Nearly half a year old, still a teenager.

Nearly half a year old, this word comes from the evaluation and description of my brother Yi Lei. Although it sounds like a smile, I feel a little unhappy in my heart.

At the end of February, I returned to Nantong, passing through Zhangjiagang, Suzhou, and visited 007 Comrade Shi. I haven't met before, but I joined the "2 1 running club" he founded, and we talked on WeChat several times. At first glance, it looks like an old friend for many years, and we have a good chat. Not for business, no purpose, talking about writing, talking about running, talking about life, talking for nearly four hours, still wanting more. On the way to high-speed railway station, I told him that the purpose of my trip to Nantong was to accompany me to run 50 kilometers for a 50-year-old buddy's birthday, and I got a slightly surprised look back.

I haven't arrived in Nantong yet, and Yi Lei has finished writing the composition of the day. At the end of the article, he gave me a sentence: "Who can believe that he is a' pioneer cow' who is nearly half a century old?"

It is an indisputable fact that the age is nearly half a hundred. In our hometown, the nominal age is 49, but actually it is already half a hundred. But when I first heard this name, there was still a ripple in my heart. After thinking for a moment, I have actually spent 48 years, and the experience and taste are only the clearest in my heart. From youth, ignorance, recklessness, rural to urban, and then to maturity, along the way, different gains and experiences. Looking at the rise of post-80s, post-90s and even post-80s, it has flourished in the fields of Internet and new retail. And clearly feel their backwardness and marginalization. More often, they are struggling with a little experience and accumulation.

Nearly half a year old, I don't seem to accept this title, and I feel a little dissatisfied. Why half a hundred? I always feel that life has just begun, and there are still many beautiful, friendly and knowledgeable oceans waiting for me to create and feel. On physical fitness, 50-year-old can run 50 kilometers, no less than most young people in their twenties and thirties. Celebrating their birthday with 50 kilometers is not suitable for everyone. On knowledge, I am still curious about all kinds of new things and skills. I also like learning calligraphy, writing and thinking about China culture. In terms of state, you can work for more than ten hours every day, basically moving forward energetically; In my attitude towards life, I am still optimistic about the beauty of this world, and I am willing to pay more gentleness and goodwill for it. So I still don't want to accept the word "nearly six months" in my heart.

In ancient times, there was a saying that "fifty people know their destiny", and they knew the difficulty of realizing their ideals, so they did not pursue results. Go all out before the age of 50, and after the age of 50, although I am still "so angry that I forgot to eat", I am indifferent to personal honor and disgrace. This description of knowing destiny is too apt.

More often, I half-jokingly introduce myself as an 85-year-old cow, and some people are skeptical. Although I sometimes know that they are well-intentioned, I prefer to use this age to show myself and motivate myself.

I have an appointment with some friends my age. At the age of 50, it takes 50 kilometers to celebrate your birthday, and at the age of 60, it takes 60 kilometers to celebrate your birthday. At the age of 70, I played it by ear. If I can still race at 70km, that would be great.

I'm still the same teenager as before, and I haven't changed at all.

Time is just a test, and the faith planted in my heart has not diminished;

The "teenager" in front of him is still the original face, no matter how many obstacles there are, he will not back down.

Change your life, make yourself happy and give up persistence, and the weather will get better.

Every walk is a harvest.

Nearly half a year old, I am still a teenager!

20217 April

Zhou Jie is in Shanghai.