Where can I find this article? I'm looking for version B of 65438+February 2008 ~ ~ Sheila.

When writing this diary, Qin Yue was on the train from Hankou to Qingdao. It was 7: 20 in the morning, and the light from thin green was run over by a lovely van.

I don't know if you remember, you said that you like to look at my face in the sun best, because it looks hazy and beautiful, which can cover up the freckles on my face.

Although I called you crazy at that time, I cried in my dream in my troubles when I got home.

I'm really sorry.

You never lie to me. You are always so hurtful, just like when you call me martial sister King Kong and call me a little girl, you are so righteous. When you pinched my face, it was so anytime, anywhere. In fact, I am only one year younger than you, and it is only eight months after careful calculation. I'm just too lazy to argue with you. I let you.

You said your fifth girlfriend was scary after taking off makeup, so she broke up.

I was actually very happy, but I yelled at you on the phone. I said, I'm going to Qingdao to kill you. You are too easygoing. This is a disaster for the country and the people. Then I jumped on the train to Qingdao.

Qianshan came to my love.

You said you would have nightmares, so you should have nightmares. If it is really a nightmare, I will always wake up at dawn.

Just Qin Yue. I seem to be at the intersection of Binhai Road at the moment, and I can't find my way back.

What to do.

I can't wake up.

A, I sit at the exit of expressway, waiting for endless loneliness after dark.

Pumpkin crouched at the entrance of Ocean University, and the fishy sea breeze blew from noon to dusk. She sneezed and the phone prompt was 7: 30 in the evening.

It is endless loneliness after dark.

She sat in a lot of postures, which made the canteen proprietress look at her with strange eyes. The pumpkin looked at the street lamp and rushed to buy a copy of peninsula metropolis daily, a completely strange city. Until the newspaper turned to the fourth time, a coin rolled down in front of her eyes.

"Little beggar, you are so hungry. Go and buy a steamed bread to eat. "

Sudden voice, she swallowed saliva, her eyes slowly climbed up from the blue canvas shoes, his favorite dark blue jeans, blue and white striped shirt, a smile that she couldn't get tired of watching for more than ten years, catkin-like wandering eyes, and a little naughty.

Pumpkin clenched his fist and almost shed tears. Punch him roughly in the stomach: "you bastard, where are you going to have fun, aunt?" I'm starving. " When the force touched him, it was obviously tightened. He held her fist in his backhand and carefully pressed her shoulder for a long time, saying, "Little girl, you have lost weight."

"That's true, my aunt is lovesick."

"Really?" His eyes widened. "You are so humorous."

"Fake!" Her eyes are bigger than his.

Pumpkins have an unspeakable sadness. Every time she tells the truth, Qin Yue will naively say that you are so humorous. It is such a slow and romantic boy that she has a crush on for so many years. Since 12 years old, he has made several girlfriends, and she has broken her heart for many years.

Her heart is like being reborn from purgatory. I'm afraid it won't hurt anyway.

Qin Yue dragged pumpkin's luggage and took her to her rented suite. It takes only five minutes to walk from there to the seaside, which is far away, sparsely populated and picturesque. Qin Yue jumped up and down on the phone and described it to her, just like living in a castle in a fairy tale. However, the castle is still there, and the princess has been dragging her skirt to find the next prince.

Does Prince Qin Yue's heart really stop hurting? She was afraid to ask.

Some girls must like delicate lace and beautiful dolls, which is why she left so many things behind. Pumpkin sat in a room that didn't smell like Qin Yue, staring at the malnourished wild roses with thin buds wrapped around rusty railings.

"Do you like it?" Qin Yue shivered like a treasure.

"I'm not that bad." She replied sarcastically, Qin month pie pie did not care. Pumpkins scattered luggage in every corner of the room. She ate fried rice with eggs and a lot of salt cooked by Qin Yue. It was completely dark, and there was the sound of summer insects under the windowsill.

