Find the full text of "Writing a Diary for You" written by Xu Siyuan in 2004.

"Su Yang think today is a good day, Yang Li talk to you online for the first time. 1 is Su Yang's favorite number. Su Yang found it interesting to write his first email on 1. It rained in Beijing today, and it suddenly cooled down. I wonder what the weather is like in Shanghai. Su Yang can find the weather forecast of Shanghai online, but Su Yang has no way to know whether you are good or not. Su Yang has no way of knowing when you will tell Su Yang. Su Yang didn't think you would ignore Su Yang like this. Su Yang just wants to establish some connection with you in his own way. Besides, Su Yang doesn't mind that this connection is one-way. Su Yang is now in Beijing, which is far away from you, about1400km. Su Yang wants to see you, too. However, Su Yang has no choice. Su Yang is in Beijing and Su Yang is not in Shanghai. It's true that Su Yang didn't try to fool you at all. If you really don't believe it, there's nothing Su Yang can do. Every time Su Yang sends you a text message, she knows very well that you won't reply. Su Yang knew that if it were her, she would do the same. Su Yang is still persistent, and always suddenly wants to say a few words to you. Su Yang wonders what you think. Su Yang knew it was really puzzling, but Su Yang still had no choice. Su Yang, do you want to see this? Su Yang doesn't want to ask you, because Su Yang doesn't want to face a silent you at this time. Let Su Yang be willful. Anyway, Su Yang doesn't think you will change because of this. Su Yang wrote these first. " It was on Wujiang Road that Yang Li first met Fan Jiang. There are two "sweet honey" on Wujiang Road, and the one on the old street is Su Yang's favorite place to go. There are wooden tables and chairs in the narrow space, and the table is inlaid with marble. When business is good, you have to lean sideways to pass the sitting guests. Su Yang likes to sit near the stairs on the second floor because it is the first time for her to sit there. She always lies prone on the table, cocked her head and told the young lady that she wanted a glass of grapefruit honey and a bowl of aloe-purple rice dew. She always puts her head on the back of her hand and listens to her friends nearby and opposite with a smile. She likes the feeling of putting her arm on the marble, and she also likes to put her right ear on the wooden table to listen to others. When Su Yang saw Fan Jiang, he hardly noticed what kind of person he was. She looked around while chewing aloe vera and saw Fan Jiang holding Winnie the Pooh upstairs. Winnie is packed in a transparent plastic bag like a sack. He tugged at the folded mouth in front with one hand, followed his friend upstairs and sat next to her. A transparent plastic bag containing Winnie was placed at Su Yang's feet. Every time Su Yang thinks of that day, he forgets that he is biting aloe vera, but he keeps staring at Winnie behind Fan Jiang, and can't help but grin and wonder if he saw it. Sometimes, she even wondered if he was sitting next to her because he saw her funny expression at that time. The Adventures of Winnie the Pooh is a cartoon that Su Yang watched every day in high school. The umbrella is Winnie the Pooh, the towel is Winnie the Pooh, the computer desktop is Winnie the Pooh, the sheets and pillows are Winnie the Pooh, and even napkins are used. Only Winnie the Pooh series from Shu Jie is used. She can't figure out why she likes that chubby bear with a bulging belly, wearing a little red shirt and eating honey so much. In this way, it has been many years. Su Yang always knew how stubborn he was. Su Yang knows that Fan Jiang's name is Fan Jiang, and he also knows the new mobile phone number he just changed. Su Yang knew that Winnie the Pooh in Fan Jiang won by playing a lost ball game at the carnival, and he had no intention of giving it to his girlfriend. Su Yang knew that Fan Jiang lived alone in the old house on Huaihai Road, and he had to use a lighter to go up and down the stairs. Fan Jiang doesn't talk much. Su Yang listened to what he said occasionally intentionally or unintentionally, and remembered what she wanted to remember. She never looked at his face, but from his hoarse voice and slow tone, she felt that he was lazy. "Su Yang never thought he would have such a day. Su Yang never thought that you would have such an effect on her mood. Su Yang sent you a message today, but you didn't reply. Su Yang knows that you won't come back, and Su Yang no longer suspects that there is something wrong with the network, but Su Yang can't help but often take out his mobile phone to see if there is an icon on the lower left of the mobile phone. Su Yang is now in the Internet cafe, looking at the screen, my mind can be said to be blank. Before Yang Li came to the Internet cafe, he thought there were many things to write for you, but now, he seems to be unable to write a word. Su Yang suddenly found that Su Yang seems to be used to facing a silent you. Last night, Su Yang saw your short message, but she was a little at a loss. Su Yang stared at the mobile phone screen for a long time before pressing the reply button. Are you in a better mood now? Su Yang knows that you are in a bad mood, and Su Yang feels very sad. I don't know why, because Su Yang has never had such an experience and changed his mood for a stranger. Su Yang knows it's no use asking you why you are in a bad mood, and she also knows that she can't help you now. Just make your mood better quickly. Let's call it a day. Su Yang wants you to be happy. "Yang Li sent a message to Fan Jiang for the first time, in the dormitory. She lay in bed, staring straight at the ceiling. As she watched, a string of numbers appeared in front of her eyes, which was the number she remembered in Sweet Honey that day. The day after Su Yang met Fan Jiang, she flew back to school. After that, I have been busy with this and that. I never thought of the strange man I met by chance in "Sweet Honey" on Wujiang Road. His voice was in her ear when she was lying flat on the wooden bed typing for him with her mobile phone. She couldn't think of his appearance or a word, but his voice kept ringing in her ears. She can't get rid of the sounds around her and can only accept them completely. However, she can't say what she has accepted. Su Yang didn't want to introduce herself at all, so she went on the rampage and sent the news without thinking. She said to Fan Jiang, "Is your home big enough? If Winnie can't stay, give it to me. " Su Yang also said to himself, "Excuse me, who are you?" Su Yang replaced Fan Jiang's possible reaction in his own way. Su Yang put a thin blanket in the hole he dug himself, so that he wouldn't fall so suddenly and then bounce up suddenly.

