead of night can the humiliated migrant workers really come out of the aura of * * and enter a world of their own-although the world has been surrounded by darkness, even in the near future, a new round of * * will come at them. However, young people who have left their homes are not afraid. As long as you live, you dare to live proudly. As long as they come to this strange land, they want to indulge their youth and passion.

But I can't stay up all night like them. Years of lonely life have taught me to be tolerant and happy-go-lucky No matter how fate imposes suffering on me, I will not shrink back in this critical place. Social changes, ups and downs of the world, sinister human nature and unhappy life have forced me to underestimate everything in this world. I used to feel how great my family was, how noble my friendship was, and how beautiful my love was. It was not until I experienced so many unspeakable things that I was sure that I was so young and ignorant. What is feeling? At best, it is only a by-product produced in the process of interpersonal communication, such as salt, monosodium glutamate and soy sauce used by chefs when cooking dishes. No matter how indelible their importance is, they are essentially seasonings to improve the taste of food. As the main raw material, dishes are the respective interests in interpersonal communication. If the interests cannot be safeguarded, the communication between the two sides will soon be paralyzed. The work during the day has come to an end, but when I walk around in a quiet room with only one person, I naturally think of that dogmatic hypocrisy. Everyone wears a mask to go to work (of course, this is an invisible mask, just to prevent their self-esteem from being hurt, and there is no other use). They smile and receive customers from all directions, and they always beat each other psychologically with beautiful and beautiful language first. Whether it is an insurance salesman or a travel salesman, whether it is a car salesman or a cosmetics salesman, they will introduce their valuable products to you without exception. In fact, it is just a blank sheet of paper with some beautiful patterns printed on it. Look at the samples, but the results are described by themselves, lest you don't buy their products, you are the most ignorant person. Think about it carefully, what a hypocritical thing! But how can we get along without this hypocritical skill? Society has chosen this kind of rules of the game, and at the same time it has acquiesced in this kind of rules of the game. Anyone who wants to find another way will have a miserable fate.

I have read all the vicissitudes of the world, seen through the real purpose of interpersonal communication, and have a deep understanding of the evil of human nature. Man, what a small but pretentious species, when he saw that he had created an axe, bayonet and submachine gun, he intended to rule the whole earth in his heart, but he didn't know that he had annoyed the Jade Emperor. He sneezed and caused a flood, waved his fist and caused an earthquake and tsunami, killing many innocent people instantly. But those dead people just don't like to brag and go against God's will. They are so obedient that they dare not say anything against religion, let alone claim to be the boss before God. Yes, in a sense, human beings have created the world and improved it, but they do not rule out destroying it with their own hands. When this arrogant vanity and the psychology of occupying others dominate, I believe there will be no more harmony and tranquility in this world. Contradictions that endanger one's own interests can't be handled, and people who are broad-minded will stand up and resist. As a result, people destroyed the civilization created by their ancestors with their own weapons, and a catastrophe began. ...

"It's so late, why don't you go to bed?"

When I was intoxicated with my depressed meditation on life, a hazy voice disturbed my thoughts. I turned around and saw that it was the goddess of sleepwalking. She appeared before my eyes like a ghost. I was about to speak when she suddenly disappeared. Oh, what a pity! If she can stay and sleep with me, even for one night, I will be grateful to her from the bottom of my heart. It's a pity that she is just a god. She is just a beautiful image created in my heart, like many other tall, majestic or beautiful gods, and will eventually return to the place where she was created.

I'm not sleepy. I'm still thinking about my own business. If war breaks out at this time (I said "if", the hypothetical thing is an illusion that will not happen), foreign troops or separatist nationalists will come here to attack the people who are sleeping and the mental radicals who have been awake all night, using their bodies as targets for practicing shooting. I think at that time, the people of the whole city and even the whole country will unite. They won't argue with their colleagues for a piece of bread or a few coins, they won't find a partner to stab them in the back for a little personal grudges, and they won't drive away people who are unfavorable to them for their own immediate interests. Under the threat of rampant guns, many people will twist their strength into a rope and aim their hatred at the same goal. Their fists and dirty words will never fly to their companions again, because no one dares to deny that life and dignity are more important than anything else. Under the threat of death, no one will put hatred and interests first, and no one will ignore (abandon) feelings and care about their gains and losses over the years. All of us are brothers and sisters, and we are all class friends who come out of a family. Defending the country is what everyone should do.

"It's getting late. It's time to rest. " I said to myself, then I took off my pants, turned on the electric fan and threw myself on the bed.

"The world will be harmonious, because human beings long for peace, and human beings long for peace …" I thought about it, smiled sweetly, and then fell asleep.

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