She looked at Qin Yue's chattering mouth and felt that he really hadn't changed at all. Although he hasn't seen each other for a year, he still likes to talk endlessly. The pumpkin bent his mouth and said, "Why is Xia's name so annoying and endless?" Can you tell Xia to be quiet? "

"No, Asha is quiet and not annoying at all."

"Who is it?"

"Xia Feng."

"Get out." The pumpkin threw the pillow at hand. "Qin, don't fool me with anything that comes in the wind and rains."

B, if letting go once is like coughing, why should I care about the warmth I can't get?

At twelve o'clock in the morning, pumpkin and Qin Yue sat on the tatami on the balcony and chatted with the moon eating melon seeds. Qin Yue's mouth is quick and quick, and the little pumpkin is candidly admit defeat. She heard the sound of the keyhole turning and turned her head curiously in Qin Yue's big shirt.

She remembers clearly that a boy in blue casual clothes stood at the door changing shoes, wearing slightly reflective lenses under dark bangs. Pumpkin can't see his eyes, but he obviously feels a cold gas field.

"Xia Feng, come and see Zhou Xiaonan, who I often mention, the bad pumpkin." Qin Yue presented a treasure. "His name is Xia Feng and Xia Feng."

He is really stupid, and the pumpkin can't help rolling his eyes, but he is quietly sad in private. Qin Yue is really capable, and there is always a way to make her beyond redemption. He should never have introduced her to a handsome boy, let alone a handsome boy named Xia Feng.

She was so angry that she almost moved away.

"Hello, I often hear Qin Yue mention you." He came over politely, with a kind and indifferent smile on his face. "You are much cuter than he described."

"If you think it's cute, go after her." Qin Yue smirked.

The hand of pumpkin pinching melon seeds shook below, and he saw his half-true and half-false expression, and his expression in darkness showed a touch of sadness. This is probably the most beautiful sadness in the world. The boy paused, and then went to see Qin Yue's triumphant arrangement.

She is very unhappy, with a sad pumpkin face.

After a long time, Xia Feng remembered the night when she first met her. Three people were sitting on tatami, chatting one build what did not build. The little pumpkin always has a hurt and stubborn expression on his face. Qin Yue can't tell. Whether he is stupid or naive, he doesn't know and doesn't want to know.

Pumpkin is really not a diligent girl. Xia Feng, a Virgo boy, has a serious cleanliness addiction and keeps the house spotless. Will be a bit sloppy Qin Yue foil nothing.

What do you like about him?

Love is such a puzzling thing that you can't say anything ugly.

When she helped Qin Yue wash clothes, she saw Xia Feng's clothes thrown in the bamboo laundry box, so she put them in the washing machine and stirred them. When Xia Feng came back from class, he saw at a glance that pumpkin was standing on a small bench drying clothes. It was his clothes that were stirred beyond recognition in the washing machine.

While she was humming, she was absorbed in hanging clothes, and his heart suddenly softened, like a cloud captured by the sun, revealing a velvet-like magnificent light.

C, exchange a relationship for a friend, and cut a wound with each goodbye.

Sometimes pumpkins also suspect that their actions are meaningless. Qin Yue neglected herself for many years, being bigger than friends and smaller than lovers, and appeared in life with the most embarrassing posture.

Be sure to pretend to be naive and smile like this.

Be sure to look at him like this, whether it is bickering or silence.

Then while he was away, a person watered and fertilized the malnourished wild rose, quietly changed his lace tablecloth and threw away the dolls one by one. Let the room return to plain color, it seems that there is a smell of wood everywhere.

Most of the time, Xia Feng will use his laptop to surf the Internet at home. He is a senior in Qin Yue, and his time is always relaxed. His online shop business is very good, and some girls come to him from the south after seeing his photo, but no matter how enthusiastic they are, they can't stop touching the lake.