However, after all, the blanket is very thin and doesn't play much role. It still hurts when you fall, and you can't get up at once. Su Yang's phone rang, and the phone screen was a string of numbers that I remembered in Wujiang Road. Su Yang didn't move, but Xu Meijing's "knowing" rang twice from beginning to end in the dormitory where no one else was there. The bell of the chord is very nice. Mingming is Su Yang's favorite song. Su Yang likes Xu Meijing's voice and the sentences she sings. Yang Li held up his mobile phone and looked at the beating numbers. Then, the color screen suddenly darkened and nothing could be seen. Su Yang turned over, and a naughty smile was all over her face. She was lying on the bed, blinking at the white wall. She sent a second message to Fan Jiang, "Excuse me, who's calling? Can I help you? " Before Su Yang considered Fan Jiang's reaction, he sent her the first message, "Who are you, the one who asked me for Winnie the Pooh?" Yang Li smiled again. "How do you know that I like Winnie the Pooh?" This time, Su Yang guessed right, and Fan Jiang said, "Don't say it." Su Yang's smile widened, and she suddenly felt that Fan Jiang and she were the same kind of people. However, she still can't tell what kind of person she is. "Su Yang." "How do you know I have pooh? We know each other? " "I don't know." "Tell me the truth." The smile on her face disappeared unconsciously. She didn't reply to his message. She knew he wouldn't talk again because she wasn't going to tell him what he really wanted to know. "Su Yang in a bad mood today, drifted off. I slipped down the stairs, my knee fell to the ground and I couldn't get up. Su Yang knelt on the stairs, didn't want to get up, and grabbed the handrail with his hand, hoping that when he looked up, someone would smile at her, pat her on the head and pull her up. But without that person, Su Yang could only stand up by herself and look down at a lot of Qing Wu that suddenly appeared on her knees. Tears suddenly flooded into her eyes, blurring her vision. She has not felt spoiled for a long time. Su Yang thinks so. This is a problem that she will attack every once in a while. She called the problem intermittent neuropathy. There is nothing special about her entering this stage, except that she usually doesn't pay much attention to many small things and can't stay together for long. It's hard for her to run out together. It should be fine after a while. Su Yang doesn't know how you are now. Su Yang's classmate in Shanghai told Su Yang that the sky in Shanghai is very blue now, and large clouds are floating on it, which is very beautiful. Su Yang, I don't know if you have noticed the scenery you haven't seen for years. Look up when you get out of the subway. You must be very comfortable in your heart. Let's call it a day. Su Yang wants you to be happy. "Yang Li sent an email to Fan Jiang for the first time in the Internet cafe next to the school. She sat in that kind of soft chair, with her back straight, and sent messages to Fan Jiang on her mobile QQ. "Winnie ok? You didn't abuse it, did you? Give it to me if you have no time. " Ten minutes, twenty minutes and an hour passed, but Su Yang's cell phone didn't ring. She skated the mouse, wandered around the Internet, watched a lot of funny news, and posted a lot of boring posts on the forum of high school classes. She didn't know that she had been sitting and refused to leave because there was still a glimmer of hope in her heart. When Su Yang was playing cards in Lianzhong, he received a friend verification from Fan Jiang on OICQ. She knew it was him without looking at his personal data, so she immediately passed the verification and added him to her friend list. This kind of knowledge is hard to say clearly. Su Yang attributed this to intuition, so he didn't think much. The first sentence that Fan Jiang and Su Yang said in OICQ's dialog box was: Who are you? Where are you? Su Yang naturally raised his head, grinned slightly and smiled at the bare wall behind the monitor. "Su Yang." At this time, she felt that Fan Jiang had a persistent cuteness. The way she looked at him changed temporarily, just like an adult watching a child running around catching butterflies, knowing that he could not catch them, but desperately reaching for the sky with his little hand. In fact, at other times, Su Yang felt that he was just a simple child and had no other experience except studying in front of Fan Jiang. The contact between them is not at the same level, and it has never been equal from the beginning to the present. Su Yang knows this very well, and he also knows that he can't jump out of the hole he dug, and only he is injured. And this kind of injury is inexplicable and unreasonable. "How do you have my mobile phone number? How did you know I had Winnie? Don't tell me that's your random number. " "Is this important?" "yes." "Will you believe what I said?" "yes." "But I don't want to talk about it." "Knowing" suddenly sounded in the Internet cafe, and Su Yang took out his mobile phone from his pocket. A string of numbers remembered by Wujiang Road appeared on the screen. Many people around slowed down the speed of typing and looked at her. She stared at the screen motionless until it suddenly darkened and there was no sound. Su Yang wrote in the dialog box, "Give me your email."