Pumpkin thinks he is a difficult person to talk to. Qin Yue asked him to take her to the seaside to play, and he simply agreed.

No matter how fierce she is, she is also a thin-skinned girl. Sitting on the bus with a stranger, I just looked out the window. The wind wrinkled her hair and blew it on his lips. Xia Feng immediately smelled the fresh hair, and his face was itchy and limp.

He doesn't know why he is willing to take pumpkins out to play.

Maybe she just doesn't want to see her absent-minded at home. Her black grape eyes are always full of loneliness, like a black hole that can never be filled with discontent.

"Have you heard a legend about the sea?" Pumpkin suddenly asked.

"Tell me about it." He is very interested.

"Legend has it that the sea was originally tasteless, but the mermaid princess could not get the prince's love. After turning into foam, all the fish in the sea cried for her death, so the sea became salty. "

"That's just a fairy tale. Before the mermaid princess turned into a bubble, the sea was salty."

"I don't care, I only believe this." Cucumber is stubborn, and there are some things that Xia Feng can't understand at all. She must force herself to believe something, otherwise she will tear a wound in her heart and can't afford any waste.

Xia Feng's eyes darkened again when he saw the pumpkin. Fortunately, the bus has arrived at the port of the sparsely populated coastal highway. Pumpkin saw a child picking up shells in the distance, so he took Xia Feng's hand and ran to the seaside. Yelling at seabirds resting on the beach.

She picks up shells, catches crabs and builds bunkers on the beach.

The bunker built by Xia Feng is very beautiful and looks indestructible. At high tide, the pumpkin tried to protect the bunker, but Xia Feng pulled it to the shore.

Just what looks indestructible, the tide recedes, leaving only a pile of meaningless sand. Xia Feng said, just pile it up again.

The little pumpkin suddenly felt extremely sad, just like her relationship with Qin Yue, which seemed indestructible. As long as she breaks enough paper, I'm afraid even her friends can't make it. She was very clear, because she was too clear, so she stopped. Standing in a special position, occupying his heart humbly.

Perhaps it has never been occupied.

She suddenly shouted at the sea, "I don't love you!" I do not love you at all! Do not love you! Do not love you! Goodbye! Goodbye! Goodbye! " She didn't cry, just pouted in grievance. On the way back, she put her head on Xia Feng's shoulder and fell asleep. Unsuspecting, occasionally frowning, afraid of encountering something annoying in the dream.

He cocked his head, felt her breathing rise and fall in his ear, and closed his eyes contentedly.

This world is like this, you can't control it, and love happens all the time.

D, burn a mirage with matches to avoid this heavy rain.

Probably get along much more, and Xia Feng is naturally familiar with it. There is also a tacit understanding at the dinner table, just use your eyes to know what the other party needs. Qin Yue's jokes are even more unscrupulous, like an old couple. The pumpkin hit him on the head with a rice spoon and cursed fiercely, but the dog couldn't spit ivory.

Mr. Xia smiled, just like the sea breeze in summer, and the pumpkin couldn't help laughing.

This is a kind of almost shy smile. Qin Yue looked at one leng. This smile is for Xia Feng, and his psychology was suddenly messed up. Although he is a co-tenant, his knowledge of old Xia Feng is limited. I have beautiful broken hair all the year round, wear glasses and don't like to talk. I talk to girls less than ten times a day. The alienation and coldness in the eyes are daunting.

What else is there?

Also, in fact, he is a very kind and gentle person. For example, he will share breakfast milk with stray kittens, and when he sees a child crossing the road, he can't help walking behind and holding his shoulder. In other words, he will not have any doubts when he meets a girl by chance again and again.

Simple-minded, in fact, he is not like that at all.

If such a person is with pumpkin, he will take care of her everywhere and she will be very happy. It will make her temper docile and lovely, and her thin and distressing body can also be rounded into a bear.

His umbrella is firmly over her head. The pumpkin carefully found that his left shoulder was wet. He pushed the umbrella a little shyly, but quietly covered it.

"I can send clothes to that bastard Qin Yue myself."

"The rain is too heavy."

"Well, it's too big." Pumpkins feel a little cold. The rain came so suddenly that two people were trapped under the eaves in front of the stadium. Xia Feng just pulled the pumpkin aside. Half of his body felt his constant body temperature, which made him feel safe and dependent.

"Little pumpkin, you like Qin Yue very much." Mr. Xia's voice was diluted into a short echo by the rain, but the little pumpkin heard it. She narrowed her eyes, looked up and said foolishly, "huh?" The rain is too loud ... "There is a shadow approaching. Xia Feng's love suddenly expanded. Pumpkin finally saw his eyes under the camera, so gentle that he could drop water.

Breathing is intertwined with breathing, and your lips are the only heat source in the cold wind.

It feels like an affair, although it's not bad at all. Pumpkin took a big step and wiped his mouth with his sleeve. Like a bird that just committed suicide, it wiped its mouth with its wings and fell from heaven to hell. She frowned and said, "How dirty it is. I didn't brush my teeth this morning. "

"Then let me know when you brush your teeth next time." Xia Feng narrowed his eyes and smiled, of course. She remembers watching fat brother and his girlfriend kissing in the Woods in the yard with Qin Yue. After kissing Brother Fat, I am embarrassed to ask, did you eat garlic at noon? Pumpkin looked at Xia Feng in surprise and thought: This guy is really handsome!

I watched the sunset at the seaside, held a pillow and lived a drunken life.

After staying in Qingdao for two weeks, pumpkin dragged his luggage and went straight to the second-rate university in Beijing to report for duty. She waited at the railway station for a long time before Qin called and said, Pumpkin pond, I want to catch up with the second spring for my brother. See you later. In fact, this is not his second spring. His spring is full of flowers and willows.

She bit her lip and gave the conductor a hard look, which made the female conductor who was infatuated with Mr. Xia lie on the tracks with shame. Xia Feng rubbed her head and said, "Pumpkin, I will visit you when I have the chance."

Pumpkin only felt mixed feelings in his chest. He wanted to cry, but he was embarrassed to show it in front of his abandoned wife. So she patted him on the shoulder and said, "Second brother, see you soon." Although she didn't feel sad and was used to Qin Yue's ruthlessness, she couldn't help crying as soon as she got on the bus. She cried all the way from Qingdao to Beijing until she died of a broken heart. When she got off the train, she found 36 missed calls and 24 short messages on her mobile phone, such as feeling the sea breeze blowing from Qingdao.

She squatted at the exit of Beijing West Railway Station, and many ticket sellers came to ask, as if eager to push her to a place where no one knew.

When the pumpkin was held in her arms by a pair of strong arms, her heart stopped beating for a moment. She turned back excitedly, only to see the frightened face of a strange boy and said, I'm sorry, I mistook you for someone else. The boy bowed and apologized, as if afraid that the pumpkin would put him in charge. She squatted back to the ground like a smashed pumpkin, and when she realized that she was going to take the bus, she found that her wallet and collection were gone.

Pumpkin swore that if someone came to save her now, she would commit herself to be a cow and a horse and never leave.

She squatted on the ground pitifully, almost kneeling down to beg for money, only to see a pair of white sneakers in front of her. She remembers climbing up her sneakers and jeans in the same way, only seeing a pair of nervous eyes. He pulled her up and dried the tears on her face.

Xia Feng ordered her to be aggressive and aggressive: "Don't cry, I won't let my girlfriend leave me crying."

Pumpkin was shocked at once. This guy is so handsome! Second brother, you chased all the way for your sister's tears. Although you didn't get half a drop of these tears, you are really a hero. You are Lv Yun, and you have influenced the Millennium Bodhi Tree that I lived for Qin Yue. If I feel sad for a gangster like Qin Yue again, Zhou's name will be written backwards.

Xia Feng accompanied her through the admission formalities, and then booked a hotel near the school. He went back to the hotel to sleep after dinner. Pumpkin stayed in the dormitory for half a day and exchanged a few commonplaces with a group of gossip girls he had just met in the dormitory. He was staring blankly at the window.

Today the weather is fine and the stars are bright, which is suitable for derailment. So, she happily put on a beautiful dress and went to Xia Feng to press the road. It's a long way. While walking, she called Qin Yue. Qin Yue on the other end of the phone asked her, little girl, why don't you sleep? I want my brother to tell you a bedtime story. Pumpkin snorted proudly. I'm busy getting my virginity. Qin Yue gossip said that this unlucky child has not been born yet.

Her mood immediately appeared unexpected trouble, just like the bad sandstorm weather in Beijing. He knows her better than anyone else, and with this understanding, he is so unscrupulous. His search for her is like looking for something, just as natural as eating, drinking and breathing. Naturally, she felt that she was a thousand-year-old bodhi tree planted for Qin Yue.

That night she and Xia Feng were lying in bed in the hotel, and the cold moonlight fell on her face. The moon and windows in Qingdao enjoy the same moonlight curtain, but things have changed. Zhou Xiaonan held the pillow tightly, listening to her breathing in the second spring, and slowly settled down.

F, you can't swim out of memories, but you can't let go of learning.

I heard that Qin Yue lived with his fifth girlfriend, and he moved out of the house he shared with Xia Feng. He said arrogantly in the short message that I want to be an unmarried young man who enjoys married treatment. He thought pumpkin would reply to ten short messages calling him shameless. Jumping up and down for a long time only received four simple words: I wish you happiness.

This is more official than thanking CCTV and MTV. Qin Yue wanted to call her and ask her if she had a fever, but she was hung up several times. He thought Sister Pumpkin was in class or doing something else, but soon he found that Sister Pumpkin seemed to have disappeared from his life. Just like the fairy tale that pumpkin likes, the mermaid princess can't get the love of the prince and becomes a bubble.

He heard that pumpkin fell in love with Xia Feng, Xia Feng was promoted from second brother to big brother, and pumpkin grew hair.

These are all heard.

Later, when he called Zhou Xiaonan, it was no longer a girl yelling at Qin Yue. You were shameless or an older brother and aunt. But a strange woman told him, sorry, the number you dialed does not exist, please check it and dial again.

Later, he didn't hear from pumpkin for a long time, and he didn't have a chance to report his relationship with Erchun and Sanchun. It was not until he returned to Wuhan during the holiday and walked through the street where he went to school with pumpkins that he remembered that the girl had sarcastically said countless times that when I became mayor, I would tear down all the broken brands in Wuhan street. The girl proudly pointed to the Yangtze River and said, Look, you see that I am like the water of the Yangtze River.

He thought he had forgotten all this, but when he returned to their city, all his memories came back.

Xiao Nangua said that men who have never experienced women are not men. Xiao Nangua said that the man she likes should be mature and steady, not jumping up and down like a monkey. The pumpkin said, I hate this stove in Wuhan. I want to go to the seaside in the north.

Qin Yue crouched in front of the small melon house. He knows that the pumpkin is on holiday. The first thing she does every morning is to go downstairs and get a newspaper in the mailbox. He sat downstairs all night and smoked two whole packs of cigarettes. When the pumpkin went downstairs, he saw a cigarette butt and Qin Yue's smiling face. He said, "pumpkin, what are you missing?" You think you can outrun monks and temples. "

The pumpkin got a fright. Her eyes were in a trance for a long time, and then she said, "Qin Yue, when did you come back?"

"Two weeks ago." He was suddenly at a loss. "Why didn't you tell me when you changed the number?"

"Nothing." Pumpkin looked at his changed face. "Xia Feng and I are together again. He came home with me, right in bed. "

Qin Yue leans in the corridor. Occasionally, an old man and a woman who do morning exercises pass by the Loudaokou. He doesn't know what to say. He wanted to smoke a cigarette, but he could only pick up a cigarette butt from the ground. The pumpkin looked at him and said nothing, but Qin Yue suddenly smiled: "I know you are with Xia Feng, but I want to ask a question."

"Don't worry, he is very kind to me." Pumpkin smiles without leaking. "Thank you for your concern."

"That's not what I asked." Qin Yue stepped forward and looked into the pumpkin's face and eyes: "Why not me? I have always thought that what we need is time. "

Pumpkin really wants to ask him how much time you need. I haven't been with you long enough. I turned down the pursuit of other boys. I tell you, brother and brother are a match made in heaven. I also tell you that I hate your ruined girlfriends.

You can't even see it.

You pretended not to see it.

Some people say that invisible love is the best, invisible scenery is the most beautiful, and invisible life is the most worth looking forward to. Qin Yue, I always said that you are an animal if you get your hands on so many girls, but you can't get your hands on me. I call you an animal in my heart. But now I am very grateful to you for leaving this beautiful me to Xia Feng.

The little pumpkin's tears finally didn't fall. She said, second brother, thank you for pushing me to Xia Feng.

G, silence is my last tenderness, because I love you so much.

Pumpkin thinks it's a little early to get married at twenty-four. A suitor like her can be sent from Wuhan to the United States. One is in Wuhan and the other is in America. Mom said that she seems to have always been a little girl, which makes people worry. It is better to get married without worrying about staying. So she resigned and went to Xia Feng to get a marriage certificate, and cleared the things in the boudoir that had lived for more than 20 years to the man's house that would accompany her for a lifetime.

The pile under the bed is full of high school books, schoolmates, lyric books, stickers and CDs. She regards these things as treasures, with a thick layer of dust on them.

Pumpkin sitting on the ground seems to be recalling all the youth bit by bit. The tin box filled with chocolates is full of letters written with pen pals. She is waiting to burn these dispensable things, and the handwriting on the cover in the corner of her eyes is like being brushed by a nib.

She knows Qin Yue's handwriting, because no one writes as ugly as him.

There are no letters from pen pals in this box. They are all letters from Qin Yue. She didn't remember writing to Qin Yue, so her fingers trembled with surprise. Mother came into the room to help her clean. When she saw the box that the pumpkin was holding, she explained that these were the letters that Qin Yue wrote to you in the third year of high school. I think I'm afraid it will affect your study, so I put them away for you.

She went to senior three, and Qin Yue just went to college. The pumpkin was as surprised as dozens of grams of atomic bombs exploding in his head. She remembered that Qin Yue said that she had written to her. She waited for a long time and didn't wait. She decided that it was a white lie, so she was sad for a long time.

Pumpkin, don't waste your time answering letters. I will write to you. Don't think about anything, just study hard, I'll wait for you here.

Pumpkin, I'm a little embarrassed to say that I have always liked you. I can't wait for your graduation. I miss you very much. You sent me to the train that day, and I almost cried, so I will definitely not send you to the train, and I will definitely cry. Yeah, I'm such a loser. You're going to say you don't like worthless men again, cut.

Pumpkin, I know we need time. I won't mention it again. You know I will wait for you.

Pumpkin, you really don't care? I told you in my last letter that I don't actually have a girlfriend. My roommate said that a girl would be jealous if she cared about you, so I lied. I am not mature enough. I can't be that person. Forget it, I'll give you time and never mention it again.

If time can go back to four years ago, even if it is only one hour, she is willing to exchange it with her whole life. The pumpkin cried her eyes out. She remembered Qin Yue's eyes downstairs four years ago. Why not me?

He, like her, had insomnia for love that was within reach but out of reach.

If Qin Yue is brave.

If pumpkins are brave.